emil1234

i've always felt extremely connected to nature, i fucking love trees and forests etc. the first time i did LSD i literally had the secret of life transfered through an interaction with a tree. lol. it happens every time i trip in nature. when i touch the trees and bushes, i can literally feel their life energy and shit. its literally alive furthermore i find that meditating in nature enhances my sessions significantly however none of my friends seem to experience the same level of interaction with nature, with or without psychedelics

salvia is one psychedelic ill never try

hahahha being no one is the most liberating thing ever. when u realize noself:

@FourCrossedWands i will say yea you get used to it, but that doesnt invaldiate the effects at all. an alcoholic gets used to feeling like shit, that doesnt mean you should become an alcoholic if your body and mind functions more optimally your life will always turn out the most optimal

i love it. i did 165 days of nofap last year. however i had sex 3 times during that time. and wet dreams are unavoidable imo. but overall; an reduced dopamine addiction. not just in terms of the need to fap / watch porn, i also find it easier to stay off junk food and unhealthy shit, easier to stay off my phone, social media etc. A drastic increase in my energy levels overall incredible feeling of well being in my body. its like the cells in my body are cheering and dancing. more confidence, easier to approach girls i dont know what it is, but eye contact seems so much stronger as well. nowadays i do nofap as much as possible. however i find that when i drink alcohol, i always end up fapping if i dont get laid lol. so alcohol is the killer for me, it makes me screw all my good habits

ive been researching this quite thoroughly lately, since it presents a contradiction to my current views of reality. all of my mystical experiences have been pointing towards Brahman, and ive even experienced a telepathic interaction through the universal consciousness, so from personal experience i am more or less convinced of the existence of brahman / universal consciousness. however buddhists claim to go the notch further, that brahman is NOT the ultimate realization, thats its possible to transcend it, and in doing so realizing the untruth of brahman Now I know that original buddhism did NOT teach any negation of the soul, and the later scripts of buddhism such as theravada (which do actively deny the existence of an eternal soul) are based on apperant faulty interpretation of the original scriptures. however i cannot easily dismiss this, since people like frank yang and daniel ingram claim that it is possible to actually transcend the universal consciousness. what are your thoughts on this? philosophically the theravadian / ingram / frank yang metaphysics sound like near nonsense to me, however they claim that the realization of "No-Self" or anatman is deeper than god realization / brahman. i recently saw leo commenting on this, claiming that ascribing "levels" to realizations above infinity is nonsense, since infinity by definition has to include everything, which i think makes good sense

this resonates a lot. i contemplated the other day, and i realized the phrase "I am god" is not actually correct. god is simply what is. it doesnt need an owner

@Inliytened1 yea that sounds powerful, i cant speak of solipsistic awakenings to that degree. did the feeling of aloneness stick, or was it more like a temporary state due to the shock? personally ive had several experiences of oneness, however not solipsistic oneness on psychedelics. More the "we're all connected" type of oneness. it has always felt like a much deeper connection to other people to me. i've never had the feeling of aloneness that people talk about, only during my contemplation work as a result of my conditioned thoughts

@OBEler this was actually one of my only sober awakenings, however arguably also one of the most profound. i will definetely say that pre awakening, contemplating solipsism definetely felt like total aloneness. My view is that solipsism is not at all a bad thing in itself. notice that for solipsism to be bad, you first have to attribute negative thoughts to it. it only gets bad when the ego decides it doesnt like to be alone. it doesnt have any inherent negative qualities, other than the ones we attribute it. if it were inherently bad, it would be inherently bad even before you realized it

i have to disagree. i spend months contemplating and fearing the possibility of solipsism, however when i had an actual awakening to solipsism, it wasnt ugly AT ALL. i literally wandered around in the middle of my city crying, knowing that I was everyone. it was so damn beautiful. i never felt so connected to people before in my life. now of course awakening experiences can differ, and the way you interprate them definetely also can differ. but from my perspective, the actual awakening to solipsism completely obliterated all my fears around it, and i konw that whenever i have negative thoughts about solipsism, the thoughts are not at all an accurate representation of solipsism. now whether solipsism is an objective truth or not, i cannot say. i have far from completed my work, but i can say that my awakening to solipsism were one of the most beautiful things ive experienced, and the thoughts i had had about it were completely wrong.

@BipolarGrowth i was looking through my profile and noticed i never got around to answering ur question. i found this guy on yt, he made a whole series about the matter of anatman in original buddhism. seems to really know his stuff. in regards to the question of cessation; i don't think it necessarily contradicts consciousness as an absolute. if consciousness really is unlimited potential, it shouldn't limited by our default definition or even understanding of consciousness as an AWARE PRESENCE, or the "ground of experience". its simply pure potentiality, and thus it has to include "non-existence". another argument is that of an infinite scale. if you can scale consciousness up infinitely, which can be done experientially through for example 5 meo dmt or deep meditation, then it would be weird if it were not able to scale down infinitely as well. but yea there are many ways to look at this subject

@Princess Arabia well you can achieve states of consciousness, where there is nothing but consciousness. pure awareness. so i guess that implies that awareness/consciousness needs nothing to be conscious of except consciousness itself

@Schizophonia its just a pretty standard breathing excercise, which is healthy for your blood circulation. it also has potential health benefits in regards to anxiety, stress, etc. done intensely it can also induce altered states of consciousness @Yimpa yea im almost 100% sure thats how i got mine. its not uncommon for the practice to induce temporary tinnitus, which happened to me every time i did the breathing. however it would usually go away after a couple of minutes

ive had tinnitus for the past 2,5 years ish. im pretty sure what triggered it was overdoing the wim hof breathing method. at least it started pretty soon after i started practicing the wim hof breathing method, and ive read online that others got themselves tinnitus through his method as well. apperantly its not uncommon id say generally from 1-10 its probably a 3-4. id very much like that cure lol

im interested in hearing your stories or your arguments. personally i see absolutley no reason why the nature of mind should not be the nature of reality. materialistically we have 0 idea why the universe exists or how it came to be. from the perspective of the mind its possible to achieve nearly complete understanding of the universe. furthermore, literally 0 evidence from the purposed "external world" goes against the findings of the nature of the mind, quite on the contrary, the newest findings such as quantum mechanics seemingly support the nature of the mind as the nature of reality. If there actually WERE an external world completely independent of the mind, there would be nothing keeping it from contradicting the nature of the mind, but this is not the case. the "external world" and the findings of the mind synergise and allign perfectly, with 0 contradictions. this i think is a good argument You could say the mind would be capable of constructing a compatible and believe, yet still false theory of itself / reality working with the information it would have accumulated through sensory input from the "external world" thus far. however new information that is unknown to the mind should still be able to contradict this mind theory, and this has not yet been the case. the nature of the mind has remained the same for the past 3000 years, and scientific discoveries have yet to contradict the nature of the mind, again on the contrary, scientific discoveries support the nature of mind

"And the search for the end of seeking begins anew" nice quote haha, ty for sharing. enjoyed the read, resonated a lot

@Someone here thats very true. life is indeed such a marvelous miracelous gem

@Someone here yea i agree. i merely meant that materialism has so verrry damn little knowledge about the universe, and the mind seems to have it all answered

@Hojo yes this is basically my understanding as well. however i think some buddhists would disagree with this, which puzzles me

@Javfly33 i simply meant that its nonsense to say that a realization can be "higher" or deeper, at a higher lvl than brahman or god / infinity, because infinity has to include everything, including all levels which could be said to be deeper or higher, which is what some buddhists talk about

@Razard86 lol what the fuck, this guy is legendary

now dont get me wrong; locally theres a lot of bullshit. im chronically constipated and my asshole is itchy. there are wars and bullshit. but disidentify from what u label as good and bad, and see the objective miracelous harmony of the universe. the universe truly shouldnt be, but it is. and whether or not you believe in god, you cannot deny that we are in eternity right now, and eternity is all there is. this moment is proof that existence/eternity equals experience. fuck i love life. i cant believe i exist. its. so. fucking. epic. every moment is too good to be true, its such a fucking gift embrace the miracle and dont hold anything back, express the miracle u are. this was a bit of a rant but i felt like sharing

@Leo Gura whats your thought on meditation/practices leading to different states of consciousness? such as the buddhist No-Self route vs the hindu big Self route? it seems the buddhist claim to go "further" than the hindus, in the sense that they disidentify from the big Self, or Brahman, and thats sort of the end of the route for the buddhist practicioner. However the hindu way seems way more alligned with your teachings, in the sense that the hindu aim for Brahman, the big Self, and then they deepen their relationship with the big self, which seemingly can go on to infinity. I think the hindu method might be more alligned with what you refer to as "high consciousness", where as the buddhists are more focused on ending suffering through negation of all identifications. the term mahasamahdi i believe is when someone approaches what u describe as near formless total infinity. notice that this a hindu term, and not really spoken of within buddhism

check out this one too. dude literally descripes yogic himalayan experimentation with intentional temporary physical death experiences lasting up to 15 minutes.

so ive been doing consciousness work for the better part of 3 years, and have had multiple awakenings so far, but recently had my most intense sober awakening, to that of immortality. for a long time i've been consumed with the question death, existence and non-existence. and then it was crystal clear. it wasnt intellectual, it wasnt a thought, it wasnt in reference to any previous experience, or any quote or teaching by spiritual masters. it was just a "knowing". a very distinct knowing, i looked at my hand, and i broke out in laughter, laughing for 30 minutes straight at my own fear of death. i spent so much time worrying about non existence and death. and it was so hilarious that i'd been so ignorant . it was so clear to me. Of course I'm eternal lol, eternity is simply what is. existence / experience is simply the apperance of eternity. we are in eternity right now, how could it be any different? eternity is the case before, during and after human life. there is no difference