Martin123

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  1. @DimmedBulb Been there done that. Literally everything you are saying is coming out of your "painbody", "shadow-self", "suppressed-emotional trauma", "hurt ego",.... whatever you call it man. I really feel for you, but you really need a kick to get through this. Realize that all these codependent thoughts you have, are nothing but old pain wanting resolution.
  2. @Aamir King There are no "things" in reality. Reality is just one big blurry field, where energy is distributed. From one way of looking at it (I would call that our perspective), energy is distributed unevenly, where there is higher concentration of energy, there are things you perceive as solid. Where there is lower concentration of energy, you feel like it is empty space or just air. Now, "enlightenment items", does sound ridiculous doesn't it? =D "Nothing in this room means anything." - our good ol pal Eckie Tolie. There is no value in anything. Everything is completely pointless and purposeless. And that is the most beautiful pointlessness you can't imagine.
  3. @DimmedBulb Very far from a life purpose imo. Life purpose is a way of being, it isn't a "job". Even more so, it is not dependent on others. edit: Harsh truth about these kinds of relationships: What you see in here is your shadow working your mind. Get rid of your shadow, and you will realize the misery you'd be creating. Also, from a place of your shadow, you probably won't be making a big difference in her life, and one of you will get bored of the other one. You literally gotta suffer your way out of this through inner work on your suppressed emotions (shadow self). Meditate, meditate, meditate. And when you feel like giving up, meditate some more.
  4. @Leo Gura Yes that has been obvious for quite a long time to me, however I meant the right brain, left hand correlation! :-)
  5. @Leo Gura Can there be a correlation that in the past my left hand used to shake, and with spiritual purification, it literally calmed down to 20% of its former power?
  6. Heyy. How do you go about this? There are points where it heavily affects my personal life. I tried not meditating for a week, and that didn't seem to do the trick. The only thing that seemed to have at least a tiny impact was exercise. How do you guys go about it?
  7. @Live Life Liam Thanks, I prolly wont tho its not my style =D.
  8. Im just gonna chip in, I haven't read the whole topic, sorry. After I had a deep meditation realization of unconditional love, I kind of realized I can't continue being a meat-eater. It feels like I eat ashes when I do eat meat. ` So Im gonna finish up what I got in my freezer, and then go vegetarian, and prolly slowly transition to vegan. I don't think there is a right or wrong diet. Whatever you are ready for, you shall pursue.
  9. @Live Life Liam I don't think tho it was neccessary to take down the video. Haha, The thing is, most people on their self-actualizing journey will be fucking around with gratitude anyway, so might as well keep it there. Even Leo has a gratitude video. It brings more people to your channel! I sense a grain of perfectionism, or am I wrong?
  10. @Live Life Liam Yo what's up. Cool idea this gratitude. Won't work tho. Even the way you phrase it. "You SHOULD be grateful." Gratitude is a beautiful beautiful thing, but unless it comes naturally to you it cannot be forced. Gratitude, as a practice, can have some benefits, but rather short term. From What I have found is that gratitude comes naturally when you reach a higher state of consciousness. It cannot be forced. You just can't walk up to a bum on a street who is losing himself in vodka and go like "yo man! Gratitude, wink wink, you're not gonna live forever." It can feel nice, when you sink yourself into a mood of gratitude and name out all the things you are grateful for. Definitely. For a couple of hours. Aaand then you back to your old negativity. Exercising gratitude can give you a good taste what it could be like when you do a lot of inner work, but in the end, within of itself it will be just a quickfix. Peace <3.
  11. Ever since I had my experience during SDS, having a peak at unconditional love, I feel very unmotivated. I feel that it changed something in me. Everything seems much more blissful and loving. But I have been feeling extremely lazy lately. As well as very comfortable. I guess it has to do with my motivation coming out of a place of lack in the past. Is this just a phase that's gonna pass?
  12. @Leo Gura @Bob84 Thank you both.
  13. Heyyy <3. So This was my I think around 3rd of 4th attempt of SDS. I did 60minutes. It was difficult at first, salvia was filling up my mouth as I was attempting not to swallow. Anywho, around 20 minutes into the experience, I started having this strong feeling of love. Prior to that, I was imagining myself as being empty flowing space in which everything was happening. And then I felt it. I felt suddenly unconditional love for everything. Absolutely everything. The nature, sky, terrorism, pain, unjustice.. Trumpland, politics, earth, space, aliens, life... And after a while I realised my own smallness and at the same time my limitlessness. I realised that me, my ego, was just this little tiny teeny molecule in an ocean of infinity. And everyone else as well. At the same time I realized that there is this huge presence, or awareness underneath everything. And I started crying of gratitude for existence. At the end of the session, I returned to my little self, I Am still shaking, and my shirt is soaked with salvia. =D Have a good day.
  14. Update. I have been getting tears of joy for the nature of reality ever since. I feel like I opened my potential for love.
  15. @Leo Gura Haha The first 3 times I did, but idk... feels like I got a boost out of that. It is another layer of "torture".
  16. @Joel3102 Umm... Well if it keeps you going great. I don't feel like it keeps me going. I don't have a goal of enlightenment or so. I just kind of go with the flow. I have no clue what is happening or what is going to happen. It seems all like a funny game of hide and seek, and I am just laughing along the way.
  17. @Azrael Self-love does seem to play a huge role in the process. Thanks for the reminder. I will check out those names. edit: Do have to say though, enlightenment has never been my goal, never thought about seeking it. That changed 20 minutes ago when I had a huge altered-state of consciousness experience.

  18. Self Manipulation Necessarily Bad?

    Martin123 replied to Sprinkles's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    @Sprinkles This will lead to surpression and will probably have a massive backlash in the long-run. (Been there, done that =D) If you deny negative emotion by "thinking positively", the emotion won't run its course, and won't leave your system, it will become a part of your surpressed emotional body. Same with thought patterns. If they get denied, they get stuck in the subconscious (along with the emotions, thoughts and emotions are working basically in a circle, one causes the other, and the other way around.)

  19. Deep Subconscious Trauma

    Martin123 replied to Christian's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    @GTITurbolover Feel like there is just a clash of having a more compassionate approach, and being hard on one-self. Both can work, depending on the situation, I just gravitate towards compassion.

  20. Deep Subconscious Trauma

    Martin123 replied to Christian's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    @Christian Hey man! Been there, done that. Realise that it is those traumas that are holding back your potential, and are the things that are standing between you and your authentic self. It is only when you accept them without judgement, you can let go of them. That means you've got some emotional labour in front of you. And you have every right to be angry. But don't cling to that anger, just let it flow freely. If you wanna cry, just cry it out, if you wanna smash things... well idk be careful with that. Point is, it is okay to "feel like the victim". Because tbh you were. You were a victim, being that little helpless child. So if you wanna get through this, it will involve some victimhood feelings, that are coming up from your subconscious. I like to compare this (when you are reliving past traumas) as "Listening to stories that your ego had to tell for a long time, but you never listened in the past, only now you are forced." You can try to stop it telling your stories by resistance, but it will only make it worse. Just... allow, and watch the magic happen! :-)
  21. @Huz Also notice, that it is not necessary to completely ditch all culture. There are ways to do it. Yes, of course you can say "eeeeh fuck it... I will just go meditate in a cave for 30 years and fuck everyone and everything Im going into isolation" (nothing wrong with this, totally legit!) But another way would be.. "I will go, and I will totally enjoy all the pleasures and nice things my culture and my society has to offer, I will get an amazing wife, great kids, run an amazing business, have a wonderful career that is approved by my culture, drive amazing cars, have amazing friends and live an amazing life in the eyes of my culture." - You can still do this shit, and still be transcending culture. You just have to be conscious that whenever you do these "cultural" things, you are playing this game of pretend. My personal view is that Leo is kind of moving in the direction of ditching culture and going on his own, since he did mention that he is naturally introverted, but I might be just crazy wrong.
  22. @Huz Nobody forbids you not to merge yourself with culture. There is nothing "wrong" with the culture. The problems come when you start attaching yourself to it. I have always kind of laughed at people who were saying shit like "I AM PROUD TO BE AMERICAN". How the fuck can you be proud of being born in a certain area of the world? What exactly are you proud of? Coming from a vagina in a specific place? What? =D That always seemed funny to me. There is nothing wrong with being American, but creating your ego around it, there comes the problem. There is nothing wrong with uni, but when you attach uni to your ego, it creates a problem.
  23. Hiya! Some time ago when I found actualized.org, it did not take me long to buy the Life purpose course. I found my life purpose in psychology, counseling, coaching and psycho-therapy. Basically helping guide other people and dig into their psyches so to speak. And something has been on my mind for a very long time. I have started studying psychology and counseling on a uni this year, and with that came a huge shattering of my illusions of how actually therapists and counsellors think. It is very diverse, but many of them just go in the kind of "hopeless" direction of "if you're unhappy, here, take these pills, wink wink, maybe if you're lucky, they will work. The opinions on things like depression and anxiety and these kind of common mental problems vary, but again one of the poles that scares me is the "coping" approach. Which is basically CBT if not combined with deeper introspection. It is a development of coping strategies. Rarely it is spoken about curing, rather than coping and managing the conditions. And I have come into a conclusion, that self-actualization is almost mandatory, in order to be an effective counsellor/therapist/coach.... Only then can we offer warm and loving relationships to our clients, be constructive, very solution oriented and loving at the same time. With the deep understanding of ourselves we gain better understanding of problems of others. The counsellors and therapists should be pioneers of self-actualization, to connect more with our emotions and bring about more emotional awareness in our society. However... not many counsellors are walking in this direction. They... cope :(. Thoughts on this?
  24. @Live Life Liam Dundee
  25. @Live Life Liam I am a freshman in an undergrad psychology and counselling course. (Actually in Scotland! hehe, although I am Czech). I went for uni because first of all: Vast majority of all we learn is very relevant. Also it gives me a good idea what the current system is, and where the major pitfalls are. Another reason is, that past 3-4 months, I was going through a period I wouldn´t be afraid to call a dark night of the soul, and 4 years at a university gives me an amaying breather, to work out my emotional body and negative patterns, find my authentic self, and then dive deep into the world of counselling. I GOT A PLAN YALL, CHECK ME OUT, AREN´T I A STRATEGIC MOTHERFUCKER? =D. What are other routes of becoming a counsellor? I haven´t really spoted any, would you enlighten me pls?