Adrian colby

😉🤗. May the endless exploration of consciousness lead to new heights of confusion and insanity and all of it is ok no matter how mad it gets. Jump in. We can always rest ourselves back at the still point before the next round. And ‘I’ love all my other angles of perception even though ‘this one’ cannot see them directly, they are the eyes through which I come to know all things 🤗

Go through the enquiry to first distinguish itself against something that it is not. It is an endless exploration till that side of infinity is realised and the inquiry ceases and goes silent. All seeking while in the form of character has to begin with the dialectic till it is realised as a fruitless exercise. One must go through the exercise to learn. If it is in essence nothing with no boundary, it can only ‘be’ but cannot know. If it creates itself into a mind or some order or ability to know things in other words consciousness, it can simulate an infinity of attributes or ‘somethings’. To know itself as something rather than nothing but at its core it is always absolute and nothing. In consciousness it’s always moving, in awareness it stops and concentrates back into a singularity.

Absolutely. And I recognise that experience.

I agree. when I stopped trying to conform to the societal expectations of what a man is supposed to be and just started being myself with confidence, my wife said I was more of a man then anyone she’d been with in the past. To be honest I don’t think it’s the being a man rather it was just being an authentic conscious experience without trying to ‘pigeon hole’ it into a rigid label. If I have ever done anything to ‘try’ to conform to the societal standards of what a man is, It has been toxic and detrimental to my experience.

Yes. It’s just something I noticed when I embarked on this journey. I wasn’t following anyone or reading anything when I tried to figure out a way how to discern what was true and ended up having a spontaneous mystical experience where the whole of reality dissolved and there was nothing left except a dim awareness… which was nothing, nowhere, no time etc. shot back into reality in shock as an atheistic science fanboy having stared infinity in the face recognising it as god and me simultaneously and freaking out. I Tried to figure out what happened and came across an actualised video talking about neti neti meditation that sounded like what I had just done. I took it further by getting comfortable then with psychedelics and discovered the consciousness part during my first ever cannabis ceremony. The facilitator said I was the first person he ever had collapse unconscious but for me it was straight back to the infinity ‘non’ space of dim awareness and I became the thing I was trying to understand. I had to pull myself from that awareness and focus myself into a mind ( some form of mental mechanism with an order to it) but it itself was also infinite. An infinity pulled from infinity almost like two sides of a mirror. One infinity or darkness, nothingness, awareness looking out and the other infinity a mind projecting mental forms, dreams, imaginings reflecting back at itself to discover itself as something as opposed to nothing. I had to focus my mind, consciousness and create structured forms and narratives to recreate the reality I just dissolved or I was not getting back in there. I essentially imagined myself back into a human and became aware of how I was doing it. I became aware of how god imagines things into being including ideas, thoughts, coherent thoughts and linear thoughts to perceive linear moments or ordered time. I was creating it as I was focusing it with thoughts. To hold it within my consciousness I had to believe it was real. I had to deceive myself into believing I was a human and forgetting what I really was and suddenly remembered how I got into this mess 🤦‍♂️. I did it to myself. that’s where I understand Leo’s description of infinite consciousness or the exploration of the mind of god that on the reflective side of the mirror (symbolic description) there is an endless exploration of consciousness, forms, realms, realities, states of consciousness etc etc which is what you get if you go beyond bog standard awakening or enlightenment ( taking that to mean the discovery of the infinite nothing void that is the truest fundamental). coming back a little bit within that awareness void is where consciousness resides. Having become familiar with the placebo tool belief, I’ve been able to shift realities at night while going down into subconscious states so I can explore. strangely I find it easier to explore consciousness this way than with psychedelics. Psychedelics dissolve me too much and bring me to abstract realms where all the exploration and understanding is imageless and formless. I prefer being able to construct ordered realities so I can explore them. I do go into psychedelic like spaces from time to time including 5MeO space but it’s rare and I do psychedelics when I find myself getting rigidly attached to beliefs about this world just to release myself again. it’s wonderful but no one around here ( where I live or even the integration groups from the ceremonies) really understands. This forum helps as there are those who have experienced that and I recognise the same experiences even if they are described differently. so yeah I’m a perception within consciousness and all narratives consciousness conjures up about its forms or existence on this side of the mirror are a way of justifying their existence as real, dissecting them and creating ever deeper stories about them is consciousness expanding itself out, separating itself into more and more ‘things’, decentrating itself…another deception because consciousness itself is still an occurrence within awareness. To get back to awareness it concentrates back to single pointedness or singularity. shit!….. sorry im just after having a small god realisation sitting here. It comes and goes 🤣

Consciousness is the other side of awareness that knows things. Con ‘with’ science ‘knowing’. It forms itself within awareness. Awareness is the ‘nothing’ within which all consciousness ‘something’ takes place. awareness is the absolute and consciousness is god, The mind that formed itself within its own awareness.

Of course… in theory. But that’s far from the case when I do it. 🤣. Possibly the liberty caps are very potent this year. A friend went looking too early and only found 3. Instead of wasting them he shoved them in his gob and ended up sitting in the car for several hours unable to leave. Said it was like 3g cubensis.

My body displays symptoms of anxiety prior to a trip but that’s usually because when I travel using shrooms, they are few and far between. It is the ego that is afraid of dissolving but once it’s done I always facepalm having forgotten how beautiful it is on the other side. I can journey into the mind space with or without a substance so taking less ( what I tried to do last time) didn’t exactly reduce the intensity of the experience. Like you were saying I normally go with 2g or just under. This time I was given 0.8g….. still ended up in white light or god mind space although what that trip taught me was to be more aware of even my most subtle beliefs. I believed I had a blockage preventing me from journeying because I could feel the anxiety or tension in the pit of my stomach. The blockage turned out to be a ‘belief’, the belief there was such a thing as a blockage. It was merely tension being caused by a resistance to just feeling and going with the flow. Insight can come easily in a flow state. Not trying to achieve anything but just being and observing. Once I opened up I was able to master my mind and go into any space I set an intention to go into so… white light. From there I ‘create’ the scenario or thing I am contemplating and understand it’s mechanism from being its creator. You can face your fear and accept whatever happens happens and deal with it in the moment. Like a cold shower. Don’t think about it and create resistance and anxiety… get in there and deal with it when you’re in there. Feel it, recontextualise the experience. Study it as opposed to reacting. start with microdose and work your way up to what is a comfortable space for your mind. If it helps you be at ease then always have someone sitting with you ( but not interfering) to look after your body.

Confidence. Self assuredness( not arrogance) . When I got to a point where I didn’t need anything to satisfy myself, my wife described this as truly masculine, mature and attractive. prior to that I had been struggling with why she didn’t want to sleep with me. I was projecting my own inadequacy onto her and blaming her, assuming the fault was with her when it was me. I took responsibility for everything and became unconditional. I was not just a man I was just as I am and accepting and not needing anything. A great deal of strength, confidence and mental peace came with that and she was all over me like a rash. I became ok with the times she didn’t want my attention and I just accepted that instead of doing what I had done in the past ( questioning, blaming, assuming there was something g wrong with her, assuming there was something wrong with me and generally acting like a snivelling little boy… nothing could be less attractive and demasculating). so I would say confidence, self assuredness and contentment. if you want to go new agey that’s a strong yet relaxed feeling in the solar plexus or pit of the stomach. women tend to suffer an imbalance in this centre too. Everyone needs a balance of their masculine and femanine. So in that sense I would call masculine ‘confidence’

You missed the point. I’m referring to the behavior of complaining about unfair advantage caused by ‘different’ anatomy. Remove the labels of sex, race etc you’re still participating in cognitive dissonance when someone argues pelvic structure and glutes as an unfair advantage and then mentions pelvic and glute structure in certain races giving unfair advantage…. If the argument is stopping people from participating due to ‘unfair advantage’, then…… I understand the problem from the point of view of trying to create competition within a defined category outside of which there is very clearly differentiation but this becomes problematic when reality slaps you in the face and shows it’s spectral nature. There are no sudden and clear lines, everything is gradiated. a woman is a conceptual expression and expectation of behaviour, role and ability that is justified by its underlying biology but the underlying biology is a complex system that can appear both inside and outside a defined range of acceptance. Keep in mind it is being defined by humanity when its knowledge is imperfect and often based on assumptions. so far the study of people claiming and expressing as women but having male biological underpinnings have also been found to have female biological underpinnings so we’re looking at a biological system that contains both male and female attributes. The body itself has a neutral point beyond which it developes dimorphically. If it is kept in that neutral point and chemically developed into the sex that person is expressing, then it will physically take on that range. With strict guidelines in place about those ranges and a trans woman who meets that criteria, there is nothing to argue her being stopped in participating in a women’s sport. just to put it in some further context. Women have testosterone in their system. This is normal. Their bodies convert more of it over two days as a part of the progesterone\eostrogen\testosterone cycle. If they identify those days and utilise it to develope their bodies over time, they can come out in a muscle range closer to males using a male hormones. is it male? We all claim it is specifically male but it’s not. It’s part of a natural female cycle. men and women ( expressions) as defined and shoehorned into rigid categories by us, contain biological attributes of both male and female and every persons makeup is different from the next. Some people’s systems contain more congruent female attributes over their own male attributes where others may contain a more mixed set of attributes. I can only discern from the continued argument from the superficial labelling of only men and women, that allot of people simply haven’t bothered to look into how complex human sexual biology is. I stated it before and I’ll say it again. Our understanding of sexual biology is based on traditional assumptions but the more we study it, the more we find out it is not what we thought. When you deal with the diversity of reality you have to keep in the back of your mind that we may be wrong about allot of things we think we’re confident about

Fertility ( reproductive health) is not the same thing as choosing to or not to have children. western and less developed countries have very different lifestyles, nutrition, sanitation and environmental exposures.

Fertility and contraception are not the same thing. Fertility is about the health of their reproductive system not whether they have a baby or not. if you test a man in his prime from a ‘western’ developed country now days, it’s likely you will find his fertility ( sperm count and vitality) is greatly diminished in comparison to the average western fertility in the last ten years. Whether he has sex or produces a baby as a result has nothing to do with it. If he were never to have sex again… his fertility status would still show decreased fertility. If you test a man in his prime from a third world or underdeveloped country you will find his fertility is just as healthy in comparison to his ten year average and healthier and more fertile then a man in the west. If he has sex or no sex doesn’t change that. western or developed populations live increasingly sedentary lifestyles, over indulge in highly processed foods and exposed to chemicals, heavy metals, energy pollution, over sanitation, over medication, immune suppression and stress/constant cortisone release all of which contribute to a decline in overall health including fertility. chemicals in plastic products are known to cause hormonal problems that lead to infertility and we are literally swimming in and drinking it everyday. people in underdeveloped or third world countries do not have these problems. While they deal with issues surrounding poor sanitation, access to food, they tend to be healthier immunologically and more fertile. there is a balance between indulgence and starvation, sanitary and unsanitary, natural and unnatural environments that we need to understand in order to keep these bodies healthy. They have the ability to adapt quite well within a dynamic range but too far out of that balance our bio stasis becomes disordered and diseased. one such thing to consider is what happened in Africa during covid. Despite having no access to vaccines, poor sanitation and exposure to many germs and viruses, village life returned to normal in early 2022 according to doctors on the ground also reporting rapid decline in hospitalisations after the first omicron case in November 2021. Because it was less pathogenic and spread so fast, it boosted their immune systems causing widespread cross immunity to other variants alongside continued exposure to germs in general, gave them stronger immune systems and the ability to return to normal faster than western countries. It’s not too much of a stretch to understand living in conditions that are closer to a natural balance and environment means they are healthier overall. It’s hard for a westerner to come to terms with that seeing as we are constantly bombarded by media coverage of the worst of the worst. We are also taught that the way we live is healthier but overall, the evidence doesn’t support that. they are not lazing around having sex due to lack of other interests. That is an incredibly ignorant comment. In a place that is still tribal or does not have an ordered society or respectful attitude towards women in general, rape tends to be the reason there are so many babies ( most of which die, malnutrition, aids, cholera etc).

So we should ban ‘black’ women from female sports? Since when is a white woman the definition of all females. Would it not then be the case that a black womans pelvis falls into the range of a male in comparison to a white woman and considered a: an unfair advantage and b: not female. If a black womans anatomical structure differs from a white womans anatomical structure giving an unfair advantage are we not making the same argument using different labels? If that’s the case then we should also be arguing that black women cannot compete in white womens sports… that’s a slippery slope back into segregation. most trans now days are on blockers or HRT during or prior to puberty so their bone structure is going to be closer to female than anything else because it hasn’t had the opportunity to develop in a masculine direction. the opposite case would also have to be made with trans men competing in men’s sports if they were at an unfair disadvantage because of pelvis shape but I know from personal experience that is not true. Regardless of exposure to female hormones at puberty, my bone structure is in the male range. I’ve had multiple X-rays and dexa scans done while monitoring my bone density. It is common that trans can suffer bone density decline so must be monitored. I surprised my clinical team by developing increased density and skeletal structure within the male range. They were not expecting that but then again, at the time, most of their patients were old. I was the youngest in my country at the time.

I wrote about all of this on another thread where I opened myself up for questions. Technically I am transgendered but I don’t identify as that. For the purposes of a human experience and how to relate and interact within that framework, I’m a man. I was born into a social structure that initially told me that only two existed. A man or a woman and because I definately wasn’t one I had to be the other. My neurology and the gender that expresses through it is completely male but my body contains both male and female sexual attributes. I have a female phenotype but I also have genetic mutation that’s only found in males. the researchers name was prof Swaab Amsterdam university and this study was done over a decade ago! Prof swab has known about sex brain diferenciation since 1989 when he first published about the neucleus in the hypothalamus. hell I had no education at all as a kid and I still yelled at my doctors “ it’s in the brain!” I knew then. that part of the brain is called the bed neucleus of the straii terminalis. as much as I acknowledge the cultural conditioning problem by normalising the condition publicly ( which still needs to be dealt with) it’s equally important to tackle the right wing/ extremist/ religious infiltration using this as some kind of story ( the elites are transgendering your children for whatever bullshit agenda) blowing it out of proportion to the point it dismisses the existence of a genuine minority group and makes it dangerous to simply exist. I see it time and again when there are two sides to something. Each side thinks it is right and tries to destroy the other when the truth is there is half truth in both sides and they need to learn to listen. being cast out of society and watching from the outside has made it all the more clear to see. Any ‘black sheep’ in this group or forum has come to know that little glimpses can push you towards awakening. Of course it depends on your mentality and egocentricity. You can be so self centred and fearful you can turn into a dangerous animal that lashes out in defense of itself or you can become more conscious and endeavour to learn lessons and understand how it got to be that way. this is the professor talking to a podcaster about the issue. I don’t agree with everything that he says. Playing with certain toys is clutching at straws but that’s just the way he sees it.

I would know. I am one. I don’t identify as such though even though I technically come under the umbrella term.

I’d ask him why he lied to an entire room about being a qualified neurologist during a lecture few years ago and does he know the platforms that fund and support him are actually using him as a puppet to push their own agenda ( extreme right leaning oil industry moguls). Agenda pushing being something that he claims to be fighting against. He seems to understand symbolic association/conceptualisation to an extent but he goes cognitively dissonant when it doesnt support his worldview. I think someone already said it and that is he’s got a very heavy shadow of his own that he hasn’t dealt with yet.

This is not the case. Read the athletics guidelines in relation to athletes with trans or gender related disorders. Individuals are frequently monitored and are assessed prior to being allowed to compete in the category. If they fall outside the normal range of what is female, they are not allowed to compete. this whole thing has been blown out of proportion by people who couldn’t bother to understand something with decades of research behind it. I’m not just talking about the study of trans or anything that comes under that category, I’m talking about the study of entire human sexual biology.

After contemplating the issue and not knowing directly or extensively what measures are in place for trans athletes I decided to find out. this might be of interest to some of you. https://www.wada-ama.org/sites/default/files/2022-01/TUE Physician Guidelines_Transgender Athletes_Final (January 2022).pdf to summarise: as some of the treatment transgender patients require ie hormone therapy, is banned in sports and trans patients require HRT after surgery to prevent bone density loss, they have an exemption provided the levels do not go outside the normal ranges of the gender category they are competing in. They are monitored regularly where other athletes are not. Trans female athletes are examined to decide if their structure falls within the range of female physiology. If they transitioned and received blockers before masculinisation then they are considered within a female range. If they masculinised before transitioning and the feminising HRT has not sufficiently feminised their structure then they are not permitted to compete. following on from this I decided to look at osome of these controversial figures and found some cases of male athletes masquerading as women in the hope of a medal glory, this quickly led to implementation of guidelines about normal ranges in each respective sex and is monitored frequently so the whole men competing in women’s sports is years old and nothing to do with trans women. women with hyper androgen sensitivity syndrome or a type of intersex disorder began to fail eligibility examinations and got excluded leading to a spate of court cases showing there was no proof to justify the exclusion. Each time a new issue has cropped up it has been looked at and guideline issued with frequent monitoring. So what I can see is trans women who transitioned after male puberty tend to be excluded if they fall outside normal female ranges. There are fully trans only athletic games now started up in Asian countries who have recognised trans as a third sex for millennia. the most recent controversy was from an Indian athlete who came in fourth place lost to another Indian athlete who got the bronze medal. Days after the event she accused the woman of being transgender on social media and demanded people get behind her and support her to help get her medal back. It turns out the bronze medalist is 100% female and the other woman had a Karen meltdown cause she was a sore looser. looking at the guidelines there doesn’t seem to be any justification for excluding trans athletes if they adhere to the guidelines and fall within the ranges.so all the hype is being created by uneducated bigots from what I can see. Further to that the term transgender is an umbrella term that doesn’t just refer to people with biological gender incongruence but also non binary and other expressions. having sat down and looked at 6 decades of research for and against, the biological/ genetic research certainly shows a tangible basis for these conditions although we don’t seem to fully understand what human sexual biology actually is. It’s a complex set of systems that work together eventually expressing as a gender/identity not a single physical feature that determines it. What we are presented with does not reflect our initial beliefs or assumptions of a rigid male/female only binary and what is presented in the court cases cannot support the exclusion of gender variant individuals from sports as long as they fall within the ranges as set out in the guidelines. I hazard to say that the increasing hostility coming from some people is a lack of ability to adapt to an ever changing world. I certainly understand some of the complaints and the way that they are meant is perfectly valid but the instances in sports today don’t seem to exist in the way some people are complaining about it. If one instance of a valid complaint is found and put out in the media, they have a fantastic way of extrapolating it out from one instance to the facade of a global epidemic. https://www.thehindu.com/society/jumping-the-gender-hurdles/article18712766.ece/amp/ this is also an interesting article with changes in guidelines as they have become apparent.

A woman walked into an emergency department with abdominal pains and they subsequently discovered she had cancer stemming from testicular cells even though she had no testicles and was born fully female ( at least that is what she, her parents and everyone in her life thought). After a number of tests they discovered she had a Y chromosome. The question perplexed the doctors, if she had a Y chromosome, why didn’t she develop into a male? a slight mutation in the androgen receptor gene is enough to throw a persons sexual biology over the other side and it doesn’t just happen fully. There’s an entire spectrum to those mutations giving rise to the myriad of sexual variation in our species. We are under the automatic assumption that a human comes in a rigid binary of male and female but we have originally defined that off what we see externally when the case may be that we don’t actually know what human sexual biology is or what it’s normal state or states may be. There are billions of people on this planet who automatically assume they are the sex and gender they are when no one has ever bothered to test themselves to see if that is really true. I was born with gonadal dis genesis and raised female. Unfortunately they got it wrong. My gender is male and has been so since childhood and persistent throughout all my treatment. They tried to council me into a female gender which didn’t work. During my ‘correct’ treatment I participated in a study in Austria in 2014 that uncovered I had a genetic mutation in cyp17. Mutations in this gene tend toward disrupting sex hormones and growth in childhood development. The mutation in particular that was found in me is normally only found in males. ( people like myself who are posthumously studied also show neurological structures in the male range which one would assume is why I express a gender identity that is male.) so the reality is that while I express myself as male my body contains the biological components of both male and female despite having been born not fully formed but formed enough not to incurr any chronic medical problems. None of it has any effect or standing in my life. No one knows about my condition and I’ve been physically and indentified as male longer than I’ve been known as anything else. I cannot produce my own hormones so I have to take testosterone for the rest of my life. It would be an awful kick in the stomach if I had dreamed of being an athlete since childhood as I wouldn’t be allowed to compete because I’m technically on steroids…. back to the woman I mentioned above. Having all the blueprint in her DNA that should have resulted in a male, she was clearly, socially, sexually and physically female but according to some people’s arguments she should be classified as a man because of a Y chromosome when her life experience and the experience of everyone in her life demonstrate that couldn’t possibly be true. a person who is born with a gender disorder is somewhere in a middle ground on a spectrum and trying to fit into the expectation of a social role of which none exist to reflect their status. Whatever way the neurology of that person has developed is the way they express their gender. The neurology is the biological that overrides the rest of the body because a human is predominantly a psychosocial being. most trans women ( more recently due to the accessibility to treatment) have had hormone blockers at puberty and have not developed masculine bone or muscle structures. Taking estrogen HRT would further prevent that development. This would be the norm so the testosterone argument seems a bit grasping at nothing. Also going back to my own sentiment about dreaming to be an athlete, if a girl who had lived as a female, had blockers and never developed masculine structures, had surgery, and took estrogen HRT… that person as an adult would never have been exposed to testosterone levels equivelent to a man and would have lived their entire adult life physically and mentally female. If they had always want to be an athlete… there’s nothing there that would give them an advantage over any other woman. most people arguing about this haven’t got a clue what sexual biology is ( never mind the complexities of conceptual gender roles) here’s one for the men: if you had even a slight mutation in your AR gene, you would be a fully blown woman! Your Y chromosome is a pretty weak excuse for justifying masculinity. there are more male specific genes than what are found on the Y chromosome so calling the Y SRY or sex related Y is a bit old hat. a female can be neurologically full blown male with a mutation on the cyp17 gene. the question for everyone is if they can come to terms with the wide variety of biology and get their head around the neurological basis for identity expression and realise we’re not dealing with rigid definitions here that don’t translate into reality. the truth is that I’m not a man or a woman. I’m consciousness playing a temporary character while I learn the game of how to relate to self and other and the characters afflictions are meerly a part of an experience to learn from. When you find yourself being excluded and pushed outside of conventional social structures, it’s a lot easier to wake up out of conceptualisation. that’s not a mental illness. That’s a level of clarity that most will never have.

Uh oh! Just got a B12 shot today….. we’ll see

Absence of light, therefor not a thing. There would only be gradations of light. mentally, darkness would be the absence of any thought, idea or imagination, in other words an infinite void or the still ocean prior to consciousness, where the ‘prior to consciousness’ is the absolute. to me dark is peace prior to knowing. consciousness formed itself from this and became a pool from which to know itself( conscience > con= with, science= knowing)

Theorist apophasis ( youtube channel aka Ken) seems to have the answer if you can get over his arrogance and stickling for precise words. It makes it difficult to follow but as an avid photographer and studier of Ancient philosophies he somehow merged understanding of the two. He gets caught up in conspiracies allot which is a pitty for such a sharp mind but if you sift through the hundreds of waffling videos, you do find a good bit of knowledge in there. Good luck interpreting it. my own contemplation is that light is equated to awareness. You cannot see light itself but you can see what it illuminates or projects. In the material sense you cannot see light itself only what it reflects off. another thing that I’ve heard said is that objects or mater are light in a standing wave. light itself being an ocean of unseen consciousness and manifesting being energy otherwise described as field perturbation modality ( disturbance in the still ocean or the creation of a wave). Can also be described as a thought in the stillness of an infinite mind. If god is described as light in many religions and light is equated to awareness, this can be thought of as the absolute ( the unseen light that is a still and infinite ocean of nothingness until it is disturbed) walter Russell “ the secret of light” is a book that tries to describe light as a dielectric or two lights. im contemplating and trying to go deeper into this on trips but it’s not revealing any describable details yet or at least I can’t translate what I’ve experienced.

I’ve been experimenting with this a lot recently. Once I got the ‘reality is imagination’ part I started trying to dissolve it while maintaining conscious awareness while sober. Shutting down the bodies sense perceptions and replacing them with those that reform in the minds eye, a completely new world, body and senses appear. No distinction between those and the ones from this world. Training focus, concentration meditation helps a lot with this but so does mastering one’s emotions. Too much excitement snaps you back here. the psychedelics showed how and where to focus, now I can do it sober. Just doesn’t happen that often what I like about sober travel is that the reality that forms is more stable and coherent. I do get the mandala fractals from time to time and sometimes cartoon like artscapes and I’ve woken up or should I say become aware in the bright white light a few times too. it’s easier to pop a few mushrooms and let them do the work but I’m getting a great desire to develop the skill sober. it may have something to do with being able to astral project as a child. It was similar but only ever situated in my bedroom or over the house. I’ve been unable to replicate that as an adult I do love when I realize I’m in a less solid world and always… always turn into a dragon ???✨?

A little info from uk barrister.