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That just sparked a memory of something that dawned on me while watching one of those motivator videos that’s started branching out interviewing alternative guests i think the general lamentation was ‘feelings’ have nothing to do with reality so someone predicating their argument based on a feeling about their own body is delusional but the conversation then went on to mention a case study that they used to support this which actually destroyed their argument but no one noticed. Looking at the case, it seemed that the person at its centre had a ‘feeling’ something was wrong so when they were finally told what had happened to them, it validated the feeling so the feeling must have come from some biological foundation that gave them information. the feeling which I would equate to the chemical signals from the amygdala, arises from somewhere as a way of informing us about something but finding out, is it a reaction to the direct reality or filtered through the prefrontal cortex and it’s process of thoughts would be key as to whether the feeling was indeed valid or not.

I’m currently going through a phase of studying it more from a physicists perspective in that instead of using the mental analogies of awareness and consciousness, I’m looking at it as light, magnetism and field geometry. It’s closer to what we see appearing in our universe but I’m not at the understanding yet. I understand it better through poetic descriptions but only so far that I can go with those.

Awareness is the empty void or rest state prior to anything. Consciousness is everything arising from the disturbance of that still awareness. some call awareness the source, and consciousness, God. even though they’re effectively the same… one doesn’t exists as it is just an appearance that comes and goes from the other which is the only thing that is there before, during and after the disturbance. even though awareness is always there, it gets obstructed by its disturbances. Like a string it is still and when plucked a wave or vibratory disturbance can be seen,heard, felt ( peaks, troughs, nodes, amplitude, harmonics etc) yet the only thing that is really there is a still string. awareness is like a dim light until it evolves using something to define itself against so when there are things to know( disturbances/ consciousness ‘con-with’ ‘science-knowing’) it becomes a process ( mind/god). An ocean of imagination with which to create realities. A dream to project itself into to experience the appearance of infinity. A brighter light. awareness is like an internal infinity not opposed to but complimentary to the god infinity. The combination bring about a mind or mental process. at least that’s what I’ve come into contact with so far.

Is it not a seeming phase that most go through when passing the various stages of development? if you were on the left and in favour of progressive ideology and able to see through various conceptual and social constructs but the likes of the pandemic showed you the other side of the left, you would start to open up a bit and rather than dismissing the right, start to listen to the concerns being raised because he started to see those too. it is usually like a pendulum swinging from one extreme to another and most get stuck on a ‘side’. if the progress of ‘awareness’ development continues then you notice that it’s not what side is right, it’s not about the content the side is arguing but rather that something catches your attention that shows you both sides are behaving the same way and missing an expanded perspective that contains a truth in about half of what each is saying. If you are able to break out of the ‘sides’ you can hold a balance of both perspectives that give you a better resolution of reality. I stopped listening to Russell, not because of the accusations but much before that when I noticed everything he was pushing was fear based and ‘us against them’ mentality, taking a step backwards from progressive to tribalism. The same as allot of people in spiritual circles. It was almost like a traditional religious infiltration and they started latching into conspiracy theories that seem to stem back centuries from religious attacks on esoteric mystery schools. I found that fascinating as spirituality stemmed from most of those schools of thought including indigenous culture and that modern religion itself stemmed from esotericism but got lost in the literal interpretation of the texts ( resulting in and organisational control structure claiming authority). I think it’s more a case of getting stuck on a ‘Side’ that he is having a problem with ( reinforced by attention and probably some financial incentives) rather than developing further to a higher vantage point. I can personally see where allot of the right is coming from and it is completely valid but I can also see where their argument breaks down. Even though it follows logic and reason, it’s predicated upon a previous and outdated understanding. If the logic and reason was based on more recent understanding ( observations, direct experience, study, research etc) their arguments don’t hold up. But at the same time the left is just becoming more blinkered and unaware of its own behavior. It’s meant to be progressive but it’s not learning…

Yes. Had Dexa scans yearly for several years as part of monitoring at the clinic I attended. Because I was on HRT, they wanted to check my bone density levels. The other patients being treated for same condition tended to have their levels decline so needed supplements and amending their HRT frequency but mine increased much to the surprise of the consultant and remained consistent. I don’t remember getting any other results than the bone density though. That’s all they used it for.

Becoming a different person is one way of changing what might not have been working in the first place. To become someone else instead of transcending the someone. Perhaps it could be seen as a phase? Maybe multiple times of changing your ‘person’ is a way to know how ego works and how to pin point it. some people are happy with their new person and stay there believing they are ‘done’. it might not be truth but it might be perfect for the experience they want to have.

@Princess Arabia Thankyou. Practicing and improving. Writing out a thought process tends to look like vomit on a page however I’m attempting to compress them into a concise idea that’s easier to communicate. My responses are much too long.

We would need to highlights the complexities surrounding societal acceptance and the clash between different political approaches. Acknowledging that normalcy is subjective and varies from person to person is a crucial step in fostering understanding. Encouraging empathy and recognizing the diverse nature of individual experiences could serve as a common ground for people with different perspectives. The challenge often lies in finding a balance that respects individual autonomy while fostering a society that embraces diversity. an ability to understand and navigate emotions, perspectives, and diversity effectively requires emotional intelligence and empathy. It goes beyond intellectual intelligence and involves a deeper understanding of human experiences and relationships. patience often plays a key role in promoting understanding. when issues like these are pushed by political structures. Instead of guiding people slowly to understand and accept diversity they don’t allow time to adapt to the changing societal environment even though the diversity in the society has always been there but not accepted, they coerce people into abiding by policy to normalise diversity and make society safe for the multitude of diverse individuals ( that is the liberal politics approach) but the conservative political approach is different in that it tries to create policy for normalisation of only one kind across society and attempts to stamp out diversity making it unsafe for the multitude of diverse individuals. If both sides understood that normal is normal from the point of view of the individual in their own right then there wouldn’t be a problem. What is normal for one person is abnormal for another so trying to project one’s own sense of normal onto another person is lacking in empathy, emotional intelligence and a deeper understanding of why diversity exists. Think of the trunk of a tree as an analogy to existence. If it only puts down one root in one place it will only be able to gain experience or nutrient from that one area. It will not even be aware it could potentially have access to other experiences or nutrients elsewhere. If it branches out it’s root system to create individual and diverse experiences in different places from different perspectives, it gains access to a richer variety of nutrients ( knowledge, learning, a better grasp on the reality it finds itself in). If those roots fight with or dismiss each others experiences, it limits the tree from gaining a better understanding of itself, dismissing one roots right of freedom to gain experience or nutrients is detrimental to the tree and the other roots. By a root dismissing another root, it is ultimately being detrimental to itself and the entire system to which it belongs. Recognizing and embracing diversity in experiences, perspectives, and identities enhances our understanding of the multifaceted nature of existence. diversity is crucial for a more comprehensive and nuanced grasp of reality, acknowledging the subjective and varied aspects of human experiences. If diversity didn’t exist then reality being inherently relative would collapse back into the absolute. This really requires thinking very deeply about ‘normalcy’ and realising its subjective nature. Your argument loses its logical foundation when it assumes a universal standard of normalcy based on the perspective of one group while dismissing the validity of another’s experience. This can be associated with the fallacy of ethnocentrism, where one judges another culture solely by the values and standards of one’s own. In this case, it’s applying a single group’s perception of normalcy to the entire spectrum of human experiences without recognizing the diversity of perspectives and identities. when a person experiences their life as normal, normal being a constant or frequent occurrence, it is inherently normal for them. So if it is normal for them then it is not logical for another person who is not homosexual to say it is inherently abnormal. It is abnormal for a heterosexual but normal for a homosexual just as it is normal for a heterosexual to be heterosexual but abnormal for a homosexual. The argument looses its logic when a heterosexual tells a homosexual that it is abnormal for the homosexual to be homosexual. This is making an assumption that one persons experience of normalcy from their persepective is applied across all of humanity not taking into consideration normalcy from other perspectives. You’re basing the idea of normalcy on your own experience and identity by dismissing the other as being valid from their own inherent perspective which you do not have access to. You can’t get your head around it because you’re refusing to let go of your attachment to your own idea of normal. It only applies to you. It’s subjective. You claim people in spirituality resort to what sounds like political correctness but as I stated above, that’s not the case. What you are doing by saying that is ad hominem. You’re deflecting away from addressing the issue that’s been presented to you by making a personal attack on the individual raising the issue. Albeit incorrectly. Claiming a statement or perspective is ‘political correct’ misunderstands the nuance within the political sphere which also has a multitude of diversity. It’s about a balance between freedom and restriction. Understanding personal boundaries and the freedom to explore within them. Not imposing on or preventing others doing the same. Cooperating and bringing those experiences back and sharing them to get a higher vantage point of the reality we find ourselves in. Fully understanding all of this means loosing your identity and transcending to the absolute. People fear that because it’s ‘ not normal’ for them. learning about and adapting to an ever changing reality takes a long time. People can guide you but no one can show you or coerce you to understand. That is something you have to come to by yourself

He’s not ready to hear his own faults. He couldn’t handle it. nice deflection.

Of course, the human evolved for survival through fitness payoffs and is orientated towards survival but when it get to a stage where it creates a society that collectively looks after itself then basic survival is transcended and the human no longer plays the game of its lower animalistic nature. It raises itself to a point of self awareness and begins to ponder its existence. It’s level of consciousness raises to that of the mental faculties and less of the body. After a time of becoming trapped in a matrix constructed of conceptual maps of its reality( caused by the development of language and the woefull inaccurate transference of experience through communication) , it begins to break out of that trap by engaging in the dialectic and improving intellect, logic, reason, till that also collapses and they see beyond the physical altogether by direct experience of a state of being beyond finite limitation. people who develop and become sensitively self aware ‘wake up’ and are no longer surviving but playing a character in a game. The circumstances that person has in their life is a catalyst for learning and improving clarity of conscious states, lessening reaction and embracing the diversity of the experience that creates a higher set of possibilities for all including a higher vantage point constructed of the differing perspectives and experiences. Dismissing one of those experiences because you don’t understand the relative nature of experience shows a poor understanding of reality as a whole. the vast majority of perspectives are subjective and hold no objectivity at all so claiming an experience is abnormal because of the form it takes being one that differs to you or is so far removed from you in degree that you can’t understand it, is a product of personal bias. To say it is abnormal is to say its existence is not rational but reality is A-rational. It is ‘All’ ways, all possibility, all potential.

They hump each other with exactly the same motion regardless of whether they are male or female. Over excited, trying to dominate or in heat. When you work with 50+ dogs per week for 15 years this is obvious. I work in a groom salon in a veterinary clinic and saying only male dogs fuck female dogs…. You would be laughed out of the building here for making such an uneducated statement. The same can be said of the hundreds of species studied showing same sex companionship amongst them. Just look at penguins. In a large population where male female ratio may not work out evenly, they pair off and carry out the same behaviour as the rest without producing a chick. If something happens to another pair, they will take the chick and give it a second chance at life. there are many nuanced reasons for diversity within a species… that is not abnormal. That is an ever changing form as it progresses relative to its ever changing environment and circumstances. If it doesn’t, it disappears altogether. The human for of a person who doesn’t change or adapt is a traditionalist/conservative extreme.

Pretty women? what do you define as a pretty woman? It’s subjective so according to your one’s own definition. These pretty women are not an objective fact. pretty woman are all nasty and to be avoided? firstly how did we know all pretty women are nasty. Did we meet them all and get to know them or did we just have a handful of bad experiences or simply making an assumption based on an opinion formulated by a worldview based on belief and not direct experience? getting to know them would show varying degrees of niceness and not so nice to the down right rude. Containing a spectrum of nice to not so nice means the cause is not appearance because it occurs in both the pretty and not so pretty… women and men…. why would a pretty woman not be nice? is it that she has a self perception that she is pretty and can get away with whatever behavior? there are pretty women with self confidence issues and even body dysmorphia so if they are mean it’s certainly not because they think they’re pretty. there are pretty women who are mean because they are pretty and don’t like the attention. plenty women who think they’re prettier then they are or rather the expression or assumption of their prettiness actually makes them less attractive so they would not be considered pretty in someone’s subjective opinion so these ‘pretty’ women are not pretty. We’re simplifying a complex set of variables to create a story to justify dismissing other people. That’s not ‘their’ behaviour it’s yours and it’s being done to preserve your status quo from facing the adaptable nature of identity. getting caught up in the superficial level of the world prevents us from seeing identical behavior in opposites so the appearance isn’t the issue or the cause. the very subjective thought or opinion that is projected out into the world is caused within the origin of that thought, our mind. We are ‘creating’ the world as we believe it to be and then complaining about it. to create a world we want, we have to change those thoughts and perceptions around, through trial and error till a nice balance is found. That means learning to adapt and change one’s own identity to live respectfully amongst a collective (this is a necessity for holding the structure of society together as these forms are finite and and part of a relative reality. Reality meaning form in relationship to other form. There is no independent individual. The claim true independence in a relative construct is to separate ourselves from it and fight with it. This leads to one’s own atrophy so it serves no purpose to say “this is me and I don’t care about others because I am or want what I want”) making a statement to dismiss a particular group of people is pushing beyond one’s own boundaries and imposing on those others by blaming them for your own faults. people calling us out on it is not imposing back, it is a reflection of us that we should probably start to pay attention to. the reason people are responding, triggered or Insensed is that what is being stated here is pushing beyond a personal boundary of individual being and pushing it onto others which shows a lack of balance in the relative world. if you don’t like people calling you out then don’t provoke them. If you make opinionated statement then be prepared and open to the possibility that someone will point out a flaw in that logic. It’s the universe talking to itself. We can either explore that advice or fight with it.

Thanks for the extensions. It’s appreciated. you could have saved me a lot of time if you had written yours!🤣 or from another perspective, you did write it😉

Sorry, this is a long reply It’s only a contradiction if you take those few examples in isolation. you need to understand that they’re part of a larger system and that they can impact the larger system in varying degrees. The degree to which they impact that system determines whether it is allowed or not .Society is a collective of individuals and all those individuals need to cooperate in order to hold that society together. It’s like a decision of cooperation to become a larger entity which holds itself together with rules, boundaries and limitations .Every individual in the society is different. There’s no problem with that. They go about their business, living their lives as they see fit provided that they don’t impose on others or prevent others from living their lives as they see fit because other different people have their purpose within that society. acceptance and understanding of each individuals differences is key to a cooperative society. Everyone is vastly different and that is critical for society because those differences offer points of view that create a higher vantage point when synthesised together. If Points of view were all completely similar , nobody would be able to see the larger picture and would only have access to a fraction of reality. When you have a set of individuals who don’t accept differences, or impose on others or prevent others from living their lives as they see fit, this disturbs the balance of that society holding itself together. The society cannot progress if individuals who impose on or prevent others Increases and throws the balance off to the point that people start living in fear and stop cooperating with one another. that society cannot progress because it is no longer cooperation with itself. It is fighting within itself and tearing itself apart. the very nature of living in a finite reality means that there are rules, boundaries and limitations that hold that reality together, just the same as there are rules, boundaries and limitations within the smaller sections that we have within that reality like humanity, like countries, like societies, like companies, like communities. Take into consideration, the analogy of the human body. If we take a human as an individual they are constructed of many different cells many different organs many different hormonal systems. They are all different and have different purposes, but they work together cooperatively to collectively create the entire ‘functional’ human being. If a bunch of those cells decide to impose on the cells beside them or prevent the cells beside them from doing things that they’re supposed to be doing (they have the inherent ability to do that (decisions or choices) and they can do that up to a certain point! what if that grows and goes over a tipping point disturbing the balance? the body becomes dysfunctional or dies. the rules, boundaries and limitations of the finite human form start to fall apart. When cells grow out of control and are not kept in line by the immune system, they take over killing the human and themselves too. We call that cancer. so you need to understand that if you allow things like cannibalism or paedophilia free rein in a society to the point that it is normalised (those being an imposition on another persons life, ) that can destabilise a society, not just directly, but indirectly as well, through fear. Homosexuality is not the same thing. homosexuality is not imposing on or preventing another person from living as they see fit. homosexuality is simply an attraction to a person of the same sex. being as they are, expressing as they are provided it’s consentual. they’re not imposing on or preventing other people from living their lives as they see fit. You need to understand the larger context of the system. this is what you’re not getting. you’re taking something in isolation and not taking into consideration how it would affect the larger system. You’re arguing equality out of context and making it sound like cognitive dissonants. You need to expand your view to the larger picture. There is only one thing that is truly in existence, and that is the absolute . When it creates reality, it doesn’t create individual things in isolation. There is no such thing as an individual reality. Reality is relative. when an object is created or a form is created it does not exist in isolation. it exists relative to the space around it, so they’re always two things. That is the nature of reality. form relative to other form with the mind making a distinction of the boundary between the two so they can exist as if independent. The whole thing is an entire system of cooperation. If a form were to push beyond the boundaries of what it was relative to, It would collapse back into the absolute ( potential or chaos). The same rules and structures are mirrored throughout the entire universe, and throughout the mechanism of the mind of infinite consciousness. And it works in the same way in the structure of a society, the many different diverse and varied, make up the one. Because the many are finite, they are required to cooperate. they cannot impose on, prevent or dismiss one another or the collective entity that is known as humanity will fall apart. To truly understand this requires unconditional love and understanding.so ‘other’ needs to be accepted. You can have compassion for a cannibal or a paedophile . you can love them unconditionally and endeavour to understand them in an attempt to curtail their behaviour and stop them imposing on others. to understand the psychology or mentality behind it and work with them to find a solution that doesn’t involve violation another’s boundaries. It’s very easy to hate someone and stop them from doing something by being coercive, but it is ultimately better in the long run to fully understand that persons predicament from their point of view. They are ultimately responsible for their own behaviour and their own psychology and their own whims so it must be them to make the decision not to impose on others. Coercing a person is forcing them where cooperating with them is allowing them to make the decision by themselves with a little help and guidance. This is the idea behind restorative justice which seems to be having a better effect on the reduction of reoffenders where the current criminal justice system and punitive system is not offering any solutions to rehabilitation, or the personal improvement of the inmates relative to their society. If we endeavour to understand and study the homosexual, we find that they are not a threat to anyone. we can of course discuss the individuals personality and the way that they behave within a society. I’m fully aware that there are a lot of people in the LGBT and gay community who are absolutely horrifically rude and self-centred people, but my assumption about this is that it is a backlash against the way that the community has been treated and dismissed in the past. There is a level of underlying anger still there that hasn’t been resolved. But you could say the same about any minority group that gets dismissed. The question is do they impose on others, or are they simply just being themselves and keeping to themselves. That’s your boundary that you’re looking at that should not be crossed if society is to hold it self together. PS; homosexuals are not imposing themselves on religious people. They’re making a statement that religious people don’t accept they exist as they are. Religious people are the ones doing the act of complaining and demanding the right to dismiss their existence as being valid because it doesn’t fit with their beliefs. they are refusing to accept that there is diversity within a society. Those beliefs are assumptions based on what they’ve been told or indoctrinated with. I understand they’re trying to hold their own collective culture together but it’s based on a misunderstanding and actually segregate them from the rest of society instead of including them as a community within it. Part of reality is that it changes all the time. The universe doesn’t stand still. they can try to maintain the status quo but refusing to adapt to a changing environment or changing larger society will result in their own atrophy. Part of moving from one state to another is making decisions whether to improve or devolve . Although change is slow, we are trying to direct ourselves towards improving our society and being more inclusive and accepting of others. This does not mean that it is going to fall apart. This means that it is going to change and become more accepting and cooperative with the advantage of More, points of view, and experiences to synthesise higher insights and vantage points from. Cooperative collectives, make more progress. going backwards, becoming separated or staying in the status quo is a failure to adapt to an ever changing environment. that is what will cause societal dissolution.

Depends on the breed of plant.(sativa/indica) depends on the strain of breed ( thc/cbd ratio) depends what you are using it for(spiritual/recreational/medical) Depends if you got it from a trusted source or off a street corner ( pure or contaminated with other substances) With a large push for legalisation of this right now, it’s important to learn and understand this plant and its variations. Because it is being manipulated and changed, it is involved in an increase in emergency room visits. my own personal experience with it is the more conscious you become, the less you need to get into expanded states( goes for all substances). I’ve needed less each time and I only ever use it to reconnect to higher self state when I feel like I’m slipping back into an autonomous subconscious pattern. The rest is actual integration work or experiencing reality as it is. Once or twice a year is my personal limit for stronger substances like weed and 5 meo.

You could argue that pedophilia and cannibalism involve imposing on another being without their consent and causing traumatic ( mental/ physical) harm or death. in a relationship or sexual act which is predominantly consenting, homosexuality does not fall under imposing on another being. you are arguing the dismissal of a type of human who participates in a cooperative relationship based on it leading to the normalisation of relationships based on suppression and harm. There is no logical link between the two. you sound like you are trying to justify your pre existing beliefs because you can’t accept the reality of the existence of these people. there are instances of consenting in cannibalism but I’d hazard a guess that it’s extremely rare and if we are talking about peodophelia regarding kids under the teenage age( no consent ) or kids in their teens who did consent but their sexual partner was of an age gap that made it legally wrong. There are also homosexuals that participate in non consensual behavior as well. All things can apply to the above. But for society to hold itself together, there are lines or boundaries that shouldn’t be crossed and one of those is imposing on others or preventing others. the universe explores and experiences itself in many diverse ways. To say that one of those ways is wrong is to misunderstand the nature of reality. perhaps it would be better to voice what it is about homosexuality that bothers you personally and go down a path of self enquiry into the resistance you feel towards it. Try not to use narratives like ‘evolution’ to justify your feelings about it as that is blaming external circumstances instead of getting the answers from within yourself.

If that were the case then pregnancy would result from every instance of sexual intercourse but it doesn’t. theres A hypothesis that when an immediate population ( large family)occurs, a genetic switch happens in a later pregnancy resulting in homosexual offspring that opt out of competition with other siblings. there’s also plenty of instances of people in a society who simply choose to broaden their options when the pickings are slim. there’s also instances of trauma related to the opposite sex and the person will recoils from anything that is opposed to themselves sexually. spiritually, sex differentiation doesn’t matter when you start to transcend the idea of the body. Loving unconditionally doesn’t require the other person to do or be anything in particular. perhaps you can’t wrap your head around it because you can’t step outside your own perspective to see other ways of being?

This is the way I prefer to study consciousness. My first mystical experience was after contemplative meditation, removing the parts of ‘me’ that when gone did not result in my ceasing to exist. I did psychedelics after that as I’d heard people describe it as the same experience and so I did and it was. Becoming very comfortable in the psychedelic space and also going into those states of consciousness while the body was asleep prompted me to study the different states and dimensions of consciousness from the discipline of the mind… my reasoning for that was everything is taking place within, including psychedelics and it was nearly just a tool to show what consciousness could do. It’s a lot harder to change the minds states especially when it believes what it’s experiencing is real and can’t let go of it. Putting the body to sleep and removing the 5 senses certainly makes it easier but quite frustrating during periods of nothing happening. Complete and utter relaxation, open heartedness and contentment is a must for me or I go no where.

Sure. Two people experience the same thing. One person comes to terms with it and uses the event as a lesson to learn about and improve their responses, thoughts, behavior and studies the mechanism of the event, how it came to happen/ or the psychology behind the person that acted in an imposing way toward them. the other fills with anger, remains in a victim mentality and perpetuates the same reactive behavior towards anyone or any situation they see as similar even if it is truly not the case. They are behaving in a way their mind programmed itself to survive or cope and continue even though it is no longer needed. if the event was the same for both then the perception of it was subjective. no one controls your mind if you are self aware of your own psychology so you can inherently realise you have a choice through which lens you view your events. We always see it from our own bias unless we actively step back and take the bias out of it. I’ve a friend and his brother who were abused by the same person. Both have very different reactions. Although both were victims and so angry they became an issue for society cause they were attacking people… one went on a psychedelic therapy trial and turned his life around when he saw it from another perspective. The other keeps ending up in jail.

Composing, writing and singing ceremony music/ motivational music climbing mountains snorkelling the coast meticulously studying and getting involved with my countries hearings, political issues and diving into the nitty gritty of research papers to find patterns and possible resolutions to problems. wood carving for decorating my house which I’m currently building/renovating consciousness study and practice ( astral projection/ reality shifting) there’s plenty to explore but the time to do it is almost non existent. I used to build street carnival floats, giant puppets, marketing props ( poly sculpting and fibreglass) and costumes for the arts festivals around the country here but the pandemic wiped out the business. I loved it but that love diminished when the amount of work put into it didn’t result in any income or progress or growth in the business so I sold everything and gave it up.

If you listen to a few near death experiences, a lot of them report being integrated into the light and know everything. Compressing that all into the mind of a human isn’t possible so if you have a NDE or psychedelic trip or massive shift in consciousness during a meditation or within a dream, you know it but can’t hold onto it when you come back into the perception of the body. You can retrieve that knowledge but you end up knowing everything but unable to explain it because you know it as a whole. To explain it means making distinctions, focusing on individual things and creating narratives or stories about them as attached descriptions. to get there is to remove your attention from physical perceptions or the 5 senses and shut out anything external including your perception of the body and remain focused and aware of your awareness. This isn’t accurate but for the sake of describing ‘something’ close your eyes, keep the body so still that it eventually disappears and all that is left is the awareness behind your eyes. Eventually the head and eyes and sense of self will also disappear and you will be left in a void that is aware. Turn awareness back in on observing itself. It is in essence nothing and the core of what you are. You may have to slowly question everything and deconstruct everything you have accumulated as knowledge till there is nothing left and then let g. This is where interesting things start to happen. As awareness starts to reconstruct the mind or consciousness, form appears and you can end up anywhere, experiencing anything your mind can come up with. take it slow as sudden and vast realisations can be shocking and throw your ego into existential crisis. It’s not pleasant. There will be plenty people around to guide you but they will only take you so far and then the rest is up to you. Depending on what it is you are interested to know you may want to consider not concentrating on accumulating knowledge about cults or religions etc and instead turn inward and find your answer in there. Once that is understood, going and exploring all the various different things that there are to experience outside can be enjoyable lessons and not scary.

That’s interesting. The topic of arrogance has come up in trips, from facilitators and a message from another ceremony participant( although it was described as “old prideful soul”). And I fully acknowledge the arrogance and use the term openly when describing ‘myself’. I’m wondering if I’m teetering on the edge of full realisation of ego mechanism. It’s no longer separate but being integrated into the totology as a tool that is used for reality exploration and distinction as you say ( I’ve got over the hump of the negation and nihilism phase). I get what breaking the wall is saying so can’t disagree but cannot agree with dismissing reality as a dream. Having experienced creating reality from scratch and going into a dream fully conscious, the only distinction I can make between the two is by name and in some instances, level of solidity and finitude. I can accept someone else’s experience as their reality but I cannot dismiss my own to fit someone else’s. That would be denying my own direct experience… I think the confusion might be coming from the language ( within duality) attempting to describe something we’ve experienced outside that. In essence all of us are pointing at the same thing but arguing the differing experiences of how we experienced, dissolved or created the path to that realisation?

I think we’re mixing up occult with cult. occulted knowledge is what Jesus would have studied ( Jewish mysticism or Kabbalah and even speculation of philosophies from the east) . Regardless of whether such a person existed or not, the teachings and general message comes from ancient occulted wisdom. Just to be clear ‘occulted’ means hidden and a lot of prophets or sages of the time spoke in metaphorical language to hide it from the governing structures who attempted to stamp it out because it threatened the stability and validity of the hierarchies power over the people. it’s recognised that all power is Devine as all is one. Some misuse that power when they don’t have an understanding and fall into separation. They use it over others for their own gain but ultimately end up harming their own spiritual progression. The wisdom of the ‘one’ survived through the Greco-Roman empire by remaining occulted and kept alive by secret societies in various schools of philosophy like Pythagorean or platonic. Most of these included a psychedelic sacrament as part of the initiation. Jesus and other disciples would have been inducted into a mysticism similar to this. Instead of hiding it, they wrote letters to various groups of people explaining what they learned for example the letter to the Philippians/ Corinthians etc. It’s better to read and learn about occultism before dismissing it as something bad. As most spiritual texts are written in occulted form, it is incredibly ignorant to take them literally. In that sense, students of the occult know more about the basis of a religion than a devout religious person themselves. What lies under occulted knowledge is the study and understanding of the nature of reality and the ‘one’. what I think is being discussed in these videos is people getting caught up in cults or belief systems. anything can appear real and affect you if you believe it is real. Just for an example, there are a good few groups of people who go on about demonic entities hijacking ayahuasca ceremonies and yet if you go to tribes where this does not happen and you ask them, they tell you “we don’t believe in that” and it doesn’t happen. If you actually take the time to study and understand occulted wisdom, if your lucky enough to break through the metaphor and understand what is being said then you begin to understand just how powerful the mind is.

That’s ok. I’m still interested in what you are saying. 🤗

It is understood and your experience of it is also understood. What you yourself have described is also what has been experienced here. Descriptions vary and may sound different but are pointing at the same thing. This is not based on actualised dogma as the experience of dissolution happened before actualised, philosophy, spirituality or even psychedelics came into my sphere of reality so it cannot be ‘based’ on it. If it sounds similar then we are finding synchronous descriptions of an experience. what I’m reading from your post is that you think we are conflating awakening with the ‘description’ of self dissolution?