Spiritual Warrior

I want an inground pool and a fenced in, private backyard. I want a porch with a walkway that leads to the pool. I want a bar area that has kombucha and beer on tap. The house doesn't have to be big, it just needs character and good vibes in the inside. I'd like an entertainment area that is very open, lots of room to move around. I want a lot of windows so that I can look out into the backyard. I want a king sized bed so that my girlfriend and I have lots of room to roll around while we sleep. I want a modern kitchen with stainless steel appliances and granite countertops. The living room will be carpeted, the kitchen/ dining room hard wood. The road that we live will be tucked away but easy to find. Neighbors will be friendly but keep to themselves.

Nice list

I like this take.

I did the exact same thing, I was in he corporate world for a few years and hated it so I started traveling off and on for a couple of years hoping to find my life purpose. Eventually, I exhausted the desire for travel out of my system and came back home, but I hadn't found my life purpose. A few months later, I walk into a dance studio to learn how to dance, they like me and end up hiring me. I've never loved a job more. I have now found my life purpose. Funny how life works.

1. Society sets us up for a mediocre life. Main stream media is not pushing us to self actualize 2. Instilling hard work and discipline into your life is difficult, especially with all of the instant gratification that is right at our fingertips. 3. Some people have serious trauma from childhood that has given them worse pain than anything you or I can even fathom

Of course not! I found mine at 28 Life has its way of unfolding the chapters for you at the perfect time

I experienced ego death while I was on shrooms a week ago and it was terrifying. I am posting this is as a point of reference and as a warning. If you use psychedelics recklessly, you could quite literally kill yourself. I took shrooms with four people, my gf and my friend and his gf. When the shrooms started to peak, I entered a dream like state in which I didn't know that I was a human being, I didn't know my own name, I didn't know what my job was, I didn't know that I had any sort of life outside of what I was experiencing right now. I didn't know who these four people were that I was with, I saw them as characters that's energy made me feel a certain way, but I had no idea who they were or how they got here. I could not comprehend how to pee. I didn't know anything, I was a blank slate, but my mind was not quiet, it was very messy with so many random and sometimes terrifying thoughts. The scariest part of this experience was that it felt like the shrooms were trying to push me towards jumping off of this cliff and into the water, which would have been extremely dangerous. I would get closer and closer and closer, but I kept saying that I was too scared. The ocean to me in the moment was eternal love, but something inside me must have known that it was also death. If there weren't others to stop me, I might have summoned the courage to jump off because I didn't think that anything mattered, I was just this floating ball of consciousness with no past and no future and jumping into an ocean of eternal love sounded very appealing. I did many embarrassing things during this trip which include trying to pull my girlfriends top off, barking, crying, trying to literally jump through the cars GPS screen, saying that I'd fuck my friends gf, and peeing my pants. ( I was fully conscious while peeing my pants, I just could not comprehend that it mattered.) It was funny, I was FULLY immersed in this trip right up until I stepped out of my friend's car. As soon as I stepped out, the trip was over. I look down at my clothes and they are soaking wet with piss, my toe is bleeding, and I have one sandal on. The reality of what just transpired came crashing down on me all at once. My ego is back.

We split a quarter between four people so no more than 2 grams. My life was extremely unorganized at the time as well, which probably added to how messy the trip was.

Bruh...

Thanks for normalizing my experience, it makes me feel better Thanks, yeah I guess it was

It wasn't even that much, it was a quarter split between 4 people. And everyone else's trip was calm, I was the only one bugging out. I think intention is big when taking psychedelics and with life in general. About a year ago, I made a goal for myself that I would have an enlightenment experience on August 18th, 2024. This ego death experience occurred on August 10th, 2024. This was the closest thing that I was able to manifest I guess; a very messy and terrifying taste of ego death.

I love that

One cannot truly love another without first truly loving oneself

Then it's not the right method for you

This is very true

It seems like you have a very unique lifestyle of disciplined spiritual work. I respect it a lot. This is not my life, mine is very social, I'm very much involved in my friends lives. I honestly think I enjoy the drama of it all. Maybe one day I'll be like you and prioritize mediation over social group drama. My meditation would certainly go a lot deeper if I wasn't always around my friends. For you, I think you need to think about your overarching goals in life. Are your spiritual pursuits so important to you that you're willing to miss a best friend's wedding? Maybe they are. Or will you regret not making time for the loved ones in your life? Maybe you will. Let go of the burden of deciding and let the universe decide for you.

I'm honestly shocked by this post. I remember watching your infield video a few months back and I was truly inspired and impressed. Ive never opened a girl up that smoothly. I believe it played a role in my recent success with women. I also relate to your height issues, I'm 5'5". However, I started dating a girl taller than me, either 5'6" or 5'7" back in January. Nowadays, I actively pursue taller women just for the challenge of it. What happened? Why couldn't you use the momentum from that approach in your video to catapult you into the life that you want? You can fucking do it, keep pushing yourself, find a way to make it work.

Ive only had sex 10 times in my life so far, and with only one person. And it has been very underwhelming. My best orgasms have also been from my hand. I may look back at this post and agree with everything that you have said, but as of right now I need to have sex with multiple people so that I can see for myself what it's all about. Counterintuitively, if you stop focusing your attention on getting sex, and you put all of your focus on building yourself up as a man, as a human being, the sex will come.

What an absolute dick head

I'm going to talk to her on Wednesday I'll envision her farting right before I walk up to her lol

We are all Leo's children

Lmao 🤣

I have developed a keen awareness that I am constantly projecting my own desires onto other people. Now I look at it and I can't believe I was so blind to it before. I'll give you an example.. Some background information is that I'm a dance instructor, I dance for a living. ... I had plans to take my girlfriend out to dinner tonight so I set that all up. But then my dance friends told me that they are going out to this salsa club after work. My deep and selfish desire is to completely ditch my girlfriend and go to the salsa club without her so that I can have fun and practice my dancing. Instead of admitting this to myself, I text her and ask her if she really wants to go out because it doesn't seem like she does. At the time of asking her this, I had no idea that it was me that didn't want to go, no awareness about that at all, I constructed thought patterns in my own head that put the blame onto her, as a way to somehow get out of going out with her. Right after I sent that text to her, I realized that it was my own desires all along being thrown onto her. Fucking crazy that my mind works like this. I will continue to look for ways that I am not taking responsibility for my own true desires and instead projecting them into other people. I contribute this insight to my meditation practice, I can feel myself becoming more and more aware every day. Leo's last video on the psychology of being wrong was also helpful. Look for ways that you project your own desires onto other people. Look for ways that you are not being honest about your own true desires.

I agree. I'm trying to find ways to go deeper though, getting more in touch with the energy fields within my body, having better control over arousal and ejaculation, and studying how to have full body orgasms without ejaculation

I didn't have sex for 29 years lol. You're fine.