Spiritual Warrior

Spiritual Autolysis Journal Entry #2 - Thu Apr 20 '23 - 7:49 AM Lower self: Hi, I have a good one for you. God is real. Higher self: How do you know that is true? Lower self: Well... I don't. I have no direct experience of God being real, but its just something that I believe, and I feel like I can talk to him sometimes, like he is this wise old man that gives me advice when I am struggling. Higher self: If you have no direct experience of what God is, then you do not know if its true that God is real. Lower self: Yeah... thats fair. I don't know whether or not God is real. Higher self: What else you got? Lower self: The ocean is blue. Higher self: What is the color blue? Lower self: The color blue... well, when I look at something with my eyeballs... Higher self: Who's eyeballs are they? Lower self: Mine. Higher self: And what is you? Lower self: I am a human body. I am Ben. Higher self: Is that true? Do you have a direct experience of being a human body? Lower self: Nope. I do not. You've got me there. Okay, I don't know what I am. What if I just say that I am the universe. That seems to make sense. I feel like I've heard that one before. Higher self: Okay... You are the universe. How do you know that this is true? Lower self: I know that I am the universe is true because there is only one thing and it is the universe. Higher self: Why does there only have to be one thing? Lower self: Because all of these finite things that we have on planet earth and all of the other planets, and all of the other solar systems and galaxies and whatever else is out there needs to be labeled as something, correct? Just like we are labeling what each species is, we must label what encapsulates this entire thing here. All of it... and its called the universe. Higher self: Okay, and why do you believe that you are the universe? Lower self: Because I am part of it. If the universe encapsulates everything and I am part of that thing, then that is what I am. How can you argue with that? Higher self: I can't. Lower self: Wow... and this is what a holon is. I am a holon because Ben is within the universe, therefore he IS the universe, he is part of it and the whole, at the same time. Thats confusing. Higher self: Yes it is. Very paradoxical. Lower self: Did I just say something that is true? Higher self: I think you did yes. You are the universe. This makes sense and I cannot argue with it. But you are still missing the being aspect. I believe that you will need a mystical experience in order to fully understand this. Or maybe not. I don't know. But yes you are the universe. But we need to cut into this theory of yours even further. I've never been great with paradoxes. They confuse the fuck out of me and I don't understand them. Lower self: Same here. Higher self: You are part of the universe and also a finite being, correct? Lower self: Yes.. Higher self: But didn't we say that you have no real experience of being Ben, of being a human. That a human is just a label, and Ben is also just a label. What about the universe, isn't this also just a label? Lower self: Okay, well first off, yes the universe is just a label. But how else can we communicate, we need to label things with words. So I guess this contradicts what I was saying yesterday. These labels are necessary. They shouldn't be thrown out so blatantly. And also I only experience what Ben experiences. I do not experience what its like to be Johnny, or Bobby, or Paul. And that is true. I have my own experiences. I am writing this post right now. I only know what it is like to live in this body. *Starts getting agitated.* My brain hurts. Higher self: Okay, lets come back to this later. In the mean time, you seem to be on the brink of an insight into holons. You should try reading more of Alexander Marchand's The Universe is a Dream, where he talks about this, and maybe a Leo video on Holons while you are driving around today. Lower self: Sounds good, thanks. I'll see you next time.

"One love, one heart, let's get together and feel alright." Song embodies love, compassion, equality, togetherness, peace, harmony, warmth

The concept of this video is stage green. The men decide as a collective who is the best match for the girl. This makes the vibe between the guys much more communal and loving rather than competitive. "Let the thoughts go, talk about it." A nice stage green quote from the girl at 7:13.

I started drinking organic wine from dryfarmwines.com a couple of years ago. All of their wines are tested for purity and have super low sugar content and no additives, it's just grapes. I feel like I can really taste the earth when drinking these wines. The buzz that I get is a much more clear headed buzz and I would need to down an entire bottle in order to get hungover. And even then, the hangover is much more tolerable, you just feel a bit off balanced, but there is no existential dread or nausea. Id suggest trying to not drink alcohol at all for optimal health. But this can be difficult for us depending on the friends that we hang out with and the situations we put ourselves in. (My friends still like to binge drink, which pressures me into drinking.) I can attest that organic wines are the healthiest form of drinking that I have found in my direct experience. It's actually quite disgusting what they put in these conventional popular wines such as Barefoot, Franzia, etc. This one time I drank a couple of glasses of my organic wine. I had a nice buzz, super clear headed, I was able to be well spoken and coherent and a little more rambunctious than usual. Then I let my friend give me some of the wine in his fridge. It literally tasted like I was drinking juice, I immediately got a headache, and my head became super foggy. All it took was a couple of sips. So yeah I'd say organic wine is much better for you. Cheers.

@Kelley White @jjer94 thank you both for your contributions in this thread. I feel that I learned some about what it takes to do serious Spiritual Autolysis work. I will use some of your insights as guidance in my journey. Cheers.

@hyruga thanks for replying. Overwhelment occurs in my life when I have too much going on and don't know what to do or how to handle all of the stresses going on in my life. Feeling powerless is one of my least favorite feelings in life. I'd compare it to feeling suffocated, as if somebody has a leash around my neck or the feeling of somebody sitting on my head or chest and therefore being unable to move. I feel like a total victim in these situations. I like to move up to 15. Blame, 17. Anger or 19. Hatred / Rage in these situations. I think overwhelment is a more enjoyable emotion because at least you are doing things with your life. When I am feeling powerless I'm usually not doing anything with my life, I'm just depressed.

Hi all, I really like the emotional scale from the book Ask and it is Given. I've started to create Spotify playlists that I feel coincide with each emotion. This has been a lot of fun and also useful because it helps me to better understand the emotion, and a technique that I like to use is if I am lets say at stage 9. Frustration, I play a song that is in 7. Contentment. This makes me feel better because I am moving up the emotional scale. Ultimately I want to get to #1 in which I feel joy or love or empowerment but hey life is difficult and maybe I have to settle for contentment that day. Anyways I was wondering if any of you are interested in creating a mega thread with me similar to the Spiral Dynamics Mega-Thread in which we come up with examples of each emotion on the emotional scale. For example, Bob Marley has a lot of very happy, joyous songs, which belong in the joy/ love category. Or if there is someone that is excuding passion in a speech, that example should go in the passion section. I think that this has the potential to really get people to understand their emotions better. I'm looking forward to hearing what you all think. Listed below is the emotional scale: Joy/Knowledge/Love/Freedom/Empowerment/Appreciation Passion Eagerness Positive Expectations/Beliefs Optimism Hopefulness Contentment Boredom Pessimism Frustration/Irritation/Impatience Overwhelment Disappointment Doubt Worry Blame Discouragement Anger Revenge Hatred/Rage Jealousy Insecurity/Guilt/Unworthiness Fear/Grief/Depression/Despair/Powerlessness

Leo does a great job of explaining why it is so important for all men collectively to get good at attracting women. This is a good example of stage yellow because Leo is looking at the problems with these guys from a zoomed out scope and is giving advice in order to help humanity at large. He hopes that this advice will help all men get laid more and as a result cause less suicides, less shootings, and ultimately happier more fulfilled men. "Helping these guys meet these needs is imperative for the health of society." This is a great stage yellow quote from Leo.

@mmKay Fair enough

Bernie Sanders really epitomizes stage green in politics. This is where we are headed collectively in America as I feel that we are starting to see the limitations of stage orange in our country. I'd like to think that American style yoga is becoming more popular, as well as eating healthier, and showing more emotion and being more empathetic towards others. This is exciting for me because this is my favorite stage right now. I love the communal and loving aspect of this stage. And I've honestly yet to see the limitations of it which I feel is a telltale sign that I am not ready to move onto stage yellow just yet. I want to fully integrate green first, and also fully integrate some of the lower stages that I've been neglecting.

Burning Man highlights! Id love to go this year. It looks super cool and it will help me better understand and embody stage green.

Shout out to @Bernardo Carleial for posting this beautiful scene in the stage red thread. But as the moderator pointed out, this is more of a stage beige act than stage red. Although the human is displaying signs of being a warrior, being tough, and conquering one's enemy, he is not doing it to inflate his own ego. He is doing it in order to survive, plain and simple. The human even shows empathy for the mammoth at the end of the brutal mauling. He did what he did because he had to, not because he was power hungry. And that is the difference between beige and red.

@mmKay I think that these cats are in stage Beige instead of stage red. Stage Beige's main goal is to survive and reproduce. The cats in this video see other cats as encroaching on their territory, i.e. encroaching on their ability to survive and reproduce. Stage red is more power hungry and has more of an ego that I don't think that cats have the ability to embody just yet.

I watched season 1 of You on Netflix recently, and Joe is a classic example of a negative version of stage red. He is manipulative, controlling, and puts his own desires above everyone else's (with the exception of his relationship with a 10 year old kid Paco, who it seems Joe has genuine compassion towards.) In regards to his relationship with Beck, he steals her phone and stalks her, kills her current boyfriend, and also kills her best friend. He does all of these things "for her own good". What he fails to realize is that he is not doing these things for her, he is doing these things for himself. This is a very twisted form of love that he has established for Beck. And to top it all off, he kills Beck off as well because she finds out all of the things that he's done. I would have continued watching this show if Joe had some more complexity to him, but I don't think Joe is going anywhere on the spiral.

A charismatic stage red character