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I'm a kind person, I love deep thinking, spirituality, I'm attracted to knowledge, I bear monotonity, I like beling alone, I like classical music, I like artistic music, I have an analitical mind. I tend to got obsessed with a goal until I reach it.

I feel like I should get obsessed with something and be the best in it. What should I choose? But the problem also is that if I really want to be the best by far then I have to commit many years, like being the best in smaller sports or being the best in certain video games or something like that. It is more logical if I would just have smaller goals and get obsessed with them, but this is against my feeling. Also I'm not interested in money, this is why I write in this subforum.

I watched the video. Thanks for help. I love gaming. I stick to gaming. I play Krunker.

Thanks for comments. I talk about hobbies. I don't talk about jobs. So far my hobby is to be good at a certain video game I like and be the best in it. This means putting many hours of playing every day for many years. I'm just not ceartain that this is what I should do. Maybe there are better things to do.

Is it true that if somebody is ugly (for example four out of ten look) then he has to be extremely good in something, work really hard to get a normal or even valuable girlfriend? Like if a woman is interested in in a certain hobby then you have to be in the upper 20% of men in that thing. Like if the girl like traveling then you have to travel at the best places, or if the girl is a gamer then you have to be better than 80% of men or if she is into building career then you will be the boss somewhere.

I'm a very introverted person. some minutes ago only 5 girl passed next to me so I approached only 5. All of them were maximum 4 out of ten. I approcahed them with smoothness and improvisation. 2 of them smiled and said they have a boyfriend. 2 of them didn't look at me just laught at me. 1 of them looked angry.

I'm 22 y old. I'm here next to college, sitting in the bench, but ia fear to approach. I will go only for looksmatch (4 out of 10) or below. This is a relativly small town, I fear people will take me as crazy.

I'm passionate about anything which is about perfecting a skill.

In the past I almost religiously believed that I need earplugs for improved sleep, but now I understand that it's just a distraction for me.

I tried it, but I'm not doing it, because if there is any benefit then that's not noticable, and then it's not worth it. Just try to enjoy your life and time...

I'm not social enough to have conformity, sorry...

It's just a passing feeling, I would not build on it. Or be a vetenary assistant.

I want to have the next and next experiences, as fast as possible🔥 Of course within some boundaries.

You guys don't know what practically schizoprenia is ...

I can't concentrate on my classes only when I don't understand it.

How to create value to others, or to myself at all, if everything is available on the internet in videos. I believe that everybody is good at something and he must do it for the greater good and connecting with other people. For example Michelangelo's soul calling was to increase the aesthetic abilities of people. Colombus had the calling to explore new territories for humanity. So I want to make distinction between sould desires and body desires. Also I believe that doing what I like, raising my basic consciousness I have an idea, that I have half year if free tine until I start college, and I thought I want to play on my saxophone in a way that I want to play the most quicly and artisticly the paticular music piece, the devil's trills final movement. But this feel bad idea at the same time I just want to contribute to the people I know and also I don't want to compete because there will be always better, and I can't give value to youtube. Or I don't know why it feels bad. Nowadays listening to classical music is my only intrest. I feel half-contect with it, or not at all.

If I play a musical piece to Facebook, then it has value to my Facebook friends, or it is worthless because the internet is full of people playing this? Can somebody explain this to me?

Let's see classical music for clarity, because they called as artists. What do you think there is such a thing as spiritual emission toward the audience of the highly concious musician, or there are just playing the notes a bit artisticly. Becoming more and more artistic is a possible? Copying the most artistic person is something possible? With ai or without ai it doesn't matter now. We have to invent such a piece of music which is very artistic/very conscious? Or we can play the clasical pieces with strange artistic way, or with esoteric background power? Examples: This is the worse one (this piece related with nuber 8, and destruction of the orchestra by the solist) https://youtu.be/ukW1Wd-XwVY?si=JdocvreMFhij41bk This is the better one as the commenters say too. (this music is about marriage or the solist and the orchestra. This is related to level 9) https://youtu.be/sx0jwZvwmfg?si=CWBAXY5gZE3uEdCb The same thing happening here https://youtube.com/shorts/xlryFnLWWgw?si=1iu3WsXbaCmjHoyB

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I heard that the "all seeing eye" or the "eye of the providence" is above silence. According to my knowledge the new age spirituality say that the all seeing eye is the 8th chakra. Silence is God and it is at the 7th chakra. When I had a awakening into above silence then I understood that at 8th dimension there are hive minds. Illiminati type of hand gestures coming from this. Art is coming into shape from this. It is eytraordinary correlations, syncronicities. It is psychosis or schizophrenia if not treated with consciousness. For example maybe this music represent it somewhat

After realizing perfect self love, you become "I" again. So alien consciousness. https://youtu.be/cIxGUAnj46U?si=ooVE_f5i2B4-wyrl

If somebody curse me for no reason or arrogance then that person will het it back hundred times. But if he cause me bad things naturally then everything goes well.

Because he is corrupted by money.

Most people on this forum would leave spirituality if spirituality became mainstream. Most of us on this forum are here because our personality is a about going against what other people think. We speak about consciousness because it is something outside of the box. We are such personality, force of this society. We just use this force on each other even on this thread, for example this is why people are not serious in this thread, and not working for something together but showing outside of the box of the outside of box. There can be only one satan at one place.