BojackHorseman

I feel stupid but I''m not sure what exact ideas I have of those. I could try some kind of automatic writing here : my wife : reassuring, comfy, strong animals : no thinking, acting as an animal myself, instinctive reactions cinema/music/etc : magic, other universes, passion, infinite creating : mystic, language, reproducing, communication sex : reall hard to think here. It's just exciting sensations Well, this probably doesn't help. More generally it's hard to let go of whatever my ideas about those could be cause I really feel like they're me. I could try and reset my ego and whatnot, but I also feel very certain that I resonate with those to such a deep level, and -mostly- without cons, that I don't see the idea behind stripping them of what they'd mean to me. Did you have any specific idea asking this? Any preconceived path I was supposed to go though while asking myself?

I don't understand the weaponizing part. Also, I don't think depression is necessarily waking up. It could have been a "dark night of the soul" phase, but it's been here for way too long and the more it goes the less I seem to feel good. I think people that are actually awaken to the true sense of life don't have depression. Some "stupid people", that "don't think too much" (no judgment at all) are probably way more awaken and close to truth than me in a sense.

There's no "most" I think. I love...my wife, animals, cinema, music, comics, books, creating things (even tho lately I'm very conflicted about it), sex...and probably a lot of other small things. But thinking about the things I love doesn't seem to help right now? Unless you got an idea to work something out of this I suppose

This is driving me crazy. I feel like all will to create is leaving me. But I LOVE creation. Movies, music, comics, books are the most fascinating thing to me. Yet I feel like I'm forcing myself. But if I stop, who am I? I'm 43 years old now, I can feel my life was totally wasted, I'm panicked at the idea of just disappearing. I can't fully express how bad it feels, but it's like my body and mind are telling me "it's over now. Give up. Go sit and wait for life to end". I'm a terrible person. I spent my life consuming and dreaming. I'm nothing. I hate myself.

How did things end up since the news first came out?

Update : in his new video he finally clears things up : 2024 will be the start of the new content and he explains he's showing the OG content since a some time now cause it's not gonna be online anymore since they're changing their direction. But also he wants to release a last dating content, sigh. This is starting to become a bit long winded but I'm still curious to see the new direction cause Owen's got potential so guess I'll check things again in 2024. Those infos were in the beginning of the video, and then he announces he's going to ramble about those older projects for an hour so I just turned it off.

They're not getting any younger, and they're not very strong mentally. That's terrible to say but if they were to die at the same time, I'd be devasted but I'd evolve from here. But if, which is more likely, one dies first, I have no idea how to act with the other one. This is tthe thing I fear the most in my life.

Not really connecting with them. More like protecting them..

So I'm trying to get back into video games and I noticed the more praised games, reaching all time love and numbers, were often set in an heroic fantasy universe : Elden ring, Zeldas, now Baldur's gate, and before, Divinity, Witcher, Souls... Granted, there are counter-examples, but it seems to me like this kind of setup (even if can greatly change in tone depending on the game) is one of the more popular. And it might even be more the case in tabletop RPGs? Why do you think that is? I'll admit I don't resonate with those in general (also some kind of neuro-atypicality makes me nauseous seeing the same content again and again, for example I have the same with love songs that are absolutely everywhere), but there are a ton of different eras and themes, yet we seem to circle a lot around this one and its stereotypes.

May her soul rest in peace. I do wonder what pushes people to such extreme lenghts, tho. Couldn't she feel her body was not feeling well? Maybe this diet thing just became her entire personnality and she couldn't let go of it?

This might be right. It doesn't take out the fact that this might be one of the hardest trials for a human being, but I am indeed somebody that's very anxious so the personal issue here, is me worrying about the future and maybe the fact that I don't consider myself as an adult despite my age. I guess I thought I understood the kind of lesson Eckhart Tolle gives about being present and not being burdened by the past or the future, but it seems like I'm way far from being able to actually apply it in real life.

Well, humans do make long travels and still crash despites how long the technology has existed, right? But also, there could be another force coming into play we don't know about? Something they just didn't think about and can't solve that causes accidensts? I'm not a good writer or very imaginative, but you get the ideas.

Ah, I was kind of imagining that sort of reasoning yes, but I basically have no general knowledge, so I didn't knew how this works in the real world, thanks for confirming the idea. Makes more sense now. Well, I know this is no TV show or movie, but now I'm thrilled again. If this keeps on going this way, there's so many different things that could happen Would aliens help us in some way, or elevate us spiritually? Will everybody accept the help or will half the population consider them dubious and be hostile? What if there are different types of aliens that don't agree with one another? Etc... As long as something, in a way or another, makes us rethink about just being self-destructing sheeps (not saying I'm not one, sadly), this would be nice.

As much as it pains me to admit it, I do feel a lot of similarities between myself and what she describes in this video. I've always felt "nice", and not very close to the usual image of men ever since I was a child. I've obviously thought about non-binarity, but, as much as I admire women, I also don't feel close to their way of thinking (obviously, I'm talking about averages here, of what men and women are in society) I'm not young and I'm not sure how to fix this. Should I just tend to become more manly, as in, whatever society expects for men (I'm not talking about looks or whatever superficial aspects)? It doesn't feel right to me, and in fact we often laugh with my wife at how I do sometimes stand or act feminine in some cases, and how she does seem to take the more masculine place in the couple. But I do feel weak. I really am. I break and panic easily. When talking about men here, 'm thinking more about the positive qualities usually associated with men. But I'm not sure how to get there (or if I should try. Or what to actually change). I'm quite sensitive, empathic, not very real-world smart... (That being said, growing older, I at least avoid now the trap of being so nice I don't have an opinion. I actually like having contrarian opinions and voicing them, looking for balance and debate, not trolling)

So we're considering aliens are real (which was pretty obvious for me, but I was still taking into consideration the opinion suggesting this was distraction or whatever), but in that case, it doesn't explain why higher ups that hid official informations about aliens for all these years are suddenly deciding to let this guy talk. If so, what triggered this for them?

I've been married for some years so I don't think it has to do with sex, which is good. The book you posted looks interesting btw ------------------- To be honest I think I might confuse the nice guy situations for something else after thinking about it_ I was recognizing myself in the parts where she described the man making schemes (consciously or not) to sabotage some things or be lazy Or when she talks about undirect ways to express your frustration and making her feel I'm not ok even tho I say I'm ok, maybe even more. Some people are talking about white knighting, but I definitely don't think I'm a white knight nowadays, these times are over for me

Thanks What about this one ? "A Systematic Course in the Ancient Tantric Techniques of Yoga and Kriya" https://www.amazon.com/Systematic-Course-Ancient-Tantric-Techniques/dp/8185787085/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=kriya+yoga&qid=1690751845&sr=8-1 Almost 1000 pages seems abit daunting, so asking for general opinions around here before considering it

Why kill? Imagine if there was an infinitely more powerful being than us that could kill us that easily. You'd be happy if they had some consideration and empathy right? As a vegetarian I'm biased, but honestly I don't think we need to kill at all to survive. So please try to avoid it and focus your energy on constructing mor than destructing.

There is a lot of posts in this topic, so exceptionally, I'll risk asking being spoonfed : are there some ressources, book or videos, that are commonly admitted to be good for total beginners? (if so, I would suggets maybe adding them at the beginning of this topic or something, so people donc't always ask the same things like I'm doing here)

Is this implying shapeshifting or something? Are you just guessing here, or what would lead you to this conclusion? If you do have specific sources you're getting those ideas from, could you please share them? You probably consider a lot humans smart and we still make mistakes? ------------- And to people thinking we are smart and know what the limits of space travel or whatnot are...seriously? I'm not a science guy at all, but can't you see the huge misconceptions human science have had not that long ago? What says we aren't at 0.1% of the understanding of what science actually is? Maybe we're omitting such huge things, that other civilizations might understand (the universe is so old, there is possibly VERY old alien civilizations, right? We might as well just be bacterias to them. Sure, from our point of view, we're advanced and understand the world, but so does every "less intelligent" species than us do.

There's something I don't get. People say this is all a distraction. Firstly, a distraction form what? The world going to shit in so many different ways? Yeah, everybody knows, no need for distraction. Then, let's admit this IS a distraction. Does whoever is trying to distract think people have such a small brain they can't read about 2 events a once? What they gonna go, make an alien mockumentary until the planet burns? This doesn't even seem like a good strategy to distract the public from whatever. Now the other things I don't understand : if this is all true. Those informations have been and should be very well protected. Then how even are those guys allowed to reveal them in such a public setup? Doesn't the higher ups have enough power to erase all of this, shut them up? If they're indeed hiding informations about aliens, it must be because it could be super dangerous if revealed. Then how come they'd be considering it's ok to let one man live or just talk so easily?

Thanks, will watch as soon as I can

So I used to do this a bit with music and I started making a few tiny sales, but that was enough for me to be happy, just the fact that somebody wanted to pay me for it back in the day (low self esteem, anxiety, etc) At some point I stopped for various reasons, now thinking about getting back into it, but honestly, the amount of people wanting to pay for illustrations or music is just gonna go down a lot, right? With AI. Not sure if it's worth the hustle or doing fast, poorly paid art jobs at this point. Maybe I should just keep art as a personal thing?

Sounds good enough to me (I'd change some things but it's your music not mine) But don't ask me. Go out there and offer your music to people who need it. Even if you gotta start with very low-level projects, just join a team for a game jam, being part of a finished project is satisfying and will make you level up. Or you can just start setting up gigs on Fiverr. Or both ?

Sound like wise and honest words, thank you. To be honest I don't feel the need to have a baby, at some point I even thought men didn't really have a strong need for this compared to women (from what I see and hear at least). But maybe they do. And maybe it's my anxiety and other flaws they stop me from wanting one. I still don't know if I'm normal. I know nowadays it's safeto say you just don't want babies. But part of seem to think I should want one? Because it's what human do and if you don't want to do what humans always did,but might be because you're weak and unsure of yourself? I know it sounds stupid and I could just get away with signing on the child free movement. This would be the easier way for me. But something doesn't feel right. Not sure what.