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I am currently so bored with life.

Its 5:22AM now and I feel very fresh and in comfort. I feel gratitude towards life. Suddenly it's loud here. I just want to enjoy this silence. Maybe I'm a little late... I'm tired of having a casual encounters I want to have a forever lasting relationships. It waste my time..

This is for a guy version there is a women version but I buy this to see the difference between the two

Idk if it's boring or not. I think it is. But also finds it fascinating.

Looking at this, I've always wondered what I wanna do to my diaries when I've died away. Even as a child. Since back then, I've already wondered/think about it. As for fieries, you don't want anyone else to read it. It is just for you. And other things too. I keep my drawings and writings private. As private as they are. Only me, had read it. And it's a good memorable memory. The writings of the younger me. Or the child me. Seeing me growing up/changes. What I'm up to. It's good to look back. I love my diaries...

I'm currently buying this ;

I wish to go to the gym every Monday-friday for a month . And see what difference would that make. 1231 26th June 2023

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Haha Good to hear that.

I feel sorry to my teacher. For going to others who are not of my kind. I feel sorry to my teacher. I'm sorry teach. And the standard was different. We should never met. Or crossed path. I feel sorry to my teacher. I was introduced to this by my brother. And his circles are shady. As shady as these people I've met. I shall never leave my teacher. I shall never go to others. Now I feel bad. Somehow. 12:01PM 24/06/2023

Really? Perhaps, to get a child? Did he have a child? From that marriage?

I look at the job application apps and feel like I'm all new to it. I don't know what to do.

Whenever I looked at this I will remember my grandma. I'm not ready... I wish to go with my mom.

I'm trying to fill up my time with valuable things. 5:14PM Fri June 23, 2023.

D-lite would be in Japan this 23rd & 30th July. For a waterbomb night. It seems like the only time I'll be meeting him. Do you wanna go? But a festival seems like it will be too extreme. I wonder what he'll bring to that festival. What song. It seems like. Idk. I want sushi now.

I want freedom. And independence. To do whatever I want. To drive a car. If having a driver would means freedom then that's also good.. to have a driver..

It's unclean get over it~

Do you have experience in that? I think I want to use my mind more.

A few months ago I was 50 now I'm 53.x . Really don't know what to do. I just want an active life. However that may be. That's like a whole newborn baby's weight. . Today I made burger fried rice. June 20 , 4:58PM.

Time Lapse - Taeyeon, Lyrics translation. It's still the same, birthdays have passed several times I've definitely become a bit more Of an adult , I think Even still, if your name come to my mind Tears well up if I close my eyes for a moment I can see you even if everything changes You're still in the same place With the same appearance , you keep making me cry It's still the same , seasons have changed several times The daily life without you now I should be used to it by now Even still, if your name come to my mind Tears well up if I close my eyes for a moment I can see you even if everything changes You're still in the same place With the same appearance , you keep making me cry (Making me cry) You keep making me cry Of course , goodbyes are all like this Memories that were happy because we were together Erasing all of it , tears well up (when I try to forget) Erasing all of it , tears well up On top of the welling tears You flow again , time stops My heart that I tried so hard to keep hidden Quietly raises it's head I call you again with an anxious voice (I call you again) Of course , love is all like this Always the beginning and the end is different , so different Of course , goodbyes are all like this Heart that loved even deeper finds me and makes me cry (Love is all like this) Goodbyes keep making me cry .

Someone gave us this from the beach.

My heart. This is an old film from 2006.