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The ones that I've seen online, there's really nothing that I can do.... maybe baby sitter. But I don't wanna be changing diapers~ ....

What work do you think suits me? I don't even know what's "work".. Maybe I could do factory work.

?E G Y P T ?? Cairo Mansura Alexandria Marsa Matruh Siwa Oasis Sinai (Mt.st. Catherine) Sharm El -Sheikh Luxor Aswan Abu Simbel

The ticket price would be : 641.51$ I don't know how to plan going there but I have given myself a 40days trip. What I wanna do, it will be up to me. Within that 40days. I hope I can do(&explore) everything. I hope it is sufficient.. and for me to live/stay in my old house for quite a long time (because I miss it..) I wanna stay in that neighbourhood for long. I might as well bought a one way ticket. But na. That would be scary~. I'll go in december-january. The cold season.. Idk how much I would need to stay for this 40days. I would give myself , maybe $1283.01.. (I think it will be less but just to be sure/safe) The ticket price would be : 641.51$ I don't know how to plan going there but I have given myself a 40days trip. What I wanna do, it will be up to me. Within that 40days. I hope I can do(&explore) everything. I hope it is sufficient.. and for me to live/stay in my old house for quite a long time (because I miss it..) I wanna stay in that neighbourhood for long. I might as well bought a one way ticket. But na. That would be scary~. I'll go in december-january. The cold season.. Idk how much I would need to stay for this 40days. I would give myself , maybe $1283.01.. (I think it will be less but just to be sure/safe) I feel like I wanna head straight back to home. If I were to go to Egypt.

I want to make money. But after I've made that post, I watch other YouTubers with million views but the money that they make, are not much. So I can't be sure of it. The things that I want to buy are expensive. Just covering those costs would be enough for me. But in my life, I never had profit yet. So I'm afraid that I wouldn't make it. And where do I get the money? If I could make a loan, that would be okay and if my profit covered those costs , that would be enough for me. Do you think I could covered my costs? And I don't know how loan works. I'm just saying If.. I probably would hv to work first , before I can buy these stuff.. I need about 5300$ to do these stuff. Or maybe more (?) Idk~ Yay my mom said she could buy me a camera and a new laptop. But I wanna make everything using my own money so it doesn't mixed.?

This thing is old. And there are some missing parts. I never lost it if it was in my room. But earlier this year ... hm.. It was expensive thing from SG. I might consider buying a new one. The same thing.

First and foremost, I will make something that I love. Everything. The type of video, the storyline/script/ the aesthetics . It has to be something that I find pleasing. And like. So it's better if everything was private. Done privately. With my own money or my parents so there is no pressure. I can only create something when it's totally free, no pressure. Something like just editing my travel video. If I like it, then it would be great for others. Otherwise I couldn't complete my task.. So I will go to the places that I like (at the moment, I don't even had many places in mind it was just one, place that I want to explore. ) and I will take a long time to do the post editing process. After the footage was done I will go back to my home country and will take a long time to do the post production/editing process. It will be totally according to my taste and how I wanna convey the story. What's important was that I took the pictures and the videos necessary. The shooting process. Once I have explored every places the post production will take a long time. And that will be the fun part. After I've explored everything. And I'm talking about a month or more at one place. After "the project that I like " had becomes successful, (completed) only then I could do it professionally, for others. If they like my style or my video . (Because I don't trust that people would like my colour. ) and what if I make a video that is totally silly? You know.. because I tend to choose my own music too. If they want something like a conventional promo video , like a niche travel vid , I may not be able to do that. We don't know. And I work best with my old camera. But that camera is broken and I don't know if it's still available in the market. When I tried the newer versions I had a hard time learning those cameras. So I need to get used to a camera first and a drone. It would take a while before I could be a pro at it. (I want to buy that old camera over and over again).. Actually it's not really expensive the things I wanna do and the tools that I'm using. But I need to work first. Or take a loan (but my mom said you will have to pay back more than what you take). It will be hard. So I'm thinking again. I want complete freedom in my project. To do as I wishes. Only then , there will be no pressure or expectation. I want to make my own photo book too. But this will take a long time. To see what's suitable. And I need people to foolproof me so that I don't get too carried away~

It won't suffice. I had been a few years with a phone camera and it is like night and days compared to a real camera.

Waah , I found this Yemeni Riyal : And this Omanis Riyal: And Dubai's Dirham?

This is the kind of short intro video that I made back then : What do you think? Lol

This is the backyard. What do you think? Should I hire a landscape architect? Or just let it be so we can plant plants back there.

Actually a car is not a need to me I just wanna practice . Driving in a small car. But otherwise, I couldn't drive.

Yes I know it's a risk

@Hello from Russia ? I want to buy a car

I want to know if making travel video can make a lot of money? I can't do this I need to find work first.

3:09AM Sun, Sept 10, 23.

If I were to complete my project back then, it would be great. But it's not completed. I've always thought what it would be if it's complete. But I needed, a great amount of time and support to complete it. Which is , impossible for a university course/time..

Idk do I seems like unstable? I have been into a mental hospital earlier this year but a few months back I've decided to stop taking the injection that they prescribed to me every months forever. But I no longer want to take it. Even going there it was by force. It was without my will. They tied me. But I don't wanna have anything to do with the hospital any longer. That's it. I'm fine. I have always been into video editing and had been having a camera since I was young. So it's not something new to me. It I were to do something it would be this. Video editing. I don't know if it will do well. That's why I'm asking. I've never completed a project before. Even my university project. I didn't complete it. So I want to know and I want to see what a complete thing would be for me. I want to see the final product. I want to create something to it's completion. If I have an infinite amount of time . Without a deadline. I wanna see the complete thing. (Editing is a hard thing and for something to be complete it's really a miracle~)

I'm looking at many travel videos but I don't get that satisfaction. I don't see any cinematic/good quality videos of the places that I'm interested in.

If I were to think of something that others can't do but I could, it would be this. Exactly what I could do. I am good at. But I may need others to proofread me or something.

If only, I could know , what to work in my country I'd be more than happy~

I want to buy this car : But my mom says I should work first. And she said she could sent me to work.

I feel like I wanna create a garden on this backyard. (It's big enough that you could built a swimming pool back there). But there are trees and big trees that is too good to be cut down. It has a high value. Oud tree. Good for fragrance. Idk if it can be seen clearly. But this is a backyard from this small middle room. Which I feel like I wanna make another entrance from this room. Creating like a nother patio entrance. Instead of this grill. But idk if that would be good. Because then , this will be another open area that can be broken into.

I don't know.. just going outside my house feels so weird. I feel like I don't like this neighbourhood. It has changed. And I feel like I wanted to renovate the house. The surrounding area. It feels kinda bad. And it doesn't feels like home. Idk. Maybe I wanna create a flower garden. I'm all bitten by mosquitoes ?..