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I can't used my online banking it is so frustrating. Huh? I forgot my password and I've changed my number so I would hv to go to the bank to settle it. Meanwhile, I couldn't make online transaction.

Things that I no longer enjoy as I get older : Watching movies or dramas Listening to music Learning/reading Walking/physical activities/skating (I think I can do this but it takes a while for me to enjoy it again. ) Straining my eyes. Basically everything . I guess. I think if I could make a film I would not enjoy it anymore now. Since I don't like looking at a screen any longer. And there are several other things which I no longer likes. Things that I like : Expensive clothes Self-care Handbags Cameras I like to take care of myself more. I don't like eating still. I just want to travel to a calm and peaceful country. Things that I no longer do : Ratib Reciting the Quran everyday Knowledge searching

I think I will be reincarnated as my child. So it is important to give my life to my child. And my future generations. Then I can die peacefully. And they'll do the same to their generations.

My favourite book still remains said Nursi and al Ghazali.

What is true happiness in this world? True happiness and satisfaction.

I really want to be rich. I want a million dollar. I see a lot of people in my country being rich/a millionaire. And can buy everything they've ever wanted. And can travel to places. It was good. They are super rich. I find it's okay to show their riches. I wanna see their limits.

I only wanna be in contact with the right people. Oh . Oh no.

Idk. I got a lot of weird dreams now I'm scared. 5:10AM It must be the places that I go to and the people I interacted with these few days. Idk.

On the 14th page, I feel like I don't wanna go on. I am not in a position to read a book and get something new into my mind. It wasn't settled. The stolen things. I had to go to the police station and make a police report. I can't act like nothings happened. I can't go on. I couldn't. I shouldn't. It bothers me still. I'm not moving on. Things aren't fine. I can't read peacefully. It keeps bothering me. No I'm not fine..

It's been a while since I've read a book so, I kinda feel nostalgic. I used to be so into it back then. Meeting authors. Years ago. Now the kind of thing I wanna buy are Skincare/makeup/clothes. Basically things that makes me feel good. I no longer buy books. Except this. So I don't know. To start again.

This books have arrived I don't know if I should read it or if it will even suit me idk. But I'm just gonna read it when I have an empty mind.

I don't know how much these books would suit me. Or if I should read it even .

The last book that I read is truly the Risala An-Nūr by Said Nursi. He has a lot of it. And the last book that I wanna buy last year 2023 is "Barefoot like the earth" by Dakota Wint. It is the only book that I want to buy. I watch him a lot those years. Back then. I think his journey is interesting. But these days, I no longer like it. But I still want to buy his book. I think he is the same category like Lilly Singh. I bought her book too in 2017. And I re-bought this book because mine was stolen. So last year I bought it again. Just for the memories. Because I like it.

What is a good degree?

Many people are feeling hopeless for me.

I don't like old books. I like the latest release of everything.

I remember my diaries and my writings....

I saw an 18 year old kid buy an Alphard for her mom.

Toyota Alphard = All the things that I've ever wanted . The price of an Alphard = the price of everything that I've ever wanted .

I need something that costs like an Alphard . Today, because I was not feeling well yesterday, I decided to fast today. So I am feeling much better today. I hope all is well. I got a weird dream. I think I got weirder and weirder dreams these days. As I became disconnected (more disconnected) with my past life. I don't know. I don't know how to make everything's better. I wish,

No. It's not worth it.

Got a bad dream. I think my life is terrible. So terrible. I am so much in a bad state.

I feel terrible in my own body. 🤢 I feel like I wanna puke Waking up like this. I think I overeat. 2:07