Sabth

It's been over a year now, what should I do?

I don't think so tho. My bibles, my books, my academic certificate, my self portrait, my phone, my gold, my artworks, my diaries, and a whole lot of things I put in a suitcase.

There is something about nineteen.. ١٩

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I have already read one book a long time ago. And thought I don't wanna read another one. If I can't even apply the first book I've read. But I still think that it's useless. After having read it.

I just want a high quality life. I don't have work. I'm 28. I couldn't drive. I don't hv a good education. (Only up till high school). How can I do whatever I've ever wanted? I'm really clueless right now. Should I move to a different place? (But I didn't know how) Should I get education? (I think it will put my life into place) Idk what to do. I'm stuck in this country. In a home. It has been years that I'm here, but I don't go anywhere. I don't have freedom. So even though I'm here, it's all useless.

You know Sometimes, something hold a lot of energy. So a lot of my pieces are actually a part of me . It holds a lot of energy and memories. Things that I use in 2019. I keep it . Since 2012. 2013. I had a few clothes that are like that. That are still good because it is of a good quality. One is the jacket that I use since I was fourteen. Then I use it till I was seventeen and eighteen. Then I just keep it in my grandfather's house. But a few years ago, it started missing. I look for it but it can no longer be found. Then I had this dark wine/purple clothe. That I like and I use a lot back then. Then I no longer use it. Because I just stayed at home. But I keep it. It is in no way already in a bad condition. Because it is a good clothe. And hold a lot of memories. Probably I can't buy something like it anymore. Because it is from 2012. There's nothing like it anymore. But last year, it went missing. Why do you think they target my clothe? And the good one at that? This is not a normal clothes but something that I could inherited to my future child. Just like my diaries.

I will curse them everyday. Perhaps a disease will befall them. Or that they got really sick and die and regret their doings. Till then.

"Curse be upon those who steal." My new mantra :

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Now that I think about it 🤔 I will have a pink hair instead ~~🤭

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I don't like going back. I only like going forward.

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Nothings gonna dragged me down. I like to be present.

Made me want to change my hair more. I want to be the most up-to-date. I don't like being in the early 2000.

Got a weird dream this morning. 9:04AM. I wish nothings bad is happening in my real life. That dream feels real. I thought it was real. But it isn't. Just like in my room. But I was surrounded by my parents. I have thoughts that it was weird. But it's true. They are in my room. So I continued sleeping anyway. And there was a fight. I wonder if they are my real parents. Because they could have been an evil spirits who pretends to be my parents. I don't like my father being in my room. And my mom was there too. (There was other things too) When I was about to wake up, I heard a sound from the past. A really old song from a movie. It was really old. Early 2000. And it was traditional. (I only listen to modern music these days) But I hear those song at the end of the world. Like somewhere in this neighbourhood as I was about to leave my dream/get up from bed. And it almost feels like it's real . And I'm leaving it. Up to the now world. When I woke up, I went to the next room that was supposed to be empty. I saw someone is sleeping in there. That was supposed to be my room. I should change now. Than never. It was my mom. My mom was sleeping in the other room.

If I can just travel to a different state/country and work or studied, I think things would have been better. But I am trapped. Inside this house. I don't know. Not doing anything with my life. While my younger brother is already getting married.