Sabth

Tomorrow, no today, I will be free from hell.

I got a lot of weird dream tonight. Seeing a lot of people in "torture". Idk. It seems like a haunted house. I was somewhere. But there are people in agony and distressed. I also saw my sister and her ex. Seeing how they regretted their decision. I don't know. I was somewhere like a school or dormitory. Trying to go back home. So the time is about getting dark. So this time is where all the ghost comes out. Maybe that's why I see all these suffering. And I passed by a murder area. It was quite scary . I don't know what's up with this dream, but through it all I was calm. I am still with Taeyeon. And I saw a pregnant women who was about to be crazy, not allowing a lot of people getting entry. (As I was going back "home" or "dormitory". Then the dreams ended up with me being inside. As it was getting dark. And I am always being me. I didn't change. I was calm. And I saw from above, they are making sure that everyone was back. And I think... The women's in my dream at the end is my mom's aunties. Three of them. They are with me. They say something . I don't know. I bring a light or a lamp and they are looking at my lamp. This is how the dream ends. I wouldn't call it a scary dream. Despite what was happening/what was in it. 5:43AM

It's such an ugly car. But so expensive.

@LoneWonderer meh~ I dont want ur attention and I don't want you to listen to me~~

I wish I know how to earn or make money and work my way out. 🎓

Just don't do strenuous work while fasting and you'll be fine.

I wish I wouldn't get bad dreams. 4:44AM

Well, I have no experience. I never work at a cafe or at an apparel shop Besides , I never graduate. I think I have become more comfortable /complacent with where I'm at. I don't know.

I don't think I like this book : GTD Gonna wait for my millionaires book

I will read this book before my other book arrived within one week : but I have so much to read. I need to read Arabic this whole month too. Is it a waste of time to read this book?

I am so bored.

I feel like each day I am doing this , I am in higher and higher place. Day 5.

@Amit @StarStruck whenever I thought of starting doing something, I had in mind things that are really high quality. I saw all those good brands. If I were to create a product I would want to be like them. But I have no basic. I don't know anything. How can people be so skillful? And be a creator of such things? How do they begin? Like Rolls Royce , burga, Basically everything that are high end product and something that you actually wanna buy if you had the money. I don't know how they could even start, making all those product. If I were to create something, I don't wanna create cheap product. But I don't know where to begin. How can people be so skillful?

Idk.. I got a weird dream.. a family member (relatives) died. And they are put under the grave. Then a lot of people eat. Including me. There was a lot of tables. Lines upon lines. Then the food was good and there was a Japanese song. I don't know. 4:19AM

I don't have a good picture. 😔

If only all my pictures are like magazine photoshoot, I'd be really proud. Now I've been without a camera for long. So all my pictures are crappy. Phone pictures and such. I wish to have a hd pic and I wish to be a pro photographer and cinematographer. But ,

@Dauntment I don't know . I bought this book for really cheap. And I just bought another similar book , and didn't think it change anything in me. I don't know if a book can do anything to me.

This world is so huge. I wish to be able to travel freely.

I don't know my sister made me buy this app : 🌚

I got an ipad for my birthday. My birthday is tomorrow. I don't know , I don't know what to use an ipad for. It should be clean. I don't wanna add stuff in it. I want it to be clean. But, I don't know what to use it for. My sister keeps on telling me to do digital art since a long time ago. But I never know how to do digital art. And she asked me to buy this app. Which I hadn't. I don't know . I'm not into cartoonish art. But I'll try. Should I? She always asked me to do it. And I don't know what to use an ipad for. So far I just listen to music. Well, what else would I do? It's still new. It's not a camera. It's not a laptop. It's an ipad. I have always want to buy a camera . A laptop is something that I use. Just like a phone . Ipad... We'll see.. I have thought that for this birthday I want to go shopping with my mom. And buy a bag or something. Just for fun. Like last year. And went to my favourite restaurant. But they already bought me an ipad. And, my mom bought something from my fav restaurant. I thought I wanna go tomorrow and today we eat something different at home . But she already bought me. And my brother will go to Korea.. huh?. My boyfriend~!

Idk I know my life is bad now.

There is nothing more priceless than your hearing and your seeing and your other senses. But those people they are ruining themselves. You can't even enjoy nature anymore. Even if you go into nature. But those people they are still ruining their ears. Not worth it. It's too late now. But Idk anymore.

No amount of curse would change anything. I wanna go into nature. And never came back.