Sabth

My another order has arrived. It was my 9 step skincare. I have bought all except one. The most expensive one.

My order from Korea has arrived and another from local state has arrived too waaa.

My order had been cancelled yesterday It has arrived in my state even since 8th April but wasn't delivered to my house. And now it was cancelled after three failed delivery and was sent back to the seller all the way back to China🤦🏻‍♀️. I had already imagined all the things I could do with it. It's really lame. This courier. I had placed this order since 2 April.

What should I do? It could have been my sister.

That's 19 years in the making.

8-26 years old - it's gone~

Would it be good if I go to a new house and start my life there? At least my things (/collections) aren't stolen. If I wanna start something new *sigh* I should start in a new house. (My own).

I don't know how to get my life's worth it. I still got dreams arguing with my mom because she took my things. My stolen things. I don't know. While not knowing anything/the truth. I still got this trauma.

Now this camera had becomes $2050 .

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Today is 15th April and is the 6th Syawwal , which is the tenth month in the Islamic calendar. Idk. It is spring. Flower season. Idk how to make the most out of my time. Probably this month I should do 7+1+6 more days fasting. By this, it means the next month (ZulQaedah) would be in 10th of May. *I am not doing well.* I am not doing well. Idk.

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I can't wait for my orders to arrive. One has arrived today. And many more to come. I really don't like online shopping. It takes way too long 😔.

I wish to further my studies because I am literally not doing anything rn.

I am now 50.10kg. I wish I can do this everyday. Wonder what my body will look like. Anyway, my eyes are no longer perfect. But I still like to not wear my spectacles rather than wearing it because the colour is just better with my real eyes. And it looks much realer. Than when I'm wearing my spectacle. So I don't wear it when I run. But you no longer felt perfect.

I walk with my brother 5km and he did 3. I am now 50.71kg. I wonder how much I can lose weight if I do this often. 8:43AM I took maybe around, 59 minutes.

Idk. Is this a junks that I'm buying? I can still cancel it if I wanted to . I could have buy you know other things with my money. I could hv bought this : Or this :

My sister gave me this pretty angpao :

I dream of a friend who is already getting married to another friend ,a long time ago. It felt like a family. I don't know why this friend appeared in my dream today. It felt okay .

I wanna buy a camera that cost about $2080 after sale. Only if I have money.

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Am I buying junks? Should I cancel it? I really don't know. ° These two cost about the same. With the bag is a little expensive. Should I buy the bag instead? And I wanna buy other things too. Apart from these two. Okay, it cannot be cancelled anymore. So I have bought a bunch of junks. Are those junks? ...

Will we be just fine? Will our great great great grandparents be proud of our world now? Idk. A lot of my father's friends have died. And my teacher too. And later they will slowly leave us to this world. Our generations , we will be left to this world Are we prepared? Have they give us all that we need? Have they prepared us for this world? Idk. It might hv been ten years since I left high school. But some of my teacher are still teaching up to last year. Idk. Things might hv changed but they didn't. I wonder. It's sad to see people getting older.