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March 9th 2024, 11:33PM

It's gay. If you listen to their voice it wasn't quite like a woman. A trans woman can have a male voice with testosterone but a trans man couldn't have a female's voice.

I bought something from Temu for the first time. Ever. I wish to buy something that is until $275 things that I don't need but just to try out something from Temu , but I spent only a little.

Childhood movie .

The recent meteor in Portugal reminds me of this movie : A movie that I watch when I was young. (2000)

2023

Chancellor ft Taeyeon - Angel.

I can buy a new one but I am at an age where I no longer writes. That's why my previous writings are precious. Because it is my work all those years. I can no longer write when I'm old. It's not something that I do. I stop at 2018. I guess.

It still remains a mystery.

All of these songs reminds me of a timeframe.

I'm thinking if it's time I leave everything behind. And with what I've known and learned ..

I may have lost my track. I may have lost everything. But these songs aren't lost. It reminds of back then. Of each timeline. Reminding me of an era. Released on June 2014 : October 2020 : These are what I'm listening to back then.

My other "recent" diary looks like this : I bought it with my first sister when we went to a museum with her friends one day. I write a lot in it because it has no lines. So you could imagine a free flow writing in it. Compact. I think I use it until 2018. I may have bought it in 2015 OR 2016. Idk.

I've always write in my diaries , that this is the eighteen year old me writing to my older self. Sixteen years old, seventeen years old, etc. .... This is so sad, that I can't read her words.

Before I look for these books, I looked up online to see if there's anything like it left, even just a picture . Like an embossed flowery notebook, or something pretty, like mine. But couldn't find it. It was meant to last for my next generations when I have it. I know it will no longer be sold in the future. I wanna keep my diaries until when I'm old. This is what I found in my searching just now, before I went to my sister's room : It's similar... But not quite like it. It's not the same production same brand. Similar quality. And my writings....

I went to my sister's room.. she has like a collection of books that are many since back then a long time ago. It's a hobby that we shared. But she's much more of a reader than me. She had completed her masters degree. Well, and nothing was lost. In her collection. This sister aren't here. She lives elsewhere. But, I'm shaking cuz I saw the collection that we had. My first diary, we all have it. My aunt gave it to me and us all. Each one of it. For us. She kinda started it. After that, I only buy the same brand the same type of notebook for my diaries. (I have lots of it over the years.. ) Though now it is no longer being sold. She gave us in 2012. (Before that I had other types of diaries. ) After looking at my sister's diary (her versions of it) , I realized that I have mistaken about the brand. I couldn't remember it correctly. (I've been searching for it online). It is actually a pop urban, not pop bazic. Another brand which are similar. This is my thing to buy this same type of notebook whenever I've finished writing in each diary. So it was like this : First I saw my second sister's diary In my first sister's room/collection. I just wanna see how it looks like cuz I have kinda forgotten how it looks like. I couldn't remember the words that are written on it. So I wanna look again, to my surprise, it is pop urban and not pop bazic. Just looking at these diaries that we all once had , I'm just shaking. Mine was stolen and gone. This thing is from 2012. Given by our aunt. To all of us as a gift. Only mine was in good condition. I take care of it well I guess. And all the writings in my diaries are all black, with only words. With the same handwriting. All in English. And at the back of it, I had a watercolour portrait of my fav artist. That I paint. A little bit. This diary had a pocket in it and that's what I put in mine. It was so precious. My diary is hot pink. . This is my first sister's version : I am surprised to find my second sister's (the first green one) Both the bands are loose. (Mine aren't like this.) I have a collection of these diaries throughout the years... And I have different types too as these are no longer available in store... The back pocket : And the insides : Mine are fully written with no pages left. I do miss my diaries.... And my artworks.

I few days ago I feel so bad about my life. I'm feeling I'm getting old. I could feel that I'm old now. And my life is nothing. I feel bad about myself.

I finally have bought the Danny Bear bag ☺️

I really wish that time would stop at one phase . Back then. If only, That would be so good.

I saw these images from X. And they just saw an angel in aurora. 11th May 2024.

I bought this for my mom : I didn't know today was mother's day. When will I become a mom? Anyway, my father drive me lol. And my other siblings aren't here. I don't know what to buy for my mom. A few things to choose from : If I bought this we could share it. It would also be for my father. 😄

I don't know, I got, another bad dream. 3:20AM Omg