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It was soooooooo weird. 1124. So I was about to go somewhere. In my dream. We are all in a big house / place. I don’t know. And I don’t talk my language with my bro. And some people are suspicious of us. My grandfather just passed away recently. My grandma a long time ago. But in this dream, both of them was here. And I put them in a car. Opening their doors. As you know, we are all about to go somewhere. From this house. Probably to the mosque for a big event. It seems like a really good night. I don’t know. Like a celebration. And we had a party at the house. This house isn’t a house that I’ve seen before. And there are many people. All of my relatives that I knew of. And my mom’s friend that I meet recently with her child. And of course my aunts and all the cousins etc. I write this dream from the last to the beginning. And then, after settling my grandma and grandpa, I was about to go too. But my things, I couldn’t find it. I had prepared it earlier and put it somewhere. Like my belongings what I would wear and what I would need in the mosque. But I couldn’t find it. I wonder if all this is because I’m not eating. So I’ve missed out on somebody or something. (In my frequent dreams I do not wanna eat. I still do not eat in my dream. I only eat something like a snack which my youngest brother gave me. And I don’t eat the other good things in my dream.) I wonder if it was because of this that I’m left out. inthat house that night (this morning) when everyone left, my mom says she had called some people to do a *** in my house. So it wasn’t completely alone. There are people doing *performances* but I was left alone without any other relatives. I don’t know. I couldn’t go. And I was sad. I had prepared everything earlier. Then soon after, (it didn’t take long at all) many more coming back from the mosque though not all. Like some female cousins. Including my mom. Some. And then my aunt call to open the door, she asked my mom’s friend son and a few others to sent the babies home. and, prior to this dream, I saw like something (a rack) had been changed into a plant rack. I couldn’t really make it what was it before, idk. Probably something yellow. But it had been replaced. While I was looking for my things. And even prior to this dream, I dream of something, like a recorder, I don’t know. It was a task. That can only be done once. But we had spoiled it. It can only be run once. Like write. Once you spoil it it can no longer be worked. So I had this thing, and what it recorded is someone being angry. And I was mad at my brother for letting this be the result. The other person is my bro. And way before this dream. I dream that my sister is putting something that smelled like a pee into my bag. Idk. And I told her that it smell. And she take it back. While smiling . Idk. Like ok ok. It was a camera? Idk. I can’t remember. And way before that, my brother, in this house too, brings in A LOT of BIG animals like horses and (idk what it is) cows? And it was big and he brings in one after another. To me. (And my sister?) idk. ( I may have forgotten a lot of my dreams) is it better if I had just eat everything that my mom/dad brings me? Idk. Am I missing out on something? Even this morning, they knock on my door for breakfast. As they usually did. I do have felt normal today and felt like it would be okay to eat , (like no threat) new day new morning everything are being reset. Like I don’t feel dangerous to eat when I heard her cooking this morning. But I thought, maybe I will only eat when i started to feel hungry. But will I lose something?

Silver turtle keychains.

I dream of a few things. It doesn’t make me feel bad like the previous dream. A few friends who never appeared in my dream , appeared. Idk. And we had a few refreshing food and juices. Idk. My mom was there too. And my practicing sister, and brother. We didn’t live together. I was with them last night. I don’t feel bad about this dream, it may not be the brightest. And there are some a few symbols in my dream.

I was a little better today than I am yesterday. Even though I missed a few things. I was in so much discomfort as I was about to get sick. I sleep feeling all my muscles was in pain. Was about to get a fever. But when I woke up, everything was fine. Prayer made me sick. And now when I missed some I’m a little better. Idk. I didn’t intend to. Usually in my sickest of all time , I wouldn’t missed my prayer. But yesterday, I wasn’t too sick but I was about to be sick. And now, I feel better, after some sleep. I don’t know. I may have missed out a lot…

- Picture not me -

Now, they're back. I'm not eating anything ❌

Why suddenly give me?

After I've wrote this , 😳 there is someone knocking my door twice. And I'm not opening it. And now , 3 hours later I went out. Everything was dark. The light wasn't on. And nobody was home. (Otherwise they would just be home.) I went to the kitchen, front living room and noticed that no one is home. So I went to my mom's room to check whether she's home. But she isn't. And when I return to my room, I saw that my key that my mom asked from me a few weeks ago was there. She returned it. So I'm home alone. With this key being returned to me. I have thought about it yesterday, (like we're travelling , and she told me to let my sister in law borrowed my home key. So I let her and they haven't returned it to me even though I'm back. I'm asking for it when I arrived. From my mom. But she didn't give me. Yet. Until today. Why? ) and now everyone aren't home. God knows what they planned without me after my conversations with my neph & niece just now. Well, who knows what they're doing. It might be because I didn't open the door just now.

@Rigel do you let go of your responsibilities altogether? Or if you are in a airport, you have a really heavy carry on baggage would you leave it to feel light and throw it altogether? Throwing it anywhere as long as you're not carrying it? @Hojo you've clearly didn't read. I'm tired now~.

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It shouldn't be me. If anything they should talk to the police. (Not me)

I asked my niece & nephew , (since they sometimes brings up about me went to that hospital.) if they are stealing my things while I'm at the hospital. Or if they knew who it was. (They are just a kids but they do understand) . Or if they were in this house. (They are) And I told them that if it was not them it was those who are in this house when I'm not around. And my nephew are very kind and innocent. They are not lying. He said it wasn't him. And I asked him if he went into my room back then. Or if anyone went into my room. (I know everyone did) . And ,his younger sister , said she did stole my gold. She was quite innocent. Even back then , if I asked them who would steal my things she would say that she did it. Like a young girl. I was curious about it. And just now, (I have only told them once about my stolen things.) and now the second time, because I was cleaning my table. And she again said that she steal my gold. I was curious about it. She said yes , and then no. And when I told her what her punishment would be, she became scared. He asked me why? And I said because you steal it. And she said she will return it. And she brings me the little beads that I gave her a few days ago. Indeed, she was too little back then to understand. But her brother remember. He says. Maybe , she was 2 (?) idk. And her bro 4 years old. So she didn't even know what a gold looks like. I know and I was just curious without any hope on her. She said she steal it. But of course she didn't. I have only talked about this with my mom. And she ignored me / dismissed it. I haven't confront anyone about it.

I should probably be mindful of what I put in my body. What I eat and what I see and what I hear/listen to. Because I got a bad dream last night. (Today) I should probably not eat any of my sibling’s cook. I should probably eat only my mom’s cook or other professional’s cook. Or better yet not anyone. Idk. My bro made a pizza last night and I decided to try it. Or, if it wasn’t that, probably what I see. It’s very important to only be with those with good energy. Or high. So glad that it was just a dream. I can forget about it.

An AI didn't know me more than I know myself. (I put my other dream in ai and it just , re-tell my dream. so idk. ) I love all those people , everyone in my dream except the teacher and the money collector. Including the strange people outside because they didn't do any harm to me & spare me.

❤️ I actually dream of a baby again yesterday. Someone brought it to me. But this time, I do not like this baby. Because it wasn't mine. And the person who brought it too. And I think this baby had been raped. So I don't like it. It's not in a good condition. I'm not leaving any of my things.

I got so many dreams , I wonder if I should write it,

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Wtf ? I could if I wanted to . Eww

I just feel like I'm carrying a stone on my back.

I saw this girl on Instagram asking chatgpt to make impression about her IG feed and she got dissed by chatgpt as though it was a human. So I tried : I had a good laugh

I love what you've wrote. this too. When I was younger, I was into these too. I have his book. And many others , that I've read. You know, when I say that my parents are no longer practicing , in her room , she had a big picture of someone on her wall. And the angels wouldn't come into your house. With that. So you know, what should I do? Torn it to pieces? I never keep pictures displayed in my room or house but my mom did. I remembered when we are younger, she would tell others to take down all their family pictures and frames. In their houses. But now she kept two pictures of a man who was not her husband or fam in her room. Idk. 😑 I wish the angel would still visited my room. There was someone who sees light from space , coming from the houses of someone who's practicing. When we first came here, he would told everyone to take down their animal/human like sculptures , or pictures. As that would not invited the angels to your house . But now, they keep it.

I dream that my mom is the thief who steal my things. And I cut her clothe and her hair. There are , actually a more serious things happening in my life now.

أَوْ كَظُلُمَـٰتٍۢ فِى بَحْرٍۢ لُّجِّىٍّۢ يَغْشَىٰهُ مَوْجٌۭ مِّن فَوْقِهِۦ مَوْجٌۭ مِّن فَوْقِهِۦ سَحَابٌۭ ۚ ظُلُمَـٰتٌۢ بَعْضُهَا فَوْقَ بَعْضٍ إِذَآ أَخْرَجَ يَدَهُۥ لَمْ يَكَدْ يَرَىٰهَا ۗ وَمَن لَّمْ يَجْعَلِ ٱللَّهُ لَهُۥ نُورًۭا فَمَا لَهُۥ مِن نُّورٍ ٤٠

8:10AM I do not, wanna go back in time. I wanna reach new heights upon new heights. Do not wanna regressed or going back .

It's weird that I don't get nightmares when I'm here. (Again) And my dreams these days are a dream that I tend to forget . No longer a strong vivid dream. Idk.