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So I made a facebook account a few days ago or sometime ago and now it had been suspended. I only posted a few words as a test. To test facebook and then now its been suspended. I posted a few pictures too to know how it works but now I can't use it. Idk why because I barely do anything. I just write a few words. The last time made was also to access a service but only one time and I forget about it. But now it was suspended.

A mother of five for 30+ years vs *edit* a mother of four for 9 years. Vs every shitty mother in the world.

So what I say or do matters now. And not before. Because it will shape my reality.

And I'm looking through the hotels and the prices. And being the fucked up that I am now, no I wasnt, I dream that the place that are next to me now had turned been turned into a mix or sorts of hotels combinations. Mind you this had never happened when I'm young. My life are straight and right. equal. Nothing ever changed or disrupted. But now.. if I am God, or if idk because things are dangerous now. Imagine if its something that I deal with earlier this year. January 1st. And now its still is what I'm dealing with. The only difference is that it includes others when before this only I knew. And it would only be me. And I did went to that area , and see a lot of myself or my colour/theme there. I shouldnt be. This is why idk what to do. So I had to run sneaking out without anyone knowing and go? Because they've turned everything into me wherever I go ?; if I searched about x somewhere here they would make it x here. Like back then it would just be a topic , now it would be a physical thing. I said whatever I write would become a reality people mimicking you or , now im looking for a hotel , and then they turned the building next to me into a combination of hotels and that building. () It wasnt . It wasnt a building. A waste of my fate. It wasnt what I wanted. I saw there are four levels of it. All brand new . And a few other things. I walk in all part of it.

I didnt even went out in the middle of the night. But in my dream I did. Whose will was it? Whose intention?

The last one I could think of (that I enjoyed) was the Luca & Sara where they have a girl daughter and are into turning an ancient house into a new look. And then live in it. It just seems fun. Watching them. A good distraction. Consider that a luxury. To be able to* watch a YouTube leisurely. See their process. Without a worry in the world. I had been distracted away from them anyway.

I really didn't like it. You know my world are better. I sleep and then I had a strange dream. Maybe I should

When you are mis-step a little bit , things turns ugly. That's why I needed God. I'm so sick now. Im so sick now. Or to make sickening things surfaces.

God dropped me in a lot of places. Its only recently that things turned ugly. Idk.

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Where is this guy @Someone here ? Where he's going is where I wanna go too . Initially. It's close/similar. Even if I have to be my brother. But I've lost it. Where is this guy @Someone here ? Where he's going is where I wanna go too . Initially. It's close/similar. Even if I had to be my brother. Lol

There's no way you can deny Christ. It's too perfect. * ⬆️I write this yesterday. *Im saying this while being aware of their(?) notion of "hell" & "heaven?" (Idk if ive been to heaven) And ive been to hell a lot. i could myself be Jesus myself. I said this because once I woke up and I'm in India. It wasnt real but my spirit had seen it all. And you can't say no to it . I keep on being over and over again the spirit had to be alive. This I would say a good one . Arent a hell realm. Because at least i know i did the right thing. You just hv to follow it wherever it go. So Angel despise Satan and backed Jesus up .

They keep on thinking that I'm backing them up when I'm just thinking of running away.

My life is so unsettling right now. It wasn't fiction fictional. But really true. The longer (the time passed by /I get older) the harder. I mean , the more I am disconnected from the past and has no way of returning. It felt worser and worser , personally. In my real life. Unsettling. I can't. How much time has passed? And I'm getting worser by the day. A few days ago /or a week ago I might have what was like the last resurrection of my past (life). It shall never happened. Or hit or miss. Like something really good , if it did not happen you'll loose all your life. It was like everything been gathered all your fortunes. That's how I felt and it was otherworldly. But I was living in such a tough time. Hell. In terms of my relationship with someone. But it really does. Inevitable. I even lowered my standard. Unavoidable. And it was otherworldly. Wont be anything like it anymore. And no I didn't do it. And felt a little bad. Terrible. I'm thinking of a cope. Truly bad. Because it was yet the highest in my life. When I tap , into my aunt's number~ and I , do not know anything. It had been a long time that I'm disconnected from everything I've ever had or I'm ever with. It was really unsettling. And even right now . Because I've been verbally abused by (refusing to say what it is " *God* " ~~) the matrix in an unimaginable way and I ignored it. Because well what was that? I know I'm living in a fake or A.I. Simulation world so I tend to ignore everything strange. And I let it be fucked. Its been too long. My last thought last night was , that these oldies will just die in no time and will leave peacefully while for me, I had decades more to live. And they left after only giving me shit and painted my future. They will leave and die while I had to live.

Any post that I make is a net negatives. Because there will be people in my country or state that will claim it and use or whatever . Like sucking my post. I don't wanna be online anymore. And even yesterday the other day , there are people in front of my house and garage staging against me.y house is a public space it can be accessed by anyone in and out. There is no owner of this house. I dont even make myself public in this account. And then they'd be happier if I . I do not wanna say any of these.

Who makes their child toddlers below seven prostitute? Not wearing them clothes. And just to make it be seen and then accusing me or whoever as pedophile just for the sake of it. I can't avoid it because they live in my house. So its a constant flashing. Not in a terrible way but still frustrating because their plans are working. Its annoyances. Flash flash . Done. Whatever . Things running. In the past with my own child /kids (people I know) it would be as natural as it is. You'll find it cute and because its yours there's only love no outside forces no thing that's constantly waging war at you and invading your space. With hatred and vengeance.

In my country blue is like 7-12 years old. And things like , police. Official government police its blue. Security. Idk. And there was a time when i get back to this little blue and its hell. (Not the police blue) Because I kinda like that. I like being surrounded by police.

I'm sick and tired of being watched or invaded by those closest to me. Incest like. Because in real life years ago what used to be is that we're very much pro. Like having the finest boundaries if you would say. Now its incest like and its too bad. Imagine if your sister and your brother in law is watching your phone galleries. I wouldnt even sent a selfie to my bro or fam back then. Only to mom or sister or friends. And it was really toxic. Not the above to fam. If i were to watch an interest it wouldnt be a fam. It would be someone whom i can marry. A distant people. Someone whom i am actually attracted to and are eligible to have sex with or marry. Someone like me. But what happened was , it was too fucked up. They wanna create their own celebrity when there's plenty out there but they want their own people or race. Its so fucked up. Because they would say the world famous thing out there cant be seen but they would their own people. Me. When i am not a public figure or anybody. A private individual. Im not an artist. So they said its a sin to watch non muslim artist but in the background they would watch me . In illegal way. Idk how they do it but they would react exactly like they see me. It was too fucked up. Every words that i write public or offline or whatever to the point that i have to stop. But i cant or i will kill myself. It only happened when we become distant. And LEO WILL FUCKING DELETE ALL MY LATEST POST . Idc actually. Fuck it. But I got a feeling not only a feeling its true every taken down words of mine will be uploaded or used somewhere. In other words they kill me and take the credit of my words and say that its their word. They take down my word and then use it for themselves. Whatevr im in right now. But i hadnt went out of my house for a lonng time. So i wanna fuck it all together. And move somewhere where the house is mine. Not far. Still in my city but not here. Cut it off completely because they liked to play the role of me. A sixty year old become a twenty seven. A thirty year old or whatever. But imagine having taken my roles . And the thing is they had to kill me in order to do that. Thats their whole mindset like there is no other opportunity. Like not at all individualistic but had to take from others. Scarcity. Like had to take a hold of something. Like my mond back then are expansive. Everything is unlimited. Forever expansion and experimental. I can do whatever i want. It was from one person and then to everything and then stupified. Remember the ones i write a long time ago? They want to make it me. The ones that coming to news and i write about it. Like people changing their partners with each other and things going rampant. It happened to me. In a bad way. Because they read (idk how they know this is me as far as i remember i hadnt make myself known exactly so unless they did something behind the door or illegal , this account is still anonymous. They had vengeance. Idk. Like i cant even write something on a small forum lol leisurely. Who are those people? And i hadnt even write my country in it. And no it was pretty bad. The worst. June 10th 2025 | No one

Would not want me to get married or have a child. When I hadnt had my first. And... There was things like I had to do it without them knowing prior to being known and that is possible /a given. Lol.

Surprisingly though , for other it did not matter. It wasnt. Blood related thing but age related. Its hard to be

Whatever that I dropped behind me they will like it.

When you missed the first creation? That's the technique. So you waited behind someone for years if a misstep happened then you'll take whatever is. So the point is to never have a mistake. At all. The older i get this is what ive learned. Or even for lifes. Millions of years.

Today I want a lot of Ice cream.

They really be watching my phone.