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Can you give reasons for this? My statement "Kundalini = feminine energy" is based on reading it that way. The one argument I have is that it seems more a "I need to let it happen, I need to let go, I need to let it rise" type energy, meaning more passive than active. As it is seen as sexual energy, it's more a "opening up" to it then an active, penetrating process. At least as far as I can tell up until today...

I did a shaktipat in 2019 ater a friend recommend to try it. After this, nothing really happening for many years. Until my last 10 day vipassana retreat. Kept my spine and neck straight, let go of ego as much as possible and I felt how my spine corrected itsself through countless little twiches, erecting itself, sometimes really powerfully stretching my whole body. On the mental side...let's say it the 10 days were veeeery intense. Sometimes I felt like a dream like state, I clearly connected to parts of me and the reality around me that I did not even know existed. Many other things happened during and directly after the reatreat that made me feel incredibly connected to this world but also scared the shit out of me. At one point, I felt that if I completely let go "I" will "die" during meditation (I panicked and stopped). Took me two weeks to more or less process the 10 day retreat. Did not think much about Kundalini until some days ago. Out of nothing, two old students of mine, both women, contacted me. We chatted a bit and I told them about my retreat. They pointed me to Kundalini. Again did not think about it much until today. Today I checked the typical "symptoms" of Kundalini awakening like twitching, heat, sudden laughing or crying, emotional instability. I experience all of that. Moreover, I found out that Kundalini is seeing as female energy. Especially the last part makes sense for me because I notice that my interactions with my girlfriend become very...let's say different. It feels like there is much more going on in our interactions then just "normal relationship stuff". It feels like I can sometimes pick up traces of archetypal energies, primordial female and male expressions and even tap a little bit into some insights that feel very much like the collective unsonscious described by C. Jung. Can't do it on purpose but I perceive "information" that is far beyond what I am typically aware of. As I was reseraching Kundalini, I remembered that my gf has a snake tattoo similiar to kundalini images. It's so cliche symbolic you almost have to laugh out loud So my questions: Anyone willing to share his/her experiences? So if the kundalini is female energy - what is my "male" energy counterpart within the body? How to balance the Kundalini energy? Necessary at all to balance? How is the kundalini awakening for women vs. for men? Other hints and advice? Bonus content: Maybe I am getting delusional, but the "external" relationship stuff with my gf seems to represent 1:1 my inner struggle to deal with this awakening energy. With struggle I mean that it's not easy to "just let the kundalini engery flow". It's shedding many layers of ego, uncovering deep emotional charges etc. One random time I almost had to throw up in the shower because the inner cleansing process got so intense. Same way, my gf seems to struggle with some of my recent behaviour and vice versa. She wants some stuff but has difficulties to let go, and the same goes for me. Right now we try hard to align out interests while both dealing with waves of resistance and fear. What I am doing with Kundalini is trying to find a balance of "OK I just let go and let the energy come, surrender etc" , being equanimous. Same as with women, I know there is no way I can "control" the energy or make it do something it does not want to do. On the other hand, I don't feel like "just surrender and let it happen" is the only right strategy. I have the impression that I can somehow "use" the kundalini energy, or better that I can "cooperate" with this energy to create mutual benefit for me (my character, avatar, human shell, whatever) and this primordial energy itelf. During meditation, I do this by synchronzing my breath with the kundalini energy waves in my body. Maybe this is what Yoga (unity) is about? Aligment and unity between the primordial energy and our character? And the external phenomena such as the interactions with my gf are just symbolic for our inner processes? Happy for every constructive input!

You say that as if that were two different things. In my experience the one goes with the other. The more I let go, the more I can feel - something - let's call it energy moving through my body The more this happens, the more I am feel love towards me and others. The sensations in my body are just a byproduct The more this happens, the more clarity and wisdom I get re my behaviour and the behaviour of others. I remember a quote of Goenka (meditation teacher): "(...) and then everything will become so clear!" My experience is that indeed a lot of things become VERY clear

Watched it an wondered about the source. "Buddhist teaching" is very broad, there are many buddhist master, teachings, schools etc. Anyone with background knowledge? Is there a real buddhist background or is it flavored with new age stuff?

Horrible logistic nightmare! Infinite guest list. Infinite food. Infinite times answering the question "how old are you now? 😁

Are you talking from personal experience? Because I am. I know eg a person that came to money and power by using some methods that were not "morally correct" and he does suffer from this. He tries to pushes it down, he's highly functional, and in the core he's a good guy. But when we have deep talks it is very clear that he knows what he did is not "right" and this weighs him down and kills joy and happiness. Getting away with it in the external world is one thing - he was not "punished" but he punishes himself. There is another example that comes to mind...God maybe forgives but in my experience the dharma, the law of cause and effects does not. Generally I believe in this forum too often there is talk about people and things we do not directly experience. So all we do is speculate. @AtmanIsBrahman saw your username and thought of this song https://open.spotify.com/track/2Lc8Joh6Ma2zohr0O3sJ5w?si=NBLvv8rMQu6K4UEBSPbOGg

Agree with the "can't outsmart yourself" -it's just hurting ourselves. Also agree with the "don't feel remorse without seeing the impact". Take me to a butchery and I likely will eat less meat. Until then...little effect from just knowing "animals are butchered" instead of experiencing. Re your sticking point...good question. I think the answer lies a bit in the dark for everyone not really close to very corrupt people. Public images might be very different then private life. Lots of big guys in the third Reich for instance were allegedly addicted to different drugs. So I think you can numb yourself by distancing, by substances and by not being present (distraction is so easily available). Especially the last point - being present - is IMO crucial if you want to feel more. If you're disappointed and want to care more I recommend meditation retreats. Would be surprised if you sit a few Vipassana courses and still say that you don't care

So what you're gonna do with all this information you gained over time?

The latinas I met and I was attracted to I liked because of their confidence, their sensitivity and how they let their emotions flow - inside and outside the bedroom. No idea how representative this is - it's just my subjective circle of experience. And there is just something about Portuguese and Spanish accent that makes me crazy

With infinite candles to blow out? 🕯️ ♾️

Manuals are as long as necessary, as short and clear as possible. I created more than enough of them professionally and this guideline has been the most valuable teaching I received re this The point of a manual is to make best use of the item explained, not to explain how it works. Go to your car, fridge or whatever and check the manual. Does it explain how fuel is produced and burned in the car for energy? No, it says "put that kind of fuel into that hole" Telling someone a fact in a way that fails to convey the message is pointless. Which brings me again to intention: What do I want to achieve? I write for me or for others? What's the goal?

First Quote: My hypothesis is that you have a incomplete understanding of communication. My arguments are: Look at how the top consultancy companies in the world operate. "Cutting through complexity" is sth you hear a lot. I was lucky to work with e.g. BCG and McKinsey Teams for quite a while and experience it first hand + my own experience in consulting, teaching and advisory service. Look at how the top speakers in the world operate. Alan Watts comes to mind. Incredible background knowledge, incredible clarity, incredible storytelling, incredible structure, incredibly on point with his words. He can talk for hours and still there is almost no superfluous information in his talks. Look at how the best teachers in the world operate. Go back to your school or university times and remenber how good teachers communciate their points The key is in my experience to KNOW ALL THE BACKGROUND INFO but to communicate only the relevant, only the essence, tailored to your audience. It's not to spit out everything, that creates confusion with both, the one communicating and the one listening Clarity and depth is shown by NOT BLABBERING OUT EVERY LITTLE DETAIL AS INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION. As much as necessary, as little as possible is IMO the best guideline Clarity about your intention is crucial. Most of times most people just start expressing without clarity. Me too, btw! It's a process every time again: 1) Picking up information / getting aware of it 2) processing it 3) integrating it 4) communicating it clearly with words and actions Leo is not a good example. I watched some of his video but was soon turned off. My POV: First, his appearance is full of arrogance, personal bias and harmful believe systems. There are e.g. people in these forum I consider far more developed than him Second, a lot of information in his videos is only provided to paint a specific, superior picture of himself. Third, there is a other information you could leave off without loosing the message There are indeed incredible value nuggets of information, I learned precious things but I neither like his style nor bis personality. I respect him as he is but I don't like listening to him and I don't see him as role model re communication Please continue telling me how I am, what I want and what I should do. That shows immense maturity and definitely strengthens the argumentative power of your position. It also is the exact way for you that leads to growth and development It also shows me that you have read my previous post in which I stated that I was to lazy to read everything, was not interested in understanding it and do not appreciate the diverstiy provided by other people. Great job! Much Love!

F*** yourself. There you go : )

My POV: Everything is communication, bc everything is an exchange of information. A post is communication because it contains information Long posts are never neccesary to get a point across. Why should it? Don't see any reason why that should be so. It just shows you lack the clarity you have yourself to express properly your message + you loose the audience in the process. It happens to me often. I think and/ or write 1000 words and when I am finished I am sometimes lucky and I see that I actually only need 2 sentences..if at all. If you just want to express for yourself, don't post it in a forum, write letter to yourself at home Agree on saying nothing (or minimum of information) is often the best...not easy to do but the more I evolve, the more I see the value of that Why you judge the post as "smart"? "I will try to think of ways I am projecting" --> projecting now? : )

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On LSD, I saw that the world is simply a collection of colourful geometric shapes. On mushrooms, I realized I am just a character playing to be human. After a deep Vipassana meditation, I got the idea that everything is just a story. During deep Vipassana meditation, I saw how everything in "my" life is 100% "my" doing, every interaction happening exactly as it should, simply outer appearances reflecting my inner world. (Incredible transformative but not easy to integrate 😂) In everyday life, I could experience the connections of all things, how information travels from one person to another without these people ever talking to each other. And probably the deepest awakening experiences came during seemingly mundane interactions with "other" humans. A deep intuitive awareness that I talk to this man/woman in this very moment but that I also communicate with sth/sme else. Sometimes I have this even with animals but it's much more subtle. And crazy synchronicities in every day mundane life that clearly are a signal from something beyond this world (even if I don't know what the meaning of the signal is). This feelings of surprise and sense of humor when a particular situation happens and I am like..."Really? That's how you play it? Ok you're a funny one😅"

I tried to read it all but lost the meaning of what was said It's also not my first language For me, the art of communication is to reduce complexity and to find the least amount of information while keeping the meaning / message intact. (Often, I fail doing that) Storytelling of course can deviate bc you may want to create tension, curiosity, excitement, emotions whatever. But even then --> less information, more clarity is better.

Try to put it into a maximum of 2-3 simple sentences?

For me, as of today, it's like that: Manipulation -> making an effort to control situations and other people's behaviour to achieve a certain outcome while hiding/ masking my true intentions--> might work in the short run to a degree Difference influence vs. manipulation: I influnce people by me must being me. No intention of changing them, just expressing myself If I think sth will be good for sme else, I am as open as I can be about it, not masking my intentions. Trust is important: Does the other believe that I truly have his best intentions in mind? I might be wrong with my recommendation, but my intention is pure. Medium to long term you will get a backlash from manipulation People don't like being manipulated, causing reactance. They feel if you go against their own motives You also loose. You can't control reality and as long as you try to, you will never be free You can't create feelings or actions in other people, no matter what. Only thing you can do is bring attention to what already is. Example: I walk down the street with my friend. There is trash on the street and I pick it up Manipulation: I pick it up because I want him to be more eco-conscious etc., that's my primary intention. And indeed, maybe he picks up trash one time, maybe even so that I see it. But as soon as he is unobserved he stop giving a fuck and leaves the trash where it is Influence: I am silently picking it up simply because I feel like doing it. He is observing that, feels my true intention and does not feel pressured to do the same. But if there is a inner desire to also pick up trash in the future my actions bring attention to his desire Grey Area where I don't really know how to see it: I pick it up and say: "I pick it up because I feel like it, because I feel it's the right thing to do for me. But at the same time I hope that my example will cause others to do the same."

@HojoI can see what you are talking about. I can recognize the mechanism and the way I see it now, it is EXACTLY the way you described. Yesterday I would not have understood it, now it's impossible not to see it @Someone here Interested in proving Hojo wrong? Anyone knows the "Samadhi Series" from Daniel Schmidt? Watch the first ~ 20 min, there he adresses the mechanism. Quoting him: If you are identified with an illusory self, then you are asleep. Once you are aware of the prison, if you fight to get out of the illusion, then you are treating the illusion as if it is real and you still remain asleep, except now the dream becomes a nightmare. You will be chasing and running from shadows forever. Samadhi is awakening from the dream of the separate self or the egoic construct. Samadhi is awakening from identification with the prison that I call me. You can never actually be free, because wherever you go your prison is there. Awakening is not about get rid of the mind or the matrix, on the contrary; when you are not identified with it, then you can experience the play of life more fully, enjoying the show as it is, without craving or fear. In the ancient teachings this was called the divine game of Leila: the game of playing in duality.

Have a good lunch you all : )

What happened to not responding?

Thanks for clarification. In a strange way, this makes complete sense : )

Sry, I can't follow. Lost the context. Curios to understand your points, though. I am not paying attention when I am doing what? What is not making love? Women would do what with themselves? Thanks !

Ups I kind of feel caught with the idea "ego want so benefit and thus let's go of control" @VeganAwakeThe rest of your post kinda makes sense for me intellectually, but also not really. Guess it's because there wasn't the experience of ego dissolution. Can't really imagine the experiences of no self. How does that look in practice? Are there no more thoughts? Very few of them and you are very aware of them? Are there no more preferences? Or you have preferences but are OK if things turn out to be different? If someone ask you e.g if you want to move to city x or city y - you just say "let's see what happens"? Or is there still the idea if "I want to moce to city X". And is this then a false egoic thought? Kind of trying to grasp how life looks after the end of the self-illusion...