theleelajoker

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  1. What's practical then in your POV?
  2. "Becoming conscious of what is = insight= change how you relate to it". I like that. Did you create meaning by creating sth I like? 🧐
  3. Ok, I'll let you know once I've been through the process as well
  4. You have been through this process? And now you're back in attachment, reality?
  5. Ok, I think I approached that point twice. There was this "ohhhh if I feel this more, if I let go more, I dissolve" Got scared and stopped feeling. Was afraid I won't come back to this reality. What happens after the realization you describe?
  6. Think about this for a moment: Animals don't think of strategies how to mate They don't book pickup courses They don't discuss for hours with their friends (m+f) when, how to behave, what to do, how to approach, analyzing etc Why the **** this stuff seems necessary in our current culture? Every concept, every strategy, every reasoning you create in favor or against doing this, that location, and this approach and bla bla is creating more blockages in your head. ITS UNIQUE EVERY FUCKING TIME. Except you want to live like a robot, good luck with that. OP already has good points on the harmful programming. Yes, women are attracted to good vibes. But the same goes for men. And friends. Woman are also attracted to men that show sadness. And men like women that express true sadness as well. Same with friends. So what's the lesson? People like when other people show true emotion, authenticity, truly living. And guess what? That's what you want for yourself. You want to be your authentic self. So the best way to be attractive for others is to be you, to express your self fully without BS strategies. What's best for you is what makes you attractive for others. That simple? Yes. And the this stuff about the 10s and "most attractive women". The most beautiful woman I dated drove me crazy because we were not compatible long run. Most men seem so fucking determined on finding the outward "hottest" girl instead of the one that makes both partner feel good. And then get frustrated when they don't get what they should not want in the first place lol
  7. Short answer: yes. It changed after I tapped into this feeling deeply without acting on it other than talking about it. Also, a guy responding "how you know the alternative is better?" gave me pause. Short time after mood was trending up.
  8. @Nilsi @AION Very interesting for me to follow your discussion and lines of thought about Jung and Freud. Makes me questions some of my understanding of the psyche...and my relationship to my parents
  9. OK thanks will observe.
  10. Ahhh you mean deeply going into it, facing it, feeling it instead of avoiding pain? So in a sense avoidance of pain = suffering but feeling pain and it just becomes a feeling? If you mean this: For psychological pain, suffering disapears for me when directly experiencing it. For physical pain I could shift limits during retreats, but being burned alive as in the example I don't know if it's possible to go that far.
  11. Don't get the question, you're hinting at no self?
  12. Yes, similar experience. Once it was getting slowly sober again from a Club night on MDMA. She appears right in front of, just arriving when I am leaving, meeting at the wardrobe. She's looking gorgeous, super sexy, great vibe, so goddamn my type. She teases me a bit, challenges me a bit...I know what's happening but my mind is like a pudding. She knows it. She leaves with a smile like "you had your chance, but you didn't show up, now I'm gonna go and (maybe) get any guy I want" I think I also asked for her number but she laughed it off...and I get why The reason..well, I think it's a feature of reality. It's the game. I tease you, I show you what could be...and then I leave! It keeps us all engaged in the game, in reality, right? The story you tell your friend "holy shit she was so hot, she was interested but I just could not do it... next time I'll do this and that!" And then, from time to time, the opposite happens, they basically jump on you only thing you need to do is to not run away lol + What @Schizophonia wrote. Wanting vs. having.
  13. Ok I was about to write it's not true... but I remember one time where the girl clearly had pleasure teasing and rejecting me 😂
  14. Had good ONS. Had shitty ONS. But best sex was always when I met the woman more often, building intimacy, trust, understanding, harmony, balance over time.
  15. How is it possible to understand sth that is changing every single moment? Your understanding will always be one of the past, won't it? The moment you "get it" it will already have moved on, and because you understand, this understanding already changed what is, reflecting your understanding, opening the next, and the next door to change, and so on...
  16. Point taken, I would NOT love the physical experience of pain in your example. I would scream and beg to get out this. But then I can unconditionally love the part of me that hates this painful experience?
  17. Yeah what you do here IMO is describing "the rules" of how things work. When you say "optimal adaption" then I would add that this WAS optimal, and now it's time to further adapt. Hence the price we are paying, forcing us to change. Maybe you meant it like that, don't know. Action, action action. Every single action connects with another one, reality HAS to synchronize I my experience. All you need to do is act, and then carefully observe. Once I became aware of this, everything changes. So, we know the rules of the game, now it's time to play
  18. During my last ayahuasca trip, something strange and unexpected happened: I got much less high then I expected. I took another round, still not much happening. It's was certainly not the Ayahuasca itself as the shaman doing it with me got very high. I had a certain feeling, a subtle message that accompanied my experience. Don't try to get into high states, don't seek this extraordinary stuff. Engage with what is. So the your question: Psychedelics or not: How do I create lasting (permanent) changes in my state of consciousness? My answer is: Be aware. Interact. Act. Act. Act. Act. Take action. Be aware. Take care of yourself. Take care of others. Engage in physical 3-D reality. Maximize love for yourself and others. Whatever your understanding of love is - towards any human, friends, family, partner, strangers, colleagues - maximize this. Other then this, Vipassana as mentioned above has been HUGE for me. But it's training camp, not the real game. Action, action, action and awareness is key. Life will put you into situations where you have act. Raising consciousness will happen as result is these actions. ❤️
  19. In support of your statement: http://www.cosmicegg.org/intervista lilly1.pdf Not saying everything he says is necessary true... but re descriptions and explanations of reality it seems to me he did invest a fair amount of time and energy to look for answers...only to realize it's best to stop looking.
  20. Love this 😂😂😂
  21. How you know this? You met every human that ever existed, exists and will exist? Are you telling a story to justify your own POV? See the comments from @Breakingthewallabove. Be what you want to see in the world as best as possible. See what happens.