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@Someone here Why do you need a religion to be with god?

The ego likes to clinge onto extremes.

@steinberg No i have to correct this thought with a more accurate one. The masculine side is supressing the feminine side wich was vunerable at that time when you put your sensitive awarness (the lsd could make you really open to this and perceptive to it) on your inner working of your different polaritys regarding this topic. This could be a reason of your strong nauseating feeling when thinking of getting fucked as a female. Explore this feeling. Really feel into it. Maybe supressed shame that puts you at extrem points at both of your polaritys not able to balance out. Im not sure but my feeling says you should explore this!

@steinberg First of all i would further disolve the trauma to see clearer. Secondly you have to consider that this substances take your conciousness experience to an extrem point out of your ordinary ego perception. In that kind of state you could directly get in touch with your female side or soak up other female energys. Maybe at the time of the traumatic event you percieved yourself at recieving end of the interaction, where as the other party was the dominating manly part. Associated with the pornograpic projection of that film that was innterconnected during that experience which shaped it greatly. Might try to speak about the material that was seen during that time as well. So you might supress your masculinity out of the sheer terror of the event. Everyone has a femine and a masculine aspect psychological speaking and spiritualy thinking, it does not mean you immediately have turn this into a problem regarding sexual biological identity.

In regard of the brain: It depends more one density and the number of neurons and how they are interlinked and connect to each other. Or better to say how they assamble to each other i think. Brains a very unique and i dont think the size ressembles the actual usability. So i think shrinking is not a problem unless you go smaller than the neurons in the brain if this is even a thing. Also i think shrinking is not a good idea.

I dont consume pornographic materials. Women do also consum porn. This does not imply a real reason why women would not consume porn in some sense. But you are right the majority of viewers tend to be male.

If you have knowledge on this topic please share it with me.

@Katerina Riverside Even when there has some partial awakening happend in some sense or intense symptoms have already arisen (I guess this does not equal the awakening state)?

Thanks for the (for myself ) unexpected advice. I will look through everything. Thanks for the detailed awnser.

@at_anchor Thats a good starting point. Mindful eating. Meditation as a daily habit. No coffein. Or drugs like alcohol and nicotine. Reduce social media and mindless scrolling. Reduce multitasking. Deal with heavy metals. Gather information on impulse controll and addiction. You have to educate yourself, advice from this forum alone is not enough and cant grasp the whole aspects of the problem. And dont settle for shallow books or trendy advice. You also have to connect with your emotions and deeper rooted psychological issues. Behind some cravings often hides an unresloved emotional issue. Or maybe your throid is involved, hard to tell. You could also check for nurtiant deficiencies. Also glucose from complex carbohydrates (squash, sweet potatoe, potatoe, vegtables;..) and sugars from fruits are part of a healthy diet not the other way round. Also replacing chips with pork rinds does not do you any good. Maybe try carrots instead or something. And you could eat dates of fruits instead of some strange dessert. You could also check out Anthony Williams Books, which gave me a lot of info that helped me. Here is also a excerpt of another book that came to my mind. However, food can also be directly addictive. For example, the amino acid tryptophan, which is found in abundance in chocolate, oats, and milk and meat products, is a precursor for the neurotransmitter serotonin, which improves mood. Normally tryptophan competes with other complex amino acids for entry into the brain, but an increase in blood sugar, which can be accomplished with sugar, white flour, and other "fast" carbohydrates, decreases the blood level of all amino acids except tryptophan, leaving it without competition for entry at the blood-brain barrier. This is an excellent recipe for addiction. Chocolate chip oatmeal cookies anyone? Fisker, Jacob Lund. Early Retirement Extreme: A philosophical and practical guide to financial independence (S.158). Unknown. Kindle-Version. Also Leo has some helpful books on nutrition in his booklist. There is alot of information but be careful there is alot of nonsense out there and losely interpreted studies. But at the end you have to see for yourself whats works after all its your life. I tried to give you an overview not a definitive awnser, because that would not be possible in one comment. I hope you find what you seek to move into a holistic direction.

@Nilsi What was this video about? It aint available anymore.

I think thats just one cause. This sounds like something Freud would say.

Dont forget environmental pollution that can heavily influence your system (chemicals, heavy metals, plastic, and toxins,....) and being cut of from how reality works ( no advanced stuff, i mean things like how survival works, nature; taking things for granted, lacking the conciousness how things interplay and come to fruition) The last point is also effected by the things you already mentioned. Being stuck in pardigm.

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Start looking for the content not the structure. No inaction now. Dont be the dreamer who ignores every detail and gets crushed by the elements. Analyse whats happening, reality based variables, forget god for a moment. Also look inside for fucks sake you are always pointing your finger saying god is doing this there and makes something over there. God has become a depiction of a pinata for you. You act like its your first time experiencing hardship and now you already wanna give up dont you wanna know where the other option leads. "I have 0 freedom" and you want to accept this believe? Spark your ego,it seems like you still need it. Work to resolve your problems and your awnsers will come. I was dragged through a mental hell with similar shit happening. Im gratefull now i love exsistence more than ever before in this lifetime. Its okay to be angry at god let all that emotions out he can take it. Best regards, the cancerous god who doesnt stop wasting his time for your sake.

Hmm interesting. This just came to my mind. My imagination is a mirror image of the 5 dimensions. So would the higher ones be the mirror itself.

Now i just have to trick myself to actually believe i life in my imagination to acess the 6th, but my imagination is limited to 5 dimensions, so how can i sit in the 6th dimension when i percieve myself in the 5th?

@Hojo I see what you mean. In the perception of space/time it comes down to the perspective of god/exsistence and how it chooses to see it . Aka Self-deception. Maybe. Everything above the 4th dimension could behave entirely diffrent or more complex. In the Absolute all dimensions could be inter connecting so deeply that they all become one only the distinctions of perception/perspective could let the image of a specific dimension appear.

This would ressemble the same transition from our 3D reality into the 4D reality. The illusion of time occuring or better to say motion.

Sounds interesting. But your description of 1d sounds like 2d with the illusion of 3d. Where it would ressemble the same transition fom your 3D reality into the 4D reality. The illusion of time occuring Also how did you know you went "behind" god?

I would rather say god is the current dimension of reality, the self opposed limit and the adjacent dimension, which dont have to be direct "neighbours". Also i dont think dimensions line up linear. God is way to tricky. But this is just my opinion. When you say from your experience what do you mean?

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@Schizophonia It also dumbs down your emotions. Its helps for impulse control, while simultaneously damaging exactly that areas wich are responsible for impulse control.

If you are really sick or struggling, breath work is not going to fix you. Breath work is really difficult for people with anxiety and even worsens it for most anxiety sufferes, especially those with sensitive vagus nerves, causing neurological symptoms such as tightness of the chest. Breat work is not going to make lupus, neurological Lyme, eczema, fibromyaglia, Parkinsons, or MS go away. You can bring in simple, gentle breathing techniques -- if they feel supportive and you are also staying hydrated and getting enough glucose, electrolytes, trace minerals, and macro minerals such as magnesium and trying to stay off caffeine." Medical Medium Brain Saver Book page 84. I hold this as true. Speaking from my own experience. I did it regulary in combination with much sport activity and used to be a habitul coffee drinker. Little did i know that the depressive and mental symptomps i used it against where linked to another cause. I did feel some possitive effects at first but slowly my adrenals and nervous system could not cope any longer and my body went into a slighty shutdown. I endend up running on adrenaline. Luckily i stopped and started got better. In my case i already had some things going on that were not a good combination. So i would be certain about your health state , why you use it and how you use it and how it affects your body not looking at the immdeate results, but more in differences of doing it 1 week on and off. Balance. For some people it helps but for some its a mistake and is not a good idea. Of course you have to decide for yourself if you hold this information as valid. For me ending coffee and breathwork was crucial.

Its true. Can you see it? Maybe you noticed it today. I sure did.