Schizophonia

This topic has a hysterical vibe. By symbolizing what you supposedly must become, you actually make real what it tacitly signifies in the present moment; that is, what you think of yourself at this very moment, that is, saying you're a loser; It's a trap. You must embody your "ideal" self right now, right here, right now. Of course, it's easier said than done, because of the ego, but oh well.

Doesn't have any importance.

Psychedelics actually inflate my ego most of the time and the increased motivation comes from that.

spot on

In my egoistic interest.

Was it intentional? You could have taken an antipsychotic or cyproheptadine.

@Eskilon @Sugarcoat I also said that to criticize and flex like a low-conscious monkey lol. Nevermind.

I meant the required cognitive intelligence and implication to understand. I meant tacitly it's not the best paradigm if you want reach "awakening",having higher understanding of reality or simpler well being; At least for me. It must be a good book.

If you try to be strong in an "estrogenic" way, that is, by acting as an e-motion-al rather than a ratio-n-al engine. If I force myself (because it's forced most of the time, a regressive "anti-phallic" reflex) to be too e-motional (not even by acting excessively feminine like a homosexual, but simply by trying to seduce by injecting emotion, even if it takes a confident and pseudo-masculine form), then I'll appear repulsive and unmanifest the girl proportionally. I would even say, even if it's a level above, that you consider it as an e-motional engine—she will brutally manifest (what Carl Jung called synchronicities) a negative relationship of the other gender, while the opposite, which I will describe then, will manifest attraction and positive reactions. What works with women in my world, on the contrary, is to function as a rational engine subject to the emotional, impulsive karma in general of the great other; It could be a big, noisy car, using computers, going fishing, getting involved in politics, etc, and it also involves others (not just women, in fact, but social relationships in general). This translates into a typical "stoic" and "naive" attitude. So you can desire women; Women love to be desired, but you have to be needed, not needy. Be at the service of others and not be the center (in the emotional sense, again). Tobacco, especially when consumed in a "harsh" way like a pipe or cigar, orients my self-concept as a desiring machine (by projection of the generated emotional karma) for "tough" women; typically with feminine but muscular curves, a bit argumentative, energetic, who need something very involved, at the disposal of their anger. These are typically Latina women, to give a caricatured example. It disappears a few hours after quitting smoking. Alcohol gives off a vibe that matches women who are kinder/gentler but still feminine. Caricaturally, Latina and Slavic women. Cannabis is the most castrating drug. Cannabis smokers are the ones I see most often dating ugly hippie women.

It’s practice; I have a very high university level of French. I could write a hugh hugh book on the French language. Spirituality is also actually one of the easiest subjects.

You mean you stopped to react ?

Did you apply a particular method ?

I thought to you this morning. Not to fap lol, but because I had sleep paralysis/lucid dreaming. I do it all the time if I fall asleep in the morning since I met you. Yes, especially since mine tended to be very heavy, intense and negative. I think it was even reflected on my face, I rewatched the video I made and I died of cringe seeing my energy and my face; it's obviously completely linked.

Life without love is too bland.

Have you been meditating again these days? I was practicing a little a few weeks ago but I don't give a fu** anymore lol; I'm just monitoring my mental speech according to Neville Goddard's course, and doing intensive introspection as usual.

Yes, but it's like going to a restaurant, the bigger the choice, the worse it is: I prefer an excellent menu to a large menu with an uncertain inferior result; always the simplest and most potent epistemology.

I have a cordial relationship with them and they are generous, even though we have little in common.

Not just for women; I myself was on the verge of anorexia in high school. You have nothing to fear if you're at least a little careful; It takes a lot of willful indulgence or a metabolic disease to become obese or even overweight.

Electrical engineering was a bit of a struggle without the right equipment, so I decided to relearn programming. I'd played around with Python and C a bit, but that was a few years ago, so I decided to switch to C++. About an hour a day, to keep me going, maybe two if I don't have the time/inclination anymore, but two hours is great. I did my first hour today using only chatGPT. It's incredibly useful; now, with o4, you can even upload a screenshot of your code. If there's a problem, ChatGPT scans it perfectly and responds. You can use this feature for anything and everything; to help you find a problem in your car's engine, to find out the brand of clothing a YouTuber wears, etc.

That's what I was saying to @Sugarcoat ;Too much German blood, you are doomed to become fat, wear sandals and slippers, and annoy my colleagues in the south of France every summer. Jk

@Flowerfaeiry And me a little clairvoyant That said, siddhis are always the ego; When we think we're telling the "truth," meaning objective truth, about someone, we're actually creating them. By corroborating/projecting our own system; Echo chamber and all that.

You still need to be able to be romantic with your partner, otherwise it's not so different from being friends. Paradoxically, meeting someone who matches your ideal self can make you more stoic, but it's a defense mechanism generated by shame.

I like Earl gray with milk.

I'm sure that if tomorrow a nice 5/10 with a flower dress invites you to her house you will become hard as rock.