Schizophonia

People who are naturally thin even with a lot of calories have a very active HPA axis. People often think it's a thyroid issue, but that's not true. A stronger thyroid does increase oxidative phosphorylation but in 90% of cases, it is just the HPA axis. Because you're rich in glutamate, or directly in catecholamines (because of a low MAO-B), in Histamine, because of a low or even very low synthesis/release of serotonin, because of too great a conversion of Dopamine into noradrenaline etctectec. The causes are numerous. ? Vice versa for people who have difficulty losing weight.

Chronically repressed CNS deihibition

You don't seem weakly androgenic, and doing the gym "to be more masculine" will on the contrary push you into insecurity. Well, you do what you want, but looking back I feel much better (and more “masculine”) in a chill lifestyle. ? Without worrying about this kind of thing...

Don't do that. Testosterone is not going to turn you into a hulk at all and will cause you lots of problems. Believe me.

The confusion comes from the semantics of the notion of ego. The fact is that “selfish” pleasures in the figurative, common sense are the least selfish in the true sense of the term. Taste only slightly involves the ego, whereas compassion does.

Love is selfish in essence. Altruism is an illusion.

Desire is the purest form of love.

Lol

@jdc7733 You are right, god also imagines these scenarios.

GIVE

Even without medical errors, this has happened to people I know who were addicted to benzodiazapine (the anesthetics are barbiturates), and even to opiates.

There is only the will of God. For example veganism: God dreams of loving to kill and eat animals, , which implies a dangerous and ego-threatening world. -Either you capitulate, and enjoy this fatty and juicy chicken thigh. -Either you resist, you rebel against God and try to recreate the world in a version that protects your ego ("oh eating animals is eating corpses! it's bad! you have to create a world just because blah blah blah") And you will find yourself eating borring bean porridge armored with tomatoes, turmeric and random spices.Then you will desperately try to rediscover the pleasure of animal foods by cooking your potatoes in the oven to rediscover the maillard flavor, putting a ton of oil in your dishes to add flavor, etc. etc. I could cite plenty of examples like that.

When I was younger I unknowingly practiced Satanism. I was always daydreaming, either about having a girlfriend, an "ideal" life in general, or on the contrary ruminations, painful but liberating scenarios, like being seen as the new mad Hitler/tormented because of of his childhood blah blah blah, etc. May seem pathetic, it's true, but it has allowed me to remain a holy and sensitive person, despite enormous, almost permanent stress. When I abandoned this source of artificial love, I gradually became more borderline, autistic, incapable of truly being relaxed to the point of becoming severely insomniac, uncreative, etc. etc. A while ago I tried this again without even bothering too much, I imagined that a girl was going to like me, people generally, and for a day or two I again felt filled with love, with proper sleep, a deep and powerful voice. Until a certain person in my family came to break this flow because of their tyrannical behavior, as usual.... I guess psychedelics play into that.

“Engineering” is what most current students do who don’t know what to do with their lives. In fact it's boring and the salary is getting lower and lower. They are basically the new workers of the contemporary world and it is precisely for these reasons that I quickly left my engineering school.

Nothing made me more constipated than dates. A “typical French” diet is best for my transit, empirically.

Lol. You need a psychologist, nothing else.

Hate is addictive because it gives an illusion of control. It's the ego.

You can have a girlfriend within the month easily if you want.

Femdom is obviously a mental illness.

Oh I didn't know, what's the taste like? At the moment my favorites are the camel essentials. But think I'll leave the cigarettes and switch to cigars from time to time.

epidemiological studies, without much value

Lol, either it's a nocebo effect, or you are hypersensitive to caffeine.

Yes, you are a person of average intelligence in a developing country. Cooperate with this, for your own good.

Not exactly. The whole challenge is exactly not to fight

Try your training again (or another), and this time work. You can't base your life on daydreams, just be lazy and to be indecision all the time (especially if you're an average person in a third world country) and come cry on the forum because you don't understand why you have a poor professional situation, and a poor situation in general. Or agree to work at McDonald's or be dependent on a husband. ? I'm shooting you next to the head like this because I feel you need nothing more than a pressure shot. If you do not feel capable of being sufficiently independent then make arrangements and ask to be coached/monitored, separate yourself from distractions, throw your headphones in the trash, change your smartphone for a touch-tone phone without applications, etccetc.