Schizophonia

I'm not going to push them too hard, just limit certain things. Living in middle age isn't just acute suffering, there was suffering and pressure all the time. Ofc you can. Yes, but by being paranoid, we're not starting anything, starting with children. I say it'll be fun, we'll find solutions.

@RendHeaven I want to have several children, i would say 2 to 5 to give a large scale (according to my income, the will of my wife etc). I don't even see the point of living at long term without having at least one, for me hapiness is in construction a of a tomorrow; taking care (and dominate ?) an buisness, a country, a wife and then logically children. I don't see many alternatives, which is one of the reasons why I've completely stopped being interested in nutrition; it's simply a useless libidinal investment. Hapiness = responsabilities, at least in my system. I don't know what the world will look like, so this is a comment to be taken with a grain of salt, but I would be careful with new technologies; they will be very limited. My children will find other, less-brained children to socialize with, and they have brains, so they'll be able to forgive me and even find it very good. Children, or at least teenagers, have brains too. If you're at least a little normal with your children, there's nothing to complain about. And even if they suffer, well, that's life. There are times when they risk being massacred and tortured; now it's other challenges. If we project cowardice onto our potential children, well, yes, it's better not to, but well, I trust my sperm, eheh.

Why not.

I've been reflecting a bit these days on the fundamental reason that pushes me to behave one way or another. Why do I decide to make a joke or not, what kind of joke? Do I make a serious face or a smiley face? If I'm texting, do I use this smiley face, another smiley face, or no smiley face at all? Do I write "ahah," or "lol," or "Okay, I'll stop," or "Jk," or any other verbal tic, or do I leave it out? Do I specify something? Do I hide something? And so on ad infinitum, in everything that constitutes interpersonal communication. The solution we usually give is "Be yourself," except that "be yourself" is an illusion. There is no real self; it's just not true, a lie; There's only the ego, that is, the inclination to construct an identity, a mask, to narcissify oneself; and the pressure of this inclination generates a predominance of maintaining a language that's effective in maintaining the ego, and therefore a feeling of continuity of personality. But this is purely relative; it's all based solely on memory, on limiting beliefs. Even what we believe to be the most "pure" and desirable, the most romantic, the most abundant; behind all this, there are only limiting (relative) beliefs; it's a charade. If there are no more limiting beliefs, there's no more interaction; no more love, nothing; just a pseudo-depressive collapse. In fact, from a certain point of dissolution, there's not even orgasm or pain. You could be masturbated as much as you want, or dismembered; There would certainly be automatic reactions due to the remnants of ego, but it would no longer have any substance; because no matter how realistic the hologram is, it is still just theater.

Homemade fruit/vegetable juices.

No girl says that lol. Or for fun, eventually.

I like astrology.

I've been followed by some really pretty and nice girls because I talked to them once, and rejected by some not-so-attractive girls. It's just vibe; not even about commonality, nor even energy; it's deeper than that. And vibe regularly changes, and so the kind of girl you attract; the kind of girl I attract changes all the time depending on the day, beliefs that dissolve, others that are born, etc; but that's maybe just me these days, it will stabilize. It's twisted because true/higher self in an illusion, it's pretty clear to me now.

Are you on ritalin ?

@AION How is your drone business doing?

I also know several person in this position.

What do you mean ?

Bodybuilder bodies are not natural anyway.

True 😎

Yea my mother is high energy, implied, even agressive and suffer from insomnia; and my father is kind, hard working, avoid conflict, and almost hypersomniac.

Literally my parents

I’ve heard several time women saying that more body fat is cool for hugs. It’s time to eat more i think

If I was ugly or had mental problems or simply not had pleasant vibe for some reasons, these are things that can be corrected. I'm not against cosmetic surgery, if you're really ugly you can spend a few thousand at worst tens of thousands of euros (that's the price of a new car, what is that in a lifetime for an investment that will potentially change your life), less outside the West, to become much more attractive.

Btw, men are less accepting of anger, and that's why it's expressed physically. We get angry, we fight, in a "masochistic" desire to internalize it, to seek peace from the outside. Women are the ones who really enjoy experiencing anger, hence the apparent lack of anger in women. Women's TV shows only try to generate anger, through stories of injustice, sexual relationships that shouldn't happen, and that sort of thing. If you have sisters or a mother, you know what I'm talking about; this kind of show is unwatchable for men because it's just too perverted, it generates too much anger.

Women also always have worked. I'm going to spoil my next topic for you, eheh: Men aren't stoic and masculine in general (naturally, not in a way that's ape-like) because they inhibit their emotions, but rather because they are so accepted that there's identification. Since the emotional vibe, soft, rounded, romantic, contemplative, which is actually the "self," is already fully accepted, is already "here," you will automatically express yourself in a more "neutral" and masculine way, less emotional, because you no longer have the unconscious pressure to seek yourself outwardly. The other is nothing more than something that eventually (a woman) wants to sink in and let itself be carried by our "self." If you think you should refuse to be emotional, it's actually obsessional neurosis and is tacitly based on social failure; a belief generally distilled from the Oedipus complex. Besides, I've already said it, but these types of men are actually more fragile than average and have masochistic fantasies. My psychoanalysis instructor explained this in a video, and I came to the same conclusion when analyzing my own fantasies. Even though I've always been pretty vanilla, I see differences depending on how my psyche works. I'm so full of emotions, so full of myself, that I can't be anything other than dominant (in this case sexually, but in life in general) because being dominated would eliminate possibilities; it's like reducing myself to the other, to their "phallus," as Lacan would say, would diminish my emotional possibilities. I want to expand and expand, to share, and that translates into "domination." It's only when you're empty, when the self is denied, that it becomes interesting, I suppose. I'm okay with being an entrepreneur, playing team sports, going out with girls, etc.; not because I'm not afraid, but because I accept, even enjoy, fear and stress. Most guys on the internet who talk about being "tough" and stuff like that are probably actually cowards, I've looked at it but I don't see how an androgenous man would end up on YouTube saying stuff like that lol, it seems impossible to me. People think it's hard to be a man, but they say it because they're not in a masculine, masculinizing vibe; they're in an "estrogenic" vibe (aggressive, manic, competitive, tough, but actually a coward...). It's like putting gasoline in a diesel car.

@RendHeaven What I meant was, why don't girls want long-term relationships in a traditional country? I live in one of the most socialist and atheist countries in the world, and oddly enough, most girls want a boyfriend, a long-term relationship, love, etc. I've never met a girl who wanted to hook up or anything like that; it just doesn't exist. And yet I know plenty of people. It seems that the more individualistic and capitalist a country's culture is, the more manic people become, and sooner or later this will wipe out any collective consciousness, no matter how reactionary it may be at its core.

I don't deserve this medal i just eat half a kilo of peanut butter in some days lol. No pb I couldn't live in this country, it seems quite inhumane. And you so, did you managed to get a girl eheh If you don't mind.