Schizophonia

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  1. Love is the most conscious emotion. The weaker the ego, the easier love (or even libido, on another way) is; it is ego defense mechanisms that block it, even if it is not easy to see because repressed. It's as if a rat thought it had conquered life by isolating itself under an old cupboard while waiting to die. Low ego is not energy loss and calcification, it is actually high ego; Low ego is love and integration, like under 5 MeO DMT. Or closer to the state you were when you was a child/teenager; youngness, vitality.
  2. Something I noticed, and my mentor noticed as well, is that the people who most pretend to be or seek to separate themselves from the dream the most are actually the ones with the strongest egos. If you had little ego you would be peaceful and benevolent, because you would seek to integrate; One can only touch the “1” by integrating, never by intersecting. But you are not looking for love here, you don't want to give love you are looking for a girl you can use as proof that you are powerful. Because "truth-seeking" is just a survival strategy, basically a way to show off in front of your parents, it's no more important than any phallic substitute. But since you're fearful, probably because of a poor resolution of the Oedipus complex, you try to foist the phallus on the woman, to use it to narcissify yourself. So when you think you're against the dream, you're actually being more narcissistic than most other humans. The only way to decrease ego, to « win » the dream is to stop fighting the dream. Because fighting the dream is in the dream !!
  3. You will find it, just keep looking. Once on a forum I saw a post from a gay guy from New York who explained that he had been banned from Grindr for having explained on his profile that he had become a Christian and wanted a serious relationship; gays in particular are encouraged here and there by sick people to adopt a sexually manic and self-destructive lifestyle.
  4. Be aware, it’s a believe in your persona to think that the opposite sex doesn’t want to commit with you; even if you have all the qualities (smart, spiritual, cook, caribbean cuisine wears high boots…), eheh. You don’t see for the same reason any limiting beliefs exists, but men also have this kind of persona. Not twisted on the same way automatically, because of gender, but close.
  5. Tight-fisted You shall show to us. Tomorrow or the day after I'm going to my local market, I'm going to try this pistachio ice cream, among others. I come baby. Jk
  6. Yamete kudasaiiiii
  7. I want to do my pretentious French and make fun of what Slavs call marshmallows with chocolate as a pastry.
  8. 5 MeO MALT wasn’t sexual at all for me;,4 HO MET always feels sexual. Maybe the dosage was too high.
  9. It's not that you shouldn't hunt, it's that you shouldn't cling; just "fill" what there is to fill. It the uterus who traps, who clings because of its muscles; a penis is like a big vein, it’s not made to cling, just be hard. Normally men tend naturally towards this state of detachment, but it can generate a morbid state of mind, even an inclination towards suicide. The more morbid I am, the less problem I have with women, and the more masculine I am in general, but that can be dangerous for someone who represses mood problems. If what i say is comprehensible.
  10. It’s true 🤔
  11. I’ve read that sleep was correlated to testicles size. I didn’t notice change myself but if it’s true you must have big ovaries ! Ok i stop Yea Maybe, i don’t want to argue.
  12. Soon the sleep issues 😅 Yea i know well I myself ruined my fingers from biting them. Fortunately it's not too noticeable, it's a detail. Anxiety can be essentially subconscious. Yeaa i remember. It helped a lot.
  13. Oh it looks quite good actually, i could eat it. i think i recognise the brand ahah , i recognise the sandwiches on the right. I think i already eat it at Uppsala station if i remember well.
  14. @Sugarcoat Too late i read the post. No pb, it makes me happy to interact with you. 🙂 The more time passes, as I gradually let go of certain beliefs/attachments, the more I like this kind of music, the more my vibe becomes « rustic » in general. More morbid, comfortable with death desires, but also less anxious; btw I stopped biting my nails without wanting to; it just curiously happened in the process.
  15. He just looks good, he could do without his « gay friend technique »
  16. Have you tried cocaine or amphetamines ? Or 5HT1A agonist like buspirone or 5 MeO DMT ?
  17. Ofc Maybe Yes you’re right
  18. Lol, it’s a bit that yes. I just want one can feels good being with me, you can’t do that if you’re too tired, or are still some kind of mental struggles. I doubt.
  19. I know, It's just that I don't want just anyone. There are plenty of girls who can make me horny, but what's left after sex ? I want someone special, with common interests. And once you're with someone you're stuck, I don't want to hurt people unnecessarily.
  20. Wily has luxury tastes. And for opposite reasons btw lol. I need transfer you my dopamine surplus. I always sleep now but my sleep schedule must be improved. Was it your last dream ? ahah.
  21. Hardcore insomnia for several years. My sleep is till meh today, because of anxiety. I’m also socially isolated and i don’t want to hook up, i want a girlfriend. Thanks.