Schizophonia

Help me

Yea you them ehh you like those good omega 3 in your mouth

So imagine French baguette 😏😏

That’s because you’re shoving it into your mouth instead of breaking it into pieces with your fingers and eating it.

Given that it happened a long time ago and he has a family he should perhaps have been given a more "symbolic" sentence such as a massive fine, community service, an electronic ankle monitor...

He is interesting

The outcome of Actualized forum and all this burned karma; cooking crack in Poland

She tried to block me with her tentacles and engulf me. Fortunately I had my trusty axe with me, it was a close call.

I thought that too and then my crush turned into an octopus and tried to eat me. Always be wary of women

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfdWvZbPFDR/?obrf=MXdyNHlhMDF5cTVmMg== Thank you mr non dual multicolour octopus

Day 1 I lost a lot of time due to a prolonged period of almost 3 years of severe insomnia where i had between 1 to 4 sleepless nights per week. This insomnia was triggered by a combination of chronic stress, use of stimulants (especially coffee) and even testosterone/DHEA to see if it would improve my physical appearance (actually turned me into a psychopathic beef lol) and my sports performance. Insomnia literally destroys you, you lose your motivation to do any type of work, your verbal and mental fluency, your humor, your empathy and even your physical appearance; It's really horrible, i can look like a 7 out of 10 on days when I slept particularly well and if possible avoided masturbation and sleeping pills, but otherwise be mistaken for an old heroin addict. I wasted a lot of time doing nothing and now i don't have much money or a social circle, my life is kind of shit, but that said i can sleep again and the bad sleep cycle is mostly my fault which means i have the energy to be productive again. I need more money, i want a professional career and/or a hobby, why not a sports career eheh, i want a nice car, i want to express my creativity. Currently i feel like a person close to forty, i'm not a zombie but i clearly lack energy and libido, vitality in general, i can work, i think i can also more or less defend myself if i am physically attacked, i can do things in general but it's not optimal. To help me both recover from my insomniac period and actually exploit my full potential i decided to take inspiration from a French youtuber (Thomas Mayer-Chéret) and to (among other things obviously) start seminal retention, it is not my only source but it is my main inspiration, it is one of the only youtubers that i still watch because i find him funny and pleasant to listen to, nevermind. From a dual and rationalist point of view, seminal retention is supposed to allow the maximum accumulation of metabolic energy. On the one hand by removing the sedative "reward" caused by orgasm (prolactin spike) and then by allowing the accumulation of spermatozoa which it seems can be recycled by the body (hence the use of turmeric in certain spiritual practices, supposedly having the capacity to increase the destruction and recycling of spermatozoa for the benefit of the body (it is therefore not recommended to use too much turmeric if you want a child)). From a point of view beyond duality, we could precisely say that seminal retention is a bridge from duality to non-duality, from the finite to the infinite; Empirically, deprivation of masturbation gives you the energy to manifest your selfish desires, the first time i had to deprive myself of masturbation for a long time was in high school because of a frenulum plastic surgery (which was not enough lol, which meant that i had to do in fine a circumcision, nevermind), and i who was usually shy, even cowardly, thought for the first time to see a random girl in my class to tell her that i liked her (which was not entirely true, but for some reason i had targeted her😂 ). In this journal i will of course talk about seminal retention (i hope not to relapse obviously, but that should not happen), but also other subjects that are close to my heart, i spend a lot of time ruminating on many subjects without ever having the courage to put all that into form, this will be the opportunity. This journal is also and above all a way to finally get involved. I will stop there for this first post, i have to keep some substance for the others eheh; The goal will be to make one post per day.

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Day 6 One of my parents and I collect plush gnomes lol. I don’t know what it’s like in other countries but where I live you can regularly find them in shops and they vary depending on the season. It’s quite funny, because lately my Instagram algorithm has been regularly showing me humorous videos of people seeing gnomes after consuming certain types of hallucinogenic mushrooms. Apparently this is particularly associated with those that act on GABA or glutamate, such as fly agarics. There’s even a psychedelic theory about these mushrooms being involved in the origins of Christianity lol. Even Bashar/Darryl Anka once spoke about how certain molecules that, once again, supposedly block GABA (the opposite of what benzodiazepines or barbiturates do), supposedly allow people to see things that are “not normally visible, filtered out”, potentially including little mythological creatures like these.

If you've done that why are you still writing a wall of text in a thread to criticize a book and humiliate the people who are interested in it? You're still talking to yourself; you're falling into the trap. Now all of this is easy to say, it's an easy persona to adopt when you're on the comfortable side of things; when you're not ugly, disabled, living in poverty etc. It's true that we're rational by nature. Now Joe Dispenza for example, regularly helps people recover from illnesses that are often considered incurable. Unless you think his YouTube channel and the hundreds of testimonials are some kind of digital Potemkin village lol. I personally know someone who has witnessed people being healed of conditions such as Parkinson's disease, someone else who managed to meet fruitarians, people who could change the weather, who could make women appear out of nowhere to have sex with them lol, and so on. If I understood what you wrote well

Activities/job.

It's about gaining perspective. It's as though we were experiencing a fractal, and psychedelics allowed us to shift our attention, our consciousness, toward the realm of potential: everything (all the other fractals) that is not this particular fractal, yet remains connected to it because we are part of infinity. So if this point of reference expands enough, the ego finds itself confronted with, and starts imagining exotic or even extremely bizarre representations. Sometimes these can make quite a bit of sense to the ego, and sometimes (especially with LSD, for some reason, in my case) they seem monstrous. The positive side is that attention gains a broader perspective, allowing us to realize how absurd it is to keep falling back into the ego's concerns, thereby making them real. The ego's concerns are ultimately futile and exist out of habit.

Day 5 When I was taking driving lessons, I experimented with different psychological states to see whether they would affect my performance, almost as if I were changing or modulating my persona/"vibe." I noticed that "alas" the state that made me perform best was being "uptight." After making a series of mistakes I would get annoyed, feel slighted, shut myself off, and focus on the road with narrowed, irritated eyes. And somehow my driving would become good. The same goes for sleep. My sleep has improved drastically and is still generally much better, although it remains imperfect. Sleep hygiene and mental well-being in general certainly help, but I noticed that deep down there was a resistance to forcing myself to rest and relax. So, in order to actually fall asleep, I also needed that same "uptight" vibe. Finally, to give a third example, I noticed that refusing to act in bad faith in any situation; stopping myself from getting angry, being resistant, or acting passive-aggressively, would trigger these kinds of emotional states. It seems that this (much like all negative affects in general; I'm simply choosing this particular angle to approach the subject), ultimately goes back to the primordial wound of separation. There was a birth, an entry into a relative and dualistic world that inherently involves limitations. The ego experiences these limitations as something being imposed upon it and defends itself against them out of an unconscious fear of death or failure to reproduce, since that is fundamentally the game the human ego is playing. Thus, to avoid what Lacan would call "symbolic castration," we develop various defense mechanisms that essentially make up our personality and "vibe" in general Everything; from our ideologies to the type of ice cream we prefer, it has been conditioned—epigenetically or genetically, which is basically transgenerational memory—to maximize our chances of survival within a context that was imposed upon us (or at least, that's how the ego perceives it). This resistance to separation effectively makes it "real" within a non-dual framework; the ego claims to be an ego which in turn makes it "real" and consequently asserts that "it" exists and so on. This is the irony of non-duality applied to itself; the duality between non-duality and duality; if assuming what I'm saying makes sense. In Buddhism among other traditions this phenomenon is referred to as karma: the chain of resistance that sustains us and keeps the cycle of rebirth, the wheel of samsara, in motion. But sometimes, paradoxically, moving toward what actually serves our interests requires sacrificing the persona we've developed up until that point. This brings us to consciously recognize the very reason we developed that persona in the first place: the so-called wound of separation. Deep down, human beings are quite simple, and more or less all want the same things. And alas the more they dig themselves in, the more they react, the more they actually worsen their own situation; this is what is meant by the devil in the Abrahamic religions, the demiurge of the Gnostics, or the "maya" of Eastern traditions.

Go fasts lol

And you’re an idiot and for that matter a real racist. No the Revolution wasn't about looting shopkeepers. No they have a roof over their heads, have what to eat, clothes, phones, means of transport and so on; on average they are far wealthier than my grandparents ever were and yet my grandparents didn’t go around behaving like baboons. If they aren’t happy they can leave; no one forced them to come and no one is forcing them to stay. No it isn't. In fact in most places in France especially in the provinces if you were caught stealing even at a market it would result in widespread shame. Where did I say that you moron; you're diffaming me here I am always precise about what I say; once again it is actually you who is saying strange, hostile and generalizing things about Europeans in general like "And that's why Europeans are always morally and intellectually backwards and retarded, sorry to break it to you." Once again hostility and victimhood soup.

lol

Without turning this into a political platform: promoting the family (through pro-natalist policies, financial support or tax breaks for married couples), taking a hard line on law and order (death penalty, deterrent sentences, more police officers); and immigration (minimum quotas, no birthright citizenship; I understand people who argue that immigration is good for the economy and helps offset demographic decline but firstly it's essentially stealing labor from other countries, and secondly if you open your country up to poorer countries that also have much higher birth rates your own population and culture will eventually end up being replaced). Not too many taxes, and preferably relying more on VAT since it's better for businesses and encourages people to consume in the long run (you can even use VAT as a tool to achieve environmental or public health goals...).Sticking to meritocracy and not rationalize gender or ethnic quotas at least in public services... Now I also have some statist and liberal positions that would make me lean more to the left on certain issues. I don't know American politics very well at all but if I had to pick the candidate whose views most closely resemble mine it would perhaps be Mitt Romney based on what I've seen. The major problem with Trump is that, and this relates to non-duality, people on the right (although in other countries like France it's more the left/far-left that currently occupies this position; it depends) have massively fallen into the trap (which is actually a lowkey ego problem) of believing that someone they could negatively project themselves onto (narcissistically speaking; narcissism being what drives people to cling to their negative polarity; negative in the sense of accounting for limits if what I’m saying makes sense) would somehow fix their problems, when in reality all this does is fuel the pendulum. A , erratic person who claims to want to fix a problem will always find a way to actually maintain it or even make it worse. An erratic person will produce erratic results that's what always happens.

People have less money these days, are in general a bit less social, and the hype has died down

Yes lol indeed maybe not that.

Day 4 As a friend of mine online in my Discord group recently put it, which really made me laugh: "I stole from a store again I'm a good Arab" lol. He uses various disinhibiting drugs. Whom in particular that increase GABA neurotransmission such as benzodiazepines, or block glutamate neurotransmission such as alcohol, ketamine, PCP, and so on. These substances are known to make people say horrible things, commit crimes, or, worse engage in assaults, rapes... Well I'm a good Frenchman so I drink lol. Not very often; about once or twice a week I don't like being drunk It's not dopaminergic for me, it's more like taking a sedative or an antipsychotic. But I really enjoy the taste depending on the type of alcohol. Sweet/fruity alcoholic drinks are the ones I like the least, whether they're low in alcohol like sweet white wine or strong like bourbons. Beer is nice but hops get sickening pretty quickly. Red wine or even dry white wine is still a cut above the rest. Red wine is what I drink most of the time. As for my favorite spirits tequila/mezcal and especially gin. Gin has an excellent smell, somewhat reminiscent of orange blossom extract (at least the ones I've tried), and at the same time its taste is light, it remains dry which is what I like. If I ever felt like doing something just for the fun/to kill some time I'd probably try making moonshine or homemade vodka even if it's illegal. The government shouldn't have the right to hassle people who want to do that on the grounds that stupid people might potentially do something reckless and end up drinking methanol, especially given how easy it is to access information nowadays. I'd say I'm rather conservative when it comes to social values, at least in terms of what I'm aiming for, but ultimately I can't stand the idea of the government having excessive control over my life; there is a world of difference between advocating something and imposing it. I'm against banning cannabis for example; I personally oppose it, but I can't stand the idea of some government official being able to slap me with a fine for doing it in my own home, with my own money.

It's demagogy/populism backslash