Yimpa

@Leo Gura Nah, it recently got banned here. So I’ll stick to the legal, medical strong stuff

I have not touched my TX THC medicinal cannabis vape in over a month because of how ridiculously powerful it is. I actually spoke to my provider last week. I have to see a provider once a year to renew my prescription. She told me how they underestimated how strong it is - they don’t believe a 5 second puff gives 5 mg of THC - bypassing the conservative law. So now she recommends I puff for only 2 seconds next time. One deep, 5 second puff on the highest setting is 100% guaranteed to show me WTF GOD is. Too much Love! So, does it increase my consciousness? You bet your ass it does! https://www.actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-701

It’s eternal, so I am in no rush. I used to go crazy with multiple awakenings over and over again, which was useful then, but no longer necessary.

The good news is we are all on the same boat. Survival is a bitch.

Your entire life is a self-deception. Awakening will make this 100% clear.

https://www.actualized.org/insights/a-warning-about-solipsism

Work on balancing being selfless god and being a bullshit human. Balance is key.

Yes I do, openly since February 25, 2026, according to my journal. And nope, it’s not too personal! Suppressing and denying it is what killed me, so it is not worth pretending and keeping to myself/private anymore. Thank you for asking

Update 2: Meow-Mo-Beal is fixed and I'm back on the road baby!

Nothing! Love is in control of everything. Let’s see where it takes us

Knock-Knock Who is there? You? You Who? :

I no longer put humanity at the top of intelligence. After realizing Infinity many times, it’s so obvious that there is intelligence higher than human. This took multiple awakenings. The ego is too selfish and needs to be annihilated many times to really get this point. I’ve also realized that sharing these insights with close friends and family is futile. They don’t care and are confused. They think I am deluded and not in touch with reality. So I’ve learned to play as a human when I am with them and only work on consciousness stuff solo. My deepest awakenings are when I am all Alone, which is paradoxically when I feel most Unified and Complete.

Here is my résumé: .

Ikr?! I was OMW to deliver pizzas until that piece a shit hit me 😭 (srsly… that 17 year old girl did not GAF… i walked up to her to see if she was OK, and all she could cry about is how she would never drive again to see her friends. Good!)

UPDATE: Wahoo! My car just had a successful TOW to my local service center and she will be getting all fixed up. Her name is Meow-Mo-Beal! She'll be back to running in no time And shoutout to Mark... best service advisor evaaaa, he's worked on Meow-Mo-Beal many times! His last words to me today, "Let's see where life takes us."

That’s one way to look at it. And it’s not exclusive to the LGBT community. Even conservatives with their rigid ideas of male and female, man and woman and what each of their roles are. With that said, I feel much more aligned as a female, she/her pronouns. Being born and raised a boy and a man in a religious upbringing was hell for me, literally. I was forced to be something I am not. And was given conversation therapy at age 17 in a pathetic attempt to set me straight, which made me even more dysfunctional than I already was. I won’t go into details about how bad I got into dysfunctional territory, since they are disturbing and some outright illegal. I was lucky to not end up in jail with a permanent record. I traded hell survival to a much more values based and aligned survival starting at age 25 with, you guessed it, psychedelic therapy . Took me 8 years to undo the conversation therapy damage with psychedelics that opened the door to healing, and another 4 to process deeply in therapy. Similar to the amount of years Trumps in office, and undoing the damage. Survival, survival, sirvival. (edit: sorry for the confusing timeline. i’m not good at math)

Sirvival/Conforma’amty

You’re number 1 job is to realize that you are God, you are Love, you are Infinity. That you are hallucinating all of existence and all experiences, You imagined your birth, your life, and you will imagine your death too. This is your real job. Everything else is an illusion.

I’ve experienced death many times, and the common thread with all of them is the realization that there is no others. Only infinity. I’ve experienced different degrees of death/love. You can’t communicate it to someone out there since everything is absolute. You’re just communicating with God this entire time, it just becomes more clear and clear and clear and you keep cranking that dial up. People can still “talk”, but it’ll be so blazingly obviously: you = all that god is doing = all of it IS you. What used to be other, that’s what dies! I can’t even formulate it cus no formula ultimately does it justice, you just have to enter into the complete unknown until it becomes so clear and the aha moment dawns upon you. That’s what selflessness is pointing to. Death so complete that there is no longer any seperation between anything and you unify as everything. Also, death is not the end of experience. Quite the opposite. You are now open to possibilities that would otherwise be impossible in the paradigm you were previously locked in.