Yimpa

Love in its highest form is identical to you. You can become so conscious that you are completely aware that you are your father, for example. You’re no longer seeing your father as separate from you. Then you can “zoom out” and expand that to more and more, for infinity. This can be directly experienced after an intense meditation retreat or doing a breakthrough dose of psychedelics.

I had a vivid dream after doing psychedelics. It taught me how to stand up for myself, I was about to be raped! Taken from my journal: “At an outdoor event, I feel social anxiety and discomfort and decide I want to leave. An old man walks up to me and asks a favor from me. I feel uncomfortable and say no thank you and walk away. He follows me. I turn around and walk backwards as he follows me. Then I put my arm out and say “back away” and he comes closer to me and says “no, no I need your help”. Then I look behind him and see a crowd of people sitting down. So I yell louder “back away”. The crowd jumps in to save me, then I wake up from the dream.”

I treat tripping like I am about to have deep intimacy with God. I do it intentionally, committed to understanding what is true, and do not abuse it.

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I don’t have a strict technique or schedule. I do it whenever i feel i am called to. If I am extremely stimulated and need to chill, I’ll do a quick 5 minute silent meditation or walking meditation. I did that recently and it felt like a mini retreat. Afterwards, I go on with the rest of my day feeling brand new. The meditation is like a reset button for me, like when you unplug a computer and plug it back in cus it’s glitching out.

https://www.actualized.org/insights/no-ecological-awareness What should be done? Stop! That! Train!

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Say YES SELF!

YouSuck! iShit!

the highest value is love which is truth which is consciousness which is selflessness witch is god which is everything which is nothing jailbreak mind and get mindfucked purify yourself and transcend the self and integrate ALL

Yimpas @ Classic Game Fest 2026 in Austin, TX last weekend Shoutout to @Jannes for encourging me to attend. I was also feeling severely sleep deprived and mentally drained the night before (only 1 hour of sleep!), but Jannes reminded me of that there would be lots of beautiful things to see, so I wiped my tears, got up, and went I had such a blast and learned so much about myself that day! (more about it here). (I also went to the grocery store last night. The police officer guarding the door out of the blue complimented my hat; he said he's seen me multiple times (it was my first time seeing him, haha), and that every time he sees me, my hat puts a smile on his face

Yes, it was for a talent show. We usually wore uniforms to school, and I finally had enough being a prisoner in boy’s attire, so the talent show was a moment I could break free from the chains for a day. I stole the show, but in the worst way possible. That’s why it felt like being burned at the stake, I had humiliated myself in front of every single kid and adult in the room, even though I was being dead serious. Honestly, if I had a better support system, they (the adults) would have encouraged me take it further, but they intentionally kept me looking like a boy in a dress for the talent show. They were likely afraid to take it all the way. That is, makeup, wig, nail polish…. nobody encouraged me that that was OK to do and not wrong/a joke. Of course, no adult could truly guide me cus it’s completely out of their worldview. They were all Roman Catholic. Stage Blue folk. That’s what they call “socially transitioning” these days, those early years were an important stage for exploring the opposite gender. But, unfortunately. I really did just looked like a boy in a dress. And the consequences of not being able to socially transition openly and affirmatively were extremely brutal and consequential for the rest of my life. Had I pulled off being a girl for the talent show, I would have likely transitioned a lot earlier than when I did (age 12 instead of age 27) But my environment was not suitable for that. So all that shame was instilled in me and set me up for denial and avoidance of being with anything female (again, even though I desperately needed to deep down). My mental health would increasingly deteriorate the years to come, as I would continue playing the boy/man role. Mental hospitalizations, severe anger issues in private, school dropout multiple times (i eventually got my GED), etc. I stayed at home 99% of the time because of how severely depressed I was. All my close friends and influences would turn out to be toxic masculinity and my abusers/bullies. Even my fucking therapists. I looked at girls and women in severely twisted and perverted ways. I transitioned into a monster. It truly stunted my development. I didn’t break free from that nightmare until I started psychedelics in 2018. Still, it would still take me many years to deconstruct the horseshit and relearn what I intuitively knew about myself at age 12. The private school I went to was named “OLP/Our Lady of Peace”. Kids would jokingly call it “Our Little Prison”. They were right. The school shut down a few years later after I had left. science & religion they both suck.

B r u h (this was off a vape + tiny edible... First time doing an edible. I just took the heated plant material after I had vaped, and ate it. I was a noob at the time and thought it would do nothing. I was wrong!) (I posted this on another thread before, but I love this Short so much ) Simple math. Oh + My = God This experience was both extremely beautiful and terrifying simultaneously. It kept going deeper and deeper, which isn't shown in the Short.

My med dispensary recently released a new THC vape strain called Rainbow Belts. I wonder how that'll affect me... Unicorns?

My official relationship status is taken… by GOD! This bible quote is surprisingly accurate to what Awakening is like: In other words, the finite “dies” and INFINITY is revealed.