Yimpa

They do not hate women. They love and accept women as long as it fits into the rules of what a woman is, based on what their religion taught them. But this is not an absolute rule. For example, my mother is a conservative, but she has stage green values in her. So when I came out to her as a trans woman, she didn’t reject me and actually met it with curiosity. Me coming out to her has made our relationship 100x better than before. Before I transitioned, we were at war with each other. I was like Trump before.

God is your mother. You/God’s hallucinating your mother.

Kamehameha!

Sure. But Increasing consciousness unifies all avatars into One.

It is, until it isn’t! I used to be deathly afraid of needles my whole life. But then my health declined and I was essentially forced to expose myself to needles for blood work and medications. Over time and with lots of exposures, I now do not have a deep fear of them. It can even be an enjoyable experience now. Sticking myself has become an activity I no longer need to avoid and I do it regularly and it doesn’t freak me out anymore.

Buddhists deny God.

And obviously psychedelics don’t talk about GOD. How is that possible?!

Here is a beautiful, opposite example of that:

YOU. Climate change, am i right?

I stopped caring about the demons in my head and started living my life cus I love reality more than I love my fears.

I’ve hallucinated that during a deep trip, even with every possible safety measure in place taken prior to the trip. The truth is, no matter how prepared and safe you plan things out, you will inevitable face something extremely challenging within yourself. I think the point of this work is to overcome our fear of Death/Love. “But that was just an hallucination!” Yes. AND…. Even though that experience was a hallucination, it was 100x more real than what we consider this physical reality as a human. The silver lining is experiencing transforming into a phoenix after I had jumped and trusted God. I was all Alone with no therapist or human to save me. It was a powerful mystical experience and reminder that I am capable of overcoming hell, and that at the end of the journey, there is only I Am.

I’ve only ever done cannabis and ketamine! They both work as medical and spiritual tools for me. And both are significant. The ketamine (2022-24) was a lot more structured, as I did it in a mental health clinic. The first 6 trips were with a therapist, then I was able to do 2 or 3 solo (still being monitored, of course). Ketamine was invaluable for helping me face my traumas head-on; directly. And, of course, experiencing deep mystical states. I don’t use ketamine anymore since my physical body isn’t as strong as it used to be, and I don’t want to stress it more. Cannabis is something I used to take daily, especially to help me cope during an intense period of my life (2021-2025). Nowadays, though, I’ve found that infrequent, deep tripping is better suited for me, like how I used it back in 2018-20. But, unlike in 2018-20, I now use a MUCH smaller dose (more on that in the next paragraph) In terms of preparing for my trips… nowadays, I just go with my intuition when it comes to when and how I take it. I now take it only 2-3x a month. I don’t feel a craving to take it…… quite the opposite, actually. Only a SMALL amount hits me so hard and lasts much longer. I intuit that my hormones transitioning over the past couple years and finally stabilizing this year is one major factor as to why my relationship to cannabis has changed drastically. The same dose and medicine just last year would have been a mild trip. Now, that will send me straight to the moon. So I have to take half of what I used to. While I am tripping (not balls deep), I like to write and contemplate for hours and I walk a bit outside. Other times, I’ll be at a concert and let the music move me. As time goes on and things continue to evolve, I don’t doubt that I’ll go much deeper again, and that’ll surely change how I approach tripping. But, for now, since I just recently came out and I’m still getting used to and understanding this “new me”, I am taking it slow, safe, and strategically. I’m also using the breaks in-between sessions to stabilize and integrate the lessons and insights properly in a much less chaotic way

I will never have a baby since I am asexual and only do myself.

I’ve been following this Actualized stuff since 2014 💯s of trips (started in 2018). Seriously, this is the highest teacher, no pun intended. going thru the dark knight of the soul MANY times therapy. shit load of that (since I was a kid. been disabled my whole life) caring about Truth/Love/God and making that my top value I still struggle greatly with survival, I definitely suck on that front. Thankfully, I had huge gains starting around 2023 (you can read about that here if you’re curious). Despite the survival challenges, I would consider myself spiritually gifted. So genetics play a huge role, too. It truly is a gift and a curse for me! I am ruff around the edges 🐶

in conflict with your own self: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbbA9XmOXVL

self-bias

I like to frame it as this has been going through a metamorphosis. The forum’s a stage and all the users are merely players. Also, keep in mind your state when you come here, and also how you relate to it.

@Joseph Maynor I am surprised you have more posts than me! I looked at your posting history and noticed you took a 6 year hiatus (from 2019-2025). If I may ask, why did were you gone for such a long time, and what made you come back regularly now?

It’s a me

Reminds me of automatic writing: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Automatic_writing

“When the Buddha Awoke, the entire Earth shook in recognition of His Awakening.”