Jordan

I didn't meditate last night because it was getting late and I was tired. I also didn't film a video. I have an idea for my videos going forward. I will do 1 minute insights where I share an insight and explain it within 1 minute. Here are some off the top of my head: Doing 2 hours of mindfulness meditation per day is worth it Happiness is proportional to how much you accept your current experience Love is how much you accept things the way they are 10 minutes a day of exercise is enough to be fit You can choose to think thoughts that make you happy. Negative motivation can be replaced with positive motivation This morning I did mindfulness meditation for the first time in a week and I feel energized now. The time flew by quickly for this hour. I did stop in the middle when I heard some rain to go out and close my car windows. I did it while following the labeling technique though. I feel great and I am looking forward to continuing with 2 hours a day of mindfulness meditation

Everything is perfect when you stop favoring one thing over another. As your love for what is true approaches infinity, you see what exists is perfection.

I did just want to give an update on how my meditation as been going this week. I have been doing mantra meditation and I feel much more tired than the 2 weeks of mindfulness meditation. I slept 7.5 hours last night and feel more tired than when I was getting 6-6.5 hours per night the last couple weeks before. I have not been able to focus well during the meditations. After 30 minutes or so I will get distracted without realizing it. I might even check my phone and start playing a game without realizing. While doing mindfulness meditation I wasn't entering much of a meditative state but I was feeling much better emotionally throughout the day with more energy and less sleep than this week. After today I will go back to mindfulness meditation and see if it gets better again. I might set a challenge of doing a 10 minute upper body and a 10 minute lower body workout every day along with 2 hours of mindfulness meditation. I will put a lot of effort into sitting with as little strain on my back as possible to prepare for my solo meditation retreat I have planned.

I booked 3 weeks off of work starting in 5 weeks on Saturday (First day off July 5th). I will use the time leading up to it to prepare my body for a lot of sitting. I would like to meditate as long as possible during that 3 week break. I might still play some video games on Saturday with my Uncle like I usually do and go rock climbing for a couple hours on Sunday but the rest of the time I just want to be focused on meditating as much as possible. It might look like this on a typical day: 4:30am -5:35 wake up and meditate 1 hour before leaving my bed. 5:35-6:30 shower, cook for the day, eat breakfast, drink water instead of coffee. 6:30-12:30 meditate. If I need a break I can go for a walk and still follow the meditation technique mentally. 12:30-1:30 - heat up and eat my food mindfully. Clean up 1:30-6:30 - meditate. If I need a break I can go for a walk and still follow the meditation technique mentally. 6:30-7:30 - heat up and eat my food mindfully. Clean up 7:30-8:00pm text my girlfriend / screen time 8:00pm - 9:30pm If I need groceries for the next day I will go shop mindfully otherwise meditate 9:30pm - 4:30am sleep Up to 13.5 hours Also I do have some 5-MEO dmt I could use. I haven't tripped for 3 years.

Something clicked for me when driving to work this morning. It is the best choice to choose love in most situations. Love your fear, love your shame, love your hate, love your sadness love your weaknesses, love your life, love the current situation, love your choices, love your suffering love your job love your possessions, love the people in your life love everything as it is. Love is just knowing the truth of it and allowing it to be as it is.

I did an hour of mantra meditation this morning and my third eye is throbbing now 9 hours later. Hopefully that is a good thing. I guess I will find out.

I made 2 videos yesterday evening. The guided meditation is pretty close to how I meditate to get the results I get. I didn't add any music on purpose even though it might make a more pleasant meditation. I don't meditate with relaxing music and I think you will not get the same effects as without it so I don't want do dumb it down for people too much. Hopefully someone gets some benefit from it. Both videos have 0 views right now haha. My goal for this week is to do mantra meditation 2 hours a day 1 hour in the morning 1 hour in the evening in an attempt to get vivid dreams that will predict the stock market. I had 5 of these dreams in the past that were all accurate although it does take some interpretation to understand them, it wasn't that abstract and fairly clear to me what they were getting across.

I meditated 2 hours every day for the last week doing the 4 techniques I shared in episode 2. I still have an hour to do later today. I plan to film some more videos later today. I plan to do a guided meditation, a separate video on how the week went and my next challenge, go over how I developed vivid dreams with a mantra meditation and predicted the stock market based on my dreams correctly 5 times in a row. I will focus on just doing the mantra meditation 2x 1 hour meditations per day next week and see if I can get the vivid dreams back and get some stock market predictions coming up.

I showed my 2 videos to some co workers and I got some great ideas from them for improving. I will redo the episodes and jump right into the meditation and probably have separate videos for explaining for people that want that. I can make it more interesting by having some photos or infographics, or zooming in or out come up throughout the video. Also I can gesture with my hands more. I could make it much shorter and separate the information in these videos into more videos that just cover one certain topic so people can pick what they want to watch and not listen to parts they don't care about. I will also get several videos ready to release all at once so people can go from one video to the next if they find it interesting. I will see if I can refilm these episodes today in a more entertaining, concise and organized way. Then I will have something better to share with my co workers, friends and family.

Meaning is something you are imagining. There is no purpose to it but you can have fun doing it if you want.

Hehehehe Episode 2 is uploaded!

I am looking forward to making a video today. I have been feeling good today and looking back on the week, I had a really nice Mothers day with my family and yesterday I had a great time with another part of my family where we went out for dinner and did an escape room. I think meditation really changed those experiences with my family because when I look back on it, I had a much better time than usual. I only did 1 hour yesterday but did 1 hour in the morning and plan to do 2 hours later today to make up for the hour missed yesterday.

I have been meditating 2 hours every day since May 8th doing mindfulness meditation so 5 days. I haven't been able to get into a very deep state yet. usually I break it up into around 3 sits I will go through a phase of getting into a light concentrated state then after around 20-30 minutes it feels like my willpower runs low and it is hard to keep on task. I have been going to bed an hour late many days because I push off meditating till later and I have naturally been getting up 30-60 minutes before my alarm which is interesting. I have been feeling a bit more conscious throughout the day. As I drive I notice the color of the trees more. I haven't really gotten into a deep enough state so that meditation is effortless. I believe that when I release my video on Wednesday I will have the solution for this. I will add 3 techniques to my practice. The 3 techniques: 1. There is a breathing technique I have used quite a bit before that seems to quickly and easily get me into a relaxed, concentrated state. I will explain how to do it in the video. Then I will move onto the next technique 2. Mantra meditation. Repeating a mantra in my mind is super easy for my to focus on and seems to drown out other distractions. It allows me to go much deeper in meditation. 3. The forgetting technique from Leo's "guided exercise for realizing you are god" video. This allows you to focus better after forgetting things you didn't realize you were keeping track of. After doing these 3 techniques, I plan to do my normal mindfulness meditation. This should set me up for a home run of mindful sitting and multiply the effects many times over.

Hehe yes it was the first time I have used a green screen. It arrived the same day I filmed and I figured out how to get it working. It went quite smoothly and it looks a lot better than what the background would have looked like filming there. My next video I will explain how to make the meditation technique 10x more powerful then the 3rd week 10x more powerful than that If you are interested, stay tuned haha.

Do mudras really make a noticeable difference? I haven't experimented with them before. I will try it out when I have a bit of time. Hopefully tonight.

Yea money doesn't do much for you if you can already afford rent and food and save a bit of money every month. I wouldn't trade even 5 years of aging for $20 million. Maybe 1-2 years.

I tried strong determination sitting just now. I didn’t watch the video you shared past the first couple minutes but what I did is just make sure I move as little as I can. I set a timer instead of an alarm because I wanted to be able to sit longer without being distracted if I want to. I stopped after 1.5 hours. For me I felt heightened emotional sensations in my heart then in my belly fairly early on. I started dosing off after a while then being jolted back awake when I realized that was happening. During 2 daydreams that I had there would be a phrase one character says to another like “have you woken up yet” and he is holding someone that is asleep but moving trying to wake up. Then that recontextualized to remind me that I am asleep and need to wake up now. I received a burst of energy and became much more focused. I could feel clear sensations in my ribs connecting to the spot just above my belly button. I imagined god saying the same phrase “have you woken up yet?” In a tone like he would not be surprised if I had. I focused on the present moment and responded. “Not yet, but I am ready” I didn’t get much more present from then on, the state eventually started to wain and I stretched and stopped the meditation session.

I have done this several times but it has been probably a year or more since I did it. It was a much different experience for me than doing mindfulness meditation for an hour. There are times where I would feel waves of emotions feeling like they wanted to throw me off my seat. I found some coping mechanisms that helped like counting my breaths when I needed some relief. Usually at the end I felt refreshed like I was cleaned out from the inside. Maybe I will try it again today and see how it goes.

I joined a discord group of Buddhists to see their perspective on what makes a good life and satisfaction. If I ask about wanting anything such as wanting an increased baseline consciousness or to plan out a fulfilling life, I get the same sort of answer. The answer I receive is something like: Practice cultivating the feeling of fulfillment in each moment. Eventually those concepts of purpose and long term goals will appear as unnecessary clutter. I am not sure if this philosophy is common for Buddhists or it is just this group but it seems like they are taking this lesson a bit too far. I see how it can be beneficial to reframe things to remove discomfort and be happy now but doing this as a one size fits all answer to everything seems a bit much. It appears they are desiring not to desire anything difficult so they will be comfortable and happy all the time. I don't see this working very well long term although there are many ways people live that are much worse. Does anyone have any opinion on this?

Thanks for everyone’s replies. After sleeping on it I can see how the advice makes some sense from a certain point of view and strategy for living a good life. It may be suited for someone with a certain set of values and survival strategy. It seems a certain amount of having survival figured out, wisdom, life experience and consciousness is needed to introspect and understand when this sort of advice works. I plan to enjoy live as a human figuring stuff out for himself for a while longer even though I am aware there is no self here and it is possible to be content without understanding how anything works.

This seems to work well for me. Breath in slowly focusing on your third eye chakra for 5 heartbeats, then move on to your throat, heart, solar plexus, sacral and root chakra for 5 heartbeats each. Next exhale starting at your tail bone and moving up your spine stopping at each spot at the spine that is in line with a chakra. 5 heartbeats each until you reach the top of your spine. Continue repeating the process around 10 times until uou notice a state change. If you can’t do 5 heart beats, then start with 4 or 3. It should be a bit of a struggle and like you are out of air. I have a video saved somewhere with similar instructions I can add later when I am on my computer. edit: He explains it here at around 1:52:00

I will probably mostly do mindfulness meditation with labeling as described in Leo’s video. I have a breathing technique I like to do to enter a meditative state before meditating. I also like to forget all concepts for a while like in the guided exercise for realizing you are god video then continuing with meditating. See concepts as oversimplified models of reality and not important. What type do you plan to do?

I am also considering a solo meditation retreat. I was thinking 30 days 10 hours+ per day with some stretching and walking. It might be a challenge being approved at work but I am ok with losing my job if I don't have enough freedom for something like this. I never tried one before so maybe I could do a 2 day trial run on the weekend sometime. I would: -Plan out the food -Make sure your house is spotlessly clean before starting -Make sure the place has fresh air -Define the exact meditation technique you will use and be determined to stick with it without changing it. Include any preparation or what to do if body/emotional pain comes up. -Have a journal to jot down insights that come up when taking a break. -Visualize your plan day by day and how you will deal with issues that could come up then confirm that is what you want to do.

I came up with an Idea this morning. I could make a video series of my growth to show others what is possible if they dedicate time to improving a certain skills. I could do a 10 hour a day for 30 day challenge doing things like: Meditate 10 hours a day for 30 days Learn video animation 10 hours a day for 30 days Move (walk, swim, yoga, tai chi, rock climbing) 10 hours a day for 30 days Public speaking 10 hours a day for 30 days Design websites 10 hours a day for 30 days

I feel like I am coming to the end of a 4.5 year phase in my life where I have been comfortable working 40 hours a week, meditating every now and then, enjoying playing video games, spending time with my girlfriend and rock climbing 1x per week. I would like to make big steps to increase the amount of learning and insights I have every day. I want to have work that is much more creative, help people enjoy their life more. I would like to increase my baseline level of consciousness and develop a much deeper understanding of my mind, emotions, relationships, selling products, psychology, insight, learning, life purpose, my own personality my strengths/weaknesses, my body, my health. I would like to take better care of my body eliminating aches and pains I have. I have enough money to last around 3 years of my regular expenses so if I put all my time into focusing on this, I could take 1.5 years off having a regular job without risking being broke. More specifically I would like to understand and heal my knee pain, back pain, strengthen my body, increase my energy levels, cultivate inspiration/fulfillment, learn how to sell a product, learn how to create my own product and continue learning and having new insights every day. I would also like to spend large portions of time meditating and contemplating. I would like to alternate between trying many new things and contemplating and making new connections about those experiences. I plan to give my 3 weeks notice to my job in around a month after I use up my dental benefits and have a more well formed plan. Anyone have any opinions or suggestions of things I should consider as I start making these changes in my life?