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🟢 Meditation Today I meditated for 30 minutes. I did a guided Soha Ajapa Japa. It was the first time, and I liked it, but nothing special. So far I prefer the simplest meditation, the Kayotsarg. Simple body scan and focus on the body. Maybe I say like that because in this one I can let my mind wander more, and the others I need to focus more. For now, I am going through a list of guided meditations, which I will end mid next week. Then i will choose the one I prefer the most and stick to it.

@Ulax thank you! all the best to you too!

Damn, which strain?

It records the conversation

@Letho thank you for sharing your story yes, if you want to share your insights please do! thank you so much!!

When you're dead your family suffers, but you don't. It's easy to not get personified with an irrelevant character (or their family) that dies in a book or movie. Rape is more intimate, it's also a psychological kind of abuse, and even if it's an irrelevant character you still feel them cause it's so deep. I would prefer to be killed than being raped (I know it's selfish to some extent, but still).

Today I did 20 (out of the 30) minutes of Chakra Suddhi meditation. I really didn't like it. I was distracted, and I thought about how silly this guided meditation was. I am aware of the fast that meditation should be about letting go, accepting the present moment, but since I am not the most experienced meditator, it was difficult not to judge, and be able to focus, or not overthink the ridiculous meditation. If I have more space alone today I will do another one.

Today was a good day emotionally speaking. I am scared that in my life I'll let myself be complacent, and fall into social constructs and ideologies, because that's the easiest to do. Just let myself live the way everyone does, and not actually be able to detach from all that. I'm scared because it's difficult. I'm scared because nobody around me or close to me wants to do this kind of work. But I have to do it, I want to!

@Terell Kirby thank you for the advice! Do you think it can be a good business idea? I think it's something innovative, but I'm not sure it can work out.

I share here the last thing I wrote in my journal, because I would like some help, or feedback from you. This post is both about my personal development and business, so if you think that this post belongs to another section, you can move it. Before summer 2024, I was all about selflessness, meditation, calmness, and this kind of living. I didn't think about money, I was almost fully in the green stage of SD (at least this is how I felt). I didn't judge people, didn't like gossip, trying to be good with people. A negative thing was that I was smoking a lot of weed, sometimes even daily. I love weed, but I understood that it's not good for me, I would not let myself feel the emotions I had, and it harms the body. Now I see, that after that, I went back to stage orange. Well, actually maybe I never was in that stage fully, since I'm still a student, and I never made money, and didn't live life "as an adult". I started investing, I want to start a business, and make lots of money. But I see that the way I act and the way I am is not the same as before. I talked about this with my girlfriend, and she said that I can be at this stage, think about starting a business and making money, but my values can still be the same from last year. I can still meditate, not complain and judge, not gossip, etc. And that's true, I agree with her, but I am scared because I don't feel like before. I know things change, our body and mind are different every day and change, but I don't want to feel the way I feel. I decided to start a business while I'm still a student, I want to teach meditation and mindfulness to musicians, since I know that these practices are not taught or known a lot in this world. I started an Instagram account and a website, offering coaching and guitar lessons (I am a certified meditation teacher, finished my bachelor's degree in classical guitar, and am currently doing the master's, with my thesis about this topic). I am happy because this is a more conscious business in my opinion, but I don't know how to scale it. I don't have customers yet, I have under 100 followers on Instagram, and the ones I got are only because I spent 20€ in advertising a post. I feel I'm just starting out, but hopefully this can be something great. I would love to hear your opinions about my situation, and even some ideas and help regarding this business. Do you think it's a good idea? thank you for reading

I didn't watch all Leo's videos about that, but from what I remember I thought that SD was more intuitive and easier to understand. But of course it's a completely different model. I should start reading about the 9 stages

True. Even if I feel kinda different, my values haven't changed

Yeah you're right

@The Renaissance Man he talks about shrooms but I guess it's the same. For the taste shrooms are way better, even when grinded, truffles are shit

Thank you❤️

In which way do you direct it?

I grew and matured a lot by living alone and detaching from toxic actions and energy coming from my family. But also every time I go back home I have new challenges that when I'm alone I don't have anymore.

@shubhamsharma good luck with the retreat!

I live in Maastricht, in the Netherlands. I just discovered that here in uni there's a degree about skateboarding. I have no idea what it is about, and I didn't know something like that even existed. But for sure they teach what to do in life with this skill.

I agree! But my issue is not with the emotion itself, but the actions I do because I'm blinded by the anger.

It's time for me to take life in my hands. I want to be more proactive. I need to be productive but let myself rest, and not overdo. I have to accept that I don't feel good every day, and that I can't be motivated always and every day. I have to learn to be more understanding and compassionate. Towards myself and others.

I'm glad I'm practicing guitar properly, although my forearms hurt a bit. I'm getting back on track, I'm practicing difficult passages for a duo (flute & guitar), but it's not ready yet. I'm far from ready. But it's gonna be good. I need to be dedicated. This afternoon I'll make a schedule for this month - I want to: Meditate 30 minutes a day when I wake up Stretch at least 10 minutes in the morning Workout daily Practice properly and mindfully (at least 2h a day - the goal is 3 mindful hours - when I work it can vary) Schedule Instagram posts for growth, and my newsletter Work on growing my business in as many ways as possible Journal daily Read at least a page per day (I can start fiction books to relax) Let go of small addictions - dopamine Work on life purpose Work on business ideas Be kind to myself Keep being mindful through the day Learn to be selfless Go out, meet people and be more social Live life more, explore and learn new things, do new activities Let myself rest

But the actions you do because of anger do impact others

Def gonna watch it

⚫ Dad Today dad is okay. He is doing good physiotherapy properly, but he looks depressed. I understand he's tired, but he has to do, otherwise there's no future for him, and especially my mom.