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Thanks!❤️🙏

@Oeaohoo nice if you want to talk about it or thinking of something new together I’m open to it!

Interesting, but I’m a classical guitarist, in these kind of places they have bands with winds and percussion… guitar is not even in orchestras, sometimes it is as soloist but not as a part of the orchestra

@Oppositionless which yoga do you do most?

@VeganAwake such a nice message, thank you! I feel a bit stuck because of my family situation, I would love to have so much money to support my parents, and bring my dad back from his brain injury… I feel stuck because there’s no one close to me who can actually help or even support me in becoming self employed, and ever time I talk about being financially free they laugh

@gettoefl thank you for this nice message! You always have very big ambitions and big dreams, any in general I would like to make a living make lots of money through our conscious spiritual work/business, and although from one side I really believe in myself and I know that I can do it I feel very limited both because my family needs help with my father situation but also because nobody around me fully supports me or helps me to become self-employed. As a said in the previous message speaking of spirituality, also when speaking of business and self-employment I am alone and I have nobody close to me in this journey. I am finishing my masters in the Netherlands and around June I will go back to Italy where’s my family. There I don’t know anyone anymore, uncertain I don’t know people who are into spirituality or into business. If my father wouldn’t have had the accident, I would have probably travelled moved to other big cities and explore opportunities but I don’t want to abandon my family. I don’t want to abandon my mom.

@Breakingthewall thank you for your message 🙏 I think because of all the meditations things that I felt in my life combined with psychedelics understood that to some extent I am more than my body, I am more than my ego; and following Leo for some time now I really resonate with what he teaches, also along to other spiritual teachers. Maybe I am getting a little bit lost in the fact that I will die one day, that my ego will die one day…to some extent that comes as a relief because I see all the manipulation and the pain I create in myself and others in very subtle ways, and what I do in my life right now is really trying to grow as much as I can and become as more aware as possible to be as good as possible, but often I hurt myself and others. In this process of trying to become “perfect”, there is a part that knows I will die and at the end nothing matters. Honestly, I am very confused. I don’t want to sound arrogant, but I can see that my level of development in many ways is deeper than all the people around me and that makes me scared. Sometimes I think I might be delusional or crazy, but then other times is clear to me that they are who are more deluded. Not having someone close to me on my same path is destabilising. I feel when I am alone I am able to really work on myself and my consciousness, and then when the real test comes when I am with my family or with my girlfriend I almost quickly fall into unconscious behaviours. Sorry for this long message, I know I’m literally writing down everything that is happening in my mind and it can be chaotic, but I am grateful to have the possibility to share these things here. Thank you.

Yeah I think you already understood that we are both, depending on the point of view that you take

I totally get what you’re saying, and I would add that also all these feelings that you’re feeling, everything you are talking about right now, is the same drama as your friend’s colleague drama, and all other’s drama. Maybe it’s more conscious, more self aware, but it’s still the same thing. I think that the same way you observe it in your friends, you can do it in yourself, understand that it is the way it is, and you can find peace in the observation + letting go as much of it as you can.

I think that taking so many of them on a regular basis you will not know what actually helps you and what doesn’t

Damn sounds a serious trip, I didn’t know you can get that with cough syrup

I found on a research chemical website the spray with following info: These sprays are intended for micro-usage. Each spray contains 1mg of 5-MeO-DMT. A “micro” amount of 5-MeO-DMT benzoate is typically around 0.5mg-1.5mg. The optimum measurement will differ depending on various factors, but we always recommend starting at the lowest amount. The bottle contains 100 pumps in total. 5-MeO-DMT Benzoate Microdose Spray Important: While the molecular structure of 5-MeO-DMT is similar to that of DMT, they are NOT the same chemical, so please DO NOT substitute 5-MeO-DMT for DMT. They should be regarded as entirely different chemicals and treated as such. We have partnered with a reputable lab that specialises in synthesising tryptamines to bring you these 5-MeO-DMT benzoate Sprays. These products are strictly collectors items and are strictly not for human consumption. Each bottle contains 100 pumps, and each pump will dispense 1mg of 5-MeO-DMT Benzoate. Measurements for Independent Study These sprays are intended for micro-usage. Each spray contains 1mg of 5-MeO-DMT. A “micro” amount of 5-MeO-DMT benzoate is typically around 0.5mg-1.5mg. The optimum measurement will differ depending on various factors, but we always recommend starting at the lowest amount. have you ever tried 5meo in this form? I don’t have experience with 5meo yet and I don’t know if I’m ready, but this looks like a simple option to start small and test it, but idk if benzoate makes it different

I also have come 5meo HCL but i bought it like 2 or 3 years, and now it has a grey color. I don't know what it means and if i should buy some more, but also idk if i feel ready to snort it. sooner or later i'll try it tho, starting small

damn thanks for your message. I didn't want to microdose, but i figured that since a light dose is 10mg i can do 5 sprays per nostril more or less, but maybe that's a lot. I found another spray with more mg per spray, but now i'm not so sure about it haha

How is claude better? When I was using it when it came out i prefered chatgpt, but now I don't know anymore

what do you mean? I'm asking if this is a good way to take 5meo. I don't know how to vape and I don't want to snort the powder, so I'm evaluating this way

I also took 15g Atlantis but it was probably the weakest truffle trip I had, I actually think that the strain itself is the lightest

I wanted to share my experience with Joe Dispenza’s meditations, specifically the Blessing of the Energy Centers (BOTEC), I did 15 days straight of it (also I want to specify that I've been meditating for over 4 or 5 years on my own now). I’m posting this both to document what happened and to get some of your perspective, and I would love to know if anyone has experience with Dispenza's work. So, I started reading Becoming Supernatural and began doing the meditations he recommends. I did BOTEC 1 but didn’t like it much, it felt slow and I struggled to go deep so then I switched to BOTEC 2 and began doing it daily (also for more context: I’m in Italy with family, working/studying, so mornings were usually my only window. At times I had sleep issues, headaches, hunger, distractions, etc. I also started doing morning pages (3 pages) daily and some yoga) This first day with BOTEC 2 was the most intense. At some point, especially around the later centers, I started going very deep. I felt something like waves moving through me. Not “in my head” but more like my whole body awareness became the waves, like I was the waves. There was also this sense of expansion, like I was getting bigger as the waves became bigger. It’s hard to explain because it felt like I don’t have a body, but at the same time I did have it; the normal boundaries of the body became strange and soft. My mind was not silent though. It was running commentary: excitement, wanting to share it, wanting to analyze it (“tell someone, tell ChatGPT to understand it better so I can go deeper next time”), and at the same time I tried to let thoughts be. I also noticed some physical stuff, like the diaphragm breathing felt a bit blocked around the “third center” area, and if I tried to adjust breathing, I became overly body-conscious and the depth reduced. Also noise in the environment pulled me out, the music felt loud aand intense at times, I still felt some shoulder/neck tension, even in deep relaxation. Near the end I opened my eyes a few minutes early and I felt emotional, almost teary, not from sadness, more like being touched by something. Then the next days: some of them were very easy, some were resistant,I struggled with focus especially when sleep was poor and I had headaches. But my body almost always reached deep relaxation, I didn’t get the very deep altered-state effects like day 1, and I noticed that I had an attachment to that depth.Then today: Day 15 (Dec 22): I was unfocused for much of the meditation, but after reaching the later center(s), I went deeper into relaxation. Then I had another distinct experience: it felt like a spiraling, gentle, wave-like sensation entering through my mouth ,not like the day 1 waves, but a sensation I recognized. It moved very slowly and gently, first into my head and then down through my torso and the whole body. It felt like my body was being filled with something: very light, but also “dense”, not like liquid, butmore like “expanded and full”. I didn’t leave my body, but my body sensations became very light like I was “freed from the body” while still being in it. It was pleasant and peaceful. The first day and today I was sitting on the chair, other times I also laid down on my bed. I’m open to Dispenza’s methods as a structured practice, and I like his book (and I have to say that since I started doing the meditations, daily journaling and yoga I'm feeling pretty good) but I’m also skeptical about the scientific framing, especially the quantum language and big claims. In general I don’t want to blindly believe the narrative because the experiences feel meaningful, or dismiss everything as “self-deception” and become cynical. Do you have experience with his meditations?

The last week I had a terrible pain in my left ear, I imagined it was because of some earwax stuck there. I thought it would pass but it didn’t. For some miracle, scrolling around Leo’s blog I saw he wrote about the otoscope and I decided to buy a cheap one (18€). It arrived 1 hour ago, and it was extremely useful, my ear is now super clean and in less than 30 min my ear pain and headache are completely gone, after a week of pain! Thank you leo

I would say that if you feel safe then you can do it. If I don’t feel safe I just skip it

I don't mean to attack or offend, I'm just saying my opinion. But as I said before, you are just looking at life from your own little perspective, and what you wish for is a fantasy created to please your ego. Again, I'm not attacking, everybody's ego doesn't want war, rape, suffering, etc (well, the majority of egos, not every). But still, I believe heaven can be found within this life no matter what it is

man go read any book about bacteria... you wouldn't be alive without them

also, it's not possible to live without hurting other beings. just by going for a walk you're killing tens, if not hundreds (or more) insects, your body is constantly killing bacteria etc. Your definition of "good" and "heaven" are not possible, they are 100% based on your own survival agenda.

@Meeksauce True, god is not What Leo talks about goes beyond the human (and ego-based) definition of "good".

I take it regularly, it really helps me with my brain fog!