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@Razard86 Sidra Khan wanted to give you a message

I've had an awakening while meditation it lasted for a few minutes and that was the only thing closest to solipsism I experienced. I couldn't retain that and of course I don't expect myself to be in those states either. Thete is a lot to integrate especially from the basics. However, despite my awakening experiences I still question that how can there be no other? How is it possible that I am the only point of consciousness in existence? Are there other origins of consciousness in other people? We all are "souls" Am I imagining that we all are souls and points of consciousness? Am I doing this for the survival of my ego? How do I experience the full blown awakening? Am I really the only point of consciousness

This was shared by a friend @HMD its in my mother tongue urdu but has subtitles It hints at nonduality.... https://youtu.be/Ef4gGOX1F4o?si=O2IDlz-8OK6H6Y1N

@LfcCharlie4 that's true. Especially with someone like me who still has a lot of work to do on basic psychological levels even I think it's best to take things slow and not be caught up in this. I do most of the times forget to enjoy life, i really miss my grounded state

@LfcCharlie4 thanks a bunch for dedicating the time to write this. I appreciate it

@Davino you're so on point here. Recently it was bought to my attention and I also noticed that I was very off balance and I need to really fo everything that basically you mentioned including grounding myself especially. I was going into a dangerous territory of psychosis so now I'm mostly focusing on integrating all precious stages if we see it from the context of spiral dynamics...i was way off balance and not ready for this

@Yimpa Damn...this is deep...thats literally what most of the time awakening after effects feel like its very important to ground yourself.

@Inliytened1 yeah 100% but a very hard reality to accept

@Ishanga yes we have to be very careful that it doesn't become a gateway for the ego to gain a false sense of inflation.

There's been multiple ones recently. I haven't even been meditating just praying my basic prayers but skipping on those also. These days I'm very go with the flow and more in my head and I've been trying to ground myself. 1. Hearing voices...not very frequently but rarely I do hear whispers or my name. It never scares me. 2. Detachment from my body...deperesonalization type of experience which lasted for a day. 3. Non threatening presence of entities. Mostly in half asleep or sleep states. 4. I see repeating number a lot even though I refrain fro. Believing those repeating number thingies. 5. Dejavus ...they have become more intense and more frequent. They often happen with a certain person who is close to me on commendable levels and the connection is more than that. They feel too real sometimes it's freaky. 6. The feeling of being separated from my body and third dimension. This has happened twice as well...its like a feeling of being pulled in and out and expanding and contracting within. This often happens when I talk about spirituality or contemplate my nihilism and death with people or even alone. 7. Similar experiences...that manifest the other like a butterfly effect. 8. Ringing in ears...I've always had this but sometimes before sleeping its almost like the ringing of a bell and once it felt like something exploded in my third eye area and I heard the bell striking sound. 9. Dreams have become more existential in nature. Dreams show me how it's like to be formless and infinite...its very scary sometimes. Had a dream about being sucked into different timelines past and present...and when I woke up on eye could see future and the other was seeing the past. I freaked out until the reality 3D appeared in front of my eyes. It was still forming...like glitches and pixels.. I think that sums up most of it. Enjoy while you read, lol. I'd love to hear insights

I have been starting to take diet seriously for a while now. I feel immediately upset after putting any sort of shit food or processed food in my body. I have somewhat of a good taste for vegetables but I'd like to develop it more. Mostly I'm looking for good sources of leutin, zeaxanthin, Vit A, Zinc, Vit E, C and omega 3. I have already incorporated spinach, Broccoli, sweet potatoes, and almonds into my diet but I'd like to make it more diverse and healthier and cleaner. I want to feel like I'm not degrading internally while living and that my cells are nourished and happy with me. Also, processed shit and sugar has terrible consequences on mental health, spiritual health etc. My question is for the health conscious people who have successfully achieved a good diet. How did you start feeling after it? Did your health improve? In what ways? What advice would you give me and recommend more sources of nutrients ? Should I cut out the jolly sugar shit completely or is it okay to enjoy it sometimes?

@sholomar definitely

@Yimpa indeed

@Princess Arabia ah I agree with you on this one

What is it about embracing death that ends all suffering while you live? Life =suffering But... Once you know that this is temporary and relative it somewhat becomes less painful I've seen people who have lost limbs and are still the happiest Have they truly embraced their real nature as God or spirit? What is it about oneself that makes him so strong and indestructible in the face of adversity ? How does the human psychology work when this happens? What exactly changes ?

@Schizophonia we do actually consume a lot of rice here and our dishes are loaded with oil fat and salt. So I decided to change it up a bit

@tuku747 indeed 💫

@TheCloud thanks for your consideration:). I gym 5 to 6 days a week...I do eat well and sleep well the main issue is just the other mental and emotional side of the problem

If life was an empty canvas I could paint, paint and paint until my arms cramped.......... Its not. It's pain and suffering. A few months ago i used to be a wise wise girl because life didn't throw any particular burdens at me. I laugh when I recall that I once used to be so cool. Seasons changed and layers upon layers of me shed apart, crumbling to ashes. Out came the needy, the vulnerable, the desperate, the cry for help, the one that needs certainty, the one that has panick attacks, the one that can't function and the one that's yearning for love. Failed attempts to make others understand what I am going through, turning to therapists would never help as well. Trauma upon trauma from generations seeped into my frail being, being screamed at every day, being emotionally abused, health anxiety, horrific symptoms, traumas surrounding love and relationships, and now im here.......at my weakest, listening to cigarettes after sex. Anxiety blowing my core away, days upon days with pain in my chest from the rushes of adrenaline. Can life get harder than this? Will it ever get better? I never imagined. Deep shadows seeping out from my skin into awareness, showing up in my dreams as blood spewing out from by body. Repressed for years. Plagued with anxiety.... I sometimes think....what if I can no longer bear the burden, what if I can no longer take the pain and what if it gets worse, wat if I never see the light at the end of the tunnel....It's a bummer but I might have to end it all, cut it short and go back to where I belong.

@Osaid this moved me truly. I felt understood and appreciated after reading your reply. I have no words, thanks for making my day. :")

@HMD done ?

@manuel bon yesss exactly its hard. But I am open to the possibility that my partner doesn't have to be as aware as me or more than me. But at least around the same level.

Hello actualized.org users! I hope you all are doing well. My question I'd specifically that if you are someone who is looking forward to a serious relationship or wife/husband what are the qualities you want in them ideally? If you are at a certain level of awareness/consciousness would you want them to match it? Or are there other qualities you look for. And why? Elaborate. Thanks !

@Rishabh R you will have to attract good experiences once or twice to really actually convince your mind that good people do exist. Been thwre done that. I know how u feel

@manuel bon oh wow I'm glad that most people are open to this possibility. I personally have a hard time with this. I want my partner to be a great part of my life so if he was not interested in this stuff it would feel like he doesnt know me fully and id feel depressed.