Sincerity

@Someone here 🤦‍♂️ Go input our responses into an AI and see who it tells you is insecure. I just did. Had a laugh. "In the two forum responses, the insecure words and tone are more evident in the second response. Here's a breakdown: Response One: Tone: Direct and critical, but generally focused on providing advice. Content: The speaker is advising the other person to focus on their real life and gain experience before delving into spiritual or intellectual pursuits. Insecurity: There is a level of condescension and judgment, but it is framed as advice. The speaker comes across as confident in their perspective. Response Two: Tone: Defensive and aggressive, with a mix of boasting and dismissiveness. Content: The speaker feels the need to defend their lifestyle and achievements, listing numerous personal accomplishments and dismissing the relevance of the conversation. Insecurity: The boasting about personal achievements (e.g., reading three books a day, doing 1000 push-ups, giving charity) and the dismissive attitude towards discussing personal life suggest insecurity. The speaker feels the need to prove their worth and deflect criticism, which is a common sign of insecurity. Conclusion: The second response exhibits more insecure language and behavior. The need to list personal achievements and dismiss the conversation as irrelevant indicates a defensive stance, which is often a sign of insecurity."

Thanks for all your input here. Something clicked in me while reading it. I remember in one of your episodes, I can't remember which, you made the distinction between going "up" in awakening vs "down". I realize you're making that same distinction here - going for God vs Nothingness, in your terminology here. You're saying that the Nothingness is not graspable, while God (supposedly) is. Correct me if I interpreted anything wrong here. I realize I've been going about awakening by always focusing on what I am, thereby going "down". I'm contemplating how I can change my approach to focus on going "up". What questions to best ask myself for that. This would be a significant change in course for me.

Ignoring words of reason won't help you. Stop pretending, especially in front of yourself. You are nowhere close to "awake" and you don't need to be. It's okay. Work on your actual life. Don't put the cart in front of the horse. Build a solid foundation. Get life experience. Find how you want to work. This is groundwork which is very good for future spiritual development if you ever really care about it. You're not ready for any kind of "enlightenment" yet, stop repeating things you've heard, stop pretending you have it figured out. You talk about not-knowing as if it's some pinacle of attainment. That's cool, but again, go work on your real life instead of all this intellectualizing. Trust me, your words ARE hollow. You ARE much better off just giving up this charade. This would be so much more respectable.

@Someone here Very bold words. Still, ringing hollow. I don't doubt you've faced dark times. You'd be much better off focusing on your actual life and not all this spiritual mental masturbation. It would most likely help you feel better. I guess the answer to the job question is no.

You should have a tangible life purpose besides spiritual pursuits. You should have experience of life, master survival to a degree. Please confirm: did you ever work a job or no? Instead of playing video games and masturbating, you are mentally masturbating all day. Neat. You're not getting anywhere with it. Your words ring hollow and it's very obvious. When will you end this embarassment? Like, come on dude. Seriously. At least stop pretending you're much more developed than you really are, especially in front of yourself. The bs you spin is really cringe.

Arrogant as always, huh. You haven't seen God. Your communication might fool some, but not those who have the slightest clue. Humble yourself a bit, you ain't even close to "awake", for now you only have ideas. Believe me, it is utterly obvious. Better work on your personal life more instead of all this bs, from what I remember you haven't even had a job yet (correct me if I'm wrong though). You're really tiresome with all that bullshit you spin.

Moving to the journal section, since this thread is basically a journal.

Got it. Thanks for the responses! I will reconsider my efforts to be wiser. Still, with the understanding that I’m missing things - I do feel I am, indeed. I might need to change my approach somehow.

Also: is it your view that at a point one should give up trying to put the finger then, once it’s realized that it is futile? And redirect efforts to other aspects of awakening like the why, the how, etc?

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Got it. So when you talk about being Awake, that doesn’t mean having the finger put on God. More like seeing EVERYTHING as God to insane degrees, but with the Mystery still intact. Right?

Relationship work with my gf. Find what you really want or love. And commit to it. It will require you to change, to face yourself, in order to satisfy that thing better. If you want/love it enough, you will answer the call. In my view, the "real work" is through LIFE, instead of some technique. Whatever you're most passionate about. I'm really passionate about growth in my relationship and overall as a man/being. This gives me a lot of energy to put in the effort, which results in change. Profound change, a lot of it. I'm a radically different man than I was just 1,5 years ago.

So what? Moving to off-topic.

Ayyy, happy birthday Leo. Wishing you all the best.

LECZ LUDZI DOBREJ WOLI JEST WIĘCEJ! I mocno wierzę w to, że ten świaaaaaaaaaaaat... Nie zginie nigdy dzięki nim! NIE! NIE! NIEEEEEEEE!

If it did „happen”, it wasn’t static forever because it’s not true now, so the ever-changing nature won after all and the „static infinity” didn’t happen. God is everywhere to be found.*

Well, is that true? I suggest it’s a matter of observing what’s true, not speculation. Notice reality is ever-changing in each and every moment. Some things seem like a possibility, eg. „If God is omnipotent, could God erase itself?”. But they’re just not true. Consciousness/God Is. Reality Changes. These „possibilities” are, in a way, mistakes in thinking/understanding. I suggest the only permanence is Consciousness itself.

Yeah, I get it. I'm young like you. You gotta work your ass off. Life is hard.

Your arrogance is appalling. What happened to not-knowing and humility, instead of this debunking mode and over-confidence? Such typical "spiritual person" behaviour. Btw, you also do the same shtick with your politics and that crypto-rightwinger bs. Ignorance under the guise of being "open-minded" and "conscious". Do yourself (and everyone else) a favour and stop thinking you know.

Evolution is a subset of change. Reality is Ever-Changing. This is true. But is it ever-evolving? Perhaps. I'd be inclined to say yes, since each new moment/experience is a broadening of what has been already perceived. And with new perceptions, new inspirations and thoughts arise, largely building on previous ones. Slow growth, but growth (= evolution) nevertheless. Processing things as part of backsliding (like we see right now with the US, for example) is also evolution. Even when it looks like regress. Evolution, however, is more of an interpretation of experience(s), while change is observed in each and every moment, in actuality. So I wouldn't be attached to the thought of evolution being permanent and absolute. There's truth there, but I don't think it's fully right. Change is true, always. Evolution not necessarily.

Food for thought. I think an "adult" by definition would be God-realized, at least to a degree. So 100%. But we live in a world of children. Myself included ofc.

You can talk to anything. Hindu people will talk to Hindu gods/goddesses. It's as true as you make it be.

Taking LSD on Saturday, first time in 1,5 years. Objective: awaken as deeply as possible. A lot is going on. Moving again to a new place with my gf at the start of May, a shitload to do at work, financial situation not the best… Growing deeper in love with my partner. It is very difficult for her to accept me taking LSD. Has been since always. But she loves me and I love her, so we’re working through it. She’s more accepting now - understanding that I do it for development, that I still want to be a stable man for her, that I’ll give her security and that it’s just okay every once in a while. Once every half a year is fine. April and May is the happiest time for me for sure. I LOVE spring. I feel joy going outside, can’t stop smiling from it being so warm and the smell of greenery. Life is good. Better than before, that’s for certain. I’m processing a bunch of heavy things and it’s difficult, as always. My work on Saturday with LSD will help me.

What a beautiful playful energy. You cannot not smile while watching this. Post other funny/cute animal videos if You want!

It is easier to deceive yourself or avoid facing a truth about yourself than stop your conscience from sharing out the truth with others. You're not lying to others if you yourself don't know what the truth is. So not knowing the truth is often desirable. It relieves you of conscience and of being honest with others. The way of the fearful man.