Sincerity

So are you actively working towards your advancement in the domains of psychology and spirituality, or not? If you feel that's your purpose and you ARE doing the actual work in that, then you're not really lazy. But if you just sit on your ass and only "care" about psychology and spirituality in the sense of consuming content about it or doing some work only when inspiration strikes once in a blue moon, then that's a problem and you should really get off your ass. From your title I sense it might be the latter. If so, start acting in your life or you'll end up very miserable sooner than later. And drugs won't fix it.

I'm not very much into Sadhguru so I don't know. Perhaps he seems that way but is really an introvert, similar to how someone would perceive you on the street (you mentioned once that people deem you surprisingly extroverted when they meet you). Or maybe he is an extrovert, I don't know lol. Besides, I just said introverts probably have a higher chance. One guy doesn't change that.

Don't underestimate the INFPs out there. I've had great success already with the awakening endeavour. Still the white belt, perhaps even whiter than at the start, but grateful for the considerable progress made. I think the statement that only 2 personalities can awaken is obviously false, but I'd definitely be more inclined to agree that introverts have a greater chance to awaken than extraverts. Still, these are gross oversimplifications. The entire Myers-Briggs model is astrology for men.

You should awaken NOW!

I disagree completely. Hardly anyone does. We can agree to disagree. Let’s keep it at that.

Sorry. Looking forward to you talking to @Cubbage, that’ll be good for sure.

Or, you don’t get it. Infinity of Gods is a precise description of this insight/awakening. Sorry, but the being lost in concepts is your case. You don’t even admit you are God. So what’s there to talk about. My awakenings are from complete beginner’s mind, every time. And every time it’s the same thing (insights into Consciousness), but going deeper and deeper and deeper. I go where the truth is after I’m wiped out. It’s not just wherever.

There’s zero logical error. You just have to get it - both solipsism and the other insight. Both can be (and are) true. God is mysterious.

Admittedly, Infinity of Gods is not fully fleshed out for me. I’m still uncovering it. For me, it’s been this naggling sense for a long time during my trips that I can’t fully „reject” Others - while also realizing solipsism at the same time. And with more and more trips I’ve been letting that insight into my consciousness more. So for me it’s been kind of a squaring of Solipsism + Others Exist. Which in itself is an amazing joke and paradox (but also not really a paradox). But those Others are probably completely separate for me. I don’t yet have a good grasp of „Them” - I don’t know whether there’s a possibility for an interaction, I haven’t made any sort of connection like you described, even an imagined one. I’m sure it’d still all be through Me though. But yeah, this understanding is still incomplete. Work-in-progress. I actually rewatched your Infinity of Gods video 3 days ago - last time I watched it when it released I think. A lot of it resonated. Though my awakenings regarding it were still reached organically, not really remembering what you said there.

That’s what you think.

These guys and their objections were often painful to listen to. I was dying inside when hearing the „hmm this is basically my experience already” and „maybe I’m awake after all” points from the lady. And not even understanding that evil doesn’t exist, like come on. Well, it is what it is. Good conversation still. What matters is you guys had fun.

Well, listening to another is of second importance to listening to Yourself. At least for the purpose of introspection into the fundamental. The answers are within. I get that in a sense listening to another is absorption and yeah, you become more of what you listen to. So genuine listening to quality or some „enlightened masters” is a good idea. Still, the developing of the flower of You through careful attention is of greater importance. And besides, the relation you have to others is a direct reflection of the relation you have to yourself. So listening to oneself covers both, in a way. You cannot be a good listener to others if you’re deaf to yourself, and you will probably be a good listener to others if you listen to yourself.

I like this guy: I listened to him quite a lot over the summer. He makes me laugh a lot. Retardmaxxing 4ever. In a way, he's basic. But I know also that there's things to him that I'm missing. So I'm supplementing his energy every now and then. He's an inspiration.

Vibin' to this lately. I noticed that these days I don't really have "bad days". Yesterday I was laying in bed most of the time, little energy to do anything. But it was okay. I accepted it and let it be. Then, closer to the evening, more energy arose to do things. I shaved, prepared food for the next few days, did my daily practice, cleaned up a bit. And today I was on fire - did my work, went to the gym, read a book, did my practice, talked to my dad over the phone for 40 mins (and it was nice!)... It's like the love that I am, broadened. I'm slightly more accepting of what arises. It's nice. I must simply follow energy where it is. Insistence on anything else is futile. And when energy is difficult to be heard, become silent.

It's funny. I just realized I've actually been practicing listening every day in the last 2 months. Exactly 61 days. I have a practice every day at 8PM. Basically I sit in silence and listen, and anytime a genuine voice "from the soul" arises (I don't know what else to call it) I write it down in a notebook. Then I go back into listening again. And so on and so forth, until I feel there's nothing more to be said. I call it Trips on the Couch. It came to me during an LSD trip.

I miss your most direct and advanced teachings. Especially for those who have had looks into God-realization, solipsism, Infinity of Gods. The things you post on the blog are amazing. Still though, I miss the deepest and most direct stuff. Like that which you planned to go over in the psychedelic course.

Nice post. Thanks. Listening is indeed essential, especially to Oneself. I was contemplating listening a while ago. I thought how LISTEN can actually be a better pointer towards awakening than LOOK. It’s powerful. My trips and meditations are essentially extreme listening sessions. Listening to Now, to Nothing, to Me. These pointers arise after listening to ???. The Krishnamurti quote is good too.

Last week I was on a 7-day trip to a coastal city I possibly want to move to starting May. The trip was a success. I averaged 17K+ steps per day and got to check out all the places I was interested in. There was a lot of beauty and I enjoyed myself. I have competing visions for what I want my life to be starting May. I’m not sure whether I want to rent just a room (to save more money) or a whole apartment for myself (ideally to go more monk-mode). There’s a lot of factors involved. Ultimately, I will just follow my intuition, but before that the goal has been to intake a lot of information and think things through as much as I can. The whole trip last week was about information intake - checking out the locations, understanding how I feel, imagining how daily life would actually look like for me there, etc. At times I was thinking about the relationship with my ex. Bad memories were coming up. I still have a love for that woman though. When I came back, we were fucking like rabbits. Yeah, we still have sex, but the decision to separate is not reversible at this point and we’re both aware of that. Still, the sex is amazing and we both enjoy it.

The comfort of truth you can always re-verify Solipsism is the case.* I’ve became conscious of it enough times to know it. It’s so beautiful when you don’t need to worry about defending a truth. Because you can always start with a beginner’s mind, and when you get to a truth again and again, then you know that you can trust it. It’s such a relief. „What if I’m deluding myself? How do I know X is true? Oh, wait… I don’t need to be attached to any belief. I can always start from scratch. And whatever will arise from my unprejudiced consciousness, that will be truth. I can relax. I am safe.” ——————— * But there’s more.

The selling is happening in each moment, and in each moment it can be ceased. At least for that moment. It's a matter of decision in the now.

That’s awesome! Thanks Leo.

Damn. @Hojo called it a week ago. The reasoning was faulty but the end conclusion (bot farming) was guessed right.

Because he’s basically known for just being a Youtuber now. I think having written great books could vastly increase his fame in the future. Especially in the far future, perhaps beyond our lifetime. Podcasts can raise his fame now.

This is nonsense.

Tired again today. But it’s fine. I visited my family today. It was boring. I anticipate I’ll do psychedelics more this year. I feel a calling. Exciting! The music’s played by the madmen.