Sincerity

This is what God looks like. [image removed] Spontaneous photo of "myself" just now. Yesterday at night I have Awoken so much it's incomprehensible. Huge report coming up. It's hard to summarize what I've Awoken to because there is SO MUCH but I guess I could say I AM GOD. I have realized My True Nature. To be clear, I'm not on any drugs right now. I'm just God.

Bro what? Write as clearly as possible so that a child could understand You. See, that's the trap of writing a "good philosophy book". You think You need to sound smart. Why not just write a good book instead? I don't feel qualified to give any writing advice. Also I haven't studied history of philosophy. And I'm tired. I liked the first 2 paragraphs. But I'll say that without direct awakenings You will always lack in clarity with this philosophy stuff.

Never ending... such a beautiful phrase. ❤️ Thank You!

You know, Nilsi had a point in his responses. Writing is a specific skill You have to develop. You fix your writing by learning how to write properly, getting feedback from those who know how to do it, etc. You can do it and I encourage You to write your book. But I don't think You can rely on your own "writing intuition" very much yet simply because You haven't learned how to write well. But You can learn it! I really like to write things but I know a book written by me (with my current insufficient skills) would be terrible.

12 Tried to be honest.

It's great, I would recommend trying. So far I found it to be very gentle with me. But overall I think I still prefer shrooms or LSD. Yeah, 3 months of waiting is a bugger. Thank You!!

It's certainly rubbed off on me along the years. But I can be soft too, You know?

@Leo Gura Maybe I will. @ZGROPIUS Thank Youuu.

I hope to Awaken to this one day. The Actualized Forum Awakening.

Bloomer is probably Leo's alt account from which he's testing our endurance.

Nothing has been censored yet.

I'm not denying anything. Read my responses again. The claims are unverified and so I'm telling You to be unbiased. We don't want potential misinformation to be spread here. And certainly not out of ideological reasons.

@bloomer You probably haven't even read the article I linked. Project veritas is not the most reliable source.

https://www.newsweek.com/project-veritas-covid-mutations-pfizer-fact-check-1776845 The claims that Pfizer is mutating COVID are unverified as of yet. Don't fall for misleading comments online and try to stay as objective as possible.

Infinite Love ♾️ Endless Unconditional Unbiased Universal It's so great You can't comprehend it. God is Infinite Love... FOREVER!

What the hell are You talking about You don't understand. Drop your false beliefs which You get angry about.

I've been contemplating even more and I've finally come to my senses. Infinite Love is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my life. This has been the most amazing awakening so far... INFINITE LOVE! How could I have not seen this? I am so fucking stupid. ?‍♂️ It took me 32 hours to realize this after experiencing it. Thank God I decided to contemplate to my maximum... otherwise I would be going through my days without appreciating it. I am SO fucking stupid! It's INCREDIBLE how blinded I was. Mind's capacity for blindness and self-deception is INFINITE!!! It was more powerful than Infinite fucking Love Itself!!!! I literally can't believe how UTTERLY STUPID AND DENSE I can be, oh my God. Infinite Love is the most amazing thing ever and nobody close to me has any idea about it... What a joke. It's comical! And the cherry on top is I cannot share it with any of them HAHAHAHAHAHA. Oh my Godddd @Leo Gura Thank You for leading me to the greatest gift imaginable. No one could have done it for me but You and I'm as grateful as a dumb human can be. Also I'm sorry for being a total moron. My ego got the best of me. Obviously I'm not done. No way, Jose.

Thanks I was alone sitting on the floor leaned against the bed with eyes either open or closed. Mostly in silence, sometimes saying things out loud. Closer to the end I played some music. I was reminded of this song I was listening to years ago: I felt like God was talking to me through it, expressing his Love for me. That's alright, let it out, talk to Me. Also what's funny is that the lyrics say "We can talk here on the floor, on the phone if you prefer, I'll be here until you're okay". I was literally on the floor making notes on my phone hahahaha.

Yesterday at night some feelings arose in me that I wasn't expecting. Bitterness, sadness, overwhelm with my own expectations for myself, desperation, nervousness, anger. They weren't present during the trip or the next 6+ hours but I'm guessing they might have appeared in part because of the after effects. I became bitter and sad with the trip not being deep enough (supposedly). It's once again the issue of "MY will be done" instead of "Thy Will be done". It's the opposite of surrender and obvious proof for me that I have a lot more work to do before something bigger. God Absolutely Loves the state of asleepness and unreadiness - why can't I? I've reflected upon these feelings and I feel more accepting now. Everything is at it should be. I think the Unbiasedness of God/Infinite Love is what amazed me the most yesterday. God really Loves everything EQUALLY! As I mentioned it actually stung me in the ass and I'm so happy I noticed this clearly because I literally caught the devil in the act! I saw my egotism standing completely naked in broad daylight, hahaha. I'd say that You really can't see how biased You are until You see the Unbiasedness of God. And You can't see how small your love is until You see Infinite Love. Regarding the statement "I want to Awaken". I've been thinking what I really meant by that. Basically I feel like I have a sense that I am still asleep and unconscious. I don't know what it means to not be asleep but I want to go there. I experienced some awakenings but 1) I'm no longer conscious of what they showed me and 2) I know there is more. I feel like I am profoundly asleep and I wish to shatter this illusion. Another good interpretation is I wanted to die. I didn't mention this in the report but after this interaction with God I became conscious that Death is Awakening. Even though I'm certainly still scared of it, I'm now looking forward to it much more. Maybe it will sound naive, if so forgive me for that, but sometime I wish to really Awaken so deeply that I become undifferentiated and utter Oneness and just be that for Eternity. Not because being here is a challenge but because doing THAT is a challenge. I enjoy many things here but nothing really matters besides this. Not family, not being good to others, not being responsible, not anything. I'll be engaging in these until the time comes because I truly like them, but the end goal is clear to me. Sigh. I wonder whether all of these goals and aspirations of "mine" will make any difference when I truly surrender to God. Maybe "mine" will not play a role then. Consider this post an add-on to the report.

@Pudgey @Vincent S Thanks guys

❤️ Of course. There is no alternative. Damn, this actually had an effect on me. Thanks brotha! I'm way past the trip already but something got to me now.. It's okay

@Michael Jackson Yes, exactly! That's why I'm feeling a bit unsatisfied But I can't complain. I thought about it and I was literally shown Infinite Love. I don't want to be ingrateful, especially if I am to accept the present moment. I'm a little emotional right now and I need integration time I guess.

Yeah I get the suspicion. The context is that three months ago on MDMA I sort of unlocked the ability to talk with God with my intuition. I've made pages and pages of Q&As. Nowadays I'm doing it only sometimes. I'm careful not to fall into delusion. Words are meaningless anyway. Direct experience is what matters. I even spoke about it with Him and He told me exactly that. On the other hand, what I was told proves to be very true and I'd be wise to follow it I think.

?‍♂️ Might be. But I'm looking to get knocked off my feet. Even though the report is long the trip was fairly short and didn't go as deep as I'd want. Dammit, these expectations again... I'm just itching to know what I am. Thanks for the advice and support as always

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