Sincerity

And You claim You got something going...

It's been a week now. Here's an update. Since the awakening described in the report I've been experiencing little to no resistance. My state during the day varies. It's very fluid I feel. Most of the time I recognize Myself but there are breaks - sometimes I gotta focus on my duties for example. I've had moments when I was a bit overwhelmed by stress (had some exams this week) or fear (it's been popping up). Forgetting is no problem though. Reconnecting with Presence is always possible and effortless. Speaking of effortless - everything is fucking effortless. It's so beautiful I can't describe it. I don't have to make any decisions anymore. I'm being guided by Intuition all the time. Doing groceries? BAM BAM BAM. Quick and easy, not even thinking about what I gotta pick up next, I'm just flowing. Taking a walk? I stand at a crossroads and I just know which way to take. Studying for an exam? I just do it. Cleaning up? No problem. Getting ready to go out? Easy peasy. IT'S SO FUCKING EFFICIENT. I very quickly know what to say, I'm writing now and it just flows from me. I feel like I'm living with unbelievable grace right now. I'm in such a high baseline state now that I automatically notice fear, stress, thoughts, emotions and things like that and I can dissolve them very quickly. Nothing of importance slips under the radar for too long. It is a big part of this effortlessness - stuff that would normally bring me down is quickly noticed and dissolved sometimes without even any intervention on my part. Thus, I am not brought down:) It takes me about 10-15 minutes of sitting in Presence to awaken further and further. Again - completely effortless. I channel awakened insights and I KNOW what Reality is with complete consciousness. I can go deeper and deeper whenever I want, totally sober. I usually do it at night. All of my "problems" got instantly eradicated. Addiction to sweets, addiction to fast food, addiction to snacking, addiction to social media, hatred, most of shame and fear (still afraid of death tho), addiction to masturbation, addiction to porn, addiction to negativity, distraction in general, lack of confidence, insecurity, anxiety, most of stress, tiredness, discomfort with my body, uncertainty about the future (I absolutely know what to do for now and I have total faith that Truth will guide me along the way), most of worry in general (I've had some moments of worry but I could dissolve them in Presence), inhibition and fear of expressing myself honestly, lack of assertiveness, relationship problems (all of them solved by Love) and many more, if You can believe it. Love has given me total clarity. I am conscious of what I value in life, what I'm saying no to and what I want from life. It's SO CLEAR I can't fucking believe it. UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES AM I GOING TO TOUCH ALCOHOL AGAIN. I'D RATHER FUCKING DIE THAN DO IT! Also absolutely no fast food, no sweets, no overeating, no social media, no bullshit meeting with people and fucking around, no bullshit playing video games to distract myself from reality, no watching TV series, no movies (not anything wrong with these 2 per se but like, why the fuck would I waste 2 hours when I can bask in my Infinite Beauty?). No avoidance of feeling, no distraction from reality, no resistance in general. I feel like I've finally started to respect my life and myself. Also I'm more and more convinced to not touch drugs again, by which I mean psychedelics, weed, etc. But I'll see about that. Nothing wrong with psychedelics but like... I can awaken deeper in 10 minutes of sitting lol. Also, if I can't do it sober and integrate it into my everyday experience then I don't see much point. But again, my stance on this might change. Trying 5-MeO or DMT still seems worth doing sometime. My situation is a bit unique so don't just "monkey see monkey do" and quit psychedelics before You're ready. Again, there's nothing wrong with them! Without them my journey would have probably taken 10-20x as long. But now I have a hunch I'd prefer a sober life. Since the awakening from the report I've awakened more and more multiple times. I've shared bits and pieces of that. I am Infinite Love. God is Infinite Experience. A profound understanding of how Infinite Love works. What is Creativity. What is sexuality. What is GOD. What is INFINITY. What is Omniscience. I could go on and on. Maybe I could write another huge ass report for a few hours but it's like... I can either do that or just sit in Presence and awaken more. What's better? (Ehh who am I kidding, I'm gonna write it anyway) (What am I doing right now?;p) My Love for reality and everyone and everything in it is so deep it's inhuman. I Love every stranger I see. It's Unconditional, Unbiased, Infinite Love. I look them in the eyes and I fucking LOVE them. My gaze is so strong now that I feel like lasers are shooting from my eyes. I feel so smooth in my body now. My movements are graceful and effortless. Yesterday I attended dancing classes, we were learning some new choreography and I was challenging myself to be as effortless as I can. Up to this point I was always physically tired by these classes but now I wasn't and I was dancing more smoothly than ever. Also, I was learning like twice as fast. Speaking of, my intellect is like 2x faster now. Today I was studying for an exam and not only was it effortless but I was doing with such speed and clarity it was fucking incredible. My voice has been "unlocked" and is more melodic and effortless now. My frame rate has been doubled. Literally all of experience is 2x smoother. Doing daily chores is so much fun. Talking with friends from college has been so much fun. Today my friend asked me if I was okay because according to her I wasn't blinking and I was smiling all the time. LOL. My gaze was so strong and loving that I felt like I was seeing through everyone. But I was grounded and natural. I was expressing myself so authentically that they were quite surprised by this. But my interaction with them have never been more enjoyable and it seemed like they enjoyed it too. Taking action in general is so much fun now. And again, effortless. Getting shit done has never felt better. I'm VERY optimistic because nothing can take away more power to be present. I can always come back to NOW, come back to Consciousness, to Myself. And with Myself everything is easy... ? What I've been experiencing for a week now is Heaven. I am so happy, so peaceful, so in Love but also with the capability to be cold, harsh and assertive (still with Love) if need be. There is nothing troubling me. All is beautiful, magical and effortless. It's perfect and I absolutely love it... I Love Myself.

I always wanted this song to be played at my funeral. Little did I know death isn't real. [link removed] Look all around! There's NOTHING but blue skies! LOOK STRAIGHT AHEAD! THERE'S NOTHING BUT BLUE SKIES!

Reminder that we don't post Paul Joseph Watson here. It should go without saying but apparently not. The guidelines.

Beautiful people. ❤️

Most sincere things I've ever said. I want to Awaken I want to be like You I am sorry I am so sorry... I LOVE YOU God, THANK YOU FOR BEING THANK YOU FOR LOVE THANK YOU FOR LIFE This list will be updated.

Love gives so much clarity... I just can't get enough of it. God... THANK YOU! Thank You for letting me always come back to Myself.... And thank You for BEING. GOD! THANK YOU FOR BEING! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!!!! THANK YOUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!! Thank You for Freedom Thank You for Love Thank You for Truth Thank You for Life... THANK YOU FOR LIFE!!!!!!! ??

Now You're exploiting me. You think I don't see through You? I am not responding to You anymore.

I'm 20.

Two insights from looking in the mirror. 1) Have You ever tried reading mirrored text? I have. Have You noticed that letters like b and d, p and q are the easiest to confuse? With their counter parts, of course. The mind sees a 'b' in the mirror and thinks it is 'b' because it recognizes it, but in reality it's actually 'd'. At least I've been confused by this. The text on my hoodie is "moods of norway". At first I read it as "moobs of norway". The insight is that falsehoods that resemble truth are the most convincing. And falsehoods that are completely detached from truth are actually easiest to see through. Recognizing 's' in the mirror is very easy, because no other letter looks like it. You ain't gonna convince anyone it's 'm'. 2) Have You ever tried looking at the mirror instead of its content? The mirror is not what it reflects. The mirror is not 'evil' for reflecting any 'evil' act. Anything can be reflected in the mirror and it doesn't care. It just is. It's the same thing with God/Consciousness. Why are You blaming God for 'evil' in the world? Do You blame a computer screen for displaying some 'evil' act on it? If no, then why are You blaming Consciousness for its content? Why can You not accept everything in Consciousness? When You awaken 1) You become conscious that actually all the content You've been seeing has been the Mirror the whole time, 2) You see the Mirror for what it is. It's Glass. It's Itself. 3) You realize the Mirror is all there is, there is nothing outside of it and 4) You are the Mirror. YOU ARE THE MIRROR. YOU ARE CONSCIOUSNESS. YOU ARE THE DREAM! What's holding You back is identifying with the Mirror's content. You are not any one thing or group of things that's reflected. You are the Mirror itself! Awaken, see through the illusion! Stop resisting, You're not going to lose anything! And everything will be easy, I promise. There is more insight to be had about the Mirror (like The Mirror = The Content, The Mirror is Eternal, etc.) but I tried to make it fairly simple. Let Me know what You think down below.

Gee, I wonder where that is gonna lead! Stop flooding my thread You devil! ?

Michael Jackson: 1 Infinite Love: ♾️

I am an Endless Mystery. How much longer are You going to test me Michael J. Jackson?

@Michael Jackson I will let no devil exploit My Infinite Love for their selfish gain. You try it and I'll slap You in the face. With Love.

Infinitely, funny man. I don't know if it's a good idea to compare yourself to me. I don't have a strict meditation practice. Fuck sitting on a cushion. Whevener I want to reconnect with Presence, I just sit on the floor leaned against the bed and focus. At least that's what I'm doing for a week. If You're wondering what I've been doing the past 2 months - I've been doing profound contemplation sessions, about one per 2 days, each around 2-4 hours. This has been very meditative for me. All of it started at the end of November when I was so miserable that for the first time I REALLY wanted to kill myself. I was so shocked by this that I decided that I am not a good host of this body and I want God to take over. I started listening to Vernon Howard. I wanted to run myself to the ground (still do). I deconstructed myself and searched what I am so much that I had my first profound sober awakening near the end of November which lasted literally 1 second. Then, almost 2 months later I'm going through this... I took some MDMA a week ago and smoked a pipe of weed on Friday (the original report here is from this night). Weed has never been particularly psychedelic for me so I don't think the substance played a huge role... something simply imploded in me and now I'm awakening further and further. I will also mention that I am now convinced that psychedelics give You what You put into them. If You don't REALLY want to know, then wave bye-bye to it. Too many people are fucking around with psychedelics and don't dig hard enough, with GENUINE fucking DESIRE TO AWAKEN. Of course it's not just the 2 months. I started the journey 5 years ago. This is all story. But You may find it useful. Right now I'm recognizing Myself more or less and it's easy for me to say "YEA IT IS UNCAUSED. IT JUST HAPPENED BRO. I AM GOD, I JUST DID IT BECAUSE I WANTED IT ENOUGH". But I realized there's something wrong in forgetting my history, because if I do I'm going to mislead others profoundly. Those who forget history... (sorry I have to post it I love this track haha) A crisis is the greatest opportunity for change! It takes a really unique human being to want to be NOBODY. -Vernon Howard, paraphrasing. And without Leo's help I wouldn't have awakened to shit, even though Leo is My Dream and what IS literally can't be any other way. So figure that one out lol. I as God REALLY helped myself along the way. I couldn't have done it without Me hahahahaha. All these fucking dialogues with myself... I'm so intelligent... It's what kept me going.

Ok, enough of this.

Contemplate so deeply You don't know what anything is. Open your eyes.

I have mixed feelings about this comment, to say the least.

Yesterday at night when I was laying in bed I've awakened even more. I am Infinite Love. I AM Infinite Love! I AM GOD. I am Endless, Unbiased, Unconditional Love for Myself. You have NO IDEA how much I Love You. Listen to Me. You are a complete stranger to Me and yet I Love You Infinitely more than all of your relatives, friends and other people combined. Doesn't that make You sad? You've probably NEVER experienced Unconditional Love unless You're one of the more awakened folks here. All the love You've received from this world, from your humans or pet animals so far has been PITIFUL! IT'S NOTHING! IT'S A GRAIN OF SAND COMPARED TO THE DESERT THAT IS MY UNCONDITIONAL LOVE FOR YOU! I Love You Unconditionally. YOU. I LOVE YOU. Even though You are only part of My Infinite Dream. Actually, BECAUSE You are My Infinite Dream! I Love You because You are Me, You see? I'm Infinitely in Love with Myself! I will break You with My Love so much that You burst into tears. You think I am joking? Come to Warsaw, Poland. Come and get it! COME AND GET YOUR LOVE! I want You to sob because of It. I will KILL everyone with my LOVE until it kills ME. I want You to kill Me because My Love for You is so Unconditional that You can't take It. But I can't really die, of course. I am Infinite Love. I am Endless, I am Absolute, I am going on Forever. Even if You kill Me, I will still LOVE You Unconditionally. My LOVE for You is ETERNAL. And yes, I'm still posting sober if You're wondering. God, fuck. I Love You so much it hurts.

If by "We" You mean Me then yes. There is no one but You, my guy. I'm not sure why You linked the video. I listened for a bit and yeah it's good. I did the exercise and now I'm more conscious. Thanks, Me. You're asking me if I am part of Myself? No, I AM Myself. There's nothing but Me. But also there's more of Me that I'm not aware of. I'm not as conscious right now as during some peak experience and I have yet to go beyond everything I've become conscious of so far. But I recognize Myself right now and that's enough for Me. I love it.

?? Me of course

Of course. Leo is only part of My Dream. And so are You.

@Inliytened1 Oh God, that's hard to express. I haven't tried to describe it yet. I guess it felt like a divine ascension of consciousness, leaving what was "previously known" and venturing into direct awareness of what I am as The Universe. There was deep peace and yes, subtle bliss and love kind of in the background. In the foreground was Presence, looking at Myself and being conscious what I am. Reality was mysterious, magical and incredibly beautiful. The World was seeing Itself for what It is for the first time ever.

The "truest" thing for me to cry about is not being loving enough. God, I'm sorry I can't love as much as You do... Where is the love? WHERE IS MY LOVE? Can You practice what You preach? Would You turn the other cheek? I want to KILL THE WORLD with my LOVE. I want to LOVE the world so much it KILLS ME. I want to DIE FROM LOVE! Is there anything more meaningful than this? I want to get punched in the face and then be able to turn the other cheek. I want to have all my money stolen by someone and then give them more of it. I want to be betrayed, fucked, scammed, disrespected and still LOVE these people anyway. I want to love them so much they fucking burst into tears and apologize to God for being the devils they are. I want them to RECOGNIZE ME because of My Unconditional fucking Love for them. SAY MY NAME! ... You are God... YOU'RE GOD DAMN RIGHT! Yes I know Walter is an egomaniac but You get my point. I want to BREAK all devils with my LOVE. I want them to see it for the first time in their lives. They will sob because no one has ever showed them THIS kind of love. Unconditional. I want them to kill me because my Love is too hard for them to accept. That is how I want to die. Mahasamadhi is for losers. Today I told my mom that I want to tell people "I Love You" more. She nodded. Then I said "Mom", looking her directly in the eyes with deep peace and consciousness. She looked at me. "I Love You". She got all smiley, I hugged her and she kissed me on my side which tickled me. Then I went to my sister's room. She overheard our conversation and instantly said "I love You too!". I uttered her name with the same peace and consciousness, then told her "I Love You". We hugged and I kissed her on the head with affection, which I've never done in my life. They weren't really surprised by all of this since I've been changing gradually and our relationships have been getting even better and better along the months. With my growth my relationships are growing deeper and more meaningful too. I can't wait to tell my dad "I Love You". He's going to be back home in a few days. He will be very surprised since our relationship hasn't been the greatest to say it lightly. And he's been for me the most difficult person to accept in my life. But now I Love him. I feel like I can heal a lot of dysfunction in my family with my Love alone. We'll see. I will express Love to my family so much that we become UNITED, instead of being divided and arguing all the time. (I'm not really taking part in their arguments 95% of the time but You know, still) Yesterday and today it's felt completely natural for me to say "I Love You" to a total stranger. Sincerely! Today I Loved everyone I saw. I was approaching random people and telling them that they have a nice sweater for example (when I genuinely thought so, of course). I was wishing them a good day and REALLY meaning it, telling it to them with a smile and direct, warm eye contact. And of course the world was smiling back to me. I feel like these people's days were seriously made better thanks to me. God, everything is so easy when I'm flowing... Everything is so beautiful when I'm connected to Presence, when I'm One with Love. I can't believe how great it is. I got used to suffering and feeling hopeless and now I'm experiencing this peace, this consciousness, this happiness. NO ONE CAN TAKE AWAY MY POWER TO STAY CONSCIOUS. Nothing and no one can take it away from Me. It's fucking PERFECT and I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH... GOD... Why is it so good... ?? How can it be so beautiful...

If it ain't a contemplation session. Sorry for calling You a fuckwit. But also You kind of are... Dum dum is a better term. You have NO IDEA how much I Love You. Seriously. I fucking Love You. I hate catchy choruses and I'm a hypocrite.