Sincerity

Sorry, I couldn't restrain myself. Yes, it's a Dream.

I only know what happened to me. I don't know how it will look like for You. Most likely, yes.

I'm forgetting more and more with each day. I know it's natural, it's like the exhale part of the breath while the period of growth and expansion is the inhale. I see that I can focus on different things in this autopilot state that I'm starting to feel attracted to currently and I'm excited by that. Also I can't wait to see what the future brings. How am I going to feel when the inhale part comes back again in like 4 months or so? What is the state going to be like? And yet it hurts me a bit that I don't remember anymore. Yes, it hurts. I am being honest. From a "lower" state like this things are harder to accept. I'm still attempting it of course, that's what I feel like my work is about. And that's what I care about in life. But man... I don't know, I'm just sad right now. There's something beautiful in this too... ? I have a lot of insights about how this entire cycle works, why it is the way it is, what the value of this exhale/autopilot/conservatism phase is. But I'll mention it some other time maybe. I had a GREAT day today... and I'm tired. Please forgive me for whatever I do.. when I don't remember You... ??

Exactly. @Chives99 Trip wisely, my dude. Do the necessary research.

Since You're off MDMA now I assume, I'm gonna make a reminder that it is advised to take 2-3 month long breaks between MDMA trips. I'm saying this because I remember You posting on MDMA a week ago. Please be safe dude! And try to restrain yourself from posting while high!

What does E Y E S spell

Nah, but various muscles in my body twitch a lot when I meditate. Nice!

The fun is exactly in figuring this out for yourself. Have faith that You're going to do it. And work for it.

I don't have a strict meditation practice. I do it whenever I feel like it. I just sit on the floor and observe consciousness when I get an urge. Or suddenly look at my hand and start focusing on experience. Hard to say how much it adds to my baseline. I certainly get more conscious when I do it. I don't have an every day spiritual work routine per se. But I'm trying to be conscious during the day and when some negativity arises for example, I'm melting it by accepting it for what it is and being present. So whenever I get brought down a bit or my state is weird somehow I take the time to stop and observe it. Basically my everyday goal is to love the NOW as much as I can. One routine I have though is going out for coffee about 3 times per week and contemplating there for hours. By contemplating I mean introspecting and deepening my understanding BUT also simply looking at experience and meditating, basically. These coffees have been INCREDIBLY beneficial to me in the last 2,5 months. And over the last 2 weeks after the initial awakening I've been awakening further and further during these sessions. I was observing what is and crying. Recognizing what I am and literally sobbing in public lol. So that's that. If You're interested in more info I added many more posts to this thread, like this one: Or this one:

Yeah haha. Actually awakening has helped me a lot with my exams last week. I was studying with super speed and efficiency. My mind was like 3x clearer. Also I had one oral exam. I sat in front of the lecturer with complete fucking peace and my mind incredibly clear. Deep eye contact. Answered a few questions with what knowledge I had. I was so calm that this dude thought I knew everything already so he quickly let me go hahaha. It was fucking comical to me.

Yeah, yeah. That's terrific advice. But actually effortlessness and "no work" comes after a ton of crying, suffering, focus, contemplation and all that. Which is "work". Also, quit it with your trolling posts please.

No, as I mentioned in the post above. But my baseline is higher now. Right now I'm distracted. And studying for an exam. Who the hell knows. You tell me. It depends on how much You want it, how much work You put in, etc.

That's good. Just please take it under consideration next time before You trip. Enjoy your experience. Don't sweat nothing.

You can makes notes in a notebook or in a text file. Posting while high is discouraged here. Nevertheless, have a nice trip! ❤️ All is good.

Just so You know, the state has faded quite a lot already. I don't recognize Myself "by default" and I'm not Unconditionally Loving anymore. It's still nice tho. I love it. ?

Of course. ? Love. Damn, nice. ? One ? ? ? To be on your own, with no direction home, a complete unknown. Like a rolling stone.

Look at this beauty standing on my desk. On Saturday I went to a cafe (contemplated there for 4 hours) and there were tulips placed on every other table. I stared at my tulip a lot. People were looking at me weirdly. I was touching it gently, smelling it every once in a while, taking the entire jug and looking at it closely. I can't believe I forgot how much I love flowers... So today I went and bought myself a tulip. I adore this little guy. I also bought my mom three, since it was Valentine's Day. (We're home alone for the week) Ahh, Valentine's Day. They day of love or whatever. Shouldn't every day be that? I've finished writing a report of all awakenings from the past 2 weeks. It's 20 pages long and I'm really content with it. I'm not sharing it - or at least not planning to right now. What I especially noticed is how strongly I've forgotten the Love... It's so distant now! Just 2 weeks ago I was Loving every stranger I saw Unconditionally. It was inhuman levels of Love. Literally fucking saintly. And now... Now I don't remember it. I'm still in a fairly high state. But I'm not recognizing Myself anymore and I am not Unconditionally Loving. This is my truth of the moment. And I'm okay with that. As I've said multiple times before, I want to accept NOW as much as I possibly can. There is nothing wrong about the state I'm in right now. I love it. I want to love the NOW so much I wouldn't change it for anything other. This would mean that I wouldn't change this current state even for Unconditional Love, because I love what is NOW absolutely. Isn't this exactly how God is? ... I want to be like Him...

Too broad of a question, in my opinion. Failure in what? What is failure? Does it even exist? The #1 failure must be perceiving "failure" haha.

Great work. Very inspiring post! But also I have to agree with @Realms of Wonder. Impact on the world is essential!

Yes.

I'm feeling a bit down. ... Well, it happens! Isn't it interesting? The moment I notice my state, I'm instantly freed from its spell (to a degree, at least). Presence is awakening! Who would have thought. What a beautiful song. The God in me is singing it. Don't YOU want to be free?

Oh, sorry. I completely misunderstood what You meant by bed of embers. Also I thought of ambers, lol... I'd be unwise to make such a judgement as of yet. Nothing has really broken me so far, but it's only been 2 weeks. Most of the benefits I mentioned in the post are still active - to a lesser degree, but they are. However, I do predict that something will break me one day. I kind of intuit a storm is coming... I've been noticing clues. But who knows. Looking at this overall experience, how long it's lasted and how powerful it's been, I think that with further work "I" might really reach a more "permanent" level of highly elevated consciousness so that "I" can't be broken anymore... because there is absolutely no "me" left. I will burn myself to the ground. With Love.

@Karla I am glad!! Good luck with the retreat.

Sure, I can provide updates. Not exactly sure where yet because I don't wanna resurrect the same thread endlessly. Maybe I'll make a separate post someday or just mention it in my journal. I'll be honest. An unstoppable bed of embers seems like a pipe dream to me. I don't know what Tolle is experiencing and I wouldn't presume if I were You. My state varies across hours and days. Sometimes I'm stressed out, sometimes I'm blissed out. Now that I'm 2 weeks later my high state has faded a bit (although I'm still experiencing most of the benefits to a large degree) and I assume it's going to fade even more. In my experience so far with this work it's 2 steps forward and then 1 step backward. One big cycle like this has been spanning like half a year for me usually. I expect the backward step to happen soon, since I've been experiencing the "2 steps forward" phase for the last 2 and a half months. I can still be at extreme peace at times during the day and sometimes even recognize what I am, but to be honest most of the time I don't remember anymore. I have to focus at least. And it's okay! I feel like my work for the future is to accept the "lower states" as much as I possibly can, from inside out. If God Loves them, so will I. I'll love "myself" to my God damn death.

Hey man, I'm going to move your topic to the Serious Emotional Issues subforum. I'm really sorry about your cat. I hope You and your wife get through this. If it helps, I'd honestly tell You that You are God and your cat is part of your Infinite Dream. That doesn't mean your beloved cat is not real, but it means it's all You. And if it soothes You, sooner or later You will be completely ONE as God, which is going to include everything, your cat too. BUT don't use that as a cope. Please, notice your sadness and be open to it. It's okay to grieve and please don't avoid this process with spiritual explanations. You are going to get through this and come out stronger.