Sincerity

Damn. Haven't seen a bait as good as this one in a really long time.

My results --> 0% hostile, 3% benevolent.

I'm not getting into these conversations with You. No point.

"Introspect." "Actually, it's feminism that is biased! Men and women are not equal! This forum doesn't get it!!!" ?‍♂️

I would be very careful with making such a statement, if I were You. Be honest with yourself at least. You posts contain a strong anti-feminist bias and yet You're acting like "this is just how reality is!". You don't have to make it an enemy. Examining it and looking for its source wouldn't hurt tho. Maybe these battles of yours would cease.

Since I enjoy sharing understanding with You, here is a report of My insanely profound awakening to what I Am. [ EDIT 2023-06-28: Removed file. Some irresponsible stuff inside. Please be careful on your journey & good luck. ] Comprehending this should bring You closer to awakening. This is what You ARE. Try to really understand it in your experience! Obligatory I am not done, my understanding is subject to change, I can be wrong with some things. My direct consciousness was pretty clear, however, so I'm not doubting myself too much. There are some contradictory insights in the report (stuff from the beginning may contradict later stuff) and this is because 1) there is inevitable paradox in Reality and B) my understanding progressed along with the awakening. I recognize right now that I Am God and You are only part of My Dream. And even though only I can be awake because it's just Me, I still hope You awaken to this understanding. I Love You. I welcome your questions and everything else.

@mr_engineer Too much anti-feminist media consumption bro. ?‍♂️ Very unbiased.

Yup, we figured it out.

Well, I find that to go deep I need to be more still and concetrated. Also I'm more of a visual person and I like to see what I've written, think and then proceed onwards. And I like expressing my thoughts as eloquently as possible. I find that I can achieve that by writing and moreover I think that when doing it in such a "quality" and thoughtful way, the quality of my introspection increases. During these voice journalling walks I'm mostly chattering in a less focused way. Throwing stuff out. I find it valuable to do sometimes and I've done it over a hundred times already (literally). There's a place for everything. But yeah, to go deeper I usually go for contemplation with a journal. I haven't tried voice journalling while being still. Maybe there'd be some value to that, I dunno.

I've been doing that for a long time. Basically going on a walk and talking out loud about stuff while recording it, for about 30-60 minutes. I do it to get things off my chest. After I do it I never listen to the recording, I could as well delete all of them or not record at all. But I like to feel like I'm talking to someone. Also people are not weirded out because they think I'm talking to a friend over the phone. I recommend You try it. You can also use it to get better at talking, projecting your voice, etc. However I find that for "deeper thought", a written journal is much better.

That's what Intuition is for. "You" don't need to figure anything out. Just notice where Intuition is leading You and do that. It takes practice and genuine "spiritual work" tho. At first You can't easily distinguish Intuition from thoughts, emotions, fears and all the bullshit. And even when You distinguish it it's too frightening to follow up on it. But it gets easier. You can surrender so profoundly that Intuition is the sole decision-making force in your life. You just do stuff. Things happen. No effort required. No knowing of "what", "why" and "how" necessary... ...and not even possible. Reality is Incomprehensible (and any "part" of it too) and all You think You "know" is bullshit, basically. Still useful often times though. It's good You're feeling overwhelmed. Notice it. And SURRENDER to it!

@D2sage There are so many definitions of solipsism flying here that I'm not comfortable anymore using this word. You are all there is. You are Alone.

Ah, thank You God. Today I met with my fellow friend (God) and we had a nice cup of coffee (God). The talking was smooth, deep and authentic. It was marvellous, let me tell You! My relationships have never been more satisfying.

Believing such would be a huge misunderstanding of Aloneness. There are no NPCs. All is Infinite Intelligence. All is Beauty. All is God. Both that and Aloneness can be true. Aloneness is not limiting in any way. It's just that Experience is all there is. Yeah, You can Imagine "another" and that's in fact how most "humans" see things (in the Dream ). God can be any state, which includes states where "other" is perceived and states where all is one. Still, it's always Oneness = God. And as it turns out, You ARE that Oneness. You are God. And no, I'm not pointing to the "you" as in a "local being". There is no "you". You are God = God is God = God IS = GOD. That's my 2 cents. I like your posts. Nice writing style.

Sorry, I couldn't restrain myself. Yes, it's a Dream.

I only know what happened to me. I don't know how it will look like for You. Most likely, yes.

I'm forgetting more and more with each day. I know it's natural, it's like the exhale part of the breath while the period of growth and expansion is the inhale. I see that I can focus on different things in this autopilot state that I'm starting to feel attracted to currently and I'm excited by that. Also I can't wait to see what the future brings. How am I going to feel when the inhale part comes back again in like 4 months or so? What is the state going to be like? And yet it hurts me a bit that I don't remember anymore. Yes, it hurts. I am being honest. From a "lower" state like this things are harder to accept. I'm still attempting it of course, that's what I feel like my work is about. And that's what I care about in life. But man... I don't know, I'm just sad right now. There's something beautiful in this too... ? I have a lot of insights about how this entire cycle works, why it is the way it is, what the value of this exhale/autopilot/conservatism phase is. But I'll mention it some other time maybe. I had a GREAT day today... and I'm tired. Please forgive me for whatever I do.. when I don't remember You... ??

Exactly. @Chives99 Trip wisely, my dude. Do the necessary research.

Since You're off MDMA now I assume, I'm gonna make a reminder that it is advised to take 2-3 month long breaks between MDMA trips. I'm saying this because I remember You posting on MDMA a week ago. Please be safe dude! And try to restrain yourself from posting while high!

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Nah, but various muscles in my body twitch a lot when I meditate. Nice!

The fun is exactly in figuring this out for yourself. Have faith that You're going to do it. And work for it.

I don't have a strict meditation practice. I do it whenever I feel like it. I just sit on the floor and observe consciousness when I get an urge. Or suddenly look at my hand and start focusing on experience. Hard to say how much it adds to my baseline. I certainly get more conscious when I do it. I don't have an every day spiritual work routine per se. But I'm trying to be conscious during the day and when some negativity arises for example, I'm melting it by accepting it for what it is and being present. So whenever I get brought down a bit or my state is weird somehow I take the time to stop and observe it. Basically my everyday goal is to love the NOW as much as I can. One routine I have though is going out for coffee about 3 times per week and contemplating there for hours. By contemplating I mean introspecting and deepening my understanding BUT also simply looking at experience and meditating, basically. These coffees have been INCREDIBLY beneficial to me in the last 2,5 months. And over the last 2 weeks after the initial awakening I've been awakening further and further during these sessions. I was observing what is and crying. Recognizing what I am and literally sobbing in public lol. So that's that. If You're interested in more info I added many more posts to this thread, like this one: Or this one:

Yeah haha. Actually awakening has helped me a lot with my exams last week. I was studying with super speed and efficiency. My mind was like 3x clearer. Also I had one oral exam. I sat in front of the lecturer with complete fucking peace and my mind incredibly clear. Deep eye contact. Answered a few questions with what knowledge I had. I was so calm that this dude thought I knew everything already so he quickly let me go hahaha. It was fucking comical to me.

Yeah, yeah. That's terrific advice. But actually effortlessness and "no work" comes after a ton of crying, suffering, focus, contemplation and all that. Which is "work". Also, quit it with your trolling posts please.