Sincerity

November 2024 TL;DR: I share my overall understanding of mind and energies, as of then. (Still largely relevant.)

August 2024 TL;DR: What we call imaginary is actually real, just in a different way. Even if you're unconscious of it or shutting it off, real energetic processes are still taking place within the mind. And this matters, because energy runs everything that happens in your reality, and you care about how your life unfolds. The word "energy" isn't focused on, but the thread is still about that.

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Introduction Most people do not look deep into what thinking is. Also, many people especially of the """spiritual""" sort dismiss thinking to a large extent - AND they usually DON'T understand its workings. Which is utterly idiotic, if you think about it. The main points I will try to make is that 1) thinking has a profound, easily overlooked purpose and meaning and that 2) thinking is completely intertwined with the ENERGETIC REALITY that you are, and are experiencing always. And that reality matters to you a great deal, no matter who you are or what you value. Basics of Energetic Reality I am biased, in that I greatly focus on understanding the energetic reality of me, and the world. What are energies, and why do they matter? Every course of action is determined by an energy. And without energy, there is no action. SOMETHING must motivate you for an action to be actualized "by you" in your reality. It's not even that "you" particularly are acting on an energy - more so, there arises an understanding that "you" don't really have control over these energies... But it IS still true that these energies ARE, that there is acting upon them, that sometimes there are "below or above the surface", that they vary in intensity, and that YOU vary in consciousness of them. In general, the energy with the most intensity is what is acted upon in reality. The rule is that "the winner takes it all" - for the moment. However, change is the case at all times, and the intensities of energies change. Usually, the energy that is being acted upon lowers in intensity until a point when focus on that energy is depleted. Then, another energy is most intense, and that energy is acted upon. And so on. The topic is complex, and of enormous interest to me. The mechanics of energy are fascinating. For example, sometimes you might feel quite intensely you want to do something, but something deeper from "inside / below the surface" is stopping you, and so even though you feel like you want to act on something, you are "blocked". Point being, the most intense energy is not always the one that you FEEL most intensely - sometimes there are deeper things that you don't really see clearly. And so there is a distinction between conscious-by-you greatest intensity vs ACTUAL greatest intensity. I am investigating the mechanics of energy steadily, and having great fun while doing so. To add upon this "elementary understanding of energy" section, I will perhaps mention examples of energies, in case it isn't clear. Again, these are all your motivations, urges, emotions - conscious or not. These can include (but are not limited to): Fear, worry Love Desire for greatness, power, influence, strength, looking good, improvement of one's conditions Hatred, deep pain, desire for revenge, jealousy, to bring someone down Disrespect of oneself and others, cynicism, insecurity Desire for pleasure, comfort, emotional satiation, status quo, acceptance An intuitive steerage, flow towards a particular direction Desire for God, Awakening, Purity, Self-destruction, humility before God, Truth, surrender Desire to say something to the world, express one's truth, make something conscious to others Shame, guilt, grief Etc. And to conclude this section, I'll say that your life's quality depends on the energies in your reality, no matter who you are or whether you're conscious of them. That is why it's important. The energetic reality is with you ALWAYS. And, from one perspective, this energetic reality is what YOU ARE*. That is YOU - and you don't have much control over it, you can't change it in the snap of a finger, you don't really direct it, It is what it is, and it changes with varying frequency. *I'm saying "from one perspective" because "you" can also be thought of in different ways. For example, since you can observe this energetic reality, you can also consider yourself the observer of it and not it itself (even though it is still utterly intertwined with you). Connection of Energy and Thought So let's get to the thinking now. Basically, a thought is made of energy. It's as if a thought is a voice or vision of the energy that is currently flowing. An energy is "primal" and you cannot notice it the very moment it arises - it is immediate, in the now, faster than you can consciously spot it. What you do notice with a delay is the thought of that energy. We're dealing with energies then. Thoughts are basically energies. Simple as that. And energies ARE important, because they make what YOU are and determine what will be happening in your reality. And presumably you care about the way your life unfolds, your character, particular outcomes you'd like to see, closeness to God, etc. So now, what is thinking? Let's consider different modes of thinking and how they could be understood: Unconscious thinking, daydreaming --> basically just the flow of energies, usually dimly observed. Conscious thinking --> you are more consciously observing the flow of energies. But there is also something more to thinking consciously, because the decision itself to think CONSCIOUSLY is stemming from a particular energy. So it's not just the "chaos" of the energy flow - there is also a dominant energy that is setting that action of being mindful in motion! Conscious thinking can be done in different ways. You can be focused on a particular energy, contemplating it. So, the intent to contemplate/understand or to dive into a particular energy deep and immerse yourself in it would be one thing. Then, you can also focus on being in a state of openness and relaxation and allowing, inviting and embracing different thoughts/energies that are progressively arising. Let's make the distinction then between: Focused conscious thinking AND Surrendered conscious thinking The more you think consciously, the more your energetic reality is developing. Because you are letting energies arise and you are becoming more conscious of them! And when allowed to rise and/or inquired into, the intensities of energies change - and so your energetic landscape changes! And that, to me, is AWESOME. Because that means growth and more experience. (Hooray!) For me, the best combination and a good practice is a blend of surrendered and focused conscious thinking. What I do is: I go into a surrendered state. For example, I go for a slow walk in the forest, or I just sit on my balcony without any distractions, or sit on a bench in the park. And I observe the things that arise, smiling at them, being relaxed. Then, once I observe something interesting, something that resonates which I'd love to dive into deeper, I put focus on that. I can pull up my notebook and write down that interesting thought - the act of writing it down is the energy of focusing on that particular thing, feeling into it and going into it more. Then, more thoughts arise relevant to that thing I wrote - all of similar energy. I contemplate more - all until it is "resolved" for me, I find no interest in it and it no longer resonates to focus at all. After that, I need to relax and "open up" my mind again, and so I go into the surrendered state once more. I slow down. I breathe. I allow to arise whatever wants to arise. And then, once the beautiful flow is flowing again, I can pick some new interesting thing to look into. I can repeat this a few times until eventually I'm tired and the energy for conscious thinking is all depleted for the moment. Then, the time is to find something different and act on it. A rather good practice is also to go from surrendered conscious thinking to focused thinking to ACTION on the particular thing focused on. Energies are best internalized through ACTION. There are some resolutions purely through the act of thinking for sure, but also: energies are best nurtured, built up, remembered and repeated through taking a specific step of action towards them. It can be a ritualistic action for the energies that are more abstract, or a pragmatic one for the more down-to-earth ones. For example: let's say I want to integrate the God-realizations from my psychedelic trip, the energies that were arising then. You're going to contemplate them of course after the come-down, but then it'd be good to take an action step for them, and in this case it'd probably be one of the more ritualistic sort. I don't know what it could be for you, but it should have meaning and an understood-by-you connection to the thing that you are integrating. Eg. a ritual of staring into your eyes in the mirror for an hour, naked or in some shaman costume. Or establishing a habit for writing Awakened Pointers on sticky notes for yourself every day and appreciating them, whatever they are to you. Or another energy example: let's say you were thinking about your death and a great deal of love suddenly sprung from you. You're now realizing what you REALLY care about in life, or what you should say to the people closest to you, out of that profound love. The next action to integrate that love into your life more would be to eg. plan a conversation with your loved one and act on it, or do that thing that is most important to you which you'd regret if you didn't do it. Feeling the energy is good, but also what matters is ACTUALIZING IT! Intense spikes of energy are the best times to bring an energy into reality if that energy is not very much developed yet! Once that usually-faint-but-currently-intense energy is actualized, it is nurtured and then more often repeated in the future. That is real change in the energetic reality right there. Not easily done, usually not comfortable. All this conscious thinking is nurturing very beautiful energies in itself. Don't you want to be that? Surrendered, flowing with interesting energies, going deep into the most interesting ones, tasting the reality of them and then really CHANGING YOUR LIFE, especially through focused action? Conscious thinking is necessary for all that. It's a blessing. ❤️ If you want growth, think consciously more. For me at least, the point is primarily to DEVELOP MYSELF ENERGETICALLY. I want these energies to be diverse, flowing, colorful, beautiful. I want change, development, movement. I don't want to stay in one place due to unconsciousness. I want to converse the shadows to the lights. I want to understand this energetic reality, as it is SO interesting. I want freedom from ignorance and unconscious patterns. I want discovery. Free-flow. Surrender. God! And maybe you do too. So THINK (and ACT). Conclusion My hope is that I somewhat convinced you of the beauty of conscious thinking, but even more so that I infected you with genuine interest in the workings of energies. After all, it's all mechanics of you we're talking about. Nothing "other". All fascinating! Your comments are greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading! Peace <3

@UnbornTao Yes, of course. The higher-above-one's-level energies are either entirely unseen by one, or the most resisted. Good feeling towards a particular energy could actually often be seen as a sign that it is the "easy" way. And that often does not align with the "right" way. What is agreeable is what is believed, and what is believed is usually not fully seen through, and definitely not the "ultimate thing". I think what's good about surrendered conscious thinking is that if there is truly surrender, the really hard to accept energies can come up and you are confronting them, instead of rejecting. Those are then the best things to be looking deeper into. Resistance (or agreeability) towards energies is a whole different, lengthy topic. But thank you for touching upon that! That was a good point.

@Schizophonia The post will reach whoever it must. It’s alright. I had fun writing this. It was worth it for its own sake. Cleared up my understanding. Also, there’s plenty of intellectuals on the forum but interested in different things, and not necessarily my essays. Which is okay. It is what it is. * * * * * One of the thoughts that motivated me to make this thread was the insight that you really can’t escape energy. Energy is the basis for everything - including the pursuit of God, self-purification, meditation, awakening, all that. When a purified being goes to the mountains to meditate in a cave, there is still energy enacting that. Even when no-self is recognized, energies are still present. When anything is happening, it’s because of an energy, even if this isn’t recognized or focused on. Different energies are of different quality. Some could be described as lower, more dense. Some are higher and lighter. The energetic world is a diverse tapestry. And what is Energy itself, being the substrate of all the energies? Worth dwelling upon.

Learn to have fun by doing what you genuinely want to do. HAVE FUN! You don’t need to go to a boring cafe with a girl. What would you genuinely want to do? Invite her to play badminton, or ping pong, or take her to a God damn arcade, invite her to fucking bet on horses, whatever man. I went to a dancing lesson evening with my girl on our second date. I don’t dance well but I did dance, and had fun. Being loose and doing what you want is key.

With a woman: be detached, have fun, lead but without expectation or insistence. An attitude of: I don’t care, let’s have fun together, you and I! Come with me, play! I will lead you! And if you don’t want to - cool, it was nice to meet you, I’m going somewhere else then, bye. Consider that the outcome you could care about is having fun together. That you can insist on.

You might be too tense. Fuck it, what do you care? Just have fun! 🍾🎈 Elaboration: it is a matter of skill to fluidly enter a state of not caring and just having fun. Practice entering that state, for your own enjoyment. It’ll be good.

Don’t measure others by your own yardstick.

@Davino All the people and circumstances inspiring us in life are the beautiful love and gift of God / Reality / Fate. Fate doing its thing guiding us to our inevitable self-discovery. Throwing wake-up calls at us. Leo is Reality. And you, and your post, are mine. I appreciate your sharings. Thank you for posting. ❤️

Very nice! DMT is my next step as well.

Good for you! Your parents are cool for letting you do your thing for 6 months. Now, go get 'em!

Purification.

Anyone excited for Hollow Knight: Silksong coming out tomorrow? This game is going to be fire. I really enjoyed Hollow Knight, so I'll definitely play Silksong at some point. Even though I'm not that much into video games anymore.

That’s a bold decision. I respect that. I actually deleted my 9-year steam account last year, with unique souvenir items and such. Mostly due to Team Fortress 2, which I sunk a lot hours into and was quite good at. This year, however, I made the new account solely to play the new Deltarune and Silksong. And it’s been cool. I don’t have a PC anymore as well, so I won’t be able to play shooter games anyway.

Okay, so I completed the game (first ending) and I have to say, this game is hard as fuck sometimes. A 10-phase arena that only gets harder with each phase kinda broke me. The game is definitely harder than it's predecessor. Still, it's a masterpiece to me. A work of genius.

😂 Where are you chatting with them?

Preety’s been doing some wild stuff after being banned from the forum, huh? Next thing we know, another prominent figure is assassinated by Buck Edwards.

This site is unusable to me sometimes with these errors, especially on mobile.

Excellent attitude. Just impeccable. Will get you far. 👍

Did you post this ironically? I lost braincells listening to this.

This is so God damn cool:

Post them math videos. Especially those which have broadened your understanding in a cool way, sparked your curiosity, reminded You of the nature of the universe somehow.

@Meeksauce Nice work! Yes, solipsism is the case, awesome that you awoke to it. But I’d say be wary of the concept of God communicating with you. There IS truth to it, but there’s also a myriad of ways you can delude yourself about it. Remember that thoughts perceiving „communication” and interpreting it to mean something can VERY easily be incorrect. So I recommend adopting a stance of not knowing what anything „means”.