Sincerity

Have something worth fighting for. Distraction is much easier to set aside then, and it's done from the heart. No discipline and mental strain required.

I popped my 1000th post cherry yesterday. (I have an old account on which I have 606 posts.) Hooray?!

DAMN! No one ever told me.

[link removed] It's okay to stumble. It's okay to forget. You're not going to be in perfect flow always. Mistakes are a part of life. LOVE YOUR STUMBLES. LOVE YOUR FORGETTING. I recorded a second much better version of me singing this song but I deliberately posted this one to show You it's totally fine to be imperfect. Everyone knows this intellectually but do You actually accept yourself? I feel like I need to lead by example. Here is a picture of me crying. [image removed] Do You know realize many tears You're going to have to spill on the path to surrender? Well. Your journey will certainly be different than mine so maybe You're not going to have to cry and cry all the time. But also I feel like everyone has to learn to cry. Because crying is surrender, a letting go and release of emotional knots. Do You realize how weak You are in God? Do You realize how weak your love is? Do You realize how selfish and evil You are? If a serious contemplation of these questions doesn't make You wanna cry then I suggest You're blind. But You don't have to be, of course. It's okay to be vulnerable. It's okay to be weak. It's okay to cry. It's okay to surrender your clinging and let go. Nothing is going to happen to You, nothing can hurt You! Take a leap of faith You beautiful angel. You're like a scared little bird that fears jumping out of its nest to fly. You're not going to fall. Your wings are going to activate! You have divine wings but You've forgotten about them. What a stupid way to live - walking around all life when You could fly all along.

He's got some nice handwriting. Good for him!

I Love You too

@Holykael Not true. You "control" what You accept. You can even try to fake it til You make it. Point at hardship and say "this is difficult for me to accept, but I'm accepting it anyway". It starts with a decision to try to accept it. But most people are like stubborn mules and would rather stay in their suffering even though it hurts them. I know because I was this way too. Simply too afraid to let go, afraid to take the leap of faith. Do You see yourself in this description? For God's sake, stop blaming someone "other" and bullshitting that You don't have control and just do it - accept what IS as much as You currently can. That much is enough.

Yes! I still have a long way to go. If I loved EVERYTHING, I'd be dead. Nevertheless, life is Heaven right now for me. Everything is effortless. The more You love/surrender/accept, the more Heaven-like life is and the more God-like You are. Yes and no. It can't be "unconscious innocence". The Love of God is aware and mature. That's Innocence in God. A simple model: Unconscious innocence (child) --> No innocence --> Conscious Innocence (Adult) Most likely yes, but that would require some radical levels of love.

@bloomer You reek of 4chan and the like.

Then your wish will be granted. Sooner or later. Some advice though: You have to be willing to accept your CURRENT state. Love what IS. In a way You only get it once You no longer need it. It's like with attracting a woman. See, You say You don't want to exist. But that's YOUR will. It's clear You're not surrendered. Remember, "THY Will be done" and not "My will be done". Love the NOW and everything will be fine. When You love what IS, You love God's Will! Because that's what IS! The moment You SINCERELY say to God "I Love You", You are free. (At least that's how it was for me)

Yourself? ? I believe in You.

Stop blaming God endlessly and start blaming yourself. Open your eyes. You're causing all your suffering and You're blaming someone else for it. THERE IS NO ONE BUT YOU! You're resisting fiercely and then blaming the world for your pain. Enough. Look inside and surrender to what You are. Or make these nonsense posts for eternity. I hope You see the harsh Love in what I'm saying. Get your sh*t together.

I understand You're suffering. I'm sorry. I hope You surrender one day. I Love You. ❤️

Lol. Personally I'd allow it. We could make this a thread for all joke tests, since this is the entertainment/fun subforum. Are You God? - Take the Test Infinitely Unique, Complex and Perfect? Infinitely Beautiful? You ARE? --> You might be God.

Indeed. Awakening is required.

I moved it to the correct subforum.

God Divides Itself out of Love. Life is a Gift from You to You.

And You claim You got something going...

It's been a week now. Here's an update. Since the awakening described in the report I've been experiencing little to no resistance. My state during the day varies. It's very fluid I feel. Most of the time I recognize Myself but there are breaks - sometimes I gotta focus on my duties for example. I've had moments when I was a bit overwhelmed by stress (had some exams this week) or fear (it's been popping up). Forgetting is no problem though. Reconnecting with Presence is always possible and effortless. Speaking of effortless - everything is fucking effortless. It's so beautiful I can't describe it. I don't have to make any decisions anymore. I'm being guided by Intuition all the time. Doing groceries? BAM BAM BAM. Quick and easy, not even thinking about what I gotta pick up next, I'm just flowing. Taking a walk? I stand at a crossroads and I just know which way to take. Studying for an exam? I just do it. Cleaning up? No problem. Getting ready to go out? Easy peasy. IT'S SO FUCKING EFFICIENT. I very quickly know what to say, I'm writing now and it just flows from me. I feel like I'm living with unbelievable grace right now. I'm in such a high baseline state now that I automatically notice fear, stress, thoughts, emotions and things like that and I can dissolve them very quickly. Nothing of importance slips under the radar for too long. It is a big part of this effortlessness - stuff that would normally bring me down is quickly noticed and dissolved sometimes without even any intervention on my part. Thus, I am not brought down:) It takes me about 10-15 minutes of sitting in Presence to awaken further and further. Again - completely effortless. I channel awakened insights and I KNOW what Reality is with complete consciousness. I can go deeper and deeper whenever I want, totally sober. I usually do it at night. All of my "problems" got instantly eradicated. Addiction to sweets, addiction to fast food, addiction to snacking, addiction to social media, hatred, most of shame and fear (still afraid of death tho), addiction to masturbation, addiction to porn, addiction to negativity, distraction in general, lack of confidence, insecurity, anxiety, most of stress, tiredness, discomfort with my body, uncertainty about the future (I absolutely know what to do for now and I have total faith that Truth will guide me along the way), most of worry in general (I've had some moments of worry but I could dissolve them in Presence), inhibition and fear of expressing myself honestly, lack of assertiveness, relationship problems (all of them solved by Love) and many more, if You can believe it. Love has given me total clarity. I am conscious of what I value in life, what I'm saying no to and what I want from life. It's SO CLEAR I can't fucking believe it. UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES AM I GOING TO TOUCH ALCOHOL AGAIN. I'D RATHER FUCKING DIE THAN DO IT! Also absolutely no fast food, no sweets, no overeating, no social media, no bullshit meeting with people and fucking around, no bullshit playing video games to distract myself from reality, no watching TV series, no movies (not anything wrong with these 2 per se but like, why the fuck would I waste 2 hours when I can bask in my Infinite Beauty?). No avoidance of feeling, no distraction from reality, no resistance in general. I feel like I've finally started to respect my life and myself. Also I'm more and more convinced to not touch drugs again, by which I mean psychedelics, weed, etc. But I'll see about that. Nothing wrong with psychedelics but like... I can awaken deeper in 10 minutes of sitting lol. Also, if I can't do it sober and integrate it into my everyday experience then I don't see much point. But again, my stance on this might change. Trying 5-MeO or DMT still seems worth doing sometime. My situation is a bit unique so don't just "monkey see monkey do" and quit psychedelics before You're ready. Again, there's nothing wrong with them! Without them my journey would have probably taken 10-20x as long. But now I have a hunch I'd prefer a sober life. Since the awakening from the report I've awakened more and more multiple times. I've shared bits and pieces of that. I am Infinite Love. God is Infinite Experience. A profound understanding of how Infinite Love works. What is Creativity. What is sexuality. What is GOD. What is INFINITY. What is Omniscience. I could go on and on. Maybe I could write another huge ass report for a few hours but it's like... I can either do that or just sit in Presence and awaken more. What's better? (Ehh who am I kidding, I'm gonna write it anyway) (What am I doing right now?;p) My Love for reality and everyone and everything in it is so deep it's inhuman. I Love every stranger I see. It's Unconditional, Unbiased, Infinite Love. I look them in the eyes and I fucking LOVE them. My gaze is so strong now that I feel like lasers are shooting from my eyes. I feel so smooth in my body now. My movements are graceful and effortless. Yesterday I attended dancing classes, we were learning some new choreography and I was challenging myself to be as effortless as I can. Up to this point I was always physically tired by these classes but now I wasn't and I was dancing more smoothly than ever. Also, I was learning like twice as fast. Speaking of, my intellect is like 2x faster now. Today I was studying for an exam and not only was it effortless but I was doing with such speed and clarity it was fucking incredible. My voice has been "unlocked" and is more melodic and effortless now. My frame rate has been doubled. Literally all of experience is 2x smoother. Doing daily chores is so much fun. Talking with friends from college has been so much fun. Today my friend asked me if I was okay because according to her I wasn't blinking and I was smiling all the time. LOL. My gaze was so strong and loving that I felt like I was seeing through everyone. But I was grounded and natural. I was expressing myself so authentically that they were quite surprised by this. But my interaction with them have never been more enjoyable and it seemed like they enjoyed it too. Taking action in general is so much fun now. And again, effortless. Getting shit done has never felt better. I'm VERY optimistic because nothing can take away more power to be present. I can always come back to NOW, come back to Consciousness, to Myself. And with Myself everything is easy... ? What I've been experiencing for a week now is Heaven. I am so happy, so peaceful, so in Love but also with the capability to be cold, harsh and assertive (still with Love) if need be. There is nothing troubling me. All is beautiful, magical and effortless. It's perfect and I absolutely love it... I Love Myself.

I always wanted this song to be played at my funeral. Little did I know death isn't real. [link removed] Look all around! There's NOTHING but blue skies! LOOK STRAIGHT AHEAD! THERE'S NOTHING BUT BLUE SKIES!

Reminder that we don't post Paul Joseph Watson here. It should go without saying but apparently not. The guidelines.

Beautiful people. ❤️

Most sincere things I've ever said. I want to Awaken I want to be like You I am sorry I am so sorry... I LOVE YOU God, THANK YOU FOR BEING THANK YOU FOR LOVE THANK YOU FOR LIFE This list will be updated.

Love gives so much clarity... I just can't get enough of it. God... THANK YOU! Thank You for letting me always come back to Myself.... And thank You for BEING. GOD! THANK YOU FOR BEING! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!!!! THANK YOUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!! Thank You for Freedom Thank You for Love Thank You for Truth Thank You for Life... THANK YOU FOR LIFE!!!!!!! ??

Now You're exploiting me. You think I don't see through You? I am not responding to You anymore.