Sincerity

Oh, cool. That's a lot of openers then.

I remember You made a blog post about this. https://www.actualized.org/insights/list-of-leos-favorite-openers

The 9 Stages of Relating to Leo. Not to brag but I think I'm transcending stage 4 and entering 5 already.

You can visualize these women and in your mind honestly express your anger / sadness / whatever towards them. Get nasty, be as petty as You need, scream in your mind even. You can get creative with your insults, it's fun. "How dare You fucking call me that You %&^@?! You're a &^%!*^ anyway!!!! I hate You with all my heart!!!!" Bonus points if in your speech You're very honest about YOURSELF, your selfishness, your intentions towards them in a comedic way. Remember that YOU are a lying sack of shit too. This is a preventive measure so that You don't believe what You say too much and You don't get an ego boost. "How dare You not let me slip into your pants?! I'm out here working hard trying to get laid and You have it so easy... I have it hard, You have it easy! I'm the victim, You're the bully! I'm righteous and great and You're a fucking *%*#&$&!" ^ This is meant to be laughed at. See through your own bullshit. Express everything there is to say until You don't hold no grudge anymore. When You can laugh about this situation, You will know You have succeeded. Bonus tip: scream into a pillow.

Of course please keep in mind this image is very simplistic and You can't summarize people with one or two quotes. This is a meme and even though there's some truth here it's extremely biased. Individuals on the left wise and good, individuals on the right stupid and bad. I'm writing this for myself mostly so that I don't feel bad.

Yesterday I had the insight that life is like a jigsaw puzzle game. Only You don't know what the "final" picture will look like and there are infinite pieces.

I've been disgusted by this guy for so long. Such an arrogant fool. Self-importance so big You could land an airplane on it. Reminds me of this image I saved years ago.

Simplicity is so fucking relaxing and nice. I cherish the moments when I see clearly and reality is incredibly simple. Like when some powerful insight just explains everything. "Ohh, of course... God, fuck. I can finally rest now for a while."

And if they do realize? I talk to myself regularly. I literally argue with myself on certain topics (side A says something, then side B says something, then side A again, etc...) and I reach clarity in this way lol.

Focus like a motherfucker to go really deep. Write down guidelines for yourself and stick them in a visible place. Really put care into what You write - You might appreciate that A LOT during the trip. It'll be much easier to refocus (!!) and You'll have good advice to support You in case everything becomes too much. I think this is especially useful for 1) beginners and 2) long trips like on LSD. The lesson in a nutshell is to go the extra mile to write something useful and kind for yourself. Example: Clean your house beforehand. Treat it as a nice ritual. Don't let the offset go to waste, spend time really contemplating after the peak. Trip alone, be concentrated, accept what arises, commit to staying safe physically. Death is not real. Let go. ♾️

I'm going through a hard time. Well, actually I have been for months now. With brief windows of relief here and there. Yes, some weeks have been good, but overall I am struggling and I don't even know what to say about it anymore. I've cursed myself and everything else so much that I feel like I've ran out of insults and hatred to throw. I mean, that's probably not true - there seems to always fucking be more. But I feel so empty, like there's no one to save me here and it's a BAD FEELING. A feeling of "I don't have it in me to fix it". I feel like I am gone - not my ego, it's still here - my god damn executive function. Like there's SOMEONE lost in this experience, SOMEONE who would take control, SOMEONE who would fix this ugly mess. I can't even describe how bad it's been at times. If I told my friends about it I'd land in a fucking psychiatric hospital. I'm just fucking TIRED, and yet at the same time it's not true because if I really was tired, I would cease this non-stop childish motherfucking drama. The mere fact that I'm in this fucking struggle is evidence that I do indeed want it. And I fucking hate it. I fucking hate everything. See, I knew there will be more of that hatred, haha. I just don't know, I'm afraid all the time, I just CAN'T FUCKING LIVE. I don't function properly, I am FUCKED. Unless I distract myself with something, I'm a dark hole of negativity and hatred. No one will ever say to me more insulting things than those which I said to myself. I have fucking berated myself to the ground across the last few months. I can't honestly say one good thing about me now. Well, that's another useless post which doesn't paint the full picture. Glad I wrote that. I fucking hate myself.

I think You missed the word "low" between "need" and "IQ".

Okay. Thanks for the clarification.

Do You really expect that everyone will just sit in silence and stop speaking their wisdom because You (supposedly) know better? Do You really think imposing yourself on others like this is the most intelligent way to deliver your teachings? This is so ridiculous. With this attitude You're going to make it so that only blind sheep follow You, because no mature critically thinking individual will subject yourself to You. Cultish behaviour.

We don't allow sourcing.

Damn! Very clever.

Replying to a post talking about not tolerating namecalling... with namecalling. Outstanding move. I have. I don't think You'd want to participate in a community where most people would talk like this. ?‍♂️

Please don't push it.

I suggest You question that. I was suicidal too. At some point I realized that it's pointless for me to indulge in suicidal fantasies since I don't really want to do it anyway, and so I'm not going to. It's just useless mind chatter, indulging in suffering, out of certain beliefs about oneself probably.

While that may be true, I think it teaches others screaming and name calling. That's my point.

I'm not sure how this is going to sound, but... It is obvious that You want to live. Because You are still here. You know, there is never anything stopping You really. The fact that You're holding on, making these posts is a clear sign You want to be here, but You're in a lot of pain. The thoughts that You don't want to be here are only that - thoughts - stemming from that pain. NOT from your heart's desire. It may be easy to say, but I think admitting the truth would give You some relief. The truth is You DO want to live, but You're in pain, You hate it, You wish it was something else, You feel desperate, angry, etc... I don't know what it is for You exactly. But concealing the truth (by thinking that what You want most is to die and other such beliefs) is only giving You more suffering. I'm sorry You're struggling. But it always gets better eventually. You are strong for living through this for so long.

All I can say is I think it's a shame. Such posts don't give a good example unfortunately.

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I think that's a good way to explain it.

Dude, OP has no idea what he's talking about. ... This is precisely the danger of this mental masturbation bullshit... some readers are actually misled.