Sincerity

Sigh lol.

🤷‍♂️ I felt inspired writing most of what I wrote. Like it was flowing from me. Haha. Surprised myself a little bit.

Well, outlook and approach matter. I think it's important to discuss, and some of the things I read here break my heart sometimes so I wanted to speak up.

To me that's more like knowledge of Infinity, not knowing It. Yeah, that's relatively easy I guess.

What I mean by believing in Infinity is believing in the infinite infinity of Infinity. Something You cannot be conscious of due to never being beyond what You are at the current moment, but You still have faith. I believe such faith is very important, it's the basis for true humility and further "growth" in consciousness. If You wanna believe in a finite infinity, be my guest.

I don't know what they know but I'll go on a limb and say it's not complete. I'll rather believe in Infinity than some humans knowing "It"... (if they know it it's not It) So little faith in Infinity around here. ☹️

I am, I am not...

I don't believe in no full dissolvement. Sorry for harsh wording, but I think it's foolish to ever think You've reached the end or "Enlightenment". Again, to me it's denying Infinity and disbelief in God, which is sad (genuinely). To all people saying this I'd love to reply: I do sense though that I will "reach" Enlightenment eventually, although then there will no one to tell it to, no mouth to speak it and no memory of even "reaching" it, so... None of You here "reached" it though because we're still interacting, so let's not bullshit ourselves.

Point to somewhere where You are not.

The only thing You've ever known in your life.

I don't agree with the terminology "having more consciousness" but I'd say You can definitely be more conscious. Ever more. And what that means to me is simply "becoming" more of your True Self, aka God/Universe. And what THAT means is shedding the limitations God places on Themselves, on Mind, on Consciousness. God REALIZATION. And that is an infinite amount of work. The limitations don't ever really end, You can always be more conscious because it's Infinity. I mean, I really don't understand how some of You people here deny "deeper awakenings"... Do You not believe in Infinity? I'm not sure whether You think/feel like You've reached the end/ceiling ("Buddha Nature"?) but I think that's rather unhumble. To deny the infinity of consciousness, it feels like a slap to the face of Reality... @Bazooka Jesus Regarding the actual question from the OP, idk lol 🤷‍♂️

@Emotionalmosquito Most normal actualized forum member behaviour

This is a technique I developed along the way. I haven't heard of other people using it, but on the other hand I didn't really search. I'd say it is better suited for more intuitive/emotional people. For me it's working amazing every time. Technique So, there is something about You that You wish to change but You can't. Be that some addiction like smoking/food/gaming/etc., some behavioral pattern, some nasty feeling You can't seem to get rid of, falling into some trap every single time, some negative trait like irresponsibility, ungratefulness, recklessness, cowardice, fakeness, pride. Take a moment to notice that You are helpless against yourself. You cannot change for the life of You because it's YOU yourself who's creating that particular mess. Whether You're taking responsibility for it or not, it's You. And You can't win because this is just the way You are. You are stuck, helpless. To be even more dramatic: there is very little hope for You and with how things have gone so far, You might stay like this forever... This is a pretty low mental state to be in. It seems hopeless. Try to really FEEL into it. FEEL the helplessness. Cry for God's sake! You CAN'T change, doesn't this make You really sad? FEEL the anguish as deeply as You can! If You don't FEEL it intensely, You are doing it wrong. . . . Feel until there's no more pain to feel about that particular thing. Eventually the emotions will subside and You will probably feel a little lighter, better. You're most likely not going to know/feel whether something has actually changed. There's not going to be grand revelations and You will probably forget quite fast about doing this feeling session. But mindfully observe your own behaviour in the following days. Maybe your behaviour has changed and something that You wanted gone is now gone? This is VERY easy to overlook. It's incredibly easy to forget that You even had the problem. But I encourage You to be aware and make the effort to notice it. And be grateful. Notes & Closing Thoughts While feeling into the helplessness, You can also ask for help if You're into it. I am. Leo has recently made a blog post about sharp emotional experience being the key to change. This is exactly right. And You can use this consciously! Invoke the sharp feelings and really feel into them. People really don't fucking understand this. Unless You feel intensely, You're never going to change. You will never intellectualize your way to behaviour change. Not going to happen! I notice people around me (especially my parents) struggling to change and I'm like... that's because You're not consciously feeling into the problem You God damn ding dong. You're detached from your emotions, You're an unconscious robot acting on unconscious energies. You're a puppet on unconscious strings - but it doesn't have to be this way! You can be a real boy. I think You HAVE to be able to feel things intensely. Don't be afraid of it and have zero shame about crying. For me personally no tears = no deep change (though also tears don't necessarily equal change!). Obviously it varies but it's a good rule of thumb. Never pride yourself on never crying, I think it's a sign of unconsciousness. I notice that the more unconscious I am in certain weeks, the more I'm detached from feeling and crying and it's fucking idiotic because I'm just unconsciously suffering in the background. Well, why do that when You can resolve the pain? Sometimes it takes multiple such sessions to fully resolve something. If your behaviour hasn't changed after one session, well - consciously feel into the helplessness even more. Even this didn't help! You're never going to change, You are doomed! Hope this resonates! If yes, TRY IT!

Hope You don't mind me asking, but how old are You? I'm sorry You are feeling this way. 😕 I understand You feel hopeless and lost. And yeah, it is really difficult sometimes. You are never a shame to God. The Universe is not judging You. Perhaps try to cut yourself some slack? Try relaxing and enjoying yourself more, at least for some time? I know it is easy to say but You can decide to relax a little and give up the clinging and fighting. With a narrowed down perspective everything may seem hopeless and unchangeable, it takes a bit of letting go to broaden the perspective and see some rays of hope and ways out of the situation. Your post doesn't sound ridiculous at all. Feelings like this appear and it's okay. You're going to be fine, don't worry! Everything is going to turn out good.

I usually linger in that state unconsciously for some time. I might feel resistance towards even escaping it. It sucks me in and I can be enjoying it a bit in a twisted way, even though I'm suffering. But then at some point I become conscious that I've been possessed again by some shit energy. I look at it and recall that it's not me and that it doesn't have to be this way. I "look at it" simply by feeling the energy consciously in my mind. If needed I will recall the memory when I felt that energy the strongest and focus my light of awareness on it. Additionally taking a walk usually helps me sort things out and talking to a voice recorder on my phone is great. I often combine the two (just did that an hour ago haha). I tell the truth about what's bugging me, I cry, I try to reach the essence of the feeling and feel into it. Then I'm freed and I can have some peace. For me, a great question to ask myself is "what is the truth about my feelings", i.e. how am I feeling, what's the problem. Usually the answer arises very fast. Then I feel it to its fullest, I cry, etc. Good question!

So everyone thinks. Until something You care about is fading away and You can't tell whether it's natural or You fucking up in some way - by "not mustering up motivation" or whatever. I'm not saying this applies to You. Just food for thought. Again, good luck.

I'm a bit too tired today to give feedback on your concrete points so I'll just say: good luck! Seems like You have a plan, what's left is execution right? Note: spiritual work/psychedelics has made a lot of my desires fade away. If You wanna be more motivated I'd suggest laying down psychedelics. (Though also I guess I'd say I'm effortlessly motivated towards things that "matter", that life itself is guiding me towards. This motivation from the spirit hasn't faded away, I don't think it can. Maybe some things You are doing don't matter to your spirit and You're doing them because You think You want them, or think You should. Yeah, spiritual work makes those things fade away. In my experience.)

It's even worse: we consider these problems/energies/repeating emotions ourselves. We're afraid of letting them go because we're afraid of losing us. It's utter misidentification. Very often it's hard to even start this technique (or any other form of looking at yourself) because You sense You could die doing it. Fear is so intelligently designed that it's "self-protective" and circular, You're afraid of even approaching it because You fear that if You let the fear go, something terrible will happen. It's BRILLIANT. It's infinity in the hands of a devil.

Hi there Welcome to the forum!

Us mods don't get any extra info. But from what I remember, Leo is working on 2 courses: Though this might not be up to date. You have to be patient.

Aww thank You, that's so sweet! I really appreciate it.

How come You guys don't comment on this? Come on, I'm curious what your little things for happiness are.

Own it & talk about stuff like this like it's completely obvious to You. Don't impose a worldview on others but at the same time share your truth (about your experiences). This is the right attitude in my opinion. You are doing the world (and yourself) a disservice by keeping stuff to yourself when You have a genuine urge to say something. Because 1) You are being timid and 2) others don't get the chance to learn from You. Even if it stings them at first, it is useful to them and everyone. Truth about your experiences should be shared. (in my view ) (when it feels right)

Good food Hot showers in the morning Laying in bed knowing I have a lot of time to sleep and I can play around with my mind Funny thoughts I love having visions and when I focus for a bit I experience plenty. I fucking love it, it's like having a home cinema inside my mind, I can be so immersed and be like woooow this is so coooool