Sincerity

Your purpose here is to be what you are. Don't dream of other, hoping to escape this. Do not harm yourself. This is not the loving way. Calm yourself. Your life is precious. It's a gift that you must appreciate and embrace.

Do not do anything to your body. You must control yourself. Don't do anything stupid.

November 15th, 2025 TL;DR: Brief insights about how believability and rationality work. An energy is only acted upon if it's bought into, and the most believed energy will always be the most convincing and rational sounding.

This thread will be a table of contents for my energy-related threads and posts. Besides this, I will sometimes make posts here directly, talking about my understanding of energy, in case I feel something is not worth a thread on its own. Understanding the energetic reality of me is what I'm most interested in, and passionate about. I'm hoping this topic will reflect this, and be of use. I will be updating this thread, including previous posts I make in it. Let's goooooo!! ⚡

Slick new Apple Macbook for work A while ago I ordered a new work laptop from my job. I went for the Apple Macbook, mainly because 1) I wanted a larger screen, 2) I was tired of Windows and 3) I never used a Mac, so I wanted to give it a go. I kept it mostly unused for 1,5 months, because the setup process required a fair bit of hassle (and contacting Indians from the online helpdesk). Last week, because I had 2 additional free days due to public holiday, I finally got round to it and set the thing up. I gotta say, this thing is a beauty. It's like getting a slick, brand new car. My mood is increased at work just because I'm using it. I didn't think I'd be as excited about having it. But really - it's just so smooth and pleasant to use. It's a joy. I'm not sure I'd buy one for personal use though. I'm content with my Thinkpad T580 and the Linux Mint I'm running on it. And the locked Apple ecosystem... bleh. Disgusting. For work I'm happy to use it, but for personal use I'm feeling resistant. Anyway - my contentment at work has increased even more. 🔥

Team Fortress 2 My favourite video game of all time. ... and it's downfall. I remember the good ol' days of TF2. Before the update that ruined this game 8 years ago. And before Valve's complete negligence regarding the bot problem for many years. I love TF2. I don't play it anymore, but I still appreciate it deeply. It's been so long since I first played it. It'll stay as my favourite game forever.

Here are some of my thoughts on rationality. I started thinking about it because I was contemplating what beliefs and believability in general are, especially in the context of understanding one's energetic reality. Some definitions of rationality from the internet to get a sense: Rationality and reason are based on believability in particular energies and views. 1. Insights on energy When a person acts, the energy that motivated the enacted behaviour was an energy that was "bought into" - in other words, believed. This is always the case. An energy CANNOT be acted upon if it isn't believed. YOU cannot act on an energy if you don't believe it (on an energetic level). Belief is an incredibly deep thing. Basically, what you energetically believe is what you are. If you buy into/believe fear, for example, fear is the energy that is often expressed and propelled in your reality, and you are "a fearful person". This is the case for any and all energies - fear, resistance, guilt, shame, insecurity, love, excitement, desire for authentic expression, desire for truth, desire for unity with God, etc. And the energy that is most believed will seem the most rational. The energy/motivation that is most believed is one's most compelling reason for particular action. But rationality and mind chatter and argumentation are second-order in comparison to immediate internal believability in a particular energy. The "internal argumentation" and the "process of making a choice" is energetically the process of the arising of the energy that is already most believed. The thoughts/arguments are the "voices" of energies, but the arguments themselves are not what is convincing - rather, what one is already convinced by and seeing as rational are the energies behind the thoughts. 2. Insights on knowledge and intellectual beliefs A view feels reasonable if it adheres to the already existing knowledge base. If it doesn't, it is usually rejected and considered "irrational". Paths of thought and arguments are considered rational only if they belong to the prevailing paradigm. Therefore, rationality can be seen as a "force" of keeping the existing understanding as it is. It's mind choosing/rationalizing what it already knows, and rejecting the unknown. And the dominant paradigm is one that is "bought into" - so again, all rationality is based in belief (of what one already "knows").

* * * * * * * * * * I've felt tired often in the last days. For like a week, or week and a half. It's been difficult to do things. To do house chores. To sit and work. To get off my ass. To be patient with people close to me. I went to the office today. That was quite fun. I find myself annoyed by my gf and parents. I need time alone. Or something, I don't know.

I changed the title to: A Case for Superfascism (Metaphysical Traditionalism). It's still pushing it, but I think it's a middle ground. I hope I'm not being too fascist.

I understood that. But the title is still provocative clickbait, in your own words. So please change it. You even inserted a swastika, for God's sake. Again, don't give this forum a bad name.

See the icon in the upper right. You can open a temporary chat which won't be saved in memory. I often use it for irrelevant stuff which I don't want chatGPT to remember. Lately I pretty much use it always.

Be honest. You wanted to elicit emotional reactions with that title. Do you need to resort to spicy clickbait to get attention on your writing and you? Your current title gives this forum a bad name. Please change it. Here are some ideas for titles generated by chatGPT, which still reflect the content quite well I think. Revisiting Premodern Political Philosophy in a Modern Age Beyond Left and Right: A Case for Metaphysical Traditionalism Why Modern Politics Misses the Transcendent From Modernity to Tradition: A Philosophical Reorientation Understanding Julius Evola’s Traditionalist Political Vision A Defense of Premodern Political Metaphysics Recovering the Sacred Foundations of Political Order Why Modern Ideologies Are Incomplete: A Traditionalist Perspective What Traditionalism Offers That Modernity Cannot A Philosophical Argument for Premodern Hierarchy Why Contemporary Politics Lacks Depth: A Traditionalist Critique Restoring Cosmic Order in Political Thought The Misunderstood Vision Behind Evola’s Political Thought Hey @Carl-Richard, I just realized you can't paste chatGPT links when you use the temporary chat. This fucking sucks.

Poor OP got his thread derailed by AI discussion. Dodo said he'll keep it human, so let's go a bit easy on him. We're all navigating this new world-with-now-AI-in-it together. That's a good insight to have, especially when internalized. When the "consequences" of this realization hit for you regarding your personal biases and specific things/people you hate (eg. certain world leaders), it's profound.

@Dodo Thanks for being open here. It's great of you. 🙏

@Dodo You make some good points. We'll definitely be more strict with that, especially if we see users are overusing AI to churn out responses. I myself often check some threads with AI detectors. Some posts look like they're AI, but they actually aren't. If someone starts making fully AI-generated threads, we are certainly turning our attention to that and giving them a notice. I'm not sure how others feel about this, but I don't read AI responses at all and I don't find them valuable. Of course, in theory the output "stands for itself". But you know, these outputs still reek of AI. I find them shallow, even when there is some "depth" in the content. It's noticeable. We just don't want the forum to become AI responses having conversations with each other. What's the use of that? This is a "human-only" forum. 😇 Or whatever you find yourself to be (or not be), hehe.

@Dodo Dude, speak for yourself and not with AI. If you have an honest opinion, share it. Don't be lazy. AI is not doing thinking for you. We don't want this forum to be AI's talking with one another. So please stop. You're overusing it in your responses.

My forum profile pics Ahh, what's better than an image which I find myself in? It's greatly important to me to surround myself with resonating things of all sorts that are pleasant to my eye. I'm just that type of person. Having beauty around me lights me up, and I seek resonating beauty like a moth seeks the light. This was a profile pic I had for a while on my previous account. I love a blue sky, and I love tulips. Having a tulip on my desk makes me happy. This one I've had on this account for the longest time. I feel there's such a simplicity in it. I still smile and feel warm looking at it. I'm not sure when I had this one. Anyway, in that period I could feel like a ghost sometimes. Also, blue is my 100% favourite color. I surround myself with blue often, I wear it, my heart melts when I look at a clear blue sky. I know it's the "color of my soul". Pure authenticity for me. I love this one, such beautiful color. It was a painting called "Tears of Joy and Sadness". I enjoy a great mix of colors, and I resonated with that title. And that's my current one. I like melting pictures, it reminds me of the dreamlike quality of reality. Thinking about it, I feel peace and warmness inside. 😌

I had a session with a psychologist today. It went well. FIrst one in 2 years. As part of my private medical coverage, I have 3 free sessions with a psychologist each year. I remembered it this week and decided to use up the sessions - not like there isn't stuff to talk about. I found a guy that really resonated with me and I really appreciated his perspective today. I'm deeply grateful. I asked him for help on relationship issues. But then we went further into some deeper and more unconscious issues of mine, which I brought up myself of course. I'm really happy to continue working on these issues with the guy soon - we have another session in 2 weeks. Excited about that. Also, I went to the cinema today and watched Loveable (2024). It was really great. I cried plenty - that was the goal, actually. I needed that. I'm probably gonna take my gf to see this movie tomorrow again. She’s eager for that, and I know it'll resonate with her too. We had a really big fight yesterday, now "resolved". Quite hurtful. Both of us have our conditionings which are difficult to overcome. But in the end we'll pull through, I hope. Though if eventually not, that will be alright as well. It's been almost 2 years. This relationship has changed me a lot. It's good to have a partner that is also serious about working through her own issues. I appreciate the relationship deeply.

If you don't know, then it 98% wasn't a date. A date is a meeting where romantic/sexual intention is progressed. A friendly meeting has none of such progression. But the progression doesn't happen by itself. It must be intentional and acted on on your part. You have to lead into it. If you didn't do that, then most likely there was zero advance, and she saw it as just a friendly meet. I'm not sure if this relationship can be salvaged into something romantic anymore - there's probably only a slim chance of that, but I guess it depends, we don't know the full context. She might still be receptive to some romantic advance, or she might not (and never have). You have to feel it out. Make progressive steps and see her reactions. Adjust accordingly. 👍👍

So was it a date, or a friendly meeting? Did you lead? Did you take any action (at least a step) on the romantic/sexual intention, or did you just „go with the flow” and do friendly talk? Even if the conversation was smooth, it doesn’t matter if you weren’t leading the relationship anywhere. You MUST lead it in a romantic direction. It doesn’t happen by itself! The default flow is non-romantic. Don’t just GRAB HER HAND, like a zombie grabbing someone’s foot from below the ground. First see whether she is even receptive to subtle romantic intention (which you might not have expressed yet). If she is then progress, like with subtle touch. I know it might be unhelpful to hear, but you gotta be NATURAL with it! I personally wouldn’t mess with a person from my workplace. „Don’t shit where you eat”. But that’s just me, I guess it can work.

I know, right?!

Nice choice of words. Same.

The sin is greed. And uninspiredness.

^ I LOVE that I'm making this new journal so colorful. I really see myself in it. I find it inspiring that I'm not only talking about liking some media, but more "personal" things from my life as well. Like enjoying my job. I want to express gratitude. I want that journal to be filled with colorful spirit and joy for life. I want it to reflect me so good, and shine back at me the radiance of my soul! 🌟🌟🌟 I smile looking at it. What joy to inspire oneself!

I like my job. It's cool. I'm working as a data analyst for a big company. I have an office on the 30th+ floor, which I can visit whenever I want. Overall I work 100% remote, but I still come to the office usually once per week. Just for the change of scenery I guess. The team is awesome. I like these people, honestly. My manager is very cool and understanding. I enjoy working with her. And the job itself is quite interesting. I mostly enjoy what I do. + The workload for me is just fine. Almost everything is perfect. Only thing: the pay could be higher. It's okay, but I wish for more. I have it so good right now, even with the mediocre pay. Money is not all that counts - all the other benefits / advantages of my job REALLY add up. I have that in mind, and I appreciate it truly. I'm grateful while it's still here. 😌 After all, nothing is forever.