Sincerity

Damn, that's powerful words. Cheers!

@zazen Cool! Thanks so much for your perspective and insights. 1. Honestly I'm not necessarily thinking of WWIII as a nuclear showdown between top countries. Like I mentioned, I think even in a world war nuking would probably still be very limited. US would probably not nuke mainland China or Russia and vice versa. But more strategic targets elsewhere - perhaps. 2. I think enough pressure can create buy-in for a significant war, using ground troops. It's not completely unlikely. An attack/strike on US would be more than enough, for example. Think Pearl Harbour. 3. Perhaps going against asymmetric warfare and going against main rivals are 2 different things, decrease in confidence in one doesn't need to decrease confidence for another. I dunno tho.

@yetineti The guy has exceptional understanding of history. You can watch his longer lectures. There was no fearmongering in the video. You guys are really judging badly.

It isn't impossible. Open your mind. Iran definitely could force the US into invading it. All it takes is putting enough pressure.

@PurpleTree Maybe. Or maybe not. 🤷‍♂️ Perhaps there could be a world war with limited use of nukes. Nuking is very taboo, after all. If a country used it, everyone would turn away from them. It would be their "social annihilation" and probably also literal annihilation. Why not just nuke Kyiv to force Ukraine to surrender, from Russia's perspective? Even if the world didn't respond with nuking Russia (and they probably wouldn't), Russia would be completely cooked on the world stage. It all depends whether we cross that boundary of nuking each other. Once it stops being taboo and everyone does it, God help us.

We'll see how things unfold. I'm pretty much set that there will be a World War by 2028, especially since 1) the US is at its lowest point with Trump (intelligence-wise, and with the US population being torn apart) and 2) there is too much unresolved tension in the world (between China and Taiwan, North and South Korea, India and Pakistan, Russia and Ukraine, Israel and Gaza/Iran). The best time for everyone to try accomplish their strategic goals is now/soon, and it'll most likely be done all in one time. Hence a world war. Simply too much tension. The dominos will fall. Does anyone actually doubt it? I'm not saying this to fearmonger. It's quite exciting, and I'm curious to see the world afterwards. There would be a lot of change. But the time of war will of course be difficult as fuck.

Stop bullshitting and go work with your „ordinary” life. That’s the hard thing to do. That’s where you are actually led, seeing beyond what you are writing here. You will engage in a thousand fantasies of living in some cave or whatever before you confront the simple reality and do what’s actually necessary in your life. That which will heal you and make your actual dreams come true. That’s what is most resisted. And the way to let go and make your true, „ordinary” dreams happen is to let things be and see when you are led when you’re not insisting on anything. Follow that, it’s natural to you. Stop running away.

That’s a bad judgement of the owner of the channel I shared. The guy is sincere, if you care to look into him.

"This is not a religious post" Writes a religious post

I was wondering how the hell did I garner 1.8K posts in less than 3 years? On my previous account which I used for 3.5 years and then abandoned (I wanted a different username, got approval from Leo) I only had like 600 posts. So, out of curiosity, I dug in into the data. Distribution of my posts per subforum (stats from this account) Average daily posts per year (stats from this account) Pretty neat. Took me around half an hour to get the results. I really like analyzing data.

Hey y'all This is going to be my new journal on my new account. I left the old acc because I didn't like my username. Let me introduce myself first. My name is Sincerity and I'm from Poland. [image removed] ^ This is me! I'm currently ??? years old. I'm admittedly young but I hope you can see me beyond my age, for what I am I've been on this forum for more than 3 years and until now I've (kinda) held my identity a secret. But lately I've had some realizations in regard to expressing myself more honestly and yeah. Here I am, being more open with you. Now you have a slightly better idea of who's behind the account. (Edit: Ironic haha. But it has to be this way. Everything ends.) I've been on the spiritual path for roughly 4-5 years now and I feel like I've had much progress. I definitely have many insights to share. But I'm still pretty much a beginner and I'm on the journey along with you. Try to keep up, because I feel like I'm growing pretty fast (this year has been insane for me so far, seriously!) I've been mulling over my important values for years and this is where I stand right now: I am primarily about goodness. I am about love. I am about bliss, wisdom, appreciation, responsibility, sincerity, curiosity, discipline and humility. I also really value humor and laughter. You might notice I'm often tongue-in-cheek in my posts I don't like posting very frequently and I'm still not sure what I will even be posting here but tell you what, it's going to come from a place of sincerity Love and have a great day ❤️

@TruthFreedom Please watch what you say next. You’re walking on a thin line.

Introduction Last week I took 300ug of LSD, mostly with the intention to confront fears I encountered during previous trips. Those included: After serious ego loss and intense fear of death arising, fighting to have a purpose for my life, as if that was what would save me from death. The reasoning was, as silly as it sounds: “if I can’t come up with a reason for my existence right now, I will die”. A tribalistic paranoia, fear of being discovered by someone, fear of being closed in the room and someone else being in the apartment, fear that someone is behind me. Fear during the state where I don’t know anything, I literally don’t remember anything at all, what my name is, who I am, etc. Fear of reality “simplifying itself” to the point of death, fear of being motionless / falling asleep during the trip because I think I will die. Fundamentally, fear of death. To counter these, my focus was to: “Let Death into my heart”; Open the gates Accept being purposeless, that it is okay and I will not die Accept no identity and not remembering anything, that it is okay as well Relax and feel into being safe in God Confront other key fears listed above I simplified these points of focus, wrote them out on pieces of paper and laid them in front of me, so that I would come back to them throughout the trip. Moreover, since I always experience profound feelings of Self-definition during my trips, my intention was to focus on 3 key archetypes/energies which are important to me right now, once the identity was gone, to program myself: I am a Man. I achieve my Goals. I Act. I am an Artist. I express my Voice. I Create. I am a Sage. I nourish my Peace. I Meditate. I said goodbyes to my gf I live with, closed myself off in my room for 3 hours and went from there. Throughout the entire trip I wrote in my notebook. I mostly sat on the floor, surrounded by a few sheets of paper, and took everything in, while observing myself and responding to fears. Key Awakenings I don’t exist For the first time, I really awakened to the fact that I don’t exist. This was during the beginning of the trip. I was writing a stream of consciousness in the notebook and I asked the question: “Do I even exist?”. The question reached my awareness and suddenly I was completely dumbstruck. My jaw dropped. My initial reaction was like “Of course I exist!!!”. But I looked and there was no me. Mindfuck. After that, so much energy started emanating from me I thought everyone around me in the residential block was feeling it. It was incredible. Nothing I saw utter Nothingness. It was like I was in a completely empty Void. There was NOTHING satisfying about it for me. I was scared of the truth being negative in some way. In retrospect, I see that I wanted to discover SOMETHING. I wanted to discover some kind of divine love, inspiration, hope, reason. I wanted nothingness to be something good… but no. No love, no hope, NOTHING. It was exactly what it was. Nothingness. Devoid of any features. I saw it clearly, and it was humbling. I AM; SOMETHING is there And yet, in spite of seeing that I don’t exist, of not remembering anything about me and after seeing the Nothingness, I later felt that something was calling to me. It was as if it was hidden behind some veil, completely inaccessible to me. There was SOMETHING there, and it was ALIVE. I wrote in my notebook: I am SOMETHING. But what? This SOMETHING was instantaneous. I felt that I was it, but I was in no control of it. It was Same to me, and yet completely Other. It was writing things through me, without my conscious intent. For the first time, I felt MYSELF so clearly. I AM. Still, I don’t yet understand the dynamics of it. But I feel there is something amazing to be found there, and I’m excited about that. “Alien” vibration penetrating me Okay, so this is another thing that’s been difficult for me in previous trips, which I forgot about. Maybe I cut it out of my memory due to the great discomfort associated with it. Lately, each time I take LSD and lose my identity completely, I feel penetrated by some weird, “alien”, unifying vibration, by which I feel raped, used, taken advantage of. Feeling it, I feel like I’ve made some big mistake taking LSD. I feel possessed. At times, I feel something is taking control of me and I’m acting in weird, unpredictable manners, which is scaring me. During this trip, this happened when I was very high-level, and later on each time I focused on accepting the fear of dying and being no one. I felt this foreign vibration running through me. I felt discomfort, but I tried to persevere. I was set on confronting any fear and letting go of myself. Still, I felt taken advantage of. I don’t have good words to describe it, but that energy was weird, alien-like, sexual, foreign, flowing through me when I let go. If I had to describe it visually, I felt it as something white with 8 eyes, spanning through the entire visual field, inhuman, all-unifying, sexual, flowing. But I might as well be bullshitting myself, that’s not the point. The most important thing is: I don’t know yet what it is, and how to deal with this. I know I must separate my feelings about it from the actual thing, and it’s difficult because I feel great discomfort towards it. I’m wondering whether I can start approaching it differently and experience more positive feelings towards it. She is Other to me Close to the end of the trip, I contemplated what my girlfriend is. I was like: “Well, of course she is me. Right?”. And I tried “looking into her”. But to my surprise, she was completely inaccessible to me. She was Other to me. “Wait… how can she be Other to me, if we are the Same?!” It was a mindfuck to realize others are the Same and Other at the same time. I gained a new level of respect for my girlfriend, in particular. Later, I told her: “I respect you, because I can’t reach you with my mind. You are, and always will be, a Mystery to me. I see you differently now.” This can refer to Reality in general. What I said in the “I AM; SOMETHING is there” section: that SOMETHING was also completely Other to me, even though I was It. Maybe that SOMETHING is in everything I see, including my girlfriend. I think that theoretically, I could realize that I can’t reach anything I see with my mind, and that everything is a Mystery, not just my gf - but that’s beyond the scope of that trip. Miscellaneous I felt the above 5 sections were the most distinct, content-packed and worth sharing. Besides these, I experienced other things/awakenings/insights, such as: “Everything stems from the fact that I’m afraid of Death”. Feeling that I’m always running away from myself. I am this Dream which is leading itself Will/Intention being instantaneous and action in reality “lagging behind”, I was a bit impatient about it “Being the furthest away (from “life-content”), you can’t do anything but love.” “I want to be someone in this world. I want to express my Voice.” I felt like I’m not worthy, not “someone” enough. I want to fix something in myself all the time. Can’t I just love myself? At one point, I felt it was hard for me to stay in the body. I was walking around the room and felt so much energy accumulating in me, I thought I’d die. This single thing made me consider reducing dosing in the future. Looking at my hand felt overwhelming at one point, as if God was beaming its full energy at my face. I was looking away. Also, holding the fully stretched hand close to my face, I felt as if it was completely surrounding me. I was scared of it. Loss of consciousness was disappointing at one point. I was on such a high level. I felt cheated going “down”. I felt the “earthly” life was such an insignificant dream/illusion and it was for low-consciousness idiot beings. But this feeling passed quite quickly. At the end of the trip, I focused on manifesting what I want in life - among others, the 3 key archetypes I mentioned in the intro Focusing on the fact that I REALLY wanted the best for myself, that I wanted happiness in life, I wanted hope, inspiration, energy, I wanted to live and accomplish, that I wanted everything to be alright in the end. Key lessons & how to proceed Next time, I will strive to not want anything from NOTHING and to love it for what it is. Unsatisfying, unborn, raw, pure truth. I can see the fact that it's unsatisfying as actually the best thing about it. Shows me my bias perfectly. Focus on looking deeper into SOMETHING behind the veil. I feel there’s something important there for me to find. Perhaps, this is where I can genuinely discover God/Infinite Love for the first time. Seems plausible, given how this SOMETHING felt to me during this trip. I had God-realizations before, but it was more about me being God - never before did I discover God/Love/Intelligence which is „Alive” and Other to me. Understand my feelings of being taken advantage of by the „alien” vibration. Can I change my relation to it? Is it growth to accept this „foreign” energy penetrating me? Should I learn to be submissive, is that the way? What is this „alien” vibration? Goal: Learn to love and receive it. Experiment with being submissive and accepting something „foreign”. Fuck it, if it’s growth, I want it, I don’t care. Consider lowering my LSD dose to 225ug Consider trying a different psychedelic soon, probably DMT Outro Thanks for reading. If you have any comments, feel free to share. Peace! I got the Magic in me! 🌟

Honest questions: Have you done it? How do you differentiate this „accessing of another’s mind” from it still being „your mind”? I feel like you’d say there even no such separation.

@samijiben Thank you! Awesome. That’s what I call „energetic consciousness”:

You don't really dream about seeing particular scenarios in reality happen. Even if you have visions of scenarios which feel appealing to you, these are symbolic representations of your desires to actualize a certain kind of energy - which, when actualized, often brings similarly looking scenarios into "reality". But these scenarios are never the point. The actualization of energy is. A small proof of this is: any scenario which feels appealing to you, as you're thinking of it, NEVER becomes actualized into "reality" exactly as you thought of it - but you can still feel satisfied once a "similar" one is actualized. Why? Because """the gist""" of the scenario has been actualized. But what is "the gist"? ENERGY! "Reality" is LITERALLY an illusion. "Reality" is energy expressed, visualized. A continuous, flowing representation of energetic consequences. An overlay on top of the deeper mental/energetic reality. You never WANT anything from "reality". You never FEAR anything from "reality". You never THINK about "reality". You never FEEL anything about "reality". Even when you see a tiger in "reality" and then feel fear "because of that tiger", this is really a very elaborate illusion. An incomprehensibly elaborate illusion. Energetic choices have immediate consequences in "reality", and there is no change in "reality" (or even there's no "reality" at all) without some sort of energy expressed. Energy includes all emotions, fear, willpower, desire, aversion, love, intuition, etc.. Basically any and all of your motivations. Anything that you do in "reality" is caused by some kind of energy, conscious or not. You cannot do something without a motivation. A question remains though... what is energy? And, what would Pure Energy be? What would its "consequence" be?

Interesting. At some point(s) in the past my girl did feel like peeing, but she resisted because she was afraid of peeing the bed. After talking about it, I encouraged her to just let go and fuck it, pee the bed or squirt, whatever comes out is good. I think she hasn't had that feeling since then but looking forward to the future. I'll give an update once I get my girl squirting as well.

Might not resonate with you, but I coined the term "energetic consciousness" for myself. Energetic consciousness is an awareness of the driving forces behind you and an understanding of their dynamics. The more I observe myself, the more I become conscious of what's actually driving me, how much I can actually influence it and how much I can just observe, how some driving forces are being uncovered with time, how the process of uncovering these forces works for me, how resistance works, what attitude works towards these driving forces vs what doesn't, and more. You see your own motivations better, but also start to see others' motivations more clearly as well. You gain clarity and, if the understanding is internalized, grace in your life. For me, life becomes more consciously-lived and meaningful in general. The term "energy" is not about some airy fairy bullshit - it's about the everyday motivations, why you do what you do, and how that comes about. By understanding the dynamics of energy, you learn to operate well in life in general. Wise living ensues.

Definitely exercise. Push yourself physically.

Do you seriously perceive women this way or are you joking?

This logic is absolutely stupid though. Think. Have some common sense.

Nothing wrong with a pint of good beer or a glass of wine once a month with fun people. Have moderation. Be reasonable. Still though, it’s not about „alcohol” culture, more like „fun” culture. You can learn to have fun without alcohol.

@Leo Gura, you’ve been on fire lately with your blog posts. Goldmine!

Cool, sounds good. Thanks for the advice.

Infinite, unbiased, all-pervading? No, not yet. In previous responses you said I should contemplate What is Love? - with the capital L. Did you mean one should start with contemplating "human" love? That I've done multiple times, across years. But I try to stay cautious and not delude myself about it being Absolute, if I don't see any evidence of that yet. Ehh, I feel stupid writing all this. Yes, I probably could have contemplated love more, but I didn't, and I don't blame myself. My rate of change in life right now is so high already, it's hard to handle more. Again, don't judge. I'll get there when I get there. I contemplate the meaning of love all the time while working on my relationship with my partner, which I take very seriously. Because I see huge growth in it, and meaning.