Sincerity

At least Poland is going strong. 🇵🇱 So glad our society got too sick of these nutcase rightoids for the moment. A slight breath of fresh air. Not saying it’ll stay like this forever but still. Though a polish far-right party (Confederacy) also made big advances which is really concerning. They’re even dumber than the buffoons from Law and Justice. We will go through what we gotta go through to learn.

Other stuff ~ You might wonder why I’m not very active on the forum. That’s because I fucking hate it. No, seriously. I do. I hate these fucking pointless discussions about spirituality. You all should trip and fall on your faces. I hate spiritual teachers (with exceptions). Currently I am in a place where I don’t give a fuck about listening to theory and debating things with others. I’m focused on being immersed in growing experience. I still do contemplate by myself but that’s different. I voted in the EU elections on Sunday. This matters to me. I dream of a federalist Europe. I experience a lot of new feelings and energies. My life is changing. I want to meet new people. Last week I met up with an interesting guy (a fellow IT guy) and we had cool intellectual conversations, mostly about relationships. I appreciated his more masculine perspective. We will meet again, probably this weekend. And today I’m meeting my friends from work for beer. I like to drink beer sometimes. Wine as well. Also I love sex. Dominating a woman is so hot. My partner and I have a great sexual relation. I love to see her satisfied. To all of you endlessly debating spirituality: Go fuck yourselves. 🖕 You should go ride a bike and feel the wind in your hair. Or choke on a hair in your soup.

Hey! I’m good. I’m processing a LOT of stuff and growing a lot, mainly thanks to my romantic relationship. Love really is the prime motivator for growth. The rate of change is so high I can’t keep track at times and I’m in a sort of confused state where I don’t know who I am anymore. We’re talking a lot and being very honest with ourselves. We’re going through a lot of conflicts but we’re resolving them fast with conscious communication. My aim is to love this woman so intensely that she dies. And to open myself up to so much love that I die as well. She really is something. I’m so grateful. Half a year ago I wouldn’t imagine I would have a partner so pretty - I really love her body. But what’s even better is her character. She is unusually conscious and eager to grow together as individuals and as a couple. She is feminine. She is very ambitious. She can be so soft and yet also sometimes so passionate. She will cuddle with me like a teddy bear and other times she will flush the water from her mug on my face. I deserve it though because I love to piss her off sometimes hahaha. For fun of course. She is my current path and I couldn’t be more happy with that. Together we’re learning what love is. Sometimes when she spoke to me (especially something very understand and loving) I felt like God was talking to me through her. In these moments I really saw it and tears just spilled from my eyes. How can I be so loved? Is this really You? This was my first time making a post from my phone lol.

Where's Scandinavia though

Wait until you hear about Europe

Cool! For you forum members - breaks are good For you Leo - sorry you had to go through this bullshit.

Moving this to off-topic I guess.

Sometimes I randomly think about this Tucker Carlson clip and laugh to myself. This is comedy gold.

Whoop whoop let's do this again I've been doing fine. Main development is that I have a gf now. We've been together for 3 months now and it's going really great. We love each other:) and I'm melting in that love. I've changed in these 3 months. I had to. Love pushed me to it. Besides that I also now have a more stable job position with a full time contract. I like my job. I feel it's good for me for the time being. I'll be moving out of my parents' home in 3 months. Either with my gf or alone, we'll see how it goes. Utterly avoiding writing my thesis to finish my studies. That's the main thing I don't like right now. Haven't taken psychedelics for 7 months now & not planning in the foreseeable future. I will not take psychedelics while in the relationship with my girl. Frankly psychedelics feel like a different woman to me. Psychedelics and her just don't go together. She's into spirituality but not into substances, and that's okay. I love it that she's different. In terms of mental state in the last months - I've been experiencing a lot of backlash. Lowkey reaching new lows. But that's fineeeee. I'll pull through. It's a beautiful day today. I love it.

LOL @TheGod Breaks are good. I'm taking one myself for 7 months now and not planning to come back anytime soon. But 10 years? Dude, I don't know how fast you are changing but I don't recognize myself from 3 months ago as me. Your motivations, understanding might morph three dozen times in that time. Just wanna suggest that you don't artificially limit yourself with past promises to yourself which no longer resonate. If you don't wanna take psychedelics now, fine. But who knows who you will be in a year? 3 years? 5 years? Since you're so young (and so am I) your rate of change is especially high. I'm not implying you should be taking psychedelics, but just be open to options huh? Follow your heart wherever it leads you.

Oh, I forgot to mention it in my response. The girlfriend "God gave me" is a hot witch. Yes, she literally considers herself a witch lol, being into spirituality and all. I made it boys. A dream come true, it's the best shit ever.

Can confirm, happened to me No, that's not how it works. IF you really want a girlfriend, You will simply meet a woman someday and your heart will be "whispering" to you: go for it, do that, say this, say that, further... You might feel like a magical flow has overtaken you which is making it so that you're pursuing her the right way. It will be hard to resist. (and pointless to do so) You will still have to ask her out. It will not happen without your contribution. You're the character and your story must make sense. But it will be easy. You must understand, you always get what you REALLY want. When you start truly wanting something, the universe is working in the background to get it for you. And, it must be noted, it is working mostly through YOU. So don't get this wrong - you are always working with the story. Things mostly don't happen by themselves. Although sometimes they do. At least that's my experience/understanding.

Sorry you're dealing with this. I know something about ghosting. Maybe you just gotta live through the specific pain which will come out of avoiding things. The numbness, the silent desperation, powerlessness, etc.. Suffering teaches you. When you're in enough pain and can't handle it anymore, it motivates you to change - for good. There might be a better way though. I don't know what it is. You should probably cut yourself off from your family. It's not your burden. It's just not yours.

"Too simple to understand" - haha, good one. This resonates.

Congrats!

@Bobby_2021 Done

Sounds good 👍

Where do you think you get more perspective/food for thought from? "Human" replies here or conversation with an AI? Is there use in even asking us? I think @Exystem's commentary was great. I read through the document and it's really impressive but reading an equivalent of "you make a great point" for the 100th time made my eyes roll lol. The potential for getting stuck in an echo chamber is big. Unless you deliberately ask it to provide counter points for you, but that's not what you did here.

Lol, good one haha

Hm. Then how come You say that God is an endless ocean of dreams? You are using the notion of multiplicity which is a part of the dream, is it not? In other words, is the view of there being more than one dream not part of the dream too?

According to You, can/do these dreams interact with each other or are they entirely separate?

Great post I have intentionally dedicated so much time to processing emotions and undeniably I did make progress - but I'm still emotionally dumb as fuck, afraid of feeling and resisting for long periods of time. Hurts to be a devil.

Hey You! May the holiday time invigorate You with gratitude, joy and the spirit to continue on your path. You've been working hard. Take some time to truly appreciate your journey & rest for a while. I think in this male dominated community we often lack more female connection and kind words. Instead we give answers/advice, talk or argue about what's right, reason with each other... So if You have some kind words to say, please do! 🙏 Perhaps a user has been especially helpful to You and You wish to express it? Perhaps You are grateful for this online community which You keep coming back to? Perhaps You just want to wish everyone a good time? Share away! And last but not least, a big thank You from the Universe to You for working on becoming a better person. Sometimes life ain't easy down here but You sure are going strong! Even if You think You aren't. Happy Holidays! Sincerity

Well this part of You that is the weed addict, this energy that doesn't want to stop it has taken over your experience. And when You try going against it You'll be going against "yourself" - this part of You. When You try to fight it it's gonna be like one hand wrestling the other, stupidity, a war in your mind. I recommend You try this: The weed addict energy can be released. You can cry it out, especially when You see how helpless You are against it, against "you". I suggest You cry and pray sincerely, be honest with yourself, admit your true desire and that You can't change. Then You might receive some help from the invisible hand. The Universe ONLY and ALWAYS answers to SINCERE prayer, SINCERE calls for help. No matter what You pray to, You can even just talk to your imaginary friend George, the point is to ADMIT THE TRUTH. Then You get these unconscious energies to the light of day. Because fact is, You are unconscious of all of this. You're a helpless puppet of these energies simply because You're not aware enough. They're running You. But it doesn't have to be this way. Admit the truth. Admit the truth. Admit the truth. And break free. Stop being fucked by God knows what. Have some respect for yourself and see through it.