Sincerity

Some people's plot is being intellectuals. That can be their way. I know it's not mine. But they can also be Leo's copycats. Which equals living someone else's plot/life, not your own.

True spirituality is within the plot of life. There's no greater spirituality than being engaged in whatever the heart is calling to - be that making money, building a great relationship, exercising, et cetera. Of course the heart might also call for serious psychedelic exploration or intense meditation. The heart knows what is best at the moment. If it tells you to go for that ICE, that's the way. It's cretinic to try to force things and "be spiritual" at all costs. All will unfold naturally. People don't understand the FLOW OF LIFE in this forum. Leo doesn't as well, or at least he doesn't preach it and due to this the forum is as autistic as it is. Too fucking intellectual and detached from the plot. Too little heart and down-to-earthness coming from living the plot.

@Davino Hot witch girlfriends are old shit. I always say: if she doesn't have at least 8 arms, she ain't worth it. Yup, I always say that. The peak is to find yourself a Hindu Goddess girlfriend. Tbf I actually did say this to a friend lol.

That's not evidence. That's your interpretation. Notice your view of "a presence of another being". It doesn't have to be viewed this way. You can view all that happens as Reality/Consciousness with no distinctions inside of it. It can be whole, undivided, without separate beings. Then your "evidence" of Indra's net collapses. Also, does the "presence of someone else" REALLY influence you? In other words, is there really any external influence on your emotions/state or is your state always changing to due your reactions to what you are seeing? Maybe what you are seeing doesn't have its own energy

Lost eternally in an endless night. Is that your idea of paradise?

So sorry dude. This is a fucked up situation but ultimately a huge opportunity for a lesson in life (whatever it's supposed to be for you). Suffering is a gift, in it it is hidden mercy as they say. I would hate to be in your situation. You're strong. I wish you well.

Fucking badass This utter buffoon, EQUAL hahahaha. Comically stupid. I am the Way, and the Truth, and the Life.

I think your (original) post has a bunch of errors in thinking like Humans being killers = reality (not reality but interpretation of experience) Humans being killers --> ok but does that mean we must be carnivorous/non-vegan? Monkeys might kill but are they carnivorous? Rejecting the biology we were born with --> we're not born carnivorous though A crocodile not being able to come to terms with the fact that they need to kill to survive --> we don't need to kill/eat animals to survive in the current times Yes there is a component of higher consciousness involved but in most cases when someone awakens to the Equality of all beings and the love of all beings they choose 2 paths. They accept that selfishness is fundamental to survival or they reject being a human and develop identity dysmorphia. --> I don't think any of these paths are actually what ensues when someone awakens. Accepting selfishness doesn't necessitate intentionally participating in it. "Rejection" of being a human and developing dysmorphia is also unhealthy and unwise. Why would these be the only 2 options? Accept what you see in the mirror, a crocodile. 🐊 --> Is that what you see in the mirror? I see a humanoid.

I'm all for integrating the killer energy. I think everyone needs to be able to kill - mainly on the mental plane. To let go of their past, to break off bad relationships, to release whatever is no longer resonating. Seriously - people fucking need to be able to kill. Also physically in self defense or in defense of one's closest ones. If such defense is genuinely necessary, as the ultimate last resort. But this energy must be paired with benevolence and wisdom. If you're disregarding your good heart in order to intentionally embrace selfishness - short-term that's a cool experiment I think, but in the long-term that's a road of misery and unforeseen consequences. That's building karma. I'm not a vegan btw.

General note: this forum does not allow for homophobia and all such comments will be met with warning points.

Who are they to you?

I want to provide some more value to this community before I inevitably leave. I was thinking about what threads I could create. What do I say that others would get value from? So pointless. The harder I try, the less I succeed. I figured the best contribution I can make is simply share my experience. Someone who relates should find my words valuable. I don't need to make threads explaining my techniques, insights or any of that shit. Who gives a fuck? People relate to stories, not words of convincing. I am in unprecedented territory. After my suicide "attempt" (nothing would happen anyway, it was failed from the start, I was just being dramatic) I repressed the memory. But I knew I had to tell my closest one since otherwise I was emotionally blocked from her. And so after 2 weeks I told my girlfriend. ... A lot of crying. Anger. No faith. The most humiliating day of my life. I seriously didn't know how to continue living. I felt like I destroyed everything. But we're getting through it. I have the greatest girlfriend in the world. My literal hot witch girlfriend. My dream come true. I love her so much. I'm becoming a real man with her by my side. Anyways we're moving out together in less than a month. I got us an awesome fucking flat for rent in a beautiful location. I'm really happy about that. So much is happening. Almost too much. But right now I feel quite well. Today I watched my live awakening video that I posted to the forum in May last year. Gosh, this was only a year ago...? I was so different. That's not me on that video. I wonder what would happen if I took LSD now. I don't know why... I run away.

That’s biased. I’m sure you can see the appeal of an iphone. Not everyone needs high customizability and the like. Many linux users would probably say they view Windows users as children. Never owned a mac and I don’t think I will. Many other great & slick laptops to choose from. No, Poland. AND I’m in IT. So as a (current) iphone user I’m the anomaly. I very much respect the movement of right to repair, high internet security and privacy, open source software, high customizability etc.. I think it’s great but I won’t obsess about it.

It’s a matter of preference then. To me the 3 vertical cameras look ugly and weird. Literally alien phone. But I’m biased of course. I spoke with my sister last week and she told me that a man having a non-apple phone turns her off. She said it gives her an „unclean vibe”. I laughed and told her this is shallow but then I thought there’s actually something to it. I notice that young people (up to 30) with non-apple phones are quite often somehow weird. Like not properly socially calibrated. I dunno. Just my observation.

Fanboy is a stretch but still I've been an iphone user for ~6 years but I think if I had to buy a new phone in the future it wouldn't be from Apple. Why do other phones look so damn ugly though? They don't have that "fresh" vibe.

I have been exposed as an iphone user 😵

I don’t know how to be happy. I’m lost and confused. I don’t know what I am. I don’t know the way out. I crumble under the most basic question. Everything stems from this. I have a hole in my chest. I’m too distracted to look. I only see as far as 2 meters, then there’s only darkness. I am alone in a foreign land. I cry out of powerlessness. There is no help. Daggers are stabbing me. My physical body shivers. I disregard the attacks. It’s too painful to confront. To have everything at my fingertips and yet to get nothing of that. The truth is I prefer the cage. At least I get to have my way.

A „person” doesn’t really die if they die thinking the world will go on without them. Because they don’t confront the fear of losing EVERYTHING. The death of EVERYTHING. And so the fear/attachment lingers on. Unconscious, but there. Reality is a mirror of the invisible „inner”. Practically it’s only the „inner” that matters. If the inner isn’t confronted, it lingers on. And a pattern repeats itself in reality. What is the best possible way you can imagine for reality’s structure/mechanics to be? What is the best way you can imagine life is (at all times)? So example from me: nothing matters, it’s just a playground for me as God, I am unconditionally loved. A „structure” of existence itself. It’s infinitely better than that. But also it’s not that and nothing else at all. There’s no rock bottom structure whatsoever, any structure is imagined into perception. But yet THAT structure is then what is the case. But also there IS higher structure/understanding. What is the WORST way you can imagine life is? Heaven/hell really is perception. Not that I understand that because I don’t.

12 Angry Men is definitely in my top 5 movies of all time. It's a classic. If you haven't watched it, I really recommend you do. I have a hunch you'd like it if you like watching Leo.

When you install the Brave browser on your phone 1) you don't get ads on Youtube 2) you can add videos to Brave Playlist which you can listen to when the phone is locked down and 3) you can download the videos in Brave Playlist for offline use. I recommend the Brave browser. Of course the Youtube experience on the app is better, but on the other hand you might want to downgrade your experience a bit so that it's not that addictive. If you're more selective with the videos you watch (actually look up a video you want to watch in a given moment) then using web browser Youtube is totally sufficient imo. And it's free.

No, it’s just a review site. Like IMDB.

Innocent meme IMO. I think if it’s just joking around being gay yourself then that’s fine. But if it’s laughing at gay people then mostly it’s not. If someone asked me that question in a mall I would start running away as fast as I can. Even though I’m not gay. You gotta have some humour. Standing still is funny too though.

Letterboxd will usually recommend you the best of the best. Go there if you want good movie recommendations or reviews of recent films. https://letterboxd.com/dave/list/official-top-250-narrative-feature-films/ It’s much better than IMDB, Rotten Tomatoes, etc.

I read all this and I still have no idea what you’re talking about. There’s no reason why you’d be banned from the forum. Relax my dude, you’re good