Sincerity

This + a genuine "selfish" ambition/desire for growth. I want to be a larger and more complex energetic being.

I remember a long time ago Leo mentioned opening with "I hate Facebook!". I still think about this fucking line to this day and laugh to myself Same energy

As (I think) should be obvious to those doing this work, there are enormous similarities between how your mind functions and how society as a whole functions. A particularly interesting thing I've been contemplating is the similarity between the deep workings of the mind and the deep state (covert actions and secret true motivations of those in power on higher level in government, intelligence agencies, corporations as well). Regular people are not ready for the government's ugliness to be transparent. And that's because they are not ready to face the ugliness in THEMSELVES! Of course facing this supposed "ugliness" is the only way to true beauty and clean government. But I think fact to the matter is that it's just too scary for now. The way to solve the corruption of the state would to be to face OURSELVES. But who's down for that? No, let's just blame the evil people in government. I work at a corporation and I feel its corruption getting to me. In truth SO MUCH depends on interpersonal relations and not so much on the "official established processes". You can wipe your ass with the processes if you have enough friendly faces up top. You can skip some things which are unskippable for others. You just have it easier. And I myself am engaging with this corruption, eg. by giving preferential treatment to partners in my work which have better relations with me, by prioritizing their cases over others' cases for example. I am supposed to be biased towards MY team, MY partners and I am rewarded for it. And I just KNOW that's exactly how it works on higher levels as well. It's so obvious. I AM corrupt. Why shouldn't I be? Why should I be truthful in a corporation if A) I don't care that much about it and B) I am rewarded for being corrupt - with appreciation, better position, etc? Hahaha! That's EVERYONE'S reasons for corruption. How funny how that works. But besides the corruption I'd just like to mention how interesting it is that there are these covert actions and motivations from the government, intelligence agencies we know nothing about. And that's exactly what's happening in our minds as well! In my mind there are deep energies I am unconscious of which are basically running my life for the most part. The same is almost sure to be for you. You're not above it - if you don't see it in yourself, it's much more likely you're UNCONSCIOUS of it. In contrast to that not being present there in you. After you study and observe yourself, you will see the same dynamics in other people and groups, sociology, politics, history , etc... You understand the outside by understanding the inside.

@Arthogaan Good stuff Agree! @Keryo Koffa Thanks for your input - I found it valuable! Very cool that you brought up the connections, it's nice to hear what my insights remind others of. I looked into Jung a bit in the past, Leo obviously, read a bit about NDEs - not familiar with the other ones though. And the quote is good! @Davino You most likely couldn't "interfere" even if you wanted to Can we really interfere with others? By which I mean A) spawning something (an energy) in them that wasn't there before or killing an energy that already is? No. Or perhaps B) pulling up/diminishing an energy that is already there? Sounds more doable, but to me also no. In my view energetic change is ALWAYS voluntary. No one can ACTUALLY influence you. If you have an entirely different understanding, by all means, feel free to share it (regarding the dynamics of mind) and I'll def consider it. If it sparks a fear in me - good. That means there's something there worth looking into. But besides that, I REALLY appreciate your 2 main points regarding me contemplating on attention and the I. Thanks a lot for the input, rings true for sure. There is a hole in my understanding regarding these "two" and if I'm to be honest, the understanding of I/attention in my original post above was more of a brief afterthought comparing to the rest - which you correctly noticed. So good catch - it shows to me your advice is coming from observation/experience and deeper insight. A man who's doing the work. Very grateful for you being so respectful and providing value. Have a nice day as well!

@theleelajoker Bravo. A man who observes himself. It is evident from your words. Huge respect for you! Perfect. You have good observation skills. I especially agree with the second sentence. In regard to translation into desire and intention - hmm, I never considered the split into desire and intention, I currently just see it as energy --> openness / blockage --> action or no action. Awesome. Great insights! I definitely agree with the first point and with the second point as well, though I think I actually haven't integrated the second one that much. I see it's true though. I have to look into it more. Cool perspective! This I definitely don't embody yet but I know you're right. I want to embody this and most likely will soon since I'm starting martial arts training this week, still though, will require more conversations and actions, changes in behaviour, etc.. This is very important for me to integrate. Thanks a lot for sharing your wisdom. Would love to get a beer with you sometime.

@Schizophonia I meant if you don't see it in yourself, you're probably unconscious of it. Seeing it outside is easy (understanding it is not though). I accept my corruption. It's good for me and I welcome it. For now.

@lostingenosmaze I laughed lol. Love some brainrot. This felt more like an early YT poop though.

How it feels to make a significant life change depending on single email/text messages/conversations knowing you really want to make it but it's still very difficult due to intense fear and societal pressure. I've been having a few of these lately. Having one right now - I'm procrastinating on sending the email lol. I have more in front of me as well.

I'm grateful for my life. For where I am right now, my apartment, my girlfriend, my energy system, my current job, my character, other people in my life. Sex is awesome too. Before I never even dreamed of the amazing sex I have with my girlfriend right now. It is otherworldly. My partner is the perfect woman for me and I really, really love her. She's a beautiful, gentle, emotional light pink flower. And I am the man for her. I am so happy.

So no other comments? C'mon! I'm curious what you think, whether you agree or fundamentally disagree with something here, etc.

@Arthogaan 😘

You can probably count on one hand the number of turquoise individuals here. I don't know who they are, I don't have anyone particular in my mind, but I am sure as hell this number is very low. The number of yellow people here is larger of course, but also still not THAT substantial. This is an utter joke. I will never understand how people overestimate themselves so much, thinking they have reached their peaks. I, after starting self-development work in my youth and doing it for 8 years now, having had some mystical experiences and all that stuff, would consider myself green-orange AT BEST. And this is not because I'm slow, this growth rate is good and normal and I'm just not deluding myself about my actual stage. And people who talk about CORAL should have their mouths shut with permanent glue. No one here has the slighest idea what coral actually entails (including me ofc).

Please, try to keep your replies consistent with the thread. If you want to have personal conversations you have the PM option - or if you don't, perhaps ping someone in their journal. 8 entirely unrelated posts have been hidden from this thread.

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I read from beginning to end. Wow, what a ride! You inspire me.

This went too far. We will not tolerate "we need Hitler" talking points regarding ANY groups of people. This is an antithesis of conscious politics. A reminder to everyone that we're enforcing some basic quality standards here. Let's try to keep our discussions decent and conscious. Posts like this will be met with warning points.

Is it really about Truth or about you then? Does Truth need an advocate? Let's be honest at least. Kinda pointless to preach to such a hopeless audience then.

Was that the speech of '24?

..... Bruh. Btw you know this would only propagate religion, right? Create new narratives of martyrdom for them. You kill a martyr, they (sorta) live forever in the minds of others.

Feels like you're on some sort of crusade on the forum. What's the motivation?

Holy shit, sorry dude. Please, let yourself be "weak" and process this fully. Definitely can relate.

Write a google/forum query which will be able to find this post: Exception: nothing like "site:actualized.org Sorry, it is delayed due to health problems." Is there any reason to talk about this further? Basic guideline is "don't be a jerk".

He did not spam @ at all. And I think it's quite reasonable to ask because Leo will often answer questions in unrelated threads (his last update on the course was in a thread related to dating advice) so chronically active users will always have the most up to date info. And OP was gone for months.

Can't y'all just answer like normal people? Please don't act like male genitals. @The Blind Sage Leo said in late June the course would be released in 2-3 months (which is now passing with the end of September). However, just today he said this is delayed due to health problems. There is currently no set timeframe for the release date that we know of.

The majority of users doesn't have any warning points. Whereas many users who already have warning points keep on getting them (from time to time). So it's quite often either none or many. Either you're not problematic at all or consistently problematic. It's quite interesting. There is 270 members on the forum with 1K+ posts (571 members with 500+ posts) (excluding Leo and mods), maybe someday I'll analyze their statistics (primarily warning points) when I find the time.