Sincerity

I don't know that yet, but I do intuit that's true, and I want to awaken to that. I shouldn't have said "I don't know if it's possible for me". I do intuit it is. I was thinking more about whether this one lead I'm focusing on right now provides a route towards the possibility of this particular awakening. After all, my work must be focused in the right direction. But it's all good. I'm hopeful. I know the cool stuff is waiting for me, and I'll get there eventually. As always, thanks so much for your support. It does matter to me.

Thanks! I'm curious if a Love awakening is possible for me if I pursue that lead with SOMETHING being there, as I described. So far I've never had a Love awakening, but I feel like that lead might be promising. Gives me hope to go deeper. Yeah, in previous trips I experienced the turning in circles out of fear of something behind me... I'm not sure what you mean by portal but "fear itself opening up" resonates well.

Do you live on your own? Are you cooking for yourself?

I had a similar situation. I deluded myself on LSD that someone was my divine soulmate and that I „needed to find them” after I saw their profile mistakenly opened on my phone on Messenger. A case of being completely wrong in an incredibly embarrassing way. I still cringe a bit thinking about it. It’s been hard to accept/forgive.

1) Focus on doing something. 2) Take a break, relax, do something pleasant.

You're probably afraid of confronting pain, or the feeling of shame in front of other people. You can get better at it with small steps. Set little goals, take action on the least scary thing to say to a certain person and work your way up to the more difficult ones.

@ExploringReality Please don’t poke the guy. Leave it be. @The Crocodile Namecalling is not allowed. Some of your posts were hidden.

Sorry. You won't see that anymore.

That guy is now banned.

In personal life, I think balance is a synonym for what is felt as right to do in each moment, or in the current phase in life. When you’re making the right choices, you feel balanced. Imbalance is not doing the right things. So for example, you feel you want to work but you give in to the laziness and don’t do the work for the day. You feel bad afterwards. You’ve neglected an energy which was demanding to be expressed, which resulted in imbalance. Or, you do too much of something, like when you’re a workaholic. You don’t even hear your voice calling you to take care of other aspects of your life. You are too drained of energy in these aspects, and too much energy is put into work. This results in imbalance. Balance, this equilibrium, has a calling to it. Everyone longs for balance. Because it’s peace. It’s happiness and fulfillment. It’s right. It’s the way. In a sense, it’s being aligned with the truth of you. Walking the path which you are, exactly where it is. An imbalanced life is betrayal of oneself, of the path.

Seems like you're in some serious tunnel vision right now. Your perspective is going to change. It's going to get better. Best wishes. Don't do anything stupid. You are fine as you are.

"I needed to word-vomit, so I did it at a public square for everyone to see, instead of in a bathroom."

Reading an amazing book atm. Very eye-opening. Planning to make a thread recommending it once I go through it. Some updates from my life: Work is stressful, but I'm getting by. Working to make moves in my career. I really want a raise. The new place we moved into is fucking awesome. My girlie feels happy here, and so do I. This space is really amazing. Invited my parents over for breakfast on Sunday. Also had my best friend come over, girlfriend also invited her friend. In the previous place we didn't invite people much, that place wasn't great for guests. The new place is more family-like and guest-friendly. It's so fucking good. Money is tight, but we're fine. Focusing on my goals every week. Focusing on doing things for myself as expression of love and interest, eg. trying to make myself laugh with new funny phone background every week. Supporting my gf a lot. And she's supporting of me. Sex is fucking spectacular. I see God in her during sex. I see we're the same. My relationships are very fulfilling. I have a very tight circle and I fucking LOVE it. Each person in this tight circle feels like a God/Goddess (gf, best friend, sister, parents). Something my best friend sent me last week: So true lol.

This MAN is a diagnosed PSYCHOPATH. Do NOT EVER let him near YOU. --- Me n' my girlie.

What utter nonsense… 🤦‍♂️ Moved to off-topic, this does not belong in the spirituality section.

You’re in no position to request people don’t post about something. I request you stop talking and preaching about things you have no idea about, but is that going to take me anywhere? You’re too arrogant for your own good, for someone who just mentally masturbates about spiritual concepts. First handle basic survival. You didn’t even have a job yet. Much of your suffering would go away if you focused on a purpose with tangible results. A new member category should be created for you: member aspiritual.

So raw. 🙇‍♂️ Awesome. Cheers!

My girlfriend infected me with this song. We just moved out. It took a lot of work, but the new place is PERFECT. I am so grateful. This is heaven. Life can be so beautiful. In the last 2 weeks post my LSD trip, my mind content has been of greater quality. I am more relaxed and insightful. Many energies have been released. This is good.

The feeling of something distinctly "other" from you is alluring. The otherness, the mystery! In my experience, awareness of otherness of something creates a sexual feeling. I can feel sexual attraction towards Infinity when I focus on it. Or at least my vision of it.

It's a beautiful commitment, made out of love. When you meet the true love of your life, I think it's only natural to propose to her. The choice has to be conscious of course. If it is, I think making that choice is a sign of a mature and serious man. From an energetic standpoint, I think deciding to become married is quite a serious energetic shift in your psyche. Think about it: what energy in you is needed for you to get all the way to the day of marriage and beyond? It's quite a test of character. Many propose to a woman and then the relationship breaks up. It's a matter of what you want in life. For example, I really care about 1) the development of my character and 2) expression of love. My relationship with my partner is a truly amazing space for this growth. So I wanna get married, because this choice and the further journey will develop me greatly. I want the hardship of kids, the arguments, the compromises, the sex, the changes, and possibly the greatest loss of my life in the future. All that is certified growth babyyyyy, and I'm all for it. All planned out.

He might have „stolen” it from Rumi. Idk, I was just immediately hit with the thought that I read an identical explanation before. But if he came up with it himself, good for him. It’s an amazing understanding for sure. I think of it and I smile.

@trenton Hahaha. I think your ideas are quite good, if executed properly. Perhaps a picture of a teenager would be even better than a 10 year old. Other idea: maybe you can put a picture of yourself jumping in the air with joy with the caption along the lines of „The day I defeated my enemy”. This creates a aura of mystery around you - like what, this guy has an enemy? Your date asks you about it and you avoid answering, but imply with a subtle smile this is an awesome story which you’re keeping to yourself. I don’t know where this can go further, perhaps you NEVER tell her about it, or later make a joke out of it with something like: yeah my neighbour had this really annoying toddler so I kicked it in the face when they weren’t looking. She asks really? And you say „No”. And then you never tell her anything further. Or, under that same picture, you can just put the caption „The day my neighbour’s screaming toddler fell down the stairs.” I’m a factory of cretinic ideas. I recommend my services. That’s okay. You’ll learn it through trial and error. Maybe make a list of such captions/jokes, find what you deem the funniest, choose your best picks. Perhaps run it by ChatGPT to ask it whether the jokes are funny and „calibrated” enough (haven’t tested AI for this purpose, maybe it’s bland, I don’t know. just an idea).

I think it’s a bit dorky. That’s fine though, don’t judge yourself. For me, I love to express humour by being random, absurd and not giving a fuck. If I had a dating profile, I’d say eg.: „The last pic is me when I was 5 years old” and put this: You gotta find how you want to genuinely express your humour. But also in a way that works*. *It's not a matter of being funny to everyone, of course. You should authentically express your humour but also be calibrated in a way, and not dorky. For example, absurd humour will not be funny to everyone, but I LOVE it and many other people can appreciate is as well, so it's fine that I express it boldly. Those who will appreciate it will automatically resonate with me, which is perfect. By expressing yourself freely, you're like a beacon attracting people who will resonate with you.

I took LSD last weekend for the first time in 1,5 years. A standard 300ug with the intention to awaken as deeply as possible. I focused hard, though without pressure, sitting blindfolded, striving to be as open as possible. My entire identity was erased. I was completely self-defining, forgot literally everything including my name or what is happening, didn't know what anything is at all. I was conscious of God, of it being Me, but the thing is... for the life of me, I COULD NOT PUT A FINGER ON IT. The same thing happened last time I took it 1,5 years ago. Profound consciousness of God, but paradoxically knowing even less than outside of the psychedelic trip. After the trip I thought to myself: I was so conscious. If I couldn't get it in this state, with this much of a focus, I don't know if I ever can. Question, especially to @Leo Gura but other experienced folks as well. Can it be "gotten" better, or is it precisely the point that I don't get anything at all and I bask in seeing Reality, in Self-Definition, in utter Willpower, in being the Godhead itself? I feel like during profound trips 3-4 years ago my God-realizations were much more "defined". I am God, I am Truth, and all that. Nowadays I feel like I know less and I just experience the state. Insights don't arise as much. The consciousness is spectacular, but the finger is never really put on God. I'm wondering if it can be. I'm thinking how I can reach more profound levels. I want more. A deeper understanding of God. I'm thinking how to better direct my efforts and how I can improve.

That’s quite disrespectful to write to a parent. I’m not judging you though. Still impressive and a funny read, I hope they’d laugh it off with you in the future. Do you feel you respect your parents?