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I follow her on YouTube. I can understand the need for regulation. However, psychology is a pseudoscience in and of itself. There are many people online offering all sorts of unsolicited psychological advice and courses, so unless she has done something really terrible and unethical, I don't understand the chase. She is also transparent about her background.

The last episode of Euphoria was something. The minutes of Rue dying after a fentanyl overdose, and the dying hallucinations, are so symbolic. In the hallucinations, she returns to her home, where her mother is waiting for her and accepting her with open arms, and then she hugs her deceased father. She returns home, to her mother, to her womb, to nothingness, to death. Very sad, very beautiful. Someone brought to my attention that, at the beginning of the first episode of Season 1, Rue talks about being in her mother's womb and describes her birth. I don't know whether it was deliberate or not, but it is interesting. The show started with Rue's birth, describing her mother's womb, and ended with her death, returning to the home of her mother. It creates a closure: the story begins with her emerging from her mother's womb and ends with her returning to her mother's home, as if completing a circle. Though Sam Levinson is an asshole, especially after stealing from Petra the asthetics of the first season, I love the show. It is based on the Israeli show of the same name, which I also watched when I was a teenager. It is just as wild as the American version, following a girl who is addicted to drugs because she feels guilty for the death of an innocent man at a party, caused by her boyfriend (if I remember correctly). She lives with the deceased man's friend, who sleeps constantly because he cannot face reality after the tragic loss. He is always dreaming about a trip he took to South America with his late friend. There is also a nerd who is in love with the drug-addicted girl, and he is the one who supplies her with drugs. He creates them in his home lab and experiments on her. Eventually, he performs brain surgery on himself to remove his amygdala, the part responsible for fear, and ends up raping his crush in the final episode. He also works with a religious child who handles selling the drugs and is a little criminal. If I remember correctly he is also bullied by his peers. They live with the child's brother, who is addicted to sex. He constantly brings women back to the apartment for orgies and radical acts because normal sex no longer excites him. He has a rich friend who is addicted to porn and sleeps with his immigrant housekeeper. There is also an insecure girl who desperately seeks attention from men on social media and constantly settles for less. She met the sex addict through the internet. I think he rejected her if I remember correctly. While there are some similarities to the American show Euphoria, and I can clearly see where it drew inspiration from the Israeli series, they are still pretty different.

May 15, 2026. I opened a new journal. I write about all that wants to be written through me.

I am so sorry that he is dealing with this. I would recommend making sure that he is protected from online bullying by his classmates via social media. I know it is difficult to do, but I think it is also crucial. Is moving to another school is an option? Maybe a special school for high functioning autistic kids? Also, in the meantime you can take him on dates to various cool places, or as simple as pizza restaurant, buy new clothes, doing a sport activity like running or walking etc. once or twice a week so he has something to look forward to. This can help uplift him, build his confidence and self-esteem, and remind him that he is loved, important and valuable. Notice something positive and special about him and tell him regularly, almost like an affirmation. I am not a professional but you should definitely consider the option of reaching out to a professional. In my country, there has been a phenomenon, especially in recent years, of children and teens dying by suicide, mostly due to bullying, but also because of other mental health issues. Often, others could not predict it. A few months ago, my 15 year old neighbor jumped from a high floor in our building and died because he was bullied. Before he died, he took a month off from school, but the kids kept bullying him online, which was what finally broke him. The next day, I saw in the news that another girl had jumped from a high floor. A week later, another boy did the same during a large event in front of hundreds of people. A month later, two girls who were severely bullied jumped from a high tower, one died, while the other survived with serious injuries. This is very tragic, and what is most frustrating is that it is still not taken seriously enough. Nobody takes responsibility.

Yes, this is classic behavior of the transition from Red to Blue (even though I believe she is Green at her best, but due to her addictions and environment, she temporarily regressed to Red). Some say the third season is Christian or capitalistic propaganda, but in my opinion it shows reality and how real people behave in certain circumstances.

Criticism is valid, however, there is criticism from above and criticism from below. If you haven't read feminist literature, and don't wish to, then your criticism likely stems from bias and misunderstanding, from below, and therefore cannot be taken seriously.

A pyramid-like and hierarchical structure (pyramid scheme), the rule of the father, more power and privilege to men, to the rich, to the white (both ethnically and culturally), and it includes rigid gender roles, colonialism and imperialism, violence and erasure of cultures, repression of the feminine and the exploitation of it, nature, and within ourselves. Repression of life, creativity, authenticity, expression, intuition, compassion, ancient wisdom, and embodiment. Hyper-individuality and forgetfulness of the interconnectedness of everything and shared responsibility. Toxic work culture, where doing is seen as more important than being, where masculinity is seen as superior to femininity rather than supportive/complementary. It affects all aspects of our lives and institutions, science, sexuality, spirituality, education, health, and philosophy, and harms everyone, though on different levels. If feminine energy is life and soul, then masculine energy is the structure that holds it, the ego, the consciousness. Naturally, the masculine should support life and hold it; however, patriarchal society is an unnatural structure in which life is suppressed in favor of the structure itself. The structure, the ego, the mind, is seen as the most important thing, which creates a cult of death that values possessions over life, objectification of living beings, and a materialistic approach at the expense of spirituality. Even spirituality in such a culture is hijacked by a materialistic approach (i.e., the manifestation trend that may be the most popular thing in mainstream spirituality, which is about summoning material things and consumerist wishes) Regarding the 4th wave, I covered it here together with the other waves because they are interconnected. In order to understand the 4th wave, you need to understand the other waves and the backlash they received. The movement evolves in a spiral rather than a linear way. You can see some repeated themes in the different waves, depending on the backlash. Don't trust only what I wrote, and do your own research. I wrote it in my own words, and I am not an English native speaker so I definitely missed something. This is why it is better to read the literature, because it is explained in much more detail. You can do a Google search for books on each wave.

I think that the confusion stems from equating gender with sex. While they may correlate to some extent, they are not identical. Gender is a social construct. Gender expectations and roles are something flexible. Some people don't feel aligned with the gender expectations and roles assigned to their sex, which is valid. However, sex is not a social construct. It is a biological reality. You can't switch to XX if you are born XY and vice versa. You can't install a womb or make yourself have a menstrual cycle or produce sperm if you are not biologically born with this function. This is why women born as female can't compete in sports with women who were born as male, no matter how they identify. All the trans phenomena, in my opinion, was created from the rigidity of society in confusing sex with gender and believing they are the same. Should men and women be allowed to exist exhibiting a wider range of acceptable behavior for their sex? I don’t believe that trans people would be a thing, especially with sex change surgeries. Believing that sex is merely a social construct (which some liberals believe) is untruthful and disconnected from reality. At the same time, believing that gender roles are rigid and non-flexible things backed into reality is also untruthful and disconnected from reality.

Young girls are hypersexualized, while adult women are infantilized in ways that encourage them to resemble hypersexualized young girls. Who exactly does this serve?

Because of pornofication and objectification. Today, kids have easier access to explicit content, even if not directly, then indirectly through certain trends and people presenting themselves in highly appearance-focused ways on social media. Young girls internalize this, which is unfortunate because it can train them to see themselves primarily through the lens of appearance before their minds and character have fully developed. I feel sorry for them because of the childhood experiences they may miss, and because they may struggle to simply exist in their bodies without constantly monitoring how they are perceived by others. This can also, unfortunately, make them more vulnerable to predators.

Nah, this is not just a lazy comparison but an untruthful one. Equating the feminist movement to the incel/red pill ideology is like equating a movement that fights racism to the Nazis. By the way, the incel movement was started by a woman and originally had no toxic intent. It was later hijacked by men who made it toxic and harmful. Femcels are not necessarily feminists, while feminists are not necessarily femcels. Those are two separate things. Reducing feminism to just a bunch of incels gives me the vibes of, "I am upholding the patriarchy and feel guilty, so I have to reduce the movement that confronts it by equating it to a pack of toxic and harmful misogynists and sexists in order to invalidate it and feel good with myself" Contemplate why feminism exists, why it is needed, and read some feminist literature, of course, if you are serious.

Yes, I noticed it too in some Ultra-Orthodox people. While there are those who are fanatical and very red-blue, the reality is that they are not all similar and are often a combination of a few spiral dynamic states. I have Ultra-Orthodox neighbors who smoke weed, listen to psychedelic trance music, and are sort of hippies, but are also Ultra-Orthodox. This is interesting.

This is true, and it stems from the repression of life, creativity, and chaos, and, on an energetic level, the repression of the feminine. People and institutions can't repress creativity, life, and chaos while expecting to get to the truth or have radical breakthroughs and evolution. Society is starving for true creativity, out-of-the-box thinking, and the unpredictability involved with messy progress rather than the fixed focus on the results. We forgot that great results usually come with messy and imperfect process. This reminds me of this good channel with some radical but true insights about art and creativity:

I am writing this while one of my dogs is sitting on my lap, after she did a little cute fart ❤️

Yes, it gives such a good understanding of ourselves, reality, and people. It's a great tool.

Yes, this is not all men, but enough harmful men to cause damage. It's like Russian roulette: you have a basket of 10 apples, and one of them is poisoned. Would you be eager to take an apple out of the basket, or would you be cautious and suspicious? We women are told many contradictory messages. When we are picky and suspicious about men, we are criticized for not being more open, "feminine", and easygoing, but when we are too easygoing and open and end up with harmful men, we are criticized for not choosing better. Are feminists angry about the systematic oppression and the harm caused by patriarchy to women (and men)? Of course. The same way a person who has experienced racism and has been oppressed based on class their entire life would respond. This is a natural human reaction. Is it rooted in revenge? Not at all. Should it have been rooted in revenge, women would have killed and raped any man in their sight and done to men exactly what they did to women. Sixty million women would visit a website where they learn how to rape their unconscious and drugged husbands! People look at being a feminist as some moral failure, but they don't look at rapists and pedophiles the same way. People, men and women, literally preferred a pedophile and a rapist to be the president of the US only so it would not be a woman! This is part of the problem. The main reason people are so negative about feminism is the exact reason feminists are furious: systemic hatred of women and femininity. If you think that feminism is about blindly hating men, then you are just strawmanning it. There are women who uphold the patriarchy too, which is acknowledged by the movement, and there is active discussion about it. Patriarchy is more than a gender problem, it is also a class problem and a race problem and environment problem and it affects all aspects of our lives: money, sex, culture, art, spirituality, and science. This is deeper than that. Look at patriarchy as an unconscious matrix that most people are not aware of and unconsciously participate in. They are literally socialized to do so and have no reference for another reality, and they unconsciously defend it, regardless of its dysfunctionality, just because it is familiar and feels like home. But this is an illusion. Starving patriarchy means letting this low-consciousness and dysfunctional framework die. This really needs to die because it hurts all of us. This is serious and not funny. And we should not be silent or afraid, but bring the shadows and the dysfunctionalities to the surface, look them in the eyes, and strive for a better reality for all. Feminists actually put a huge mirror in front of society, which society rejects, even liberals reject it, because this a threat, because truth can be too intimidating and unfamiliar, and people cling to the familiarity and comfort of their culture, which is strongly tied to their identity and survival. Talking about these issues is not an attack on someone, but rather an invitation to look deeper and to think and reflect. Those who feel triggered when the truth comes to the surface and is put in front of their face need to contemplate why. Why do they feel so defensive? Is it because they participate in it and uphold it? This is very difficult to engage with people who have never read any feminist literature, who have never seriously contemplated this issue, or who have never been directly affected by it. It is heartbreaking that in what we call a spiritual forum, in which you would usually expect more open-minded and truth-seeking people, you encounter the same closed-minded mindset you would encounter from a "normie." Instead of people engaging with openness and curiosity, they are acting defensive and toxic, distorting and strawmanning what we say. And we have nothing to do with it. Like, really. I can talk about it here, but this all falls on deaf ears. This is actually a good example of conformity and how difficult it is to engage with a herd of like-minded people and how difficult it is to challenge the status quo.

Ah, it is just Leo and his casual hallucinatory arguments with imaginary people on the forum. Very non-schizophrenic of him.

Cats are really beautiful. It's not surprising that they were worshipped in ancient Egypt. I actually see the magic in animals. I am hypnotized by them. I love to stare even at bugs, like roaches. One part of me is disgusted, and the other is fascinated by their anatomy, beauty, and the energy and presence of their consciousness. When I read the book The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka, it expanded my perspective on bugs.

So we are all schizophrenic then. Are all hallucinations equal? I don't think so.

I think that this guy has a nice integration of stage Yellow. He has money and is spending it on helping people, children, and animals, especially in poor parts of Russia. I can see a good integration of blue, orange, and green in the way he thinks and talks about the systems in Russia.

Euphoria, especially season 3. There are so many stage red behaviours (drug addiction and dealing, prostitution, crime, etc.) and examples there. There is also some stage orange and slightly green and blue, but it is mainly red. This is a good show, love it.

Dude, this is disgusting. Why to put yourself and others in such risk? Work on your self-esteem and the reason you want to sleep with 100 women to begin with. What are you trying to prove, and to whom?

Yes, they are full of shit to be honest.

Physical reality does have asymmetries and inequalities. The question is, are they natural or artificial? Example of a natural one: women give birth, men can't, but they have more muscle. Example of a non-natural one: women are systematically deprived of the same rights men have, such as voting, divorcing, owning property, freedom, and power. Can you differentiate between the natural and the artificial ones? Why are there divorce laws to begin with? Because of feminists advocacy. Not because the patriarchal system one day decided to be kind. Men work in more physical jobs because of their muscle power; this is an example of natural asymmetry. Take into account that men are also paid better for their risky jobs. Even if not, this is not because of women, but because of other men who exploit the muscle power of their fellow men for profit. Women take risks to their bodies, lives, and safety by marrying men, living with men, and having children. Women are more likely to get hurt by men who are close to them and living with them in the same house. This is a real issue that feminists address. No, I don't frame every act by a man as misogyny. Just because I address the systemic oppression of women does not mean that it is an attack on individual men. The truth is that rape and femicide exist, due to systematic misogeny, no matter how you frame it. Many of you want to justify this as some natural reality that we have nothing to do with, like "boys will be boys," but this is not the case. A big part of it, and perhaps even most of it, is due to a systemic issue, and if you are not sincere and do not address it, you are part of the problem. You are protecting a dysfunctional and toxic society. In a less hierarchical and patriarchal society, one that is more egalitarian and in which women hold equal power, there is significantly less to non, rape, femicide, and other forms of misogyny-based harm against women. No, I was talking about the relationship between men and women, not about everything that men do simply because they exist. Do you know what benevolent misogyny is? It is the belief that women are inherently weak and irrational and need men's guidance and protection, expressed through doing tasks for them because they are supposedly too weak or incapable themselves, which justifies dominance and control. It can also involve putting women on a pedestal, idealizing and praising them if they conform to patriarchal expectations, but demonizing them as soon as they do not, the love-hate cycle, the Madonna-whore complex. Those behaviors may look positive on the surface, but they derive from the same misogynistic root. Not every single man exhibit those behaviours of misogeny or benelovent misogeny. But they are very common ways in which men treat and relate to women. BTW, I know that it is very nice to talk to me, but I already covered this in my other convo with you. Please spare me the repetitive arguments.

Same here. Your takes are very refreshing too.