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@NoSelfSelf ive got another job that i start in a months time, so it doesnt matter

using abliist slurs is highly distasteful

Was just watching this british documentary on incels and the people in all claim they havent spoken to people apart from their family in years, some dropped out of school and became a recluse, when you're so disconnected from everyone the mind starts to feel like it doesnt belong and that everyone is a potential threat if you cant interact with them, which is why such crazy ideologies emerge. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kReeoKoOvZI

I have friend from denmark thats sounds very much the same he doesnt hang out with people outside of his family and hes really emotionally intelligent, I can tell he really gets people and people opened up to him so easily when i was at uni, I feel that when you are not needing things from people its easy to be empathetic , although he has anxiety and shy with talking to new people, but yet doesnt crave connection, must be nice to be free of that need.

did you take any psyches whilst there? or just drink?

@flowboy have you been to a festival solo before , how did you navigate it? what did you get up to? i see theres one near me in england this summer, carbaon based life forms are going to be there.

@flowboy I wouldnt want to go to a festival on my own, maybe a day festival but not a weekend one, everybodys off their heads, outdoor music is low quality and the place is dirty and smelly, not the place for a deep connection.

@flowboy lol where do you find these women, women I meet list their hobbies as netflix, drinking and shopping.

The ego likes to engage self doubt and insecurity because it makes it feel safe, anything that is not within its knowledge and control could be dangerous or disadvantageous, neediness is the desire to correct this insecurity, but if you need anything theres nothing to be insecure about you can just authentically act and trust that things will work out by working on yourself

Spiritual people in my city are mostly all middle aged, people my age are too busy seeking, although there is a psychedelic society with more younger people in it.

I like weed, but not during the day, as I would get nothing done

I love playfulness and fun, but i would love to joke around with girl that likes metaphysical topics like, maybe ive been in a coma for 10 years and your just my subconscious or maybe u are actually my doctors and hospital staff and my senses are making you characters in my dream, but most people are like dude are you on lsd right now lol, it does provide alternative humour though even if they dont entirely get it.

@Vlad_ weed is fine if you smoke a little on an evening like having a beer of 2

Women are highly social so deeper stuff probably isnt as much as an interest commonly as its too logical

you aint going to find a girlfriend in a nightclub hate to break it to you

that would be stupid, enlightenment should only be pursued if it resonates as a true desire to let go of attachment otherwise you are just forcing yourself to endure pain and misery for no reason, it kill the ego but leave your mind extremely messed up

go for a prostate massage dont knock a finger up the bum until youve tried it

I find it hard to relate to women because they just like talking about mundane trivial bullshit whos being gossiping about who, who cheated on who, whos sleeping with who, getting your nails done and going to kfc and the movies, its just bores me to death but i crave a deep connection , i dont see the point in talking to a girl about trivial stuff but its hard to find women that are into deep topics.

@Vlad_ im the same, but i dont think most people really deeply question these things, they just do things because they want to make money and live, life isnt really meaningful to them.

@NoSelfSelf stilling the mind

@NoSelfSelf giving up on stories is more of what im getting at , letting go of fear and attachment and just acting

meditation is supposed to be about letting go of attachments, so you could corrupt the benefits of meditation with your motive. I find most women arent interested in metaphysical stuff so i find it hard to relate, maybe just keep your interests seperate from dating

pretty deep conversation for a massage, I wouldn't class erotic massages as prostitution its just a massage thats extra sensual, its not like your having sex with her.

believe in yourself, you can do it

There is only truth and falsehood, nobody realises truth, truth realises itself , nobody can want truth it doesn't offer anything. Truth is ever present whether it is realised or not. Truth is just the realisation of what is always the case