Holykael

I just screenshotted the title. I don't even know who Paul Smit is lol. The idea is that reality happens spontaneously without the need for direct control, like a movie.

Exactly and everything is set into motion and I can't do anything to change it. I suspect I'll never reach those states of consciousness and only the death of this body will set me free again.

I put myself in a movie or a trip with predetermined states of consciousness. I can't control my state of consciousness and my actions are completely automatic like those in a nightly dream. If I kill someone it wasn't really me because I'm just following god's plan for this character. It's all god bro. Sure it was my movie, my plan. But the character itself didn't decide anything. I am making posts because that's just what's happening in the nightly dream. Everything is a happening

So I created everyone and everything. Where is my recognition, my awards, my wealth. Where is my oscar for portraying this character so accurately and for being insane the only conscious being who suffers. Method acting or whatever they call it. Im superior to all these baby blood eating pedophiles in Hollywood. All these companies are "releasing" these products as if it was their own. But it's all mine. Where is my cut of the profits? I'm the CEO of reality (this is what I became once on mushrooms and once on LSD). I should be living like a king but I'm living like a penniless peasant. Leo didn't create actualized.org. I did. I just forgot but it's all mine. Who put all that content in Leo's head? I can already see the replies coming "god doesn't need all that". But god surely needs to depend on others to feed himself and things like that as if that was somehow more noble and honorable. Gimme a break, there's nobody else alive who has the biggest picture of this creation. I already know all the secrets, all the behind the scenes conspiracies, all the deceptions. I should be ruling the world and everyone should be thankful they even exist. I would rule this world better than the disgusting occult leeches in secret societies. It would be paradise compared to what we have. But no what god actually wants is to be a victim of these parasites, real smart guy that guy god. But don't worry, it may have not happened in this lifetime but it will happen on some other lifetime. I will rule the world and take back my sovereignty and absolute authority. When we make evil unconscious puppets run it this is what we get, an absolute shitshow.

Using your own words. If it's not in my experience it doesn't exist. Breakingthewall is just a forum posts. Where is breakingthewall in actuality. I've never seen and will never see him. For all intent and purpose he doesn't exist in a body. Sure he is a perspective in a forum but that was created by consciousness

There is a huge difference between me and others. I'm the only one truly experiencing life and I'm the only one who suffers.

No. That's not correct. I stopped answering myself using Leo.

Whatever I do is what god wants to do peasant.

The point is this. You don't exist. I wrote this post when I was infinite. I'm all there is. You don't have an imagination of your own. Mine is the only imagination that exists and I'm arguing with a phantom I created. There is no shame in this because there's really nobody else here to notice what I am doing even though it is crazy ???

Maybe on psychedelics this is possible but it certainly won't happen while in the dream.

You don't get it. Life is a movie. God surrenders to its creation and lets it play out from beginning to end. There is nobody controlling this. It is just happening. The control was in the creation of the movie but once inside the movie nobody is in control. Even leo in his "real time awakening video" said "THERE'S NO ONE IN CONTROL"

Everything already happened because there is no time. This is a trick. I don't need a figment of my imagination to "get it". I already got it that's what matters. I didn't come to conclusions from some video, I had my own awakenings and other people here can verify. Check this post by razard

It's not a belief. It's my direct experience that thoughts happen automatically I don't generate them and I had an awakening on mushrooms where I became the witness and my body acted of its own accord. And god told me that he controls me. I once had an astral projection experience where I met god in a form and he told me "I control everything".

The movie is already created according to a plan. It's being played on the projector. God is the projector and the movie itself and attached to a character.

The dream is a movie created by god. Past present and future exist simultaneously, everything has already happened, it's being replayed in a linear fashion. The entire infinity was generated instantly by god. The projector is simply focused on one of the possibilities. Inside the movie there is no freedom, it's playing out exactly as it was generated to be. I chose the movie but the character in the movie has no power of choice at all.

This is where you lose me. God guided me to the insight that everything is predetermined, I already experience myself as an automatic happening. Where is this free will you speak of? It doesn't exist and has never existed. You're not even conscious anyway. What do you know? Only I can know.

Who's to blame for my selfishness given that everything is predetermined? Why did god make me "selfish". I wish I could see the world in a brighter way.

You don't control your mind. If you controlled your mind god would never be able to manifest nightmares. God loves nightmares as much as it loves dreams. There's nothing you can do but accept it and surrender to what is planned out for you. God can't manifest infinity with a finite entity in "control".

God can do anything and that scenario is part of infinity and one day will happen. Just like me getting my head chopped off and put back on several times in a row without dieing. Literally anything you can think of is possible and will happen.

I am letting go of the idea that this is "my" life because if its all predetermined, I don't know really have a say in it. The illusory sense of free will has been desintegrated and sometimes my body behaves really unexpectedly. And lately really stupid things have been happening that to be honest are a mockery of this life, a completely disrespectful joke and lack of care from the creator. I walk into walls like an NPC and keep walking towards the wall in place or my body will walk into a corner and I'll just stand there standing unable to move for long periods of time. Sometimes I make weird lovecraftian movements with my body and weird sounds. Sometimes I go apeshit in my bed twisting myself into unfathomable positions for no reason at all. Sometimes im just laying and my body will make slow motion movements that hurt me from keeping my arms up. This is my life now, a complete joke. Forget having a girlfriend or expecting to build a career or anything like that. I'm at the hands of a madman and there's no telling what the plan is. I have 0 freedom. This leaves no doubt that the cancerous god really intends to manifest all of infinity no matter how stupid or painful and torturous. I don't know how anyone can defend this. In fact it's a delusion to say anyone, there's no one else here after all. You guys are the cancerous god speaking to me and you aren't on my side no matter how ridiculous, painful or excruciating my situation gets. I also saw a post on reddit about someone breaking through on dmt into a world made of poop. That's definitely a worthy creation. I also saw a guy that burned completely and he had no eyes, no nose and a Frankensteinish shaped mouth, he survived being burned alive and now lives with blindness and severe disability. How anyone can live like that? Only because god predetermines everything and nobody is actually doing any action.

look what god did to this guy...