Davino

I've been doing some soul searching regarding why am I alive. What's the meaning of my existence and so on. I discovered my meaning to live is having a highly conscious experience and the on going process of becoming a mature/evolved human being. This has been a huge breakthrough, because in the past I wanted something to do or to work in that gave me that but now I realized these are independent things. Meaning I can have an unrelated job that somehow allows me to evolve my mind and sense making while earning decent money and that would satisfy me. I just need to set up the right conditions for that to happen. Some job that allows me to have the lifestyle that makes me conscious and mature. So the point is not to have a "spiritual job" but a job that allows ME to be spiritual

@Husseinisdoingfine oh Truth! You're interested in Truth, I love Truth, that's what my life has always been about, the pursuit of Truth. Physics can give you relative understanding about the mechanics of the world but it cannot give you Truth. Philosophy does a better job but still doesn't scratch the itch. Psychedelics and spiritual practices can get the job done. Truth is a matter of personal inquiry, direct experience and Awakening. How can one live out of that? Idk Truth is many times against survival and few people bother about it. Although don't let my pov limit you. It's possible to create a successful career out of Truth, just look at Leo.

What they're pointing is that one gets to know oneself/human through interactions with other humans, mirrors reflect on mirrors. So they just overexistentialized their point. In the same way you can see a cat is more cat when it has been in contact with other cats instead of an alone flat cat. The psyche is more evolved one could say, it has made sharper distinctions, it's sense making is more accurate and more mature. One could say certain environments and conditions allow for more recursive cycles of the same stuff than others. If that makes sense, in the same way holons work in complexity orders of themselves, certain conditions speed up the evolution and recombination of the same Reality. This is the only truth to what was being said. Consciousness is always already existing, social constructs are a figment within your mind, that other humans gave you through socialization, ironic, isn't it? Thought free awareness or non symbolic existence is a basic state of consciousness you can access You will see you cannot tell wether you are alive or not, or conscious or not What is, becomes self explanatory and labels do not apply anymore Reality does not need your human labels to exist, Consciousness is enough all by itself So throw the label if it's bothering you, no label makes it justice God is the best shot though God God God Maybe I should start talking like that. There was a Saint in India which God was the only word that uttered

Post Modernism is a meta social constructs that allows for different worldviews to exist without feeling threatened by their diversity But Truth, who cares about that? Surely post modernist don't care enough

This is not Plato's Academy

Maybe you find value in this short film. I feel like they are living in your head, your parents, society, expectations... That's the crime you have comitted towards yourself. To neglect and deny who you are to please others and fit into expectations that are not your own. You fear that more than death, isn't it crazy how you got into this situation?

So I'm contemplating how would my ideal home look like. This is because I discovered having nice views where I live makes me extremely happy. I really don't know why but it gives such immense joy that I know for sure it's something wired in my character. I also like a lot wooden floors. What about you? Please tell me, I'm very curious to know. Maybe you give me great ideas for my future home. Thanks

@Javfly33 When the absolute is experienced one can use any of the polar relatives to express it. Everything or Nothing It's the same pointer at the end of the day

Of course My women helps me a lot to grow personally, exposes my blind spots as well as offering me a lot of grounding in my Spiritual process. She's also very gifted spiritually although she has other needs right now to attend in her life. I'm gonna share how I found my sweet spot regarding Awakening and my romantic relationship. In the beginning it was quite a gap difference, as she had no experience or points of reference. We did some psychedelic trips together and to my surprise, she had profound Awakenings and mystical experiences. Now she has a point of reference and knows how radical this stuff can be. She decides that in the future she will explore Awakening but right now she wants to focus on other parts of her life. In this way I am understood and find support from her in my path while she had epic insights and Awakenings into the nature of Consciousness and the Universe. It's very rare you'll find someone devoted to Truth like you but your partner needs to have some points of reference of what you're doing. Otherwise it's gonna be real rough, plenty of misunderstandings and lack of connection. So no need to get a hot witch girlfriend but a mature woman/man that is willing to have some Awakenings because (s)he loves you and is curious about your most profound life passion.

Not only spirituality, all truth seeking suffers corruption from survival. Probably that's why Isaac Newton was so reserved and died virgin.

@Emerald Thanks for your detailed answer. I've had very similar insights to yours. I just took another decision from them. It seems to me that after some point the path seems to satisfy the Awakening urge and it revalues the mundane and infuses it with meaning. My Salvia breakthrough made me value real life so much that I cried for the possibility of feeding my cat after becoming boundless disembodied Consciousness. I was so grateful to be a human back again. So I really see the beauty in Life and the magnificence of living. I just seem to have an overwhelming pull for Truth, Awakening and the like. I don't even have a choice. It does me at every time. I'm in the current of this Universal Awakening Force.

Have you talked with a real life friend about your struggle? Have you opened up with your parents? Is there any university psychological support you could contact? Your value is not determined by a mark given from a rigged system. The how doesn't matter, life is what matters, your life, YOU MATTER AND NOBODY GONNA TELL YOU SHIT ABOUT YOUR REAL VALUE IT DOES NOT MATTER THE LIMITS YOU WILL ENCOUNTER TO ACHIEVE YOUR DREAMS IT MATTERS THAT YOU ARE FIGHTING FOR YOURSELF EVERYDAY, FOR YOUR DREAMS, FOR WHAT IS VALUABLE TO YOU AND ONLY TO YOU Breathe

--- Despite sex being quite overrated, sexual programming is hard wired in the masculine psyche to levels I'm still astonished to discover. It's not going anywhere any time soon.

@Forestluv I feel you brother

Seeing your beloved as God is the most profound relationship advice I can give. I stand by this statement

That's the bad thing of being a woman in a relationship. I've reflected so many many times how lucky I am to be into Awakening as a man in the relationship. If I was the woman and I dated a hard nosed guy he would roll his eyes every time I presented him the possibility of Awakening. Luckily women are receptive, open and sensitive which allows for a better entry into Mysticism. Lmao you're not Princess Arabia You're Queen Arabia

@Butters Monkey strength is not trained, it's genetics. The fact they could teach him martial arts techniques is amazing. From a technical pov, the punch is below average. That kick even black belts in taekwondo and karate have trouble executing it.

@Keryo Koffa I train MMA and I'm telling you that kick is insane. The punch is bellow average though.

@Javfly33 I am a vacuum cleaner and torture monkey videos. I'm the day and the night. I'm my lights and shadows. I'm all good and all bad, all caring and all hateful killing. I'm the most soulful sex and the most despicable rape. I have no beginning and I'm all beginnings, I am a particular beginning and a particular end. I am this room, I am the sky, I am the mountains, I am the sea. I am all music and all silence. I am all humans, all animals, all aliens, all planets and galaxies. I'm all colours, all sensations, all modes of being, states of consciousness, life forms and possible experiences. I am all that Imagination could dream of. I'm Pure Unmediated Consciousness. Totally Sovereign Self Contained God. Oh, yeah and a vacuum cleaner. Bruuuuuuuuuuum Cleaning ignorance since my deathbirth Davino

@Emerald Thanks for sharing. I've always wondered how highly conscious femenine Spirituality would look like. I recognise deeply the role that my humanity makes in the large scope of my living time, as a matter of fact I know that no transcendence is possible without a holistic embrace of my life as limited form. There's a lot to do in the embodied realms of existence, which can be tremendously divine and natural. Although I wound invite you to consider why this is an "or" "or" situation instead of an "and" "and" situation. I've always had this crazy idea that you can do everything in life. It goes in pendulum and now maybe you are in the phase of profound presence and playing God's Game but that doesn't close the door to Infinite Awakenings, Infinite Truth, Infinite Love, Infinite Consciousness, Infinite Perfection, Infinite Self-Understanding, Infinite God... So make me understand why it has been the case for you that playing the game has become the new spiritual meaning? And why you've decided to close the trascendental door?

I agree It takes a quite rare beast to love truth more than sanity, confort or pain. There's some "broken" humans in the good way around here. I salute you

Surely, I can see how that life could work quite well for me also. Maybe even better for many things. I just wanna give an honest shot to making a relationship a work. I feel it can be a very meaningful endeavour and way of life.

@Leo Gura such a classic meme of yours

Lmao Touché