Davino

Yes, that evidently was the human reaction to it. That's how it went for me as well to integrate that.

I understand what you're trying to say and I've contemplated it for long. I may be wrong. Yet that's my position. All can happen in Infinity, that's what makes it Infinite, paradox, contradiction, everything, nothing... Limitlessness is the limit so to speak. Infinity is the finity. That's the strange loop.

The cognitive disonance you must have to deny ego self may even be pathological. Beware this could cause you psychological and social damage. Scientific research is full of people that lost their mind with this approach. It's clear you haven't transcended the mind nor the ego, and you are just in self-denial phase, which may create self-hate, self-doubt, self-criticism, self-fragmentation... Yet, will you seriously contemplate this? No, you will again deny any of this occuring. Hence you trap yourself and nobody can help you! See what you have done to yourself

Reality cannot cease to exist because nonexistence is but a permutation reality can be in. That's the nature of Infinity. I should give this Awakening a particular name, because it's an important facet in my view.

I did that years ago, you still there brother? Come on there's so much more Awakening and Enlightenment, but for you to recognise that would hurt your non-existent ego...

No, because I'd exist as "non-existence" or lack of existence or cessation of existence. See?

Yes, I know what you mean. But for me there was a: Oh Shit moment, I'm the Absolute and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm doomed to be the greatest ever Metaphysical Infinite Awake Love Singularity

You sound like a broken record. We've already had this conversation. Please at least be creative.

Infinite Nothingness is also a permutation of reality, this universe another. It's Reality going through all its potentiality. I am Infinity, that's it. I cannot do anything about it.

It's more linguistics than anything else. Breakingthewall grasps what is being discussed, he just seems allergic to the "God Dreaming" wording, although we understand it to be quite precise.

My point is that there's no way out of the dream, ever. Because dreaming is my very own nature. Water will always be wet, in the same Consciousness always dreams. Reality must exist in one way or another, in one permutation or other. We are here for eternity

Nope, as a matter of fact you are saying reality is trapped to not be trapped. I'm pointing that fact. Reality is forced to be itself. That's what I'm saying. Of course. What I'm saying is that even the substance is doomed to be the substance. Infinity is condemned to be Infinite forever or you could say it's blessed to be in such a way. The Absolute is the Absolute and there's no way around that, therefore Reality cannot avoid it's own nature or change it. Reality is an Infinite Consciousness Field of Imagination and it will go on forever. I cannot die even if I wanted to. I cannot change the metaphysical essence of reality either. I am way over this phase and I see why this design of Reality is Perfect and most intelligent, yet I ask myself if other people have grasped this Awakening were your consciousness traverses every possible permutation and it just arrives back itself and there's no way out as all ways collapse in yourself in an Infite Consciousness strange loop.

Then reality will be something else, my existence is eternal.

Sure, although that's working on the fears around socializing not going at the heart of what socializing actually is. It's a nice tip though.

There's no way out of God. All the work to realize God and when that happens you see there's no way out of your Infinite Dream Mind. I am tautologically forced to play the game, hence I try to master and love the game.

Denying it is not gonna help you transcend the self. Although, my point was on the nature of Truth and so is your post yet you doged the question, but anyways.

Like there's any other option What I hated the most when I woke up is that I realized God's Infinite Game but still I'm forced to play. I was flaggerbasted

Thanks, this one insght is actually the work of months of contemplation. What I love about my mind is when it gets that one key principle or essence. I'ts amazing. Thanks for your kind words brother. Surely that will happen. Hope one day we make an Actualized.org Europe meeting.

@James123 So in your view a temporal/relative truth is falsehood?

Totally, I wasn't even aware of it and made the insight more profound. Sometimes the obvious goes unnoticed.

I see. There are people that find themselves in the opposite situation, they are super good in keeping relationships but cannot break the barrier of socializing and meeting new people. Yes, there are difference between socializing and mantaining long term relationships. I just wanted to point out a common feature among both of them: connection. I wonder in your case, why is it that you're not able to keep friendships over time?

Oh yes this is great, to make the connection in the present moment. Great tip.

@Carl-Richard Thanks for sharing the Martin Ball video. It was interesting to watch. I didn't know him, def a genetic freak. I feel so good just after watching his shaktipat. Good stuff.

I've done lots of MALT, let's see how they compare. It was so good it has been my main tool, lately I've been using 5meo and wanted to try other psychedelics. DPT will probably be the first one. I have DMT but in fumarate so still contemplating how to go about the ROA.