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Don't give a fuck, be yourself. You are a slave to others, this is a sure path to misery. Being yourself at least gives some chance for honest living and fulfilling life Stop being a kid, you ain't a victim of the world. You are lion and you'll have to survive, mommy and daddy ain't gonna be all your life with you, gotta wake up, survive, mature and do your life. Time will help you with that, it will take you more time than other people. This is the hand you have been dealt, now you can play it properly and accelerate the game. You will get to know yourself when you have no other choice but to fight for yourself, for your life, otherwise you will end up in the street and dying. This is what all adults do in the world, this is life. Get a professional duty, go live alone, clean the toilet, make your own food, talk to girls, go partying, get out of your mind and realize who Clarence is, your most authentic human self expression

Depends on the country. Europe universities are mostly the same in terms of actual quality, but status does matter. The difference is usually from a good to an excellent university. In other countries I cannot say, but probably there is a bigger gap

I get you, I get along with autistic people throughout the spectrum. The point is you would love to be free from inhibitions but in your case an acute social calibration is needed which precisely inhibits you more. The only way out is in, you'll have to expose yourself to massive experience to rewire your whole brain and learn how to be comfortable in uncomfortable situations. I remember once when I was watching a professional actor doing solo performance in a theater. He said that improvisation is what takes more backwork, let that sink in. It's by massive experience that paths are walked and then you know how to navigate them as experiences repeat in life and also feel confident manage new situations with ease. To help boost this process taking low doses of MDMA when going to a particularly social events or before a party, just to get a bit loose helps a lot. An autistic brain with MDMA usually becomes much more balanced, feely and flowing, a man with mdma becomes more girly and a girl with M becomes an explosion of emotions. See where I'm going? so maybe little doses of M will help you get a taste of how other people are feeling, the state they are in and then do all the hard difficult emotional work you don't wanna do, to make that state your default living stage. Martial arts may also help you to break all the muscular tension built up on your body over the years. Any kind of sport will help, but martial arts will be the best.

How does total independence look like? Uppaluri Gopala Krishnamurti may offer an example of that U.G Krishnamurti, The Spiritual Terrorist:

That was fun to watch

I know you feel like shit, but you can't surrender to that feeling, you need to keep fighting and having faith even when there seems to be none. You can't let yourself down now, just for today make it a desire to continue living, keep walking, one step at a time, one breath united to the next, you'll make it, I believe in you

I feel this video ties down nicely with breaking your mind and how that feels like in a visual fashion

Customize it for you, make it enjoyable and engaging. Don't make it an ordeal but don't fall back to home habits either. Just be clear that for these 10 days you are in retreat. Some people say the middle of the retreat is the best, in the beggining you are getting used to the rythm, at the end you are subconsciously thinking of your future chores, in the middle is usually when you can dive deep. This is what I've heard over the years, but I don't have first hand retreat experience, so take it with caution

@Leo Gura Is there any game you have worked on that you particularly like and want to share? I'd like to try it out and have fun playing it. Otherwise, what is your taste for videogames, what do you like?

All that you are is an accumulation of habits, a momentum to your persona and mind, inside consciousness To change yourself or your habits and if that is even worth it or how to do it properly; is another discourse I would change the wording from habits to lifestyle, what is the lifestyle that makes your life meaningful?

Imagine they blew your body and mind away with dinamite and it was equally as radical as it was loving, breakingthrough all limits, you are what you have always been, Absolute Infinity.

You wan't reality to be another way than what is. What do you call that? There is a subconcious believe that you would actually design better Reality than it's current form. This is egoic arrogance and personal bias. We can't even thrive in our personal lives all the time but we fantasize about balancing Reality in a better way than what is being done now. That makes it more clear, indeed. But I don't believe you are in total oneness with what you are saying. If it were so you wouldn't have written a post about it. What I feel is the case, correct me if I'm wrong, is that there is a fragmentation inside you that realizes what you just said while there is a little fragment that wants it to be otherwise, which came up generating this whole understanding and this conversation for a greater synthesis and unification. Maybe you have succeded particularly in this ramification, but I also believe the source has more ramifications into your worldview of how reality should be like that you'll have to sort through. Although you can be in denial about this as well as shielding up in the truth that it's just what is, which is the assurance of the bigger fragment. From my current state of consciousness I would say otherwise, but from your current state of consciousness it couldn't be otherwise. I just feel that points of views that deny the individual tend to cause schism within one's psyche when you are not in that particular state of consciousness and you are trying to live up to such ideals from another state which is it's own Reality with different rules. Yeah, that's beautiful. How in oneness are you with it? In all dimensions of the human experience, when shit hits the fan in your life, in this moment to moment, breath to breath, blink to blink? How stable and continuous is it? Be honest with yourself you don't need to tell it here, just have a little talk inside you and self-reflect. I'm not trying to convince you to my point of view, just elucidating and giving you clarity into the mechanics of what you are going through and hopefully without mudding it too much with my biases. I'm trying to be a mirror, in case I show any blind spots

We are just madmans @Razard86 We surely just lost our shit with so much tripping Not having much desire to talk lately. Why communicating, at all?

Interesting. I was looking for something like this actually

@Princess Arabia Good post, I enjoyed reading it. It seems that you are getting more in tune with what is, but you still have biases about how what is should be, but as bias is, then it all stays home.

More on The Calimity: He emphasized that this transformation is a rare, acausal, biological occurrence with no religious context. - - - - Mmm, pretty interesting huh?

That's the conclusion I arrived studying U. G. Krishnamurti, very particular being that got it's own rare unique domain of consciousness. Just saying in case anyone would like to see how sideways domains look like.

I arrived at the same conclusion. I set all birds free from the cage of my mind

@Dodo Yeah, you lost your shot You're cheating at solitaire.

Nah, it's just good talking with someone that actually does the work. I can count with my hand how many do the real work here You'll also be one day here if you do the work. The same way I was also there cracking my head with solipsism and asking. What is your real question, stop playing with me. What do you wanna know, you have one shot, throw your question

I'm fine with that. What I'm not fine with is limitation It's just a matter of digestion, give me time. I'm just biased towards pure infinity

Yeah like eating chocolate ice cream and suddendly be licking shit I'm getting used to the contrast, just give me time

I've been addressing the issue since I first awoke to Solipsism I'm sick of the solipsism debate. Some months ago while I was literally having one of the most profound solipsistic awakenings of my life I was answering questions on the topic. I have to say that I love "others" more when I'm in absolute consciousness, at least I see you all as my very own self and recognise you as God. I'm done with the debate. I'll just answer to "individuals" that are actually going through a Solipsistic awakening and are having a difficult emotional time. Thank God my partner helped me during that phase and luckily I found strength to write for help in the forum and got some good guidance. People think Solipsism is up for debate, I was three days crying non stop, the first time I ever got suicidal in my entire life. If you actually wake up to Solipsism you will feel like you are losing your mind, it's soul crushing, insanity. Then comes heaven, but the transition, the Oh Shit moment, this is for real, ego panick, that is as tough as it gets

I discovered it when I was travelling and stayed in an apartment with no oven or microwave. The pan solution ended up being a great finding